I'm so sorry for the long update. I'll rant later...ENJOY!!!!
Chapter five: Apologies
Emmett got up, nodded in my direction, and walked down the stairs to leave us alone.
"Edward!!! Let me in!!," I shouted again, banging on the door repeatly.
I heard Edward stop crying. I heard stumble to the door, knocking something down in the process. I saw the door knob moveand heard the click of the door being unlocked.
He opened the door and my heart sank.
He was wearing the same clothes from yesturday. His sweater was tearstained with salt water. His thick fringe of eyelashes were wet. His cheeks glistened with the trail of tears he had spent. His beautiful emerald eyes were red all around, making his emerald irisis shine even brighter.
I don't know what came over me. I charged him.
Edward fell onto his bed with on top of him. I pressed my lips against his and kissed him urgently. He was shocked. I could tell by the way his lips were non-responsive. His eyes were bewilderd. He grabbed me by the shoulders and pushed me away roughly.
"Bella! What are you doing?!" Edwards voice rang with outraged.
His features mirrored his voice. His eyes were cold as stone. Edward was livid. He pushed me off him and I fell next to him on his bed. I ended up with my knees under me and my arms hung limply at my sides.
Edward had to understand that I loved him. Not only that, but that I didn't want anything more than to marry him. Instead of explaining things in a cool, calm, and collective way, my emotons got the better of me..... again.
Tears starting pouring out of my eyes.
"Edward, I-I-I," I blubbered.
His anger vanished instantenously and was replaced with concern. He reached over and sat me in his lap. His arms wound around me and held me tightly. He rubbed circles on my back and rocked us back and forth.
Edward kissed my forehead and began to hum my lullaby. After several minutes, the tears stopped. Edward didn't let go me. He continued to rock back and forth and hum my lullaby.
When my lullaby finished, he lifted my chin to look at him with two fingers.
"Now, love, are you okay?" he asked. His voice was filled with concern and slightly strained.
"Yes," I said in a small voice.
"Are you sure you're okay?"
I nodded.
"Good. Now, do you think you could tell me what you were trying to tell me earlier?"
"I think so," I answered in the same small voice.
"Well, whenever you're ready to begin, I'm all ears," his velvet voice said.
It was as if he was hypnotizing me with his eyes. All it took was one look into his eyes and everything came pouring out.
"Edward, I want to explain what happened yesturday," I began.
He flinched when I mentioned the day before.
I continued, "Well before you got to my house, Alice was there. We got bored, so I blasted my iPod and we started singing really loud. Then before you know it..... BAM!!" I clapped my hands together for effect and Edward jumped in surprise.
He shook his head and cracked a smile. I could tell I was grinning like an idiot.
"We lost our voices. Alice got all mad at me and blamed me for losing her voice. So she left all mad," I stopped and stared at Edward as relization hit him.
His eyes grew wide and he looked me in the eyes.
"B-Bella, sweetheart, I-I-I had no id-," I put two fingers to his lips, which he inturn kissed gingerly and took into his hands.
"You didn't let me finish explaining," I said while I blushed at his stare.
"I'm sorry, my love, you may proceed," Edward said intensly.
"Thank you, now as I was saying, Alice and I lost our voices, and when you got to my house, I didn't want you to know I had lost my voice so I decided to keep quiet. When you proposed, I panicked because my voice hadn't come yet and I couldn't say yes," I stopped and took in a deep breath.
"Bella, love, why didn't you just tell me that you had lost your voice? I wouldn't have proposed. I would have waited until some other time to pop the question," he told me, curious for the answer to his question.
"Well, you know me, I didn't want you tease me for losing my voice," I replied.
Edwards' expression got all innocent and his eyes took on a mischievious glint.
"Me?" he asked innocently,"I would never tease you! Why on earth would you say that?" he incredously. A smile playing on the edge of his lips.
"Because you know, as well as I do, that you would tease me," I said matter-of-factly.
"I probably would tease you.... at first....," his velvet voice went from teasing to intense, "But then, I would be very sorry that I wouldn't be able to hear your voice. Which, by the way, is the only thing I hear," he finished matter-of-factly.
"And why, may I ask, did you begin to cry? Why didn't you nod or something?" he inquired, amusement in his eyes.
I looked down and felt my cheeks blush a deep red. I looked down at our intwined hands and glanced up at him through my lashes. He had a teasing smile on his face.
"Bella, honey, you're not going to tell me, are you?"
I shook my head, I didn't want to chance a look at his eyes. If I looked even once, everything would come pouring out. Edward was well aware of this.
