Ok I know it has been forever since the last time I updated, but please bear with me, I have been working non-stop with my term paper (which will be the grade of the whole period in my Spanish class!), whose draft I need to turn in a few days from today, and I'm actually writing right know so you have to review because of the effort It's a really big deal, if I don't pass that I won't graduate, also my other teachers believe that being buried from head to toe by homework is necessary… I was also sad because people didn't review so there, you have three reasons and I have thousands more but well I don't want to complain right know :D so I'll just shut up and start writing more.
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Edward POV
This was truly hell.
The day was Friday.
Another horrendous day in this hell hole, teenagers in this era seemed to be easily captivated by anything new. Fresh meat they call it.
The pretended they didn't care who the new student was, yet their minds were full of any information that might say something about the new person.
How was I supposed to check if any humans were becoming suspicious, if I couldn't even hear their thoughts without achieving the impossible task—at least for me—of sleeping?
Inconsequential activities, trivial thoughts overwhelmed their minds. I used to think that at least hearing their petty little thoughts would mean some sort of entertainment, yet, the more I hear them, the more I wish I didn't have this gift.
I had already lived this whole experience when Bella Swan arrived. Yet, they didn't seem to get tired of gossiping. They even needed to know why the new student had decided to move. How amusing.
It is said that for my kind, years could be counted as days, but here being at high school, seconds seemed to last hours, and classes never seemed to truly finish. I could still hear the irrelevant thoughts that went from head to head and finally decided to take residence in my mind, never truly leaving, like that annoying guest that always finds an excuse to be brought up again.
Finally, moments before I lost my mind, the final bell rang, putting an end to my depressive thoughts before it was too late. I went to my Volvo to wait for the rest of my family, only to be bombarded again with more horrid thoughts about the new student I assume. I finally saw a glimpse of her face, after almost a week of hearing about her. It seems the image belonged to a neighbor of said girl. However it appears he didn't see her quite well, for the image wasn't very clear. She seemed different somehow, but I couldn't pinpoint where exactly her difference was. My family arrived moments later, successfully ending my internal musings about the new girl, whose name I had yet to learn.
The night had gone by without any unusual happenings, so I decided that hunting wouldn't hurt anybody, plus my eyes had been getting shades darker the last few days, and today they seemed almost onyx. Not good for me. Especially since Bella Swan arrived that dreadful day last year, and decided to torture me not only with her scent but with her failed attempts at flirting, I still couldn't understand how Alice had seen me romantically involved with Bella Swan, thank god her visions had changed after a few months.
The moment I had seen that girl seated in my desk in Biology, I knew she would be trouble. Alice insisted that they would be best friends, and that I would be madly in love, she not only said it, but also showed it in her visions. I couldn't exactly tell when or why her visions changed, but they drastically did, she didn't see Bella as my mate anymore—for which I was grateful—but she also saw that she wouldn't pay any more attention to our family…eventually. The girl made me self conscious, she was always looking at me in a longing way, not only was I appalled by her behavior but Emmet found it immensely funny, making jokes about it every time he thought suitable, and unfortunately Emmet did not know when unsuitable was.
I came back to the house, finding Esme on my way upstairs.
"Hello Edward, did you have fun hunting?"
She didn't know how far from fun I had, but I didn't want to seem rude.
"Yes Mom, I did thank you"
She was beaming at me when I called her Mom. I went upstairs glad that I had made Esme's day; she had enough dealing with Emmet's antics day after day. Don't get me wrong, I loved Emmet, he was my brother after all, but sometimes Emmet behaved more like a child than the kids at school… but I guess that was his charm.
Soon hours passed, and the sun took place in the darkened sky, bringing along with it those rare rays of light that the people around here missed so much.
To make matters worse, Emmet had decided that I needed to hear his private activities with Rosalie, thus plaguing my mind of his explicit thoughts and images… once again. This was neither the first nor will be the last, because Emmet finds a sick pleasure in seeing how much I suffer and how much more traumatized I become each time I listen to his thoughts.
