It was 1:22 am, and I lay on my bed just staring at the white ceiling above me

"Edward, what are you doing here?" I asked in a criticizing tone, but I didn't want him to leave.
"Watching you talk in your sleep, as always." he said flashing that beautiful crooked smile I loved. "Since I don't know what's going on through you're head, this is the only way to really know what you're thinking" he admitted.
"What I'm thinking about what?"
"Me, Tanya, that…." he was struggling with the name, so he ended up using the term "pup". It was better than calling him dog, or so I thought. I guess they were the same. I decided to ignore that.
"Ok, I'll just tell you what I'm thinking straight out, I wont edit or anything…" I said confidently
His face lightened up and he flashed another smile showing his perfect teeth.
"I thought you said you weren't into blondes…" I said as he cut me off
"I…" Then I cut him off again.
"I also thought you said that I was the only one you would ever love"
"Bella…" he started to talk but I cut him off again
"I came all the way to see you and you're with her?!" I was louder now, but still whispering.
"Bella!" He screamed, and it was loud enough to wake Jacob up.
"what are you doing here?" Jacob asked confused like he thought he was dreaming or something.
"Go back to sleep pup" Edward answered rudely.
"Edward!" yelled giving him the hint of why I yelled his name.
"Look, can I talk to you in the other room?" Edward asked me, his voice calmer and quieter now.
"Unlike you, she needs her sleep," Jacob answered before I could. "go back to where you came from bloodsucking…" he didn't continue.
"Bella?" Edward looked at me, completely ignoring Jacob.
"Fine" I said getting up and heading to the other room. Edward already beat me there and shut the door so that Jacob couldn't hear us.
"Bella, how can you think that?" he was speaking with an angry tone.
"What?" I answered loudly, narrowing my eyes into a dirty look.
"How can you possibly think that she could mean the same to me as you do?"
"Who, Tanya?" I still had that same look on my face.
He was silent and I realized what that meant.
"Why didn't you let me know that in front of her?" I asked anxious for his answer.
"I didn't want to look like an idiot tell you that I was still in love with while you were holding that…." he paused to relax. "that DOG'S hand" he was mad now, yelling really loud, I was sure Jacob could hear him.
"Edward, you told me to be with him!"
"how many times have I told you not to overestimate my self-control because of selfish I am. I want you to be safe and happy, and normal. But how can you just leave me like that?!"
"You told me to!" I was yelling really loud now.
"Bella! Are you even listened to me?" he screamed in an angry tone, no actually a slow screaming tone, the kind you use with someone you know is retarded.
"What?" I screamed. "what do you.." I was in the middle of my sentence, when he cut me off pressing his lips to mine hard at first, but then it got softer. Why was I letting him kiss me? As soon as I remembered Jacob being in the other room, I pulled away from him to see that hurt look in his eyes.
"I'm too late" he said. It wasn't a question .
I didn't say anything, I just started at him.
"Bella, why did you come here?" his voice was suddenly really quiet now.
"Jacob said it would be easier to find out who I was truly in love with, and then I saw you with Tanya, and .." I could feel tears running down my face. "and you knew what I thought, why did you do that?"
He smiled, wiping my tears away with his thumb. "I wanted you to feel one tenth of the pain of jealousy, Bella"
"So you meant to hurt me?" I shook my head in disappointment.
"no, I meant to show you how I felt about you. You wouldn't bother to hurt someone unless you love them"
He grabbed my face in his hands, looking straight into my eyes. "I'm going to tell you right now, for the future, incase you care…" he was smiling while saying this. "No girl would ever mean anything to me, no girl at all. This feeling I have, you only have it once in your life. I'm trying to protect you as much as possible, but I'm hurting myself doing so, and I'm going to repeat this for about the hundredth time, I'm more selfish than you can imagine, I'd rather you weren't safe and here with me than being safe and with that wolf" he had another name for him now.
He bent down to kiss my forehead and I let my head lay against his shoulder.
Then he suddenly pulled away.
"What?" I asked
"did you sleep with him?" he asked seriously
"Edward!" I yelled
"what am I supposed to think? I come in and see you both in the same bed with his arm around you. By the way, you smell like a dog, love." he added changing the subject at the last part.
"Great.." I answered and heard Edward chuckle.
Then I heard a hard knock on the door.
"Bella?! What's he doing to you? Want me to call the police?" Jacob's voice sounded serious even though I knew he said just to hurt Edward. But apparently it didn't work, Edward just smiled and shook his head.
"Jake, cut it out!"
I opened the door, and Jacob came in.
" So, you made up your mind yet?" Jacob asked, and they were both staring at me.