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Chapter 3: Feelings from the Past

I thought everything was just a dream yesterday. I thought I would wake up to feeling nothing, like I always did. But, for some strange reason, I felt warmth inside of me. Something I had never experienced since my family died. I sighed, another day without them. Sometimes I just wish I could just pull the trigger myself. I put on black skinny jeans, converse, a black tank and hoodie, heavy eyeliner, and pulled my hair into a side ponytail. I looked at myself for the last time, maybe this will be the last time I will be depressed, maybe K.C. will help me, hopefully. I walked to school getting checked out by most of the guys at school. I groaned, they are such hormonal pigs.

"Hey sexy," said Derek

I tried to control my anger, but I ended up sneering

"Lay off you hormonal bastard"

"Oooo Feisty aren't we? I like that in a girl," Derek said in a husky tone

I think I just puked in my mouth, not joking. I whipped around, and smacked him, hard too. The whole school looked at me with shocked eyes and I just groaned. Great, more attention brought upon me. As I was walking pass K.C., he gave me a small smile, and in return I smiled back. Maybe things will be alright.

LUNCH

As I was walking towards the cafeteria, I started to think about K.C. and our past relationship. Why did we stop our relationship? Everything was going fine, we were happy and just…caring about each other and being there for one another. Why did we make our break-up mutual? I don't remember wanting to break-up. I sighed and thought about the break-up….

FLASHBACK

I was so happy, K.C. just told me he wanted to talk to me, and I wonder what it was about though! We have been dating for about 3 months now. He is just so…I don't know. He is not like any other guy that I know and that's a good thing too. I walked up the steps of Degrassi to find him there looking…sad? I frowned and asked him,

"What's wrong K.C.?"

I looked into his eyes and I knew something was wrong.

"Clare, your one awesome girl, I like you, I really do, it's just that, I think it's better off if we stayed friends," K.C. said with sadness

I looked at him shocked; I never expected that to come up. I thought everything was going great, but I guess not. I hid my sadness and faked a smile and said,

"Really? I have been feeling the exact same way too. I just never knew the words to put it in because you are a sweet guy and one of my friends."

K.C. and I talked some more until the bell rang and we went to Media Immersion. I hid my hurt feelings and told Alli about the break up and she asked me if I was okay. I lied through my teeth and said that I felt the exact same way and that I wanted to break up with him too. It was mutual, but it did hurt inside.

END OF FLASHBACK

The bell rang and I snapped out of my thoughts and walked to my next class, and then on I realized, I still love K.C.

K.C.'s POV

I still love her. I will forever and always love her, I never stopped and I never will.


I'm so sorry that this chapter sucks!!!!

-Mickey xoxo