A/N: Well I know a lot of you have been waiting for this and I'm sorry that it has taken me so ling to get this out but here it is. I should have the next chapter up soon I hope that is if I don't get writers block again. Most of it done just need to touch it up some.
But until then here's this one so Enjoy.
Chapter VI
Middleton CO.
--Bonnie--
It's strange how things can change so fast when you sit back and think about it. I mean for instance here I was worried about how Hana was taking the news of her brother being shot down. To only have her being the one to comfort me.
I had good reason to be upset, not mad mind you but hurting. Hana words no matter how or who they where directed toward hit me hard. Her she was the one that was pissed off at Kim for what she did to Ron at graduation. When I was the one that cause her brother more pain and heartache then Kim ever did.
You know what makes it even worse was the fact that I knew that Ron liked me during school. However I could not see past the short sightedness of the food chain to realize just how amazing Ron was. No it took ten years and Ron to go through getting his heart broke to realize that I had feelings for him. I was so blind and now after I admitted that not only did I have feelings for him I was in love with him. I might not ever see him again.
This thought alone rocked me with more sobs. As I sat there on Hana's bed with my head buried in my hands and cried I felt Hana arm wrap tight around me. Like I said funny how strange thing turned out to be.
"Bonnie it going to be alright."
"Hana, how can it be alright. Everything is far from alright." I paused I chocked down another sob. "I mean I'm the one that you should really be mad at."
"I could never be mad at you Bonnie, your part of my family." She said with a bright smile on her face.
"I don't see how I can even be part of that, what Kim did was nothing compared to everything I did to Ron."
Hana got off the bed and stood in front of me. I looked up into her brown eye, that even though she was not Ron true sister by birth. She still had that same sparkle and feel that reminded me so much of Ron.
"Ok granted you were mean and called Ron names during school." I was going to say something but she cut me off. "However Bonnie, you never did the one thing that Kim did."
"What's that, treat him like a real person." I said with a bit of sad sarcasm.
I hung my head as everything that I had missed over the years y not admitting the truth that my heart had known the entire time. Hana stooped down and lifted my chin so she could look me in the eye.
"No Bonnie, you never betrayed his trust in you."
It was scary sometimes just how much she was like her brother at times.
"She's right you know."
Both Hana and I looked up to see two people standing in Hana door. One was her mother and the other was who we where just talking about. At the site of Kim in Hana door I could hear the girl next to me start to growl like a dog defending its turf. I could tell by her mom's reaction that she heard Hana.
"Now now Hana, Kim came up here to say she was sorry." Her mother said in a caring but firm tone.
By Hana reaction I knew it was not going to be good. However what surprised me was not Hana but my own reaction to Kim statement.
"Your damn right she's right. I may have done and said a lot of thing to Ron in the past that I am not proud of, but I never, never did I betrayed his trust like you did." I almost shouted at her.
It was all my raw emotion that I was feeling kicking in again. That, and a little of Queen B coming back out.
"Damn it Kim what the hell is wrong with you. If I knew then what I know now about how wonderful of a man Ron is I would have never dumped him for some pretty face."
"You got a lot of room to talk Bonnie. During school all you did was put Ron down at every chance you got. At least I was there for him." Kim snapped back.
That was the wrong thing to say to me and if it was not for Hana holding me back I would have ran over to Kim and punched her. Be damned the number of styles of Kung Fu she knew. All I could do was stand there and strain against the little girl that was holding me back. One of these days I'm going to have to see how the heck she had gotten so strong.
"Yeah, you where really there for him Kim, Did you know that you where his entire world. I hated the fact that he would follow you around blindly. He gave you everything Kim. His heart, mind, body, and soul, and what did you do. You crushed it like it was nothing at all, and I was the one that was mean to him. Hell Kim that one action was worst then anything I had ever done or said to him." I took a deep breath and pushed one before she could say anything. "I guess you never knew that he planed on asking you to marry him after collage did you." Kim just looked at me shocked. "Yeah that's right Kim; Tara told me all about it. You hurt him so bad that he won't even let me in. I send him emails tell him I love him and he never returns them, and it entirely your fault Kim. Now he been shot down and no one know weather he alive or dead and because of that I might not even get the chance to even try to be with him. So do everyone a favor and just leave." By now I could feel red hot tear running down my face.
I didn't care if Kim saw me break down. I was angry at her and myself. I was hurting more then I had ever in my life and right now the red head in from of me was the focus of that pain.
--Kim--
"I'm sorry Bonnie, but maybe he doesn't love you in return." I snapped back.
