"Come on in" Edward was mostly talking to me, but he looked at
Jacob to try not to be rude.
We went inside, and it was so much
larger than it looked. The house was beautiful. It reminded me of
Edward's house, but this one was so much more spaced out and just
the living room was probably as big as my whole house. Coming
from the kitchen to the living room to greet us was a beautiful
blonde hazel eyed girl. She looked about my age and reminded me very
much of Rosalie. I always hated looking so normal next to such
amazingly beautiful creatures, I couldn't help but think of how
ugly I must have looked to them.
"You must be Bella!" The
girl said in the softest sweetest voice.
"And you must be Tanya"
I said with a smile.
"Yes, I'm guessing Edward has told you
about me." she glanced over at Edward giving a look that was a bit
too friendly. I didn't like it. "He has told me very much
about you too," she continued "Must be very brave to
befriend vampires huh?" she joked and I smiled politely.
"Yes,
she is" Edward cut in the conversation, flashing that crooked smile
that I loved.
I could tell Jacob didn't like the way Edward was
looking at me, and from the corner of my eye I could see him giving
Edward a dirty look.
"So what brings you here?" Edward
continued
"Actually, Bella didn't want to come here, but I
figured you hadn't seen her in a while…" Jacob put his
arm around my waist pulling me tightly against him. And a hurtful
expression crossed Edward's face.
"I really missed you,
Edward!" I said trying to rephrase what Jacob said "I just
thought It'd be sort of weird with you, me, and Jake again" I
said, but it looked like he wasn't paying attention to what I said
as much as Jacob's arm around my waist right in front of him. I
could tell he was getting jealous, and I could tell that Jacob liked
it. I wanted to move Jacob's arm away, but I liked making him
jealous in a way.
"So, do you want to stay and I could order in
your lunch?" Tanya asked hopeful. "Alice, Emmett, Jasper, and
Rosalie are out hunting, they'll be back any minute now"
"So
why did you stay?" I asked already knowing the answer. Tanya was
about to answer when Edward started.
"Alice saw you coming, so I
wanted to see you, and Tanya wanted to meet you" he gave me
that look he always gave me. That 'you're my life now' look.
And I could feel my heart pounding harder and blood flushing through
my veins. "Don't worry we went last night. We're not
hungry, you don't have to be scared" he said it jokingly, but I
still didn't want him thinking that I would ever be scared of
him.
"I would never be scared of you, Edward" and just when I
said it, I could feel Jacob's arm tighten around my waist to the
point where it almost hurt. And Edward's hands clenched into fists
at his sides, he tried putting them behind his back so that I
couldn't tell how frustrated he was. Maybe it was a bad idea coming
here with Jacob. Maybe it was a bad idea coming here at all. I was
about to go up to him, and just put my arms around him to calm him
down, when Tanya walked slowly and put arms around him, and his hands
relaxed. I hated admitting it, but I understood what Edward had said
about jealously hurting that much. I'd never been that jealous --
he told be about Tanya having feelings for him, but he said he didn't
feel the same way-- whatever happened to him preferring brunettes!
At that moment not realizing what I was doing, grabbed Jacob's
hand, and I could sense Jacob grinning.
"Sure, we actually
checked into a hotel for 3 nights…." before I could finish,
Edward cut me off.
"How many rooms?" he asked in a serious
tone.
" just one" Jacob answered before I could.
"Actually,"
I started to protest. "There are 2 rooms, one of them has a queen
sized bed, and the other has a couch… so we could probably take
turns" I was talking really quickly to remove that hurt look
from Edward's face, and it worked, but it transferred right to
Jacob's face. I couldn't believe it. There was no way to make
them both happy at the same time.
"Why would we sleep on the
couch, when a bed could fit both of us" Jacob turned to look at me,
grinning to make Edward as jealous as possible. I just shrugged not
knowing what to say, and that hurt expression transferred back to
Edward's face.
