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This is my third story ever, hope you like it, please R&R.

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OLIVIA'S POV

There you go, once again going away; you got to stop doing it, every time we get into an argument you just get out, you used to face me about whatever was bothering you, but now you won't listen to me nor my reasons, it seems as if you are always upset; I truly wish things were like before, when we talked to each other, when we were able to trust each other, but all of that is gone now; you were pull out of my life because of a ruthless drug dealer that wanted you dead, and you were "dead" for a long time, when you die my heart also did, I buried my feelings, and I also tried to bury my memories, however I couldn't do it, every single time I closed my eyes you were there, living in my dreams, being my only fantasy and wish; and every night was like that, hoping to fall asleep quick, hoping for my dreams to come and finally see you, hug you and kiss you, and sometimes if my imagination was merciful we would make love; however every morning when the sun light cut through the windows of my apartment it wouldn't only wake me up but it also take me away from you; it was a sick cycle that keep going for months, but one day you came back, and I get high hopes once again, however that lasted only a few days, but the night we got to share together is still unforgettable; feeling your lips kissing every inch of my body, your hands taking me to climax, but they took you away once more, they said your life was still in danger, and it ended as quick as it started; I went back to my usual misery hoping that one day, we would finally be together forever.

It took years but you came back to me, it was like a fairy tale, we have been split but we overcame all the obstacles and troubles we found in our way to happiness, and I thought it was our "happily ever after" moment; and it was for a long time, but things have changed, and now we stand at odds over everything, I've never meant to be unfair but a lot of times you don't understand all the pressure I got at work, I don't know if you forget what is like to deal with rape victims and molested children, but you complain about my work, about how I care more for the victims than our relationship, and I can't help it, but I think that you're the one being unfair.

I know your ambitions, and maybe I don't agree with some of them but at least I respect your feelings about that, I used to tell you about coming out together, not hiding ourselves from the world, but you would always say that it wasn't the right time to do it, I waited a long time for that moment, but I figured that it would just never came, so I stopped waiting for it; once more I respected that, but it all started going backwards, you suddenly got politic ambitions, and it was fine, I still supported you and I still do; however when it came down to me, you complain about me trying to change the world, I know it's not possible, I just want to aid the helpless, but you don't care anymore, you are selfish and jealous, always wanting to impose your will, it used to be our relationship, now it is your relationship.

We've changed a lot in the last years, however it's sad to realize that we haven't been able to manage that change in the proper way, we used to kiss a lot, and every time we make love it was almost like music, our bodies swaying to the same rhythm, our legs intertwined, our cores meeting, your hands caressing my nipples and mine clinging to the sheets, our moans singing the melody of pleasure, and we

would always lay together naked in bed, embracing tightly each other, waiting for exhaustion to come get us; it was like living my dreams, but all that started fading away slowly, and now it seems that our fairy tale is ending different, our chariot has turned into a pumpkin; how we let this happened? I don't know, but I know we started taking the easy way some time ago; we started avoiding discussions and fights, claiming being tired or not having time "work, work, work"; and It actually worked for a time, at morning we kissed, and we wouldn't say anything about our feelings or thoughts, it seemed right not to fight, but now we are finally noticing that it was the indifference that we showed up what is tearing us apart today.

You have been the only good thing to ever happened to me, the only person I truly love, maybe we have pushed thing so hard than now they are coming back at us, but we both know that our love means much more than words and touches, it's far beyond the explainable; nevertheless be have let meaningless things interfere; I love my job, it always make me feel that I'm making a difference, but all of that is hollow if you're not there with me, you've been my support for so any years, and even when you weren't here by my side, it was your memory what supported me; and now that we are together all is falling apart, I've been insolent about your job, so many times I've said it's only politics, even when Casey was the squad's attorney we always got into run-ins about her not being competent not making what she was meant to be, and now I've realized that I'm being stubborn again, not with her anymore but with you; bottom line is that we both love our work, but I love you even more than my self-realization and my ambitions, my biggest mistake have been let ill things come between us, we got to stop now, before love turns into hate.

I see things clearly now, your absence have always make me look for answers, and now I know that I should stop missing all those feelings and moments from the past, but rather build new and better memories, we got to trust each other again, to look each other in the eye, to talk and solve our differences; once we fought to be together and we were successful at that, and it's time to fight again, this time the battle is harder, we are not against the world this time, we are fighting ourselves, our arrogance, but mostly our pride; it surely will be hard, we may win or lose, but God knows I won't quit on you, I love you and that will never change, not today, not tomorrow, not never; I need to apologize and so do you, we deserve one more chance at happiness, it's already time to change again, but this time it got to be the right one.

You must be heading home right now, alone into the night, I should be taking you home, embracing you, warming you, but I'm sitting alone in my apartment with my face still stinging and my heart aching even more ; I'm still staring at the door you closed some minutes ago, I never say anything but every time you leave and close that door I always fear that perhaps it would be the last time; you're angry at me, and you have every right to, but I promise you it is the last time I hurt you, tomorrow everything will be different, I will change for you, then we would be able to continue our fairy tale, besides I've always like happing endings, even if they are so scarce in my life; it's already late, I won't bother you anymore tonight, I'll wait for you to call me in the morning, you always do.