I said it before I even knew what I was saying. I knew Ron cared for her, I could see it when they where together three months ago. He was the happiest I had seen him in a long time. I had even heard from Monique that they had spent his last night in town together. I was now regretting even saying it. The look on Bonnie's face was like some was like someone cut out her heart with a dull knife. I wanted to say something to Bonnie. Tell her I was sorry. However, I never got the chance.
"YOUR WRONG." Hana shrieked.
It hurt hearing Hana stick up for Bonnie. Apart of me could not get past the way Bonnie acted in school towards Ron. It was the one thing that was not letting me see past my own pride and the protection of my best friend. Even if Ron didn't feel the same way about me anymore.
"Bonnie, I'm sorry I said that. It was wrong of me." I said.
Bonnie didn't say anything a first. However she soon looked up and glared at me. I could feel her eyes going right through me.
"The problem with you Kim is that your not happy unless you can control Ron life. You gave up that right a long time ago." Her tone was just like it was back in school.
Queen Bee was back and unlike all the times before she was using her to stick up for Ron. The thing was that I never wanted to control Ron life. She was right I gave up any chance to say what he cold or could not do a long time ago. However, there was a lot of history between us and I felt I had a right to be here too. I still cared about Ron and wished that one day we could patch things up.
The only thing was now with Bonnie acting this way. The way I was with Bonnie in school was coming out again. I was ready to fight her tooth and nail if need be to prove to her that I cared about Ron still.
"Damn it Bonnie I'm not trying to control his life. I'm just worried about him like you are."
"I don't believe you. I think that you're not happy enough with your pretty boy you married young want your boy toy back." Bonnie was yelling at me now.
What else could I do but raise my voice as well.
"I'm happy with Josh and I'm not looking at Ron like that. I just want him to be happy. Beside for all I know Bonnie this is all some scheme of your to get back at me."
I knew it was the wrong thing to say once I said it. It was just that Bonnie always brought this out in me and I hated it. I came up here to tell Hana and Bonnie that I was sorry, and now I am here fighting with her. I hated, but as much as I did I couldn't stop myself.
--Bonnie--
'Oh she just did not say that to me.' I thought hearing what Kim just said.
"How dare you...How dare you think that this why I am doing this. It always about little miss perfect isn't it. Listen her you little tramp, me loving the most wonderful man in the world has nothing to do with you."
May I anger was rising and I could feel my blood pressure start to rise. I was so thankful for Hana holding me back, or I would have pounced on Kim by now. As I was getting madder I could feel my head feeling light. I shoved past it.
"Ron over there and could be dead for all we know and all you can think about is you. Why don't you go back to your pretty boy husband and you picture perfect life? You're nothing but a liar cheating slut that doesn't deserve a friend like Ron."
"Bonnie you will watch your language in my house young lady." Mrs. Stoppable said in a gasp.
"I'm sorry Mrs. S. I have had enough of this. I can't stand to be in the same room let alone the same house as her."
I tried to move but Hana was still holding onto me. I looked at her and gave her a look like everything would be fine. I just needed to get out of there and get some fresh air. Hana let go of me and I made my way to the door. By this time Josh must have heard what was going on along with Kim's mother, because they where at door when I started that way. As I got closer Josh was the first one to speak up.
"Bonnie I think you went a little too far this time." He snapped
"You know what Josh, Ron was right you are a Monkey boy. Now get the hell out of my way." I said shoving past him.
When I got into the hall and tried to make it down stairs I felt a bit dizzier. I reach out for the wall to steady myself. It didn't take long for Hana to be right next to me with her arm around me.
--Hana--
Something was wrong with Bonnie and it seemed like I was the only one to see it. I could tell it was more then just the fight she had with Kim a few minutes ago. She looked pale, like the color had drained out of her tan features. Maybe she was right and she just needed some air. That was until I saw her wobble once she got into the hall. I shoved my way past everyone who was just watching her leave.
"That it Bonnie just walk away."
I snapped back at to see Kim standing there with her hands on her hips smirking.
"Kim stow it, now is not the time." I shot back.
I put my arm around Bonnie to help steady her. She was worrying me.
"Bonnie are you alright?" I asked.
"I'm fine Hana just a little stressed that all." She said giving me a sad smile.
I could just feel something wasn't right. As far as I knew it was because of the stress of everything that was going on. With Ron being where he was, and now Kim picking a fight with her. She said it was because of the stress but my sense where telling me it was something else.
"Maybe you should go lie down dear." Mom told her.
"She right Bonnie you look a little pale." It was Mrs. Possible now. "I think you getting a little rest will do you some good right now."
"I'm fine I just need a little air." Bonnie told them.
I could see the look in her eyes. She looked determined not to show any weakness especially in front of Kim. I love Bonnie to death but sometimes her damn pride got the best of her. I watched her steady herself and head for the stairs. She looked down at me and gave me a weak smile and moved past me.
