"Edward,
what are you doing here?" I asked in a criticizing tone, but I
didn't want him to leave.
"Watching you talk in your sleep, as
always." he said flashing that beautiful crooked smile I loved.
"Since I don't know what's going on through you're head, this
is the only way to really know what you're thinking" he admitted.
"What I'm thinking about what?"
"Me, Tanya, that…."
he was struggling with the name, so he ended up using the term "pup".
It was better than calling him dog, or so I thought. I guess they
were the same. I decided to ignore that.
"Ok, I'll just tell
you what I'm thinking straight out, I wont edit or anything…" I
said confidently
His face lightened up and he flashed another
smile showing his perfect teeth.
"I thought you said you
weren't into blondes…" I said as he cut me off
"I…"
Then I cut him off again.
"I also thought you said that I
was the only one you would ever love"
"Bella…" he started
to talk but I cut him off again
"I came all the way to see you
and you're with her?!" I was louder now, but still
whispering.
"Bella!" He screamed, and it was loud enough to
wake Jacob up.
"what are you doing here?" Jacob asked confused
like he thought he was dreaming or something.
"Go back to sleep
pup" Edward answered rudely.
"Edward!" yelled giving him
the hint of why I yelled his name.
"Look, can I talk to you in
the other room?" Edward asked me, his voice calmer and quieter now.
"Unlike you, she needs her sleep," Jacob answered before I
could. "go back to where you came from bloodsucking…" he
didn't continue.
"Bella?" Edward looked at me, completely
ignoring Jacob.
"Fine" I said getting up and heading to the
other room. Edward already beat me there and shut the door so that
Jacob couldn't hear us.
"Bella, how can you think that?" he
was speaking with an angry tone.
"What?" I answered loudly,
narrowing my eyes into a dirty look.
"How can you possibly
think that she could mean the same to me as you do?"
"Who,
Tanya?" I still had that same look on my face.
He was silent and
I realized what that meant.
"Why didn't you let me know that
in front of her?" I asked anxious for his answer.
"I didn't
want to look like an idiot tell you that I was still in love with
while you were holding that…." he paused to relax. "that DOG'S
hand" he was mad now, yelling really loud, I was sure Jacob could
hear him.
"Edward, you told me to be with him!"
"how
many times have I told you not to overestimate my self-control
because of selfish I am. I want you to be safe and happy, and normal.
But how can you just leave me like that?!"
"You told me to!"
I was yelling really loud now.
"Bella! Are you even listened to
me?" he screamed in an angry tone, no actually a slow screaming
tone, the kind you use with someone you know is retarded.
"What?"
I screamed. "what do you.." I was in the middle of my
sentence, when he cut me off pressing his lips to mine hard at first,
but then it got softer. Why was I letting him kiss me? As soon
as I remembered Jacob being in the other room, I pulled away from him
to see that hurt look in his eyes.
"I'm too late" he said.
It wasn't a question .
I didn't say anything, I just started
at him.
"Bella, why did you come here?" his voice was
suddenly really quiet now.
"Jacob said it would be easier to
find out who I was truly in love with, and then I saw you with Tanya,
and .." I could feel tears running down my face. "and you knew
what I thought, why did you do that?"
He smiled, wiping my
tears away with his thumb. "I wanted you to feel one tenth of the
pain of jealousy, Bella"
"So you meant to hurt me?" I shook
my head in disappointment.
"no, I meant to show you how I felt
about you. You wouldn't bother to hurt someone unless you love
them"
He grabbed my face in his hands, looking straight into my
eyes. "I'm going to tell you right now, for the future,
incase you care…" he was smiling while saying this. "No girl
would ever mean anything to me, no girl at all. This feeling I have,
you only have it once in your life. I'm trying to protect you as
much as possible, but I'm hurting myself doing so, and I'm going
to repeat this for about the hundredth time, I'm more selfish than
you can imagine, I'd rather you weren't safe and here with me
than being safe and with that wolf" he had another name for
him now.
He bent down to kiss my forehead and I let my head lay
against his shoulder.
Then he suddenly pulled away.
"What?"
I asked
"did you sleep with him?" he asked seriously
"Edward!" I yelled
"what am I supposed to think? I come
in and see you both in the same bed with his arm around you. By the
way, you smell like a dog, love." he added changing the subject at
the last part.
"Great.." I answered and heard Edward
chuckle.
Then I heard a hard knock on the door.
"Bella?!
What's he doing to you? Want me to call the police?" Jacob's voice sounded serious even though I knew he said just to
hurt Edward. But apparently it didn't work, Edward just smiled and
shook his head.
"Jake, cut it out!"
I opened the door, and
Jacob came in.
" So, you made up your mind yet?" Jacob asked,
and they were both staring at me.
