I'M AT WAR

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Chapter 9: Blood & Venom

Hesitation; it scared the shit outta me when Bella did it in the tree, I hated it when mum used to do it when she was going to deliver bad news, I despised Sam when he did it before delivering the order that I had to stay behind whenever a leech alert was raised and I loathed myself, specifically right now that I was doing it to my imprint.

Why those questions ran through my head as soon as Bella pleaded we run away, I don't know. I couldn't be without her yet I compare what life would be like if I threw some major factors in it. Stupid Seth, real fucking stupid!

"Let's go Shorty." I say quickly, the feeling I got whenever a phased pack member was nearby making my heart pound impossibly harder.

I watched as she exhaled and the slight frown be replaced by relief. "I thought you weren't –"

"I have no idea why I suddenly questioned that. I'm sorry." I cut her off, grabbing her hand and savouring the feeling of coldness that jolted through me. "I can't live without you." I murmur, kissing her forward before pulling her to my chest.

I felt her head nod against my chest before I feel face twist. Looking down, I noticed her chest had seized, air no longer needed as her expression turn to disgust. "We need to go. Now." She whispered, her hand lacing with mine.

I nodded, grabbing my discarded shoes and a random pair of socks before waiting for Bella to climb through the window. She landed on the balls of her feet, the only sound being the small thump from the land on the dirt and she looked back up at me. Throwing my shoes down, which she caught quickly without looking because she was scanning the area, I slid through the window and began the fall to the ground. Pain jolted through my body and I winced immediately, my body not completely healed; I took deep breaths, trying to ease my pain.

Her cool hand slid to my shoulder, her eyes concerned as she steadied me. "I'm sorry to rush you babe, but put these on and then climb on."

My head whipped around to her, I'm sure my eyes bugging out at her request. She was tiny compared to me, how was she going to carry me? I grabbed the shoes and socks, slipping them on and tying them up quickly whilst my man-pride dropped some. I knew she was strong, could easily lift me and throw me an easily 50 yards but –

"Shut up Seth and get on!" She ordered, bending her knees and glaring at me. Did I speak that out loud?

I complied, climbing on and handing her my balls as she wrapped her arms around my thighs and quickly took off into my backyard. I watched the trees race by, a small trail of leaves floating in the air of her wake before it felt like I was flying. I looked ahead, momentarily surprised to see that she was on a thick branch, vibrant green surrounded us. I wasn't used to this, but when phased? Yeah, everything is sharper, more colourful and somewhat overwhelming. My human form could take all that in but only to a certain extent, but definitely 10 times better then a human.

"Ready?" She said somewhat smugly, her head twisting in the slightest to look at me.

"For what?" I asked, curious as to why we had stopped. Unpredictably, I felt the jerk and the wind hammer my face as we went soaring through the air, high and far before we began to descend back down to Earth. I gasped as the trees became closer, most likely going to break our fall before killing us – well me – before we even touched the ground. Anticipation and fear began to creep up on me as I tightened my hold on her neck, squeezing hard as I mentally said my prayers I'd survived.

I felt Bella chuckle beneath as we fell through the branches and leaves and I was just about to scream in horror before I felt her grip tighten on my thighs and we were jerked into the sky again, bouncing off a thick, sturdy branch as if it were a trampoline. My stomach was doing somersaults and twists, my ribs protesting as it felt like my insides were jumping all over the place, banging into them.

"You ok back there baby?" The wind made it sound muffled but I managed to pick up the teasing innocence.

I scowled, even though I knew she couldn't see, coaching my stomach contents and organs to man up and calm the fuck down. "You make me feel like a child…" I managed in her ear, again holding on tighter as we began to fall.

"I would never do anything to hurt you." Her voice held a smile as the branches flew past us and we sprung back in the air again. I didn't notice it the first time but I never felt any of the branches lick at my skin, didn't feel the small stinging it would create, only the leaves brushing against me quickly. I watched closer this time, to see how Bella picked a tree, to see if she manoeuvred her body or if it was pure luck that I never felt any external pain.

I couldn't do it. I squeezed my eyes shut just as we fell through the peak of the tree, clinging to Bella for life, trying to soothe my disturbed tummy and refusing to scream even though my mouth had opened to give way to all my vocal cries.

