Atsushi decided to avoid Ryou. He went to garden outside. It was getting late and the sun was setting. Atsushi noticed a tennis court in the shadows. He went to the court and saw an old racket and few balls. He was going to pick the racket up when he saw Ryou coming.

"What are you doing over here? There is a party over there, you know. Or are you avoiding me?" Ryou asked and went to Atsushi.

"No... It's no like I'm avoiding you or anything..." Atsushi muttered avoiding Ryou's eyes. Ryou grabbed Atsushi's chin with his hand and forced him to meet his gaze.

"Then what is it?"

"I just... I just don't know how to face you. Not after..." Ryou didn't hear him finishing his sentence, but he still knew what he tried to say.

"Shh. It's alright if you don't know." Ryou let go of Atsushi's chin and hugged him.

Atsushi didn't expect it. He felt Ryou's hands tight around him like they were never going to let him go. He felt little uncomfortable but very warm at the same time.

"Ryou...?"

"I have to tell you something", Ryou whispered to Atsushi's ear. Atsushi stiffed when he felt warm breath on his ear.

"That night. I kind of... I kind of knew what we were doing. The reason why I still allowed myself to do it is that I love you. I love you more than I should love my own brother."

"Ryou. I..."

"I really didn't think I'd go so far. I never meant to hurt you. You have to believe me. I love you."

"Ryou. Listen! I believe you." Now Atsushi understood what was that feeling he had when he thought about Ryou.

"Ryou. I know it now. I love you too", Atsushi whispered unsurely. Confused Ryou blinked few times. Did he hear right? He had feared that Atsushi would hate him, but now his brother was telling him he felt the same way about him? Ryou hugged Atsushi tighter and felt Atsushi hug him back. They just stayed like that for a long time. Then Atsushi pushed Ryou away a little so he could see his face.

"Ryou. How I'm supposed to tell this to Shinya?"

"We'll come up with something. But now, shall we go back inside? It's getting cold", Ryou said when Atsushi sneezed.

"Okay."

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Atsushi laid on his bed. He was tired, but couldn't sleep. There was too much things to think of. Like the party.

After talking their feelings clear boys had gone back. When their mother had asked worried where they had been, they answered they had been watching the sun setting outside. Atsushi had noticed her mother not believing them, while she didn't say anything.

And, of course, there also were those secret kisses they shared in the shadows when no one was looking. Atsushi blushed when he remembered those soft touches of Ryou's. He wondered, when was it that he started thinking Ryou more like secret lover than brother.

Then, suddenly, he remembered Yanagisawa. How was he supposed to tell him? Would he think Atsushi is freak when he fell for his own brother? How it would effect to their doubles play? Would he still accept Atsushi as his partner? Would he--

"Wait. Why am I so concerned about his opinion?" Atsushi sighed before going to sleep.

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AN: I'm sorry for the late update, but I've had a lot of things going on, my grandma's death and funerals, for example. But, in two weeks I'm going to be really sick and not able to speak (I'm going to tonsils surgery), so I probably don't have much to do and I'll write this. I'm trying to write longer chapters little by little.

Until next time!