Chapter 5- Cagalli's realization
Athrunette and I left Athrun in the garden. While walking away Cagalli can't help showing a sad face.
"What are you talking about with Athrun-ojiki?" Athrunette asked.
"About our lives these past few years," I answered abstractly.
"Are you sure mom? You are displaying a sad face for some time already."
"I'm fine. I just need some rest."
"Let's go home then. I am starting to get sleepy."
We went home immediately. I was thinking if Athrunette noticed that I'm lying to her.
On my bed, I thought of the things happened tonight.
FLASHBACK
"Am I Athurnette's father?"
"Yes."
"Why didn't you tell me?"
"Why would I tell you? You left me because of your duties and responsibilities as the Chairman of PLANT. You left me Athrun. You're the one who ended our relationship."
END OF FLASHBACK
Did I say the right thing back then? Is it really his fault why our relationship turned out like this?
FLASHBACK
"Meyrin take care of him."
"But Cagalli-sama…"
"Please Meyrin take care of him."
END OF FLASHBACK
Maybe it's not purely his fault? I'm the one who is staring to let go of our relationship.
FALSHBACK
"Welcome back, Kira and Lacus. Where's Athrun?"
"There is something I want to tell you, Cagalli. Athrun is still in PLANT."
"Why?"
"We had a meeting in PLANT. Lacus decided to create a Union that will supervise the relationship between coordinators and naturals. The people chose Athrun will be their next Chairman."
"Is that so???"
END OF FLASHBACK
"Both of us wanted to protect our country that's why we made that kind of decision. I should not have blamed him on what happened.
FLASHBACK
"Athrun…"
"What's wrong Cagalli?"
"I told you if there is something you want to tell me, and then tell me."
After that he hugged me tighter and whispered something to my ear.
"Then spend the whole night with me."
I did what he told me. The next day, he was not with me anymore, he already left. I saw a note on the bed.
Dear Cagalli,
I'm sorry for leaving without informing you. I'm sorry; I want to face my duties and responsibilities on my own. I'm sorry but our relationship has to end here.
Athrun Zala
END OF FLASHBACK
Weeks, after that I knew that I'm pregnant with Athurnette.
FLASHBACK
"Cagalli, I think you should tell him" Lacus said.
"Lacus, I think that is not a good idea" I replied.
"Cagalli, Athrun has the right to know, he's the father of that child."
"Kira, don't act as if you know everything! I don't want Athrun to leave PLANT because of me and this child!"
"I'm sorry, Cagalli. It's up to you if you want to tell him or not but please consider what you think is the best for that child."
END OF FLASHBACK
Did I really do the right thing? Are really Athrunette and Athrun happy about my decision? Will they be happier if they knew about their relationship?
Slowly I drifted to my sleep.
The Next Day, After the Senate Meeting…
I wasn't paying that much attention to the Senate Meeting. Kira noticed this. After the meeting he approached me.
"Cagalli, what's wrong?"
"It's nothing."
"It's not nothing, Cagalli. Is it about Athrun?" Did he know it already?"
I was a bit shocked hearing his name. I can't avoid remembering what happened last night. I can't really hide something from my little brother.
"Yes he already knew it."
"How did he know it?"
"We danced together last night at the ball. Then he started asking about Athrunette."
"How did he react?"
"He was a bit shocked."
"What happened after that?"
"Athrunette saw us, then we left him, but before that I told him some painful things."
"What did you tell him?"
"I told him that he is the one who left me and ended our relationship that's why I didn't tell him about Athrunette."
"Cagalli…"
"Kira I know that I should not have said those words. It's not purely his fault why we ended like this."
I started crying, while saying those words. I really regretted doing it.
"Cagalli, do you still love Athrun?"
Even though I don't want to admit it, yes I love you, Athrun Zala.