"Not long now Seth. You'll be back on the ground soon; I just needed to confuse them a bit." Her teasing was gone and her voice filled with concern, her right hand loosening slightly to rub it against my thigh, comforting me to no end. I rested her face into the crook of her neck, smiling a thank you against it and kissing her neck before closing my eyes again and letting her cool skin lull me into as much calmness that you could achieve whilst soaring through the air and bouncing from tree to tree and your stomach bouncing everywhere.


I didn't recognise our surroundings so I knew we were no longer in La Push, no longer in the lines of the treaty. Instead, we stood in the woods, what sounded like a highway to our left with a heavy traffic flow and the smell of the ocean light in my nose.

"We're in Oregon… just outside Olympia." Bella said with a concerned expression. "Are you ok? You look a little pale."

I nod even though my stomach is still buzzing all over the place. "I just need to rest…" I mumble, looking around are the tall trees and the darkness it produced.

"I'll go in town and see what's here. Do you want to come?" My legs wobbled slightly and I kneeled to the ground slowly, Bella by my side immediately with a frown shaping her face.

"I don't want to leave your side." I whispered, rubbing my stomach whilst placing the other under her chin. "Stop frowning Shorty, I'm fine. Besides, we said we're in this together; you're stuck with me til my never last breath."

She exhales, her face smoothing whilst her eyes remained tormented with concerned emotions. "You make that sound like suck a bad thing." She forces a smile after she's mumbled under her breath. "I'm sorry Seth… I just wanted to get away from them as quickly as possible. I forgot that you're part human… I just –"

I kissed her sweetly, stopping her guilt ridden rambles and frame her face with both my hands. "I'm fine Shorty. I just need some rest and I should be fine tomorrow. I heal quickly and my stomach should settle with some food…" it was then I noticed just how black her eyes were, how the dark circles around them seemed even darker and tight. "Maybe you should go grab something too?" The old part of me, the life I had before I met this beautiful person, became a little troubled that I was encouraging a vampire to hunt, to kill. The thoughts of all the pack members were always heavy with disgust, hatred for these creatures that it was on natural for me to develop the same feelings… but Bella's different.

She smiles tightly and nods, sighing heavily again. "It's dark and it's smell like rain. I think they've just had a storm so I have no idea what it's going to be like tomorrow." She says quietly, her head still but her eyes glancing around us. "We should get you settled first then I'll go hunt."

I nodded, exhausted and still in slight pain. I stood up and placed my arm around her shoulders, pulling her close and kissing her forehead. "I love you," I whisper in her hair.

"I love you too." Her smile is genuine this time and I can't help but to swell with pride that I've put it there.


"This ok?" she pointed ahead, the flashing light of Phoenix Inn Suites with a phoenix positioned on maybe a two story, pinky-orange brick building.

"Sleeping on the ground is fine as long as I'm with you," I murmur, brushing a strand of hair behind her ear and kissing it.

She giggled and squeezed my hand. "If have any say, you won't ever be sleeping on the ground." With a gentle tug, she pulled me forward and towards the door. "Plus, we need to get a move on, I don't know if you noticed but people are looking at us,"

"Let them stare." I responded, glancing around ready to glare at anyone with a problem.

"No Seth, you're wearing a t-shirt, my shoulders are exposed and it's obviously cold out since most people are wearing heavy clothing." She smiles, guiding me to the door.

I nod, feeling stupid. The cold had no effect on my heated body, well, Bella's cool skin did but apart from that, it didn't make a difference. With that thought, as we reached the desk and Bella began talking to the receptionist, I remembered Rosalie placing a hand on my shoulder when I was kneeling over… over… over Bella. I inhaled as I tried to calm myself of that particular detail of the memory. Her skin was absolutely freezing and I didn't want her or any other vampire aside from Bella to touch me again. I wonder if it felt like I burnt her.

"No worries Ms. Swan," the receptionist smiled, her hairline suddenly becoming covered in a thin layer of sweat. I watched as her fingers guided over the keyboard, her fingers constantly hitting the Backspace as they shook. I raised my eyebrows, the sound of her heart beat picking up and her breathing exhilarating slightly. Why was she suddenly so nervous and frightened?