"You have always got to be so prideful don't you Bonnie." Kim snapped.
"Kim I am done talking to you so just leave me alone." Bonnie shot back.
I looked at Bonnie and to Kim to see her reaction. However when I did I noticed her eye go from a bit of hurt and anger to being scared. I heard both Mom and Mrs. P gasp and yell for Bonnie. I turned around and it was like everything slowed down. I saw Bonnie make it to the top of the stairs and then watched her go limp and fall down them.
I tried to run to her but it was like I was stuck in one stop not able to move. The next thing I heard was a large thud and time began to move again. By the time I got to the top of the stair Bonnie had already reached the landing where the stairs turn to reach the first floor of our house. I don't know how I did it or how much time had past but the next thing I knew I was at Bonnie side.
"Bonnie are you alright." I said in a frantic voice.
All she did was moan; it was a good sign as far as I could tell. Good enough for me to try and help her. That is until I was stopped.
"Hana, don't mover her she could have broken something." Mrs. P said who was now on the other side of Bonnie. "Bonnie can you hear me?"
"Uh...what...ooh?" Bonnie groaned.
"Where does it hurt?"
Bonnie didn't say anything but pointed to her head and her right leg. By now Dad and Mr. P was at the bottom of the stairs.
"What going on?" Dad asked.
"Bonnie fell down the stairs. Not sure what happened she just went limp and fell." Mrs. P told him.
"Honey do you need me to get an ambulance?" Mr. P asked.
"Please and thank you James. I don't want to take the chance of moving her with out the right equipment." Mrs. P said in a very calm tone.
Mr. P didn't say another word but simply pulled out his cell phone a called 911. By now Mom was behind me holing onto my shoulder. She knew that I was upset about this and knew how I felt and thought about Bonnie.
"It's going to be alright Hana. Ann is going to take good care of our Bonnie." Mom said trying to comfort me.
I was doing all that I could to keep from crying. I was scared that something bad was going to happen.
"Your Mom right Hana." It was Kim speaking in a soft tone. "My Mom the best and she will look after your big sister for you. Right Mom?"
--Kim--
I never meant for anything that I said to Bonnie. I was just hurt and like her my own pride was getting in the way. It was not until I saw her fall and the way she was laying there on the stair landing that I realized that I was being an idiot. I pushed my pride away; I knew that I could not be selfish any more.
One look on Hana face was enough for me to realize that what I was doing. She was scared and need reassurance right now. As mature as she acted at time she was still very young. She looked up at me with pleading eyes. I made my way down the stairs and past Bonnie still form over to Hana. Her mother moved away.
"It going to be alright Hana, Trust me." I told her.
All the anger that once was there towards me was gone from her eyes as soon as she looked at me.
"Bonnie is strong and very stubborn. To stubborn for something like this to hold her back. She just got stressed and overwhelmed."
It had only been a few minutes and the paramedics where at the house. I wrapped Hana in my arms and even as heavy as she was now I picked her up and moved us out of their way so the could help Mom.
Hana clung to me just like she did to Bonnie when she came in the door earlier. I just wrapped m arms around her tighter. I was happy that Grace was at Josh parents, because my little girl could be very jealous if her Mommy was holding another child like I was Hana. She didn't say anything for a good long time but just hugged my neck.
For me I watched at the paramedics put Bonnie on a back board and strapped a neck brace on her. She was all secure and picked up and put on the stretcher. I watched as Mom walked behind them to the door and said something to them before heading back to us.
"Mom is she alright?"
"She is going to be fine, just a broken leg and a small concussion. However they are still going to give her a full work up when they get there."
"See Hana I told she was going to be alright." I told her.
I set her down on the floor and Mom knelt down to her level.
"If it alright with your Mom Hana. Would you like to ride with me to the hospital with Bonnie?" Mom asked her.
I saw Hana look back to her mother. She just nodded and soon the two where off. The rest of us head in after them in our cars. I rode with Dad and told Josh to go and pick up Grace.
"Are you sure you don't want me to come with you?" He asked.
"I sure Josh, just go get Grace and I be home later."
"Ok." He said then giving me a kiss. "I love you, you know that."
"I know and I love you to."
I smiled at him then climbed into Dad car and we drove to the hospital.
--Bonnie--
I felt like I had been asleep for a life time. Everything was hazy and I could hear a steady beeping noise off to one side. I realized that I was lying down on a bed. The thing was the last thing I could remember was fighting with Kim at the Stoppable home and wanting to head outside for some air. Then everything went black.
I was starting to wake up more and noticed that my head was pounding and my left leg hurt like hell. I tried to lift my hand to my hand but realized it was being held done by something. I didn't know what it was but as the more the world around me was starting to come back into focus I could feel gentle warmth in my hand.