"You're not going to make me get it out of you, are you?"
A smile crept across my face and I nodded.
"Hmm.... I wonder how I'll get it out of you...." he wondered aimlessly.
He turned me so that I was facing him sitting on his lap. He took one hand and brought my chin up to look at him and the other hand was placed on the small of my back. He pulled me toward him, leaving little space between us. My heart began to speed and my breathing became shallow. He placed a hand behind my neck and brought my head closer to his. Our lips alomost touching.
"Now ,sweetheart, are you going to tell me?" he asked, his lips brushing against mine. HIs breathing as shallow as mine and his voice husky.
"No," my voice quivered. Edward smiled against my lips. He smelled an easy victory and I knew it.
"Then I guess I am going to have force it out you, aren't I?" his voice was husky.
"Yes," I replied breathlessly.
Our lips met and it was like fire. He kissed me urgently as my fingers got tangled in his hair holding him closer. His hands went up my back to my hair and he pulled me closer to him. I pulled away, needing very badly to breath, and looked at him. His bronze hair was a bit more messed up than usual. His cheeks were flushed and he looked beyond gorgeous. He stared intensly back at me. HIs emerald eyes were burning with desire.
"Bella, you have to tell me now," he commanded, his voice husky and breathless.
"Ok. I will tell you in a minute. Just give me a second to catch my breath."
He gave me the biggest smirk I've ever seen.
"Why, love, must you catch your breath? Was it something I did?" he asked amused.
"Shut up. Let me answer, okay," I snapped.
"My apologies, dear," he replied.
I sucked in a deep breath, "This is going to sound super stupid but it's true. I didn't nod because after I tried to say 'yes' and nothing came out, it was like I was paralyzed or something. My brain stopped functioning or something very similar to that and I started to panick. I panicked because I thought I was going to lose you. It didn't help that you started crying too because that just made me cry more." All this was said in a flurry of words.
"You thought you were going to lose me?" Edward asked in a small voice. His emerald eyes were filled with what could only be described as one thing. Love.
"Yes," I replied back in a voice just as small.
"Oh, Bella," he said suddenly. He wrapped his arms around me and hugged me tightly, nuzzling my neck. I hugged back just as tight.
"You'll never lose me," he whispered in my ear. I shivered in delight.
"Bella, there's something I want to ask you?"
"You know, you're asking alot of questions, mister! I don't think I want to answer anymore questions," I stated matter-of-factly.
"You don't think?" he asked raising an eyebrow.
"You know what I mean! Now, you better ask your question before I change my mind."
"Ok, would you mind if we re-do the proposal because the way it turned out wasn't exactly how I pictured it in my head?" he asked.
"Of course we could re-do the proposal, it didn't come out the way I pictured it in my head either."
He smiled gently at me. He picked me up placed me gently on the edge of the bed. He rose fluidly and walked to his night stand. (Is that one word?) He knelt down and opened the drawer. He took out a dark blue velvet box. I rose and watched him turn to me.
"Bella, I love you. There is no doubt about it. Everytime I see you, I fall for you. Again and again. I fall deeper and deeper in love with every second that passes. I need you. I thought I lost you and I never want to feel that again. I never want to lose you because a girl like you is impossible to find. Bella, you are a part of me. I love you."
Edward knelt down on one knee and opened the little blue box. The ring was nestled safely in the blue velvet. It shone brightly, sending rainbows every which way. I gasped. The last time I saw the ring I never really looked at it. Now, I could see that it was square shaped with two smaller diamonds on either side. Even the band had diamonds on it. There were small diamonds all over the band. I saw all this in a glance .
"Bella, my love, my life, my everything, will you marry me?" Edward proposed for a second time.
This time, I was ready. This my voice was here and I was going to respond loud and clear. I was going to be engaged to Edward Cullen. I was going to marry Edward Cullen.
"Yes, I will."
Edward smiled truimphantly and slipped the ring on my finger.
He rose suddenly and took me in his arms. I threw my hands to his neck and kissed him. He held me to him and I held him to me.
We were one.
Edward and Bella.
Bella and Edward.
It was just us and nothing else mattered.
Okay.... did you like it? Sorry I took so long. I was distracted and then I didn't like some parts so I ended up rewritting them. I had it all done but my parents hadn't paid the internet bill so I couldn't post it. So I hope you like it and please review. I was listening to "Fall for you" by Secondhand Serenade on repeat when I wrote this so I'm more than sure that the song influenced me. I love that song btw. So please review and again I'm sorry. I'll update ASAP.