"What's a matter with her?" I whispered quietly to Bella how had returned to my embrace, her back to my chest with my head resting on hers.

"Normal reaction to me." She whispered back, her hands circling over mine that had hugged her waist.

I nod as the Receptionist – Kelly – turned her back and opened a drawer.

"Just for the night," she stated, her hand clutching two swipe cards and doing something under the desk with them. "Check out is 11 o'clock…"

I zoned out of her trained speech, looking around me as I felt Bella nod and reach for the keys and her credit card.

"Hope you enjoy your stay and good evening." Kelly's voice shook slightly, a smile still structuring her lips.

"So you're used to that sort of reaction?" I questioned as we walked to our suite.

Bella's nod and smile floods my body with warmth. "I've only ever met one human how didn't have that reaction and that was because he was so high and drunk I could smell the chemicals and liquor a mile away." She turns down a corridor, coming to a stop at room 217. "I was convinced at the time that someone had just spilt their drink and left a joint burning or something but I heard the slow heart beat so I went to check it out. He just stood there in awe, not one ounce of fear." She sat on the bed before looking me in the eye. "Its self-preservation babe, pretty much all humans have it. They're suddenly aware that dangers nearby so out breaks the sweat, jitters, quick breathing and heavy heart beating. It's normal."

I nod, hanging onto every word that her angelic voice produced even though I register that she speaking of this with such casualness, as if talking about the weather. "Well you are a beautiful creature Shorty."

She smiles and turns her head to the side. "Is that your way of blushing?" I tease.

She lets out an uncomfortable laugh and heads to the small dinning table and picks up a hard covered, thin book. "So, what do you want to eat?"


I watch as she walks in the door, her eyes bright and golden, and her skin producing an invisible glow. She smiles at me, her pearly white teeth on display as she places some bags on the floor and comes towards me. "You're supposed to be asleep."

I grin childishly and pull her to me, my lips finding hers and my arms encircling her tiny waist, crushing to me. "I couldn't sleep without you." I whispered against her lips, feeling high and warm from her touch.

"Well then," she places a kiss to my lips, "let me shower and I'll come and put you to sleep, tuck you in and read you a book and all." She teases with a grin.

I laugh as she pulls away and walks to the bags she had just set down. She sorts through them briefly, pulling a black bag to the front. "Here are some clothes. I know you can feel overheated but if we're going to stay in cities or towns that are cold, cloud covered or whatever, we're going to have to blend in." she pulls a few pairs of jeans and sweaters out making me grimace. Cold I can deal with, anything making me hotter was something I couldn't stand. "I'm sorry babe but it's kinda necessary."

"It's fine but you'll just have to understand if I may be all over you." I smirk as her head does that small tilt, a smile painting her lips.

"I've also checked the weather and it looks like it'd be fairly cloudy tomorrow afternoon so depending on it in the morning, we'll go buy a car and head south or something…" her voice had turned to a whisper at the end, her golden eyes peaking up at me through her thick eyelashes, concern and guilt swimming in them.

"Go have a shower and we'll talk Shorty… I wanna hold you to me." I give her an encouraging smile and a small squeeze of her hand. Her hands and arms blur as she checks through some bags, finally pulling out shorts and a tank top, grabbing one of the towels off the floor that I dumped there and hurried into the bathroom, the shower running almost as soon as the door is closed.

I sigh, the earlier exhaustion returning and forcing me to sag against the wooden bed frame until my head was on the pillow. I wouldn't be able to phase until I was in a location that was unknown to me so that couldn't see where I was. I needed to speak to Sam and Sam only as he was the Alpha of the pack, to make it clear that I wasn't apart of the pack anymore if my imprint wasn't accepted. I wanted to make it right with my sister but I knew that wasn't something that was going to happen in the near future, or worse case scenario, at all. I would try though… after all, we're the only ones of our family left. I also wanted, very bad, to say thank you and goodbye properly to Embry, Quil and Claire, the only ones believing in me, the guys that had stood by my side.

With another sigh, I closed my eyes and envisioned how I'd talk to Sam. An oath was given when we first phased; sworn to secrecy, to protect humans and to kill vampires. I would always live by those rules only Bella would be the one exception. If it was going to be Bella and I, I would need to be prepared to kill anything that tried to get in the way.