The day had continued to be unusually sunny, but thankfully today was a Saturday, so school wasn't a problem. Consequently my family had decided to use the day of incarceration for romantic activities, successfully locking me in my room with the music blaring loud from the speakers, so as to at least muffle their thoughts.
And again I faced the problem of having a gift as unique as mine. The only other person I have ever met whose mind I couldn't read was Bella, that was at first though. After a few months, I could actually get a glimpse of what she was thinking, and unfortunately most of the time, it was me. Life sometimes could be ironic.
The day passed in the same fashion as the night before, I listened to my music, wrote in my journal, I didn't exactly have much to write but at least it kept me busy. I decided that some bonding time with Jasper and Emmet wouldn't be so bad, so I also played Wii with them.
Sunday afternoon came too soon for my liking, because that meant that we needed to go back to prison tomorrow. I knew I sounded like an angsty teenager right now—which Alice reminded me constantly—but it was true, school was truly excruciating, and unfortunately it did not get better after the tenth time.
Thinking about Alice, made me realize that I haven't seen her in a while… no correction I haven't seen her since Friday after school. Which was truly weird—even for Alice—I did not know if she was trying to avoid me, or I had truly been busy so as not to notice her—which I doubted—somehow even after listening to music, writing in my journal, playing the piano, playing and fighting with my brothers, my time seemed unoccupied, it was missing something, lacking that something that made you want to wake up day after day—figuratively speaking of course—the spark that ignited happiness. I wanted happiness, not contentment, I wasn't unhappy, but I didn't see life as my family saw it; and I still wasn't sure what was lacking in my life, and I felt like I would never truly know unless I saw it—the missing piece, whatever it was.
Someone cleared their throat, realizing it was Jasper, I stopped my philosophical musings, knowing that the mixed feelings coming off of me, were probably bothering him.
I decided to ask Jasper about Alice, since she was always near him, and she hadn't been for almost two whole days, it was starting to worry me, and I was also feeling like a bad brother, I hadn't even noticed that she had been missing until a few moments ago.
"Jasper, do you happen to know where Alice has been the past few days? I've started to worry, I haven't seen her in a while…"
"Yes, she's been in the forest, she has been trying to concentrate, a few days ago she saw a vampire was coming, and she wanted to check on her, but imagine her shock when she tried to watch her again, and could only get a fuzzy image!"
I was flabbergasted; Alice has never found such a problem. She had always been able to see every single person or vampire we have ever encountered. This couldn't be good at all, now who's to say that Jasper's and my power won't come across the same problem as Alice's?
"Is she alright?" "Is it some new type of power what's been blocking her?" "Who is this new vampire?"
"Calm down Edward, I don't even need to be an empath to notice your frustration, yes at the moment Alice is completely fine, except of course that she's incredibly frustrated, no, she still hasn't told me who this new vampire is, you know how she gets when she is trying to be mysterious, she only told me that it was a she, and that she was different and not bad apparently"
I looked around and noticed that my family didn't seem surprised at all to hear this bit of news, so I assumed they already knew everything—well as much as Alice would let you know.
I was frustrated beyond reason, how is it possible for all of them to know about something and I didn't even hear it in their minds! There must be one of two reasons, one of course more likely than the other: one, they didn't think enough of it, so as to have it in the forefront of their minds, or two, they have been blocking me, which seemed entirely more likely because a new vampire visiting was always important and caused great upheaval in this household. And the fact that I have been having suicidal musings probably helped their attempts at blocking me. I wasn't as concentrated as I should have been.
I needed to talk to Carlisle, this vampire situation was entirely too worrying to not be talked about.
"Carlisle, aren't you worried about what this new vampire might mean to the family?
"Well, Edward I can't say that I'm not curious about it, but I'm definitely not worried, how could I be, when Alice has already assured us that this new vampire won't be a problem?