I strained me head to look at what it was. My vision was still little unfocused but there was a something slump over the bed I was in with my hand buried close to it. I began to realize that it was a ball of dark hair and the warm feeling was a hand clasp in mine. My vision, now more focused I noticed the ball of hair belong to one Hana Stoppable, and all I could do was squeezing her hand.
It never ceased to amaze me that I was the one that earned her forgiveness and I was the one that gave her brother so much hell in school. If anything it was as much my fault that her brother was over where he was at now. Yet I was the one she forgave and Kim was the one who felt her wrath.
"I'm sorry Hana; everything that has happened is my fault as well. If I had only realized how good of person that your brother was back then. Then... maybe..." I whispered almost in tears.
"But Hana was right."
I looked over to who was talking to see Kim in a chair on the left side of my bed. She looked beat and like she had not slept in a good long time. I was going to say something but Kim spoke up first.
"She hasn't left your side since they put you in here."
"How...long?"
"About twelve hours give or take. You had us all worried." She looked at the floor like she was ashamed of something. "Bonnie I'm sorry for everything I said. Hana was right. Unlike you I did the one unforgivable thing to Ron and that was betraying his trust." Kim said in a sad whisper to keep from waking Hana.
"Kim I am as much as fault here. If I had not picked on him so much then maybe he would have not left thinking he had something to prove."
"You were not the one to break up a relationship of fourteen years all because you could not be honest with yourself. I broke his heart Bonnie not you. That was the reason he left. Ron never felt he had to prove anything to anyone. So stop beating yourself up over this." Kim said taking a hold of my hand.
I just looked at her. Looked into her eyes and saw nothing but pain. The pain of living with a mistake that took away her best friend. However, I still could not let her take all the blame for this.
"Kim, thank you for making me try to feel better, but I just can't forgive myself for what I did." I took a deep breath and look down at Hana. "It took me ten years after graduation to realize something you knew from the start about Ron. How special of a guy he is. I know that I don't deserve someone in my life like he but I can help it."
"You really love him that much don't you Bonnie?" Kim asked me honestly.
I lowered my eyes and answered her. "I do very much...but I know he doesn't love me like that in return. I'm no more then a friend to him." I said starting to cry.
Back in school I would have never cried in front of Kim, but thing were different now.
"Bonnie, your wrong, Ron loves you very much I saw it in the way he looked at you at the reunion. It was the same loving look he used to give me. Trust me Bonnie, Ron loves you very much and to be honest I want to say thank you."
"Thank me for what I didn't do anything" I said shocked looking at her.
"You showed Ron how to love again. You gave him back something that I was so afraid that I took from him a long time ago." Kim said squeezing my hand.
"Yeah I really showed him how to love again. He won't even talk to me. I send him email like he promised me we would do but he doesn't return them." I said through a small sob.
"He is only trying to protect you and himself." Kim said very sadly. "I have hurt him very badly and I know I have. It is that fact that he is protecting you from himself. If I know Ron he sees himself as damaged good and not worth being with anyone."
"So, that night before he left at my place was nothing but pity sex." I said through angry cries.
The comment stunned Kim. I could see it cross her face. I never planed on telling anyone about our night together, and certainty not Kim It sort of just came out. However despite my outburst Kim face went from shock to a neutral calm.
"Bonnie you know as well as I do that Ron is not that type of guy." Kim said in a very calm but firm tone.
I knew she was right. Ron was not the type to love them and leave them. Unlike some of the other men that I had been with in the past. That night before he left was something special for the both of us, even more so for me.
"Your right Kim." I said in a soft voice.
I looked down to the young girl next to me with her head laying on my bed and her hand gripping mine. In the short time that I had know Ron family they had treated me better then even my own did, and I was grateful for it.
"Bonnie do you want me to call your parents." Kim asked.
Just looked at her and gave her a halfhearted smile.
"There no need. Besides I don't think they would come unless I was dieing."
"Well that nothing to worry about right now."
I looked up to see Kim mom standing in the door way.
"So what happened to me Mrs. Possible?"
"Nothing but some rest can't cure. You did end up with a sprained knee that will keep you off you feet for a few days but nothing major."
She was hiding something for me I could see it in her eyes. I was not sure if I wanted to know what it was. However, something told me it was important.
"However, there is something I want to talk to you in private." She said looking at Kim then Hana.
I looked over to Kim and she nodded. Getting up she walked over to Hana and picked her up and carried her out the door. Kim looked at me before closing the door, giving me a look as to say she would be right out side if she needed me. I knew I need to apologize to her when she got back in the room for everything I had said to her. Once the door was closed I looked back to Mrs. Possible.
"So what is that you want to talk to me about?"
