A Little Too Late Ch.4
Serena woke up the next morning feeling completely sober; she knew she was sober because of throbbing coming from her head. She got out of bed stumbling a bit gripping the door frame for support and after she knew she was stable enough to walk for herself she let go of the doorframe and began to lightly rub her head. She almost made it to the kitchen until a feeling of nausea over came her body. She quickly put her hand over her mouth and ran to the nearest bathroom. When she was done she washed her face and brushed her teeth, slowly she made her way to the kitchen and was stunned at who she saw cooking breakfast, Dan Humphrey. Erik just stood there watching Dan cook Serena was shocked Erik knew Dan caused many of her problems why would he let him in their house? Serena shook off the question and sat in a stool next to Erik.
"Erik, can you give Dan and I a minute?"She asked him politely
Erik simply nodded and left the room grumbling something about never wanting to date, how stupid Serena was acting, and how Dan was a jerk for making her act stupid.
Dan watched her intently as she stared down at the strawberry waffles he placed in front of her. Dan looked at her waiting for her to speak because Serena liked to have the first word. When she didn't speak Dan decided he would speak first.
"I chose you, Serena I want you not Blair."
Serena looked up at him for the first time that morning, her blue eyes pained and saddened."I hate you." She told him slowly
Dan looked at her hurt and slightly confused he wondered if she was sober."What?"
"I hate you." She repeated.
Dan stared at her his facial expression hurt "Why?"
"I hate you because-"Her lip began to quiver and her voice was beginning to break. You could see the tears threaten to spill out. "I hate you for not being here when I needed you, I hate that you stopped talking to me two months Dan did you not think about how I felt? I hate that your never around, I hate that you never know who you love, I hate that you act like you hate me, I hate how your always lying to me, I hate how you treat my love like it's nothing to you, and worst of all I hate how am nowhere near hating you." The tears began spilling out by the time she was starting she has never felt so vulnerable.
She felt so weak, all she said was true. Dan did things to her that no other guy has done to her. He broke past her strong side and on the inside hiding away was a scared little girl and he always made her feel like that scared little girl. She ran into her room locking the door, looking for anything to drink to take away her pain she heard Dan banging on the door yelling at her to let her in.
Serena found nothing desperate to ease her pain she reached for a razor and made a little incision on her wrist. She whimpered causing Dan to bang on her door harder. She didn't stop at the one incision though she wanted more, she stretched her arm out and made a long cut from her elbow down her arm making a straight line through. She looked down at the blood flowing from her arm like a red river pulsing out of her body. She felt dizzy slowly she reached the sink and gripped the side to steady herself. She jumped when she heard her door being broken down.
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Dan cleaned her wounds with a wet dish cloth. He would shake his head every now and then he refused to look at Serena. Serena kept her head down she knew he was disappointed in her and that killed inside.
"Why?"Dan finally spoke
Serena looked up startled that he spoke to her."What?"
He looked with a pained expression "why do you hurt yourself? When you hurt yourself it hurts me if you won't stop for the sake of me please stop for the sake of Erik he is so young and having to take care of you is making him miss out on his teenage years."
Serena looked down she never thought she was hurting Erik in her recklessness."I will." She breathed
Dan was about to say something when he saw Serena smile. "Why are you smiling? This is not a time to smile."
"I'm smiling because we could have made this so easy and just been together but we make this so hard and we're the ones keeping ourselves from our own happiness." She smiled her radiant smile that she has not used in several months and it made Dan's heart skip a beat.
He laughed himself. "Well, what's stopping us now?" he said with a playful expression
"Nothing" She smiled again and began leaning in.
He leaned to until lips met in a slow and tender kiss all of their love seeping out. She tangled her hands into his hair and his wrapped around her waist. The kiss became deeper and they began walking backwards into Serena's room and she pushed him onto her bed climbing on top of him. She began slowly un-buttoning her shirt smiling down at him. He licked his lips and sighed contently. He then put his hand on top of hers slowly taking her hand in his and buttoning up her shirt again.
"I want to take things slow" he said "I want to slide my way to each base one by one because you mean so much more to me than just what you have to offer in bed."
She leaned down and whispered seductively in his ear "Just to let you know you're already on third base, which means your one step from scoring."
Dan bit his lip wanting his love to win the lust he was feeling. "No, I want to take things slowly with you. Because," He took a deep breath and smiled "Because I love you,"
She smiled this was like a fairytale "I love you too."
He looked at her with eyes full of adoration. "This was by far not too late."
She smiled again and for the first time in so long she felt like everything was going to be alright "I love you," She said again because to be honest she just couldn't help but keep saying it to him.
He looked at her in that one look he knew he would never let her go again and if something were to happen he promised himself that he would do everything in his power to win her back. "And I love you."
Alright so this is the end of this story but I promise you there is so much more to come so keep your eyes open for new stories. And maybe a sequel? Please, tell me if you want a sequel or a epilogue.
Until I begin my new story…
Lots of love,
Miranda