I looked around and noticed that pretty much everyone agreed with Carlisle, though everybody was conveniently thinking about random stuff, too random to be true. They were blocking me again! There was definitely something up, something that Jasper didn't tell me.
…need to buy that oil to clean the BMW engine…
….crap, a full house, I need to fold or else I'll lose…
…definitely not true, I don't know how this people can get facts some messed up…
…thank god they found the killer, all those poor families….
…need to read about that new surgery method for the next meeting…
"Is there something that I should know?" I asked to the room in general.
I looked around again, waiting for someone to answer me. Rosalie was reading a car magazine, and thinking about what she wanted to do to her BMW the next weekend; Emmet, was playing online poker in the laptop; Jasper was reading a civil war book and Esme and Carlisle were both reading the Seattle newspaper.
Ten seconds had passed and yet, no one had answered me. They seemed to be ignoring me, so I asked someone in particular; someone I knew couldn't bear to see me frustrated. I asked Esme.
"Esme, would you mind telling me what is it that everybody seems to know, except me?"
…momma's boy, god that was so low, even for you Edward… Rosalie thought directly atme.
…poor Edward, he seemed so miserable a few hours ago, maybe we should tell him, oh no, but Alice said this wasn't the best time…
"I'm sorry Edward there's nothing to know, but what Jasper already told you"
I was frustrated, what was this that they all were hiding from me! It was better to leave now before I lashed out with Esme, who was the last person that needed my anger, it was Alice's fault after all..she was the one who told them this wasn't the best time to tell me.
I felt a wave of calmness wash through me, but I was too angry to thank Jasper for it. So I just left while I at least had some sort of dignity.
I walked out the door, relishing the fresh air that filled my lungs with every breath, it was relaxing, it helped me think calmly and analyze the facts I had been presented with. But I also smelled something else in the air, the reason for my anger: Alice.
I ran like a madman, she needed to explain it all to me, she knew I hated it when they kept things from me, specially important things, like the fact that there was a vampire who had a power able to block Alice's, at least to make her visions fuzzy. And that was definitely something.
Soon, I found her, I thanked god that she had been down wind, or else I would have never smelled her so far from the house.
I walked to her, anger washing over me, and powering my every step.
She turned around, and didn't seem fazed at all at my anger, she probably had a vision of myself yelling at her, because that was what I was planning to do right now.
What the hell Edward, cut it out with your immaturity, If I don't want to tell you about my vision, then I won't.
Definitely wrong thing to say.
"Well I have the right to be prepared in case someone is posing as a threat to the family, don't you think oh dear sister?"
She flinched at my calm demeanor; I guess she was expecting me to be seething and yelling, not to be so calm and collected.
"Well, dear brother, I already told the rest of the family, that she won't be a threat to us"
"Alice just tell me already what is it, why are you hiding things from me, I thought we should be protecting each other's back, not lying!"
She flinched again, but this time because I started yelling.
"Edward calm down, you know that sometimes I can't say certain stuff to people because they might change the course of things. Believe me, trust me, I'm doing this because it's the best for you, for all of us"
I saw the pleading tone in her voice, and I knew that something big was definitely happening, but I guess I needed to trust her, she hasn't disappointed in all this years.
"Ok Alice, I'll trust you, but please if something dangerous—"
"Nothing dangerous is going to happen Edward, I know so" she tapped her temple for good measure and gave me a smile.
"You'll be so happy in a while, you'll see.."
Then she took off running towards the house, while reciting the Constitution in French.
Monday morning came. After I had gone back to the house the day before I had gone to my room, to spend twenty minutes doing all the homework we had for the weekend, at the moment I had hoped that I would spend more time doing them, just to take my minds off things, but being a vampire always came back to kick me in the face. It always reminded me that I was everything I despised.