"Seth?" Startled, my eyes flew open and I sat up, my easing ribs protesting. My eyes fell on Bella, and I was stunned at the intensified beauty a shower could produce. Mentally scolding myself for not sensing her or hearing the shower been turned off, I took her appearance in; her tank top showed a slither of her belly and then what I thought were shorts were actually booty shorts, exposing the near full length of her toned, creamy legs. All thoughts seized before marching right out the window as I licked my lips, my eyes returning to her belly and slowly, taking in the way the top clung to her curves and acted like a second skin. The perverted male, with testosterone adrenaline coursing through my body noted that the material around her perky breasts was slightly strained, making way for her nipples that stood high. I suppressed a moan as I ripped my gaze away from them, following the small trail of droplets up further to her neck, that devilishly delicious neck that I wanted to mark, to wear my bite to show that she was mine. Finally reaching her chin and then her lips that were smirking at me, I met her gaze, darkened by arousal as she took in my bare chest.

"You're making it very hard for me to heal!" I moaned, blazes of fire soaring to my groin as she licks her lips when her eyes venture lower from my pecs. I hope I impress

"I can see that baby." Her voice was so husky and seductive that I swear I jizzed some in my pants. I couldn't take my eyes off her as she moved towards me, every step too short, and her pace too slow that I was ready to jump up and claim her against the wall or floor.

"Bella," I breathe with a struggle, adjusting my pants slightly and tensing when my own hand grazes my erection happily.

Her lips smash against mine FINALLY and her hands run roughly through my hair, pulling me closer as her core hovers over my erection and stone hard nipples brush against my chest. Tongues clashing together, I wrap one arm around her torso, holding her close to me whilst the other finds her ass and pushing it down to my cock. We pull away from each other, moans leaving us that some sort of friction has finally been created.

"Seth," she whispers breathlessly as she thrusts down on me again. "That feels so good!" she manages before her lips crashed back down to mine.

I grind into her clad covered core and my hands find the hem of her shirt, scrunching it before lifting it. She lets go off my hair, thrusting her hips into me and raising her arms letting me lift it higher only to become stuck with our lips locked together. I didn't want to let go of them, so soft and warm even though she was icy cold. She didn't want to let go either, her tongue magically massaging yet fighting mine, twisting it then locking it with mine. So fucking amazing!

I chuckled against her lips, mid kiss as her top is suddenly torn from her body and falling to my legs. My hands suddenly free, I quickly occupied them, grabbing her breasts in my hands and massaging them and rolling them between my fingers, pinching and tugging every now and then, moans muffled by my mouth pouring from her throat.

Air becoming needy again I release her lips, a pout forming on them quickly before turning to an 'O' with the sweet heavenly sound of a moan escaping it. I quickly go for her neck, kissing, sucking and nibbling like she had done a few hours ago. She tasted like the sweetest of honeysuckle and coconut, burning my tongue in an addictive way yet it was soothed with the coolness of her skin. Moving along, down to her collarbones, I kissed every bit of skin there and on her shoulders, rewarded with sighs and moans or just simple intakes of breaths; I mentally stored those areas, her favourite, weakness patches of skin.

"Seth," The way she my name rolled off her tongue made it seemed like it was the only word of English so knew, the only word that she wanted to know… well that and "Fuck!"

A string 'fucks' and 'Seths' fell from her mouth as my own found her left nipple. Her winded breathing became shallower and her hand found my hair, tugging gently or raking it making my own cries of pleasure vibrate her nipples. I couldn't take it anymore.

"I need to be inside you!" I said huskily, grinding into her a little harder. "Please Shorty?"

Before I knew it, my pants and her shorts were ripped from our bodies and her pussy was hovering above my freed cock, brushing against it gently and gathering her sweet juices that invaded my senses happily. I briefly looked at her eyes, black with lust and passion before I slid down quickly, the smell of her sex too irresistible that I had to taste it.

Spreading her folds, I watched as some of her juice slid down my finger and onto my wrist. I quickly licked that up, my tongue savouring the sweet taste of it all the way up my finger where it barely brushed against its producer. I heard her gasp, clenching the area momentarily before loosening it, more juice sliding down my finger and her thigh.

