The next
morning, I woke up at 6:30 to pack. Jacob said he was picking me up
at 7:30 and we would grab breakfast on the way. There aren't
words to describe how scared I was at that time. I didn't know what
was going to happen, if Edward would be mad at me, if things were
going to be awkward again… but I knew I had to face it some
time, so I didn't bother thinking about it. When I went to the
bathroom to take a shower, right next to the sink, I saw my charm
bracelet with the wolf hanging as one charm and the crystal heart hanging as another. It hurt me to look at that every morning,
but I just couldn't help but wear it. It felt like if I took the
crystal charm off, then it would really be over. When Jacob saw
me wearing the bracelet, I just told him that I didn't want to
forget about Edward's friendship, But I know he saw through me.
After taking my shower, I was a bit more relaxed, until I heard the
doorbell knowing it was Jacob. My heart started pounding again,
I was scared, but still anxious. I hurried downstairs in my bathrobe
and answered the door to see Jacob's confuse and angry
look.
"you're not dressed yet?!" he pretty much yelled
it.
"what's the rush?" I tried to sound calmer than I was.
"I was taking my time, but I'll be ready in about ten minutes, I
promise." I yelled from up the stairs, but I'm sure he still
heard me.
I already had my outfit picked out and hung over a
chair. A red low-cut tank top and a pair of light blue jeans. I
wasn't in the mood for running shoes, so I just put on a pair of
red flip-flops to match my top. For the time I was going to spend at
the hotel while being there, I brought 2 other shirts, a black and
pink striped half sleeve, and a white full sleeve incase it got cold.
I also brought my favorite black miniskirt to wear with pretty much
anything.
After getting dressed and picking up my suitcase,
I looked in my top right shelf to find a piece of paper with the
address of Tanya's house where Edward was staying. I came
running down the stairs to find Jacob waiting for me at the door. I
handed him the address and some money that should cover for the hotel, food and anything else I might need.
"Bella.."
He was starting to refuse when I cut him off.
"No, Jake, that's
fine. You can't keep taking care of me forever." Right after I
said that, I wished I hadn't. The look on his face was just plain
torture. So I hurried to correct myself, but it was already too
late.
"So who do you want to take care of you forever?" he
asked crossing his arms against his chest.
"Jake, you know I
didn't mean it like that!" I was mad now, he was pushing it a bit
too far.
"I'm pretty sure I heard it right, Bella!" he had
the same tone and expression as me now.
"Okay, how long are you
going to keep this up for?" I asked taking one step closer to
him.
"What?" I could say he was faking it, but it
actually did look like he was confused.
"Doing this to me! The
you verses Edward thing!" I was yelling but I didn't bother to
try to keep it down. "you know it kills me when you do that!" I
continued not feeling bad about one thing I had said or was about to
say. "God, you're so selfish! Edward would never have done this
to me!" I could see his eyes narrowing with that hurtful expression
on his face, but at that point, I really didn't care.
I was
silent for a while and we stared at each other awkwardly.
"So,
are you ready to go?" he changed the whole subject and
I was glad.
"Let's go" I flashed a smile and he returned it.
His smile was a lot happier and more convincing than mine. We
were both just glad to have this conversation over with. We both just
went inside the Rabbit as Jacob started driving.
On the way, we stopped by the gas station twice so I could go
to the bathroom, and so Jacob could fill the car up. Then we stopped
by a breakfast place about five kilometers from our hotel. Jacob said
he wasn't hungry, and I ended up having a milkshake and chocolate
and blueberry pancakes. They were the best pancakes I'd had in my
life, and you could tell by the way I was eating them. When we left
the restaurant, we went straight to the hotel to check in and put our
suitcases away. Out hotel room was huge, it had 2 rooms, a small kitchen, and a bathroom. Only one of the bedrooms had a queen
sized bed. The other just had a couch, a television, and a small
dresser in the corner. Just when I unlocked the door to our suite,
Jacob just put the suitcases on the floor and when straight to the
bed and lay down smiling at me.