"Edward, do you know where the nearest pizza
place is?" Tanya changed the subject completely.
"yea, there's
one around the corner, I think they deliver. Look them up in the
phone book" Edward answered, still looking at me with that same
look.
As Tanya was dialing, Edward invited us to sit down. I sat
and Jacob took the seat beside me quickly before Edward could, and
Edward just flashed a sarcastic smile and took a seat on the arm of
the couch on my other side. Jacob returned the sarcastic grin.
It was getting a bit awkward so I decided to turn the television on
and distract them, even though it was probably impossible no matter
that I did. So to my luck, I was flipping through the movie viewings
to find Romeo and Juliet on. Edward grabbed the remote from my hand
and set it on that channel. I could see what he was trying to do. I
gave him a look of apology and sympathy, and Jacob cut in.
"So…"
Jacob started out. "are you and Tanya…?" he continued not
feeling rude about invading their privacy at all.
Edward kept
silent. And Tanya stepped toward him to put her arms around his
shoulders.
"It's not really official because we don't want
to make a big deal out if it yet, but I'd say we're a bit more
than friends" She flashed a smile at Edward who returned it
politely. I gave Edward a look that was a mixture of anger,
disappointment, and hurt. But then I realized that I really didn't
have a right to do that. I was with Jacob, did I really expect him to
wait for me till the end of time?
"Oh" was all I could say
back. Then I shot a smile at Tanya.
The doorbell rang right then,
it was the pizza delivery. And just when Tanya was about to
close the door, she saw Alice's car in the driveway. When the car
turned off, Alice was out of the car first with jasper, and Rosalie
and Emmett right behind them.
"Bella!" Alice ran, or danced
toward me to hug me. I don't think I could ever get used to the way
she moved, it was like a ballerina angel.
"Alice! Oh, I missed
you so much!" I said hugging her back. From the corner of my eye I
could see Edward with that look still on his face. Watching my every
move. But I didn't understand it! Shouldn't I be the one mad at
him? He promised that he'd never leave me, whether it was good or
bad for me. And he still left! And now it was my turn to hurt him! I
didn't want to do it, but he was pretty much asking for it! He was
trying to make me jealous not knowing that I could easily do the
same.
We talked for a while got to
know what everyone was up to. Every now and then, Jacob slipped a
kiss in front of Edward when he knew he was watching me. I let him, I
could see what it did to him, I could feel his hurt too, but I wanted
him to feel how much he hurt me too, and this was just a small part
of it, not even a real comparison.
It got late and Jacob and I
went back to our hotel.
"Come on, Bells, you're not actually
going to sleep on the couch are you?" he asked in a tone that
almost made me feel bad for him.
"I wont if you don't do
anything.." I answered with a hint in my voice to let him
know what I was talking about.
"Like what?" he asked giving me
a confused look, but with a smile that gave him away. "Okay, fine,
just sleep next to me" he said lying down on the bed. I didn't
know whether to believe him or not, but something in his voice made
me trust him. So I went to lie down on the bed beside him. His lips
brushed against mine slightly, then I pulled away.
"Jake!" I
pretty much yelled.
"I love you, Bella" he said in the
sweetest tone kissing me again, completely ignoring the fact that I
pulled away. This time I kissed him back though. I almost melted
every time he said he loved me, I could resist.
"I love you
too" I whispered back. I kissed him once more, then he went to
sleep, and I was glad. I thought the 'I love you' thing was just
a way to get me to give him what he wanted.
I couldn't sleep. My
eyes shut for about five minutes, then I opened them again. I saw a
white face against the dark room staring at me. That beautiful face
that I would recognize anywhere.
"Edward?" I whispered low
enough not to wake Jacob up.
He didn't answer, his eyes were
narrowed staring at Jacob's arm tightly wrapped around me.
"How
did you get in?" I asked, which I then realized was the stupidest
thing to say.
His eyes didn't move away from me, but his head
pointed toward an open window.
