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Survival of the Smartest
Chapter Eight: Letters
EPOV
Dear Bella,
I'm so sorry for breaking you heart. I know I'm a horrible person and you have every right to hit me. Hell! I would hit me! If you never talk to me again, I will understand, but please Bella, just give me one more chance to prove I love you!
Love, Edward.
I tore the page out of my notebook, crumbled it up and threw it in the trash can by my desk. I had written five letters to Bella, each worse than the former. I needed to show her how sorry I was, but everything I tried just sounded cheesy and impersonal. I knew I loved her, but I had broken the little bit of trust between us. With only a few false promises to Jessica, I had ruined not only that relationship, but, more importantly, the one between Bella and I.
I loved her! I really did! I know it may be teen puppy-love, but I really didn't think it was. I had played our kiss in my head multiple times while writing my letters, and it just seemed meant to be. I couldn't let myself believe that I could mess it up with a few choice words.
Although, I really hadn't thought too much about them. All I could think about was how I may have just permenantly ruined my future with Bella.
And there seemed to be nothing I could do about it.
APOV
To say I was surprized when Bella came up to me is an overstatement. Edward was my cousin, and I knew him well. I knew that he managed to mess up almost every relationship he had every had, and when it came time for this pivital moment in his life, he had botched it up. Books, that was what Edward was good at. If you talk to books and try to hurt their feelings, they don't care. They can't even hear!
Unfortunately, Bella is not a book.
It took about fifteen minutes of back patting, and soothing words before Bella was able to spill out the whole juicy story to me. I would never tell anyone the details, but this was almost as good as reality TV!
Bella is my friend though, so I did what I should have done--I told her I would kill Edward when I got home. I was staying at Aunt Esme's for the week while my parent were traveling for business, so I'd be able to do that easily...
"Edward Anthony Cullen! You are so f-ing dead!"
He ran down the front steps, looking messy cute, as usual. I could see why Bella liked him. If he wasn't my cousin and I wasn't meant for Jasper, I would so go for him.
"What?"
"You know what you did you ass!"
"Alice! Watch you language," Esme called from the kitchen.
"Ha! I need to watch my language while Edward can go around breaking hearts, yeah, that's cool."
"Alice, I didn't mean to!" He was running his hand through his hair now, he was so frustrated.
"Tell that to Bella."
"I tried!"
"Edward, what did you do to poor Bella?" Esme was standing next to me now, giving Edward the same glare I was giving him.
"Um, I, uh..."
"Come on, Edward. Tell your mommy how you hurt Bella so bad she'll probably never love again." I was taunting him now--torturing the prey before I killed it.
"I didn't mean to!"
"But you did."
"Alice! You know how much I love her! Do you seriously think I would try to ruin that?"
"This is coming from the boy who has messed up almost all his relationships except the ones with the books. So yes, I do think you would do that. Maybe not on purpose, but you would."
Esme decided to chime in again. "Okay, okay. I think we all just need to calm down a little and talk this over. Maybe Bella should come over and Edward can give his side of the story."
"Oh, don't worry about that. She's still in the car."
"You brought her here!"
"Yes, Eddie. I did. I figured you needed to get past this, and fast. Every good relationship needs to work at it, you guys just need to work before you get started."
"But..."
I didn't hear the rest of his sentence though, because I was already getting Bella from the car.
BPOV
I knew I looked horrible. I knew that even without looking at the mirror! And once I did look in the mirror, I regretted it. My hair was tangled and messy, my makeup had ran down my face and was either washed off or caked to my cheeks in streaks of black and gray. My eyes were puffy and red from a half hour of crying and I was barely keeping it all together now. Alice had insisted I try to talk to Edward, but I was really regretting agreeing to that now.
I was sitting in Alice's car for at least ten minutes, before she came to get me. I had spent a few minutes trying to look less like I was breaking inside and had gotten most of the black tracks off my face, but my eyes were still red and my hair was still a mess. Oh well, Edward couldn't look much better. I had to have hit him pretty hard.
I followed her into the house and into the living room where both Edward and Esme were sitting on the couch. Edward's hair was messed up like he'd been running his hands through it. He proved my assuption right when he did just that. I felt my heart flutter a little, but managed to stop it before I was down on the ground, begging him to take me back. I had to be the strong one here.
"Okay, you two have some serious problems you need to work out. Esme and I are only here for support and for a few comments now and then. This is between you two."
I sat down as far away from him as I could.
He fidgeted and messed with his hair again. God, he is so sexy!
No one spoke.
"Alright, since this isn't working, we're gonna make you talk! Bella, tell him what you think!"
I shook my head at Alice. "No way! He knows what I think. I wanna know what the hell he is thinking. Were you trying to hurt me, or were you just getting your kicks by embarressing and breaking a girl's heart?"
"Um, neither?"
"Really, then what were you doing? 'Jessica I love you'? Cuz that doesn't sound like you really weren't trying to hurt me." I was so angry and it was spilling out now, flooding over the fluttering my heart continued to do, no matter how hard I tried to stop it.
"Bella, just let me explain, please!"
"Fine, explain."
"I wanted to get Jessica off my back. My letting her think I still loved her and I was just pretending I liked you, I thought I might be able to get her to leave me alone!"
"Well it doesn't seem like a good way to do that."
"I'm a guy! We do stupid things! You can't tell me you've never known a guy that has done a stupid think just because it was the first idea that had."
I didn't reply to that. The thing was, he was right. Guys were stupid. Glancing down, I started picking at my nail polish, so I wouldn't have to look at him.
But that didn't give him a right to be an ass.
"Bella, I love you."
I looked up. No one but my family had ever said something like that to me. At least, not like that. He looked like he actually meant it.
"How can I be sure you mean that?"
"I've never said that to anyone else, trust me."
"It's true, Bells. He doesn't even say it to his mom!" Alice decided to chime in.
"Okay, I believe you."
"Do you forgive me?"
I didn't know. He was so perfect, and he really meant it when he when he said he loved me. Could he really be all that bad?
"Yes," I whispered.
"Awwwww!" Alice and Esme cooed. "It's like a TV show!"
But I didn't hear them, because Edward was holding me, and looking at me like I was the only thing that mattered.
It felt good.
Okay, that has to be the cutest thing I've ever written! Awwwww!!
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