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Chapter includes mild course language.
Chapter two
I could barely focus for the rest of the day. I'm pretty sure I even managed skipped a test during advance maths, but I just couldn't help it. As much as I know I should move on and get over Rachel, it's easier said than done. I am so sick and tired of ignoring who I am, I need to reveal the true me. But I am so scared, my parents will disown me, I will lose Finn, all my friends, my status at school. Maybe I could work up to it, tell a few people at a time.
But first I need to find a way to get through glee without getting to the point where I have to physically fight the urges to kiss her in front of everyone.
Oh god, I wish he would just shut the fuck up. Finn is sat beside me going on and on about some stupid football play or anything. And I really could not care any less.
"ARG! SHUT UP!" I yell. I didn't mean for it to come out, but I just can't take it anymore, he is just so annoying.
"Q?" Brittany whispers putting a hand on my shoulder, trying to calm me, but I've already reached my limit for today.
"I'm sorry B, but I just cannot take him anymore," I reply trying to convince her I am alright but gesturing wildly towards Finn as I talk. I'm not sure what is worse, Finn droning on and on, or that damn look he is giving me now, like I just kicked his puppy or something. I know i have two choices now, I could sit here and potentially saying something I might regret later, or I could pull a Berry styled diva storm out. Before I could make my decision Mr. Shue walked into the choir room.
"Hey guys, how is everyone today?" he asks in his usual chipper voice, that never fails to rub me up the wrong way.
The room mumbled in response, I decide to sit silently and listen to what Shue was talking about today. I can't help but watch Rachel whilst he talks, she never seems to fail in looking beautiful. I know most of the school mock her for her dress sense but I think her animal jumpers are really cute.
I know I have to focus my energy into something else, so quickly I raise my hand.
"Mr. Shue, can I have the floor please?" I asks, fighting a smirk, seeing the look of shock on his face.
"Oh.. um..Sure, Quinn go ahead" he stumbles, moving to sit down, smiling at me as I walk past him. I whisper the song to Brad, who just nods as normal. Before telling the band what to do.
"Hit it" I call, looking to Brad.
I love the way she fills her clothes.
She looks just like them girls in vogue.
I love the way she plays it cool.
I think that she is beautiful.
I make sure not to change the lyrics, and look around the room to see the different expressions looking back at me. Hurt, from Finn. A smirk from both Puck and Santana, no surprise there than. A knowing smile from Kurt. Pure confusion on the written on the faces of Tina, Mike, Artie, Lauren, Mercedes, Sam and Mr. Shue. Brittany is just bopping her head alone, I'm not sure she has notices. Rachel however is wearing an unreadable expression.
She's so lovely
She's so lovely
She's so lovely
She's so lovely
Santana has joined in now. Causing the rest to join in, only Finn and Rachel aren't singing.
She's so lovely
She's so lovely
She's so lovely
She's so lovely
I sway over to Santana and Brittany taking a hand from each I pull them up to start dancing with me.
She's Pretty, a fitty
She's got a boyfriend though and that's a pitty.
She's flirty so flirty
And that kind of girl that's really dirty.
I don't know
I don't know
I don't know
How we'll make it through this.
I don't know
I don't know
I don't know
I love the way she bites her lip
I love the way she shakes them hips.
I love the way she makes me drool.
I think that she is beautiful.
I glance over to look at Rachel, she looks almost in disbelief like she is having an internal battle with herself.
She's so lovely
She's so lovely
She's so lovely
She's so lovely
I feel slightly bad for Finn, but stringing him along was worse. I can tell by the look on his face, that I have a lot to answer for later.
She's so lovely
She's so lovely
She's so lovely
She's so lovely
A stunner, I want her
Was she this fit when she was 10 years younger?
Come see me discreetly.
She says she's got a trick or two to teach me.
I don't know
I don't know
I don't know
How we'll make it through this.
How we'll make it through this.
How we'll make it through this.
I make sure I have eye contact with Rach as I sing the last part.
She's so lovely
She's so lovely
She's so lovely
She's so lovely
Keeping eye contact with Rachel, I block out everything else. I can hear my heart beating so hard, I'm scared it might leap out of my chest.
"Wow, Quinn that was amazing." Mr. Shue claps as I sit back down, Finn shifts his chair away from mine slightly, I feel awful but I have to be me, I can't pretend to be someone I'm not.
I can sort of hear Mr. Shue in the background, talking about songs for Nationals. And it hits me, in a mere matter of weeks we will be in New York City. The bloody Big Apple. Looking around the room, I remember how much we've been through as a group in the last year and half. All the drama, all the relationships. Near ends, we've made it through it all, and we are better for it.
Looking back over at Rachel, I can't help but feel awful, glee club may have been through a lot in the last few years but she has been through so much worse her whole life. I can almost hear her calling my name in her angelic voice.
"Quinn?... Quinn?...Are you ok?" She calls... Wait... that isn't in my head, she is really saying that to me. Blinking a few times, I look up to see everyone else has left and it is just me and Rachel... Alone! SHIT.. I can't deal with this now!
"Um, yeah. Sorry... I didn't even realise we had been dismissed," I mumble, completely stumbling over my words, I can feel the heat radiating over my cheeks as I blush. She is looking down at me with nothing but concern written all over her face. I can't stop my eyes as they drift down to her lips, they look so soft. I just want to kiss them, and before I know what I'm doing, my lips are on hers. I slipping my eyes shut, trying to take everything in, the feeling, the taste of her lips. Every single cliché I can think of comes to mind, kissing her. It's better than anything I've ever felt before. Pulling away, I look deep into her eyes, searching for anything. But brown, emotionless eyes stare back at me.
Song; Scouting for girls - She's so lovely