"So ready for me Shorty." I whisper, licking my finger again before grazing my tongue on the trail on her thigh. I just want to devour this pussy.

Again she moans, struggling to stay at that height instead of lowering her pussy to my mouth. "Seth… I need you…" she moans as my tongue laps at the juice on her leg. I take my eyes off the juice, guiding them to her throbbing clit that hovers above me, pulsing. Though my main sight is the clit, I can see her hand twitching to rub it, ease some tension. Using my free hand, I steer both her hands to her breasts, silently telling her to play with them as my tongue finally finishes its mission.

She moans loudly as my tongue brushing her wet fold, her struggle nearly failing she her hips lower. "Stop… teasing…" she's breathless now and I can see her clit throbbing a little harder.

I inhale deeply, the tease over as her smell feeds my hormonal hunger and I wrap my hands around her thighs, pushing her over so that she's on her back and I hovering above her pussy. Releasing her legs only to spread them wider and over my shoulders, I kiss her clit, earning a buck before finally running my tongue along the slick vagina.

"Seth!" She hisses happily, her hand finding her way to my hair and holding it there, raking it occasionally. Her clit throbs against my lips, my breath tickling the small amount of pubic hair there. Tongue out, I finally lick it and my tongue burns pleasurably, just like when I lapping her skin on her neck. I flick at it again and again before sucking it into my mouth causing her cuss out her pleasure and her butt to lift off the bed because all I want to do is devour it.

One hand holding her up close to me, I moved the other to her tit, desperate to pleasure her and feel as much of her as possible. With my lips gently sucking her clit, I flick my tongue against it quickly and was pleased as she bucked against me, rising her back of the bed and struggled to breathe because her moans were so loud.

"Oh fuck Seth!" she whimpers, tugging my hair closer and grinding against my face.

The fire in me was burning powerfully now, aching for a release as my hand lowered and my fingers found her hole. I moaned into her, feeling so much love for her, so happy that I could please my goddess. Her grinding never stopped, just picked up as I slid a finger into her, determined to bring her to her first orgasm before my dick even touched there.

"Harder baby, harder!" she groaned out.

Releasing her clit and sliding another finger in, I rose up, bringing my lips to hers and kissing her with all the love I felt for her. One hand still tangled in my short hair, I felt the other hold my waist before wrapping itself around my length and giving it a small squeeze. I grunted at the amazing feeling and slid another finger into her, stretching her tight pussy so that I could fit.

"Watch me fuck you with my fingers Shorty!" I pulled away and whisper firmly, her body shaking. "But when you cum," I tilt her chin up, "you look me in the eye. Don't close them, don't blink Shorty. Don't ever break eye contact when you cum for me." She moans again and I take it as a yes before looking down, watching my fingers slide in and out of her, obeying as she begins to run her fingers over my knob, the pre-cum spilling onto them. I curl my fingers and her cries become louder as G-Spot comes in contact with me, her eyes never leaving them but continually rocking it side to side in pleasure, her grinding meeting my thrusts.

She head suddenly snaps still and she looks me, her eyes so black, passionate and hungry that I faltered briefly.

"Please, don't stop baby… ooh, right there!" she cried, grinding into my fingers. I obey, though still shocked that she would look at me like that. My eyes never leave hers and she follows my demand by never blinking, never looking away or closing her eyes. I ignore the hunger, focusing solely on the love she possesses and hit that spongy spot that has her moaning my name.

"SETH!" her eyelids began to flutter as her walls clench tightly around my fingers but they never reach her bottom ones. I can feel the juice slide through my fingers, down my leg and splatter onto me. I don't stop, encouraged by her happy cries to let her ride out the orgasm.

"Good girl." I smile when she's done and her breathing is somewhat normal, her eyes never leaving me. Pulling my fingers out, I quickly raised them to my face and licked them clean, her taste so delicious that I didn't want to waste a tiny drop. I pull her to me when finished, my lips seeking hers greedily, wanting her to refresh the endorphin she creates there.

Though the high she gives me is still there, I notice that she isn't into the kiss or the mood anymore. A bit hurt at this, I pull away, capturing her gaze and trying to figure out what's wrong. "I wanted to bite you." She whispered finally, her face so distraught that her eyes fill with tears. "I fought so hard."

