Hello again!
I have been fighting with this idea since I finished the previous chapter back in July. Last night I end up, finishing it up. I had originally meant Introspection to be a one shot but this won over and I wanted to post it.
I hope that you all enjoy.
Yuna leaves for Luca in two days, even if it's just to check out the college. I knew. I just knew that she'd fall in love with it and never come back.
Just like everything in life that's made me happy it just abandons me eventually. I should have seen this coming.
Rikku tells me that I am the only one that can keep her in Zanarkand.
What does Rikku know? It was inevitable.
Yuna says she's only a phone call away if she goes. What does a phone call mean when she's studying?
Absolutely nothing.
She never answers her phone, and even if I am in the room I have to kiss her to distract her.
Damn it all! Why did the best medical masters program be in Luca? What's wrong with the one in Zanarkand?
Something shifts in my arms and I realise that the toddler I was holding wants out. I spaced out again.
"Awe, is Uncle Tidus not paying attention to you Hikaru?" my brother Shuyin says in a baby voice with a slight mocking tone.
I wanted to punch my brother… hard.
"Leave him alone!" was called from the kitchen. Of course Lenne has to set her husband straight.
I get up from my position on the floor and walk to the kitchen, Shuyin followed carrying his son over his shoulder as if the child is a sack of potatoes. Lenne frowned when we enter.
"Can't you carry him like a normal person?" the woman glared taking the child from him.
The doorbell rang.
It was Yuna. I knew it would be Yuna. Lenne invited her over for the usual family dinner.
"Sorry I am late." She says, "The train was packed and I missed my stop." Then she squeals at the sight of Hikaru, "Awe how's my little man?"
I enter the room just in time to see the child exclaim, "Oonaa!" and then practically hop into her arms.
I am jealous of the fact that my nephew can shove his face into her breasts and in public no less. Shuyin read the expression on my face and laugh taking his son out of Yuna's arms, "Okay enough of that you're making Uncle Tidus jealous."
Lenne and Yuna give a confused look and I groan. Did he really have to do that?
Supper was the usual affair. Shuyin reiterating a play-by-play of his most recent game, which we had all seen but never had the heart to interrupt him. Next usually came the after dinner sweet of coffee and tea, Lenne's usual questions about school. Shuyin's many stories of us as kids. Lastly the fight to get Hikaru to go to bed.
Yuna and I took that as our exit.
I insisted on taking her home.
The car ride was done in silence. WhenI finally parked my car in front of her house and we both stepped out. I couldn't look at her.
"Tidus what do you think about me going? Are you alright with it?" she asks over the roar of passing cars, her eyes are staring at the frame of the window.
I frown looking down at the asphalt, why is she asking me about this now of all times?
"I don't see why I matter you're the one taking the program." I look up at her. Her eyes are welling up with tears.
"Because I have to know Tidus!" she said stamping her foot, tears now flowing from her eyes. "You're the most important person to me and you haven't said a thing about the idea of me moving!"
"It doesn't matter," I said, "This is what you want."
"It does!" she said stamping her foot on the ground, "Tidus I want to know what you want!"
"You really want to know what I want?" I asked.
"Yes Tidus!" she gave an exasperated sigh, "I want to know so tell me." She then wiped the tears away and stared at me with her red eyes.
I think about it…
Well it's a really easy answer. I want her to stay, but I can't tell her that. She's been planning on doing this for since…forever.
I'm frowning. I must resist telling her not to go.
"Tidus," she says talking steps, reaching out towards me. I look at the ground because I know if I look at her I'm going to do something stupid.
"Tidus…you don't want me to leave do you?" she asked. She's right in front of me; her hand is resting on my cheek.
I turn my head away trying to focus on anything but her and I fail. My eyes meet hers and my resolve crumbles to ash.
I whispered out, "yes."
I take her hands in mine and look into her multicoloured eyes, "Don't go to Luca even to just check out the college. Stay here with me."
She smiled and attempted to brush her tears away with our hands clamped together, "Then I won't."
I kissed her then, with her father standing in the window watching us. I was slightly disturbed by the fact, but I try to rationalize that he's doing it for his daughter's safety.
We break and she smiles, "Now to tell father."
I rolled my eyes, "well that is going to be a complete and utter joy."
