I've been in troys bed for 3 hours now. Gabi went home to change then come back to see me. I hate the first impression I had on her. I wanted to be nice. Then George had to come do that to me, I mean come on how was I supposed to act? Troy and I have been talking about everything possible. We talked about how his mom ended up dying when she gave birth to troy. I explained how my mom has never really been there for me. I have grown up with my brother and dad because I didn't like my mom. Troy explained how Gabi is always like another mom and will prob. End up like that to me too. Gabi is really really nice. And I have this feeling that troy and Gabi are going to get far in there relationship (a.n. …hint hint).
"Hey troy I got a question for you" I asked him really out of it, looking at the ceiling.
"What's up" he asked my positioning himself up on his elbow so he could see me.
"How long has he done this to you troy" I looked from the ceiling to him in a serious face.
"Sense I was 5 Ash. Im sorry you had to come into this family and he had to do this to you" Troy came and looked me into my eyes and kissed my forehead
"Troy. I don't want to live with him. Can't I just leave? Please!" I asked tears staining my face again
"Ash I have tried but all he does is hurts you more little bear" O if I forgot to tell u Troy calls me little bear now
"Ugh! That sucks! It's not fair. I wanna be able to go and have fun and not be scared troy. How do you do it?" I asked
"Little bear you get used to it." I couldn't take it anymore. I pushed my head into his chest and started punching him. I didn't know what I was doing. I wasn't controlling myself. Once I started hitting him, he just let me, then he grabbed me and just held me and I cried into him.
"I CANT DO IT TROY. YOU'RE A BIG KID IM JUST A BABY. I CAN'T DO IT!" I yelled scared out of my mind while being having no idea what I was doing.
"Little bear look at me"
"NO TROY.NO I WON'T DO IT. I WANT TO GO HOME!" I cried for hours and hours with troy sitting there with me. It was about 7:00 that night. I didn't have any more tears to cry. I knew my mom wouldn't care. Gabi was coming over so I knew troy was going out. I guess im going to have to see if he hurts me again. GREAT!!
Alright it's now 8:00 p.m. Troy's going out with the "gang" whoever that is and Gabi. I got all my make up on like I do every day, but today I just got it on a little late due to all the crying. I walked downstairs to go and get a sweatshirt when there were like a TON of kids Troy's age in the room. I tried to get around.
"Ashy!" Gabi screamed and came over giving me a HUGE hug
"Hey Gabi" I smiled and gave her just as big as a hug back.
"Ok well have fun at the mall" I said and went to go get my sweatshirt
"What are you talking about? Ugh that boy is going to get it!" She said and I was kind of surprised
"What are you talking about?" I asked STILL trying to get away
"Ash you're not staying here you're coming with us" she said in a dead serious tone.
"Thanks but no thanks. You guys go have fun. I'm going to go for a run or something" I said and walked off to my room because there was no way I was getting to my sweatshirt.
"LITTLE BEAR" troy SCREAMED, scaring the crap out of me. And he walked into my room, surprisingly by himself
"Yes?" I asked
"Come on get up we are going to the mall, DUHH" he said
"Troy im not going" I said and looked back into the magazine I was reading.
"Yes you are, don't think your not" he said and came and picked me up. We walked, well I was carried, down the stairs into the car, where every one I still didn't know was.
"Troy I hate you!" I said trying not to smile
" Yea I know I know" he said and got in the car next to me
In the car I met all the people. There was Monique "momo", Ashley, Corbin, Lucas, Gabi, me, troy, and I think that was it.
We went into the mall. I felt like the smallest person EVER in there with all of them. But they pulled me until the girls decided to go shopping and the boys were going to go to some game thing. I looked at troy with my bright blue eyes and begged him not to leave.
"Ashley Gabi is going to be with you" he explained.
"okay" I said and walked off with the girls.
"SHOPPING" they all screamed and I just laughed and walked along.
We have been shopping for 4 hours. I got a new make over, new clothes, new shoes, new EVERYTHING, let me tell you I LOVEEEE Ashley she has taste girl!
We met up with the guys at 6:00. Today was a GREAT Day. Im so gonna love it here. Troy like KILLED me in a hug when he saw me. I love the way him and gabi always hug . it makes me feel like they are my parents and I can finally feel happy. They treat me like im there child too. I love it!
SO AM I STOPPING OR AM I GONNA KEEP GOING….GOTTA LET ME KNOW
AND YOU GOTTA LET ME KNOW SOON!