Her confession caught me off guard but explained the hungry look in her eyes and made me feel so selfish for even thinking she may be just after a quickie and was finished with me. Her face held pain, her torment clear and her lip quivered ever so slightly that I would've missed it if I hadn't had the enhanced vision.

"Is it normal for vampires to do that?" I whisper back, sympathy and horror filling me. It pained me that her bite may kill me, that sex wasn't something we could do that I couldn't show her physically how much I loved her. Selfish Seth, really fucking greedy! She's so hurt, so upset and all you can think about is 'no sex'?

"Mating is instinctual, primal and dominating…" She begins, her voice raising from a whisper to a murmur. "Biting during sex is part of that; it's our mark on our mates. A statement to every vampire, werewolf, mystical creature. It would be my mark on you, our venom mixing together." Her voice dropped to a whisper again. "But you don't have venom, that's why I fought. My venom could harm you just like your bite could harm me…" her eyes filled with tears and her face fell. "All I want to do is make love to you but I'm so scared I'll hurt you…"

I crushed her to my chest, my own tears swelling in my eyes as I tried to take in what she'd explained. From the one lone time I'd fought a vampire, they had bit my right shoulder, tearing the skin and leaving my withering in horrible pain and a reminder in the form of their teeth. The venom was, of course burned from my system but that took a good two days off pain, like this slight fire was extinguished from within me.

"Do you really think my bite could hurt you?" I knew physically, I'm strong and could cause far more damage then good but I'm strongest and most threatening when I phased, would my human teeth be strong enough to break their skin? I have never tried such a thing and Bella did not provoke my wolf to come out and try it like any other vampire did.

"Possibly babe but I'm not gonna die without fire remember? You have a heart, blood flowing through your body, a need for air, water, food. I'd say you'd leave a mark on me but what if it's different for you? What if I hold on too long or hit the wrong spot?" her finger brushed against my pulse and then my air pipe. "From what Rosalie told me, she's still marking Jasper and they've been together for nearly a century. She says she only did it when she'd reach an orgasm and she hold on until it was over…" she grimaced then. "Unfortunately I've heard how long they last for."

If I wasn't so hostile towards the mere mention of Jasper, I would've laughed at her discomfort. "Is that why he has so many bites on him?"

She rolled her eyes and chuckles. "He wishes." She sobered up then. "He has had a terrible past and I will tell you about that soon but right now, I don't want any talk of them. This is between me and you." Her finger flicked between us. "This is so new, unheard of in both our worlds… we have so much to learn."

I nod in complete understanding before moving on the bed and lying down, back to the mattress and after pulling Bella down with me, her body blanketed mine in coolness that eased my heated body and relaxed my erection completely. So much was running through my head right know and I didn't know where to begin. Technically, we were still on the run, planning on leaving somewhere that would provide us secrecy for a length of time til we knew what we were doing.

I felt her head lift from my chest causing me to look at her and meet her sad gaze and my hand that had rested on the small of her back to seize the lazy circles that it drew. "Seth, I can't not do it, y'know?" her eyes were still black and glossy. "I have to mark you; it's this instinct that's so strong like protecting you. The need to survive… God does that even make sense?"

I nod, fully aware because that's exactly what I wanted to do when I first saw her when she exited the bathroom. It was an unusual thought, a very possessive one that I had only heard of from Leah and Jacob through their thoughts. Werewolves don't exactly mark their mates, all they really do is envelope their scent onto their lovers. The most efficient way of do that was sex.

"But the need to protect you, the instinct to make you safe…" she whispers, a fight shining in her eyes. "It's so strong too."


Bella's P.O.V

This was too complicated, too much emotions to control and too new. All I wanted - even though I told him that we would wait for him to heal completely – was to make love to him, to make him completely and truly mine. Marking is one of the most powerful bond makers between mates that I can't believe it slipped my mind that Seth and I weren't the same. His touch set me on fire just like Emmett's used to that the unnatural body heat he produced was thrown astray; his eyes seemed so dark, almost black and swam so heavily with lust and love that it was hard to separate them from a vampires eyes because they were near identical to what Jasper and Rosalie expressed when they felt so passionate for one another; his hold on me, so strong that I could easily mistake that for one of my own.

