When
I said good morning
I was lying
I was truly thinking of
How
I might quit waking up
Caitlyn
woke up and saw Nate lying next to her. "Good morning." she said.
He smiled and she looked down at her wrist thinking about death
He
pointed out how selfish
It would be to kill myself
So I keep
waking up
"Caitlyn Baby what are you thinking about?" He asked and she pulled a shirt over her head. "I can't tell you." She said and he said."Caitlyn tell me." "Nate don't you have a class to be teaching." "Caitlyn now." "I was thinking about killing myself." She admitted shamefully and looked down at her fingers. "Oh honey." Nate hugged her ans said "It would be selfish for you to take away something so precious." She started crying and he held her tighter.
It
feels so much like falling
Dying while I wait to die
The fear
of something or nothing
Lonely empty lie
Caitlyn laid down in her bunk and thought to herself "I wonder how close my dad is to killing me? I wonder how close I am to killing me." She felt emptiness gnaw at her heart and she heard someone come in. "Caitlyn is everything alright?" Mitchie asked and Caitlyn said. "Yeah could you leave me alone? Mitchie left and the gnawing got worse.
I
don't want to be a liar,
I don't want to be selfish anymore
I
want so much to change,
Mitchie I am being abused." Caitlyn whispered replaying the scene. Her door opened and she felt her bunk get heavier. "Hey baby." Nate said and she sat up. "Nate I'm being abused."
"Caitlyn I know."
"Nate I don't want to be anymore. Nate my dad molests me."
"He does what.?"
"Molests me. I don't want to lie for him anymore."
Learning
your love everyday...
There's still so much to know
You grip my
wrists, I let go
Caitlyn I love you ." "I know Nate I love you too." he kissed her shoulder and she flinched gripping her necklaces pointy edges. He grabbed her arm lightly. "I"m so sorry I forgot." He said and she said. "It's hard to do Nate. It's so hard to love you. I have a problem with trust." "Caitlyn you don't have to fear me." HE gripped her wrist and she let go of her necklace. "I'm trying to learn that."
It
feels so much like falling
Separated from the fear
Aware of a
destination far away from here
Nate picked her up bridal style and took her out of the cabin. He took her through the woods avoiding trees. He got to the edge of the lake and slowly laid her down. "You don't have to fear." She sighed and said "don't worry Nate I am far away from that." She gazed out into the ocean.
It
feels so much like falling
Separated from the fear
Aware of a
destination far away from here
Far away from here...