"Jake, No!" I said as soon as
I realized what he was doing. He just laughed.
"What?"
He said innocently as if having no idea whatsoever what was going
on.
"You know what Jake." I said sharply, being serious.
"So
you beg that bloodsucker," He put extra emphasis on bloodsucker.
"but you don't even .." he continued as I cut him off.
"Are
we going back to that again?" I gave him a dirty look as I went
into the bathroom to get ready to go over to Tanya's.
"I just
don't understand," he continued ignoring me but shouting louder
so that I could hear him in the bathroom. "do you want to get
hurt?" I could barely make out what he was saying over the running
water, which I meant to do on purpose so that I wouldn't hear him
and get upset, but it wasn't working, I could hear every word he
was saying. "Because seriously, Bella, he could kill you!" I was getting really mad at that point, and as much as I tried to
just ignore it, I couldn't help but yell back.
"he would never
do that!" I yelled in anger as I shut the water off and got
out of the bathroom so that I could face him.
"I never said
he'd do it on purpose" he said smiling calmly.
I just
shook my head in disappointment and went to lie down on the couch. I
turned to face the wall but I could hear Jacob's footsteps getting
louder every step they took toward me. Then when they were too loud,
they stopped and I knew he was standing right behind me. Then I could
hear the squeak of his shoe as he bent down to get to my level. Then
I felt Jacob's lips at my neck, soft and gentle. I wasn't
responding, I just pretended to be asleep, but I didn't fool him. I
could hear a slight chuckle, then he stopped and stood up. He brushed
his warm fingers against my cheeks, and I couldn't help but turn
and smile. How did he do that? I thought. I could never be mad at
him, he had a magical touch. And I hated the fact that I couldn't
be mad at him, it just made it easier to love him and harder to stay
away. He lifted his hand for me to take to help me up, and just when
I got up on my feet, he kissed me passionately with his hand running
through my hair and the other around my waist pushing me even closer
to him. It was hard to resist that kiss, so I didn't bother
to try. I just put my arms around his neck and kissed him back. I
pulled away just as soon as I remembered the reason why we were here.
"I have to get dressed, are you changing or are you just coming
like this?" I asked talking really fast now.
"No, I'm just
going like this, and you don't need to change, you already look
great" he said with a grin
"actually, you're right, this is
my favorite, I think I'll just keep it on." I said smiling
back. "So.. Are you ready to go?"
He breathed in deeply
letting out a sigh. "yea, let's go"
When in the car, Jacob's hands we stiff around the wheel, and I
could guess why.
"Are you nervous?" I asked already knowing
the answer as well as the answer he was going to give me.
"No,
I'm fine" he answered a bit too quickly.
"Swear?"
"Sure,
sure"
I smiled, wishing I was the one who could read his mind
to see what he was really thinking.
As we got to a parking lot of
one of the largest houses I'd ever seen, Jacob let in a deep breath
and then sighed saying "We're here"
I couldn't
believe it! This is where he was staying this whole time. And now
this was it, I was going to see him again. I was literally shaking
until Jacob got hold of my hand and calmed me down.
We went up to
the front door to ring the doorbell, when before my hand even touched
the doorbell, the door opened, and there he was. That perfect angel
standing before me, those gorgeous eyes staring at me, that perfect
smile flashing towards me, which was gone right when he switched his
eyes to Jacob.
"Edward!" I said in shock, even though I
knew I was going to see him, I never pictured him again like this,
though he hadn't changed, no matter how I saw him, it still wasn't
as good as he looked now. "how did you…" I said in a
confused tone.
"Alice" he answered with a slight smile not
taking his eyes off of me.
Every time he looked at Jacob, he had
that hurt look in his eyes, and though he was trying hard to hide it,
I could still see through him.
Still smiling at me, he stepped
closer hugging me tightly. I would've given anything to have that
moment last forever, but I could sense Jacob's eyes on him,
watching him very carefully.