It was my fault because I had set myself up into an illusion. Seth's heart was beating so quickly and his blood seemed to be rushing below his skin just as fast that I imagined it was my own. Apart from our breathing and cries of pleasure, his heartbeat and blood flow were the only noises I could hear in this room and it consumed me, made me feel what it's like to be human again. I know that my own heart would be beating so hard and frantic if what just happened between me and Seth happened when I still had one.

"We'll sort it out Shorty," his whisper was wrapped tightly in confidence and comfort. "We're the first of both our kind. We both have so much time and we can learn."

It was very true and I held no doubt that we would eventually get through this but how could I hold back on expressing my love for him? Would touching and continuing kissing be enough? It took so much to hold back, to not move forward and sink my teeth into his neck, let my venom flow through him before sealing with a lick and a kiss just as my climax rocks my body. In a way, I was relieved that he demanded my eyes stay open and never look away because life seemed to be the final barrier to make me cum without caving to my instinct.

"I love you Shorty," he whispered as he stretched his neck and places a tender kiss to my forehead. "You are my life."

I'm sure he was unintentional but his words seemed to liven up my guilt, self-loathing and sadness up again. How could he love someone like me that will most likely cripple him with so much as a drop of venom? How could he look at me with so much happiness or adoration?

"I love you too baby." I reply honestly before stretching my own neck and pecking him on the lips. "You're my everything."

"Don't leave me while I sleep?" He whispers.

"Never." I murmur with another kiss and watch as his eyelids slowly close.

"And just so know, I snore." He grins with his eyes remaining closed. "Loudly apparently.?

I stayed stone still as I watched him give in to sleep; oh how I missed it. To feel nothing, not even your subconsciousness pushing to the forefront of your brain and producing important images and questions that need answers. Hell, to even dream about insignificant things like rainbows or worms, I would give anything to be consumed by sleep.

His deep, steady breaths pull me from my longing and his heartbeat lulls my ear just above it so that I could hear it even better. Decisions based on mine and Seth's future would wait until he was conscious so I shoved all jealous thoughts of sleep aside and dug through the fuzzy memories of my human years and what few encounters I had with humans.

Though I was a 'vegetarian' vampire, I didn't attend school or work like others of my kind, I was a nomad therefore basic human needs seemed like a huge puzzle that I would have to work on. Glancing at the clock, I realised I may have pushed Seth to his limits since it was nearly 2am in the morning which must've been why he had fallen asleep so quickly.

Note to self Bella; check in with Seth to see how long a decent sleeping length is.

Food is a definite essential but when is food supposed to be eaten? How many times a day? Water is vital as well so we'd need to stock up on that as well… maybe we should get an esky to store all this stuff in? We've got some clothes but not a lot, we'd need medicine too? Maybe we won't need it, what with healing ridiculously quick… Fuck!

I raked my memory and tried to clear the blurry memories that I had come up with but most of them were actions I'd done with my brother or faces that must've been important to me. Instead of trying to continue that useless mission, I tried to see what humans do to live; it was completely ridiculous doing that because any humans that I had come across were doing things like shopping, eating, walking, dancing, driving, arguing, blah, blah, blah! Apart from the obvious, were shopping and dancing necessary? How was I to separate a hobby from a requirement?

Speaking of hobbies, I wonder what Seth's are… A small sting struck my heart because the truth of the matter is, I didn't know a lot about my mate. He made me feel whole when close, cold and lonely from afar, made me smile at just the sight of him and feel gooey and knee-wobbly when he looks at me with such pure love. He made me feel like it was home that surround me when all it was, was him. Seth was home.

With that final thought, I pushed the unfamiliarity of my mate aside and looked across at him, not realising he had rolled and we both now laid on our sides facing each other with his arm circling my waist tightly and closer, nothing stopping our naked bodies from separating. I rest my hand over his chest whilst my other cradles his face, his small smiling lips a couple of centimetres from the up-turned palm of my hand a breath escaping his mouth before he inhales, a noise that made me withdraw my hand from his chest and throw it to my mouth, muffling the giggle that fills me at the unusualness of his snore.

"My Seth… my handsome, sweet Seth…" I whisper once I'd sobered up and placed my hand to his heart. "My mate."


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