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Kathy lay in bed wide awake, she closed her eyes and took a deep breath as her husband shifted in his sleep yet again. For months now he hadn't had a single night's sleep without the nightmares, which meant she hadn't had a good night's sleep either. She couldn't imagine the pain he was feeling. She knew Elliot had always been faithful to her, but he also know the bond he and Olivia shared was beyond anything she would ever be able to understand.

"No...Liv..." she turned to her husband as he yet again cried out for his partner, her heart sank a little. She gently placed a hand on his arm,

"Elliot," she called softly, he woke suddenly, "You okay?" she asked, he didn't move. She struggled not to cry as he turned away from her, "I...I'm here if you need me," she said softly,

"I know," he replied gently, she quickly wiped her eyes as the first tears fell. She didn't know how to make it okay, she couldn't bring Olivia back. She was racked with guilt for all the times she had prayed that something would happen to end the partnership her husband shared with the woman Kathy so desperately wished wasn't gone. Not this, she didn't want this. She remembered a blazing row she had had with Elliot where she had yelled at him,

"She's dead Elliot! You're not! You 're acting like you died with her!" he hadn't spoken to her for days after that. She wiped her eyes as more tears fell; Elliot shifted and turned to look at her. He sat up and gently pulled her close to him,

"I'm so sorry baby," she cried, he silently held her. He knew that it was hard for her, he had tried to shake himself out of the state he was in but he just couldn't. He knew he was hurting his wife, she was being so patient with him, if his heart wasn't already in shreds it would have sunk a little further as he held his sobbing wife.

***

He sat at his desk yet again staring at the empty desk in front of him; he knew eventually someone would be sat there but not yet. He wished he could have casually explained this to the rookie who just a few days earlier had sat there. He'd never seen a man fly so high, let alone thrown one that high. Sure he'd been disciplined but he wasn't ready yet, no one could sit there until he was ready. He was pretty sure everyone had got the message loud and clear, and the kid wasn't hurt too badly, He'd get over it. He looked up as Cragen walked towards him,

"Elliot, I think we've got him." Before he could finish his sentence Elliot was on his feet. "Listen, I need you to assure me that you're going to act professionally, I'm not taking you-"

"Cap, I need to do this. I need to be the one to do this. I need this," he told his CO, Cragen nodded.

***

Elliot slowly followed the armed officers into the abandoned warehouse; his heart was thumping so loudly he was sure it would give his position away. He held his gun tightly; this was going to end it. Once and for all, he would avenge her and maybe he would start to recover himself. He'd promised Cragen he would be professional, he knew that he had to be careful to shoot at the right time, imply that it was self defence, hell maybe the guy would attack anyway and Elliot would actually have to shoot him in self defence. He'd planned this for months, dreamt about how sweet it would feel to kill the man who had ripped his partner away from him. He looked up as he heard a movement across from him, as the officers split up Elliot followed the sound he'd heard. He walked closer and closer until he froze, there sat alone counting money was Jackman, rage filled Elliot's heart. He walked further into the room and shut the door, Jackman froze as he saw the gun pointing at him.

"Detective Stabler, how are you?" he stood up, Elliot could see he had no weapons. They heard commotion outside the room as the other officers rounded up Jackman's minions. "So the game's finally up?" he almost accepted defeat, "I knew you'd be the one to arrest me,"

"I'm not going to arrest you," he walked closer, Jackman looked up at him, with a look of confusion. He pointed the gun towards his head,

"You're...you're here to kill me?" he asked, Elliot started hard at him. "You're really willing to lose your job-"

"You scared Jackman?" he asked, Jackman gulped and shook his head. "You look scared," Elliot took the safety off the gun, "You killed her," he said through gritted teeth,

"Detective Benson-"

"Don't you mention her name – don't you dare!" he yelled, at that moment Cragen ran through the door.

"Okay good work Elliot – Jackman you're coming with us," as he stepped forwards Elliot pointed the gun at him,

"Get out," he told his CO, Cragen looked at him. He knew exactly what Elliot had planned,

"Elliot, don't do this-"

"I think you should listen to him Elliot-" Jackman interrupted,

"Shut up! You killed her! You left her to die!" Elliot yelled, a sinister look spread across Jackman's face.

"You loved her?" he laughed, "How tragic, the woman you love dying in your arms, did she cry Elliot? Beg you to save her?" Elliot tightened his grip on the gun, "I bet you think about it every time you close your eyes, hear her calling your name? That's never going to go away, even after you've killed me because you couldn't save her." Elliot's hand was shaking as he struggled to pull the trigger,

"You do this and you are no better than him, Elliot, give me the gun," Cragen told him,

"He has to pay-"

"In prison, he will never get out Elliot, never..." Cragen thought for a moment before speaking, "Elliot, Olivia would never let you do this." He spoke softly. Elliot suddenly thought of what Olivia would say, he knew exactly what she would do, hit him for even thinking about it. Within moments Elliot dropped his arm. Cragen ran forwards and cuffed Jackman,

"It's never going to go away Stabler! She's always going to be in your head – begging you to help!" Jackman yelled as he was pulled out of the room by Cragen. Elliot stood frozen.

**

Cragen walked back into the room where he had left Elliot, he didn't no whether to hit him, hug him or arrest him. He didn't have the chance to do either Elliot Stabler was gone.

**

The rain poured down relentlessly, Elliot didn't know how he'd gotten here. Only that there was nowhere else he would go. As he looked down and the stone in front of him, he felt the same numb feeling he had for months,

"I can't do this anymore," he announced, "You hear me Liv?" he looked down at the fresh flowers that lay on her grave. The headstone read, "Olivia Benson – A Hero" those were the words that always stuck out to him, no matter how many times he read them they always had the same effect. "I can't do this without you, it's...it's too hard." He shook his head, "Everyone keeps telling me it'll get better, I don't want it to. I don't want to feel okay about the fact that you're gone," he knelt down at her grave. "But I can- I can't keep...I can't breathe without you." Tears filled his eyes "You know I wake up in the morning and for a second – just a second I forget that you're gone. And then I remember and it's like I'm losing you all over again," he broke down, months of pent up aggression and grief seemed to pour out of him. As he sank to him knees he felt the last part of his heart break, even at the funeral it hadn't hurt this much. He cried for what seemed like hours, he was drenched. He sat soaked, next to his partner. He slowly began to speak again, "I don't know how to make it right anymore? I don't know how to accept that you're..." he took a deep breath, "You're not coming back. You're gone." He whispered, trying to convince himself once and for all. He placed his hand on the stone as he stood up, after a lingering touch he walked away slowly.

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