I got ready for school, not caring in the least what I wore and went downstairs to meet my family. Everybody—sans Rosalie and Alice—was already there, Jasper and Emmet playing chess, Esme reading an interior design magazine and Carlisle getting ready to leave for the hospital. I was guessing that Rosalie and Alice were still deciding on which outfit to pick in order to "dazzle" the humans.
I chuckled at that thought. The term had been used by Bella Swan when thinking about me and my smile, I had groaned at that time, but now it just seemed incredibly amusing.
Jasper just gave me a wry smile, probably guessing I was thinking about Bella Swan because of the mixed feelings he was getting from me. He once told me, that they were always the same when thinking about her: disgust, amusement, and finally fear—probably for her own life, I knew I could kill her because of her delicious scent, and despite my dislike for the girl, nobody deserved to die.
"Thinking 'bout Bella again are we bro?"
I just rolled my eyes and let the comment slide.
Five minutes later, Rosalie and Alice both came downstairs and we were finally able to leave.
The day had gone by incredibly smooth, despite my groaning and complaining that the student population could not think about anything else apart from the new student.
I had finally seen her from the minds of others, and again, as the last time I had seen her glimpse from someone else's mind, I found her different—intriguing even. She had sometime singular about herself.
When lunch came, I decided that I didn't need to go to a crowded cafeteria, where I wouldn't be able to withstand student's thoughts, so I just skipped going and stayed under a tree listening to my iPod. I decided on listening to Guns n' Roses, because somehow Debussy's usually calming melodies didn't seem like calming at all at the time.
I went to my next class, and after that I had philosophy; I was looking forward to that class, the teacher, Mr. Castro was actually a very deep person, that was probably the only class in almost 50 years that had called my attention, he was a good teacher, and overall a very considerate human.
But before I could make it to my second class after lunch, I heard Jasper's internal voice, he sounded panicked. I immediately panicked, because I thought he might have slipped, I prayed God he didn't.
Edward, Edward, shit dude! the new student!
She… she … didn't have a heartbeat
I was totally dumbfounded, so I moved as fast as I could in a crowded hallway. It was easy though, everybody parted when I walked, fear and awe, and again I was disgusted with myself for getting that kind of reaction from people.
"What the hell Jasper, what do you mean she didn't have a heartbeat!" I hissed as low as I could.
"Well that's exactly what it is, she didn't!"
"Well then, Jasper a human that does not have a heartbeat is dead…or a vampire" I said sardonically.
He rolled his eyes.
"I know you idiot, but obviously she wasn't she… her eyes Edward… they were black, like coal black..."
A non vampire human, who did not have a heartbeat and had coal black eyes?
"Jasper, are you completely sure she wasn't a vampire?"
"She wasn't, I'm sure… she had a tan, and her skin felt warm"
"Well then, I guess I need to see for myself… have you told anyone else?"
"No, I thought first about you, thought you might have picked something from her mind, or maybe someone else's…"
"No I haven't, nobody has perceived anything different about her. I'll let you all know later when school's over. See you later, we don't want to attract attention…"
Jasper looked around and noticed a few people's eyes on us. I guess not every day they get to see Jasper Hale acting freaked out while talking to his brother in hushed tones.
I headed to class, thinking about this new development, if she wasn't vampire and she wasn't human, what was she? I had noticed something peculiar about her when I had seen her passing through people's mind, but I had never given it much thought. But then… her eyes. Jasper was right, they were black…
I arrived just in time and went to sit on my chair, I started writing a poet I had on my mind for the past couple of days, and that's when I heard—both internally and externally—all chatter cease. I looked up, into midnight eyes. Ana Stephenson.
Ok I wasn't sure how this chapter would go with the Edward point of view and everything, but I'm actually really happy with the result. I felt like this chapter needed to be here to give more sense to the story, and explain some things. I know so far it seems like an average fangirl/Edward story, but believe me it's not. I already know where I want this go at the end, so don't worry it only gets more interesting ;)
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