It took a little while for the house to settle down after Logan's outburst. But once he finally left for his date with Tiffani everything quieted down and Kendall was left alone with his thoughts. He reached out and turned his laptop on, quickly going to YouTube and pulling up the video he and Logan had made. He lay back against his pillows, resting the laptop on his stomach and watched silently.

'Don't say a word

Just come over and lie here with me

'Cause I'm just about to set fire to everything I see

I want you so bad I'll go back on the things I believe

There I just said it

I'm scared you'll forget about me'

As the video ended Kendall sucked in a shaky breath. There was a reason the words of the song resonated with him. There was no denying it, he knew. He was in love with Logan.

Hours later Kendall woke from his sleep, hunger gnawing at his stomach. He'd fallen asleep pretty early, laptop still open and resting on his stomach. Sleepily he shut it down and set it aside, crawling out of bed and heading down to the kitchen. He caught a glimpse of the time on the clock radio in the kitchen just 2 AM. He really had fallen asleep early. As he was making himself a big bowl of cereal he heard the front door open and went to investigate, bowl in hand.

"Oh, hey Kendall!" Logan said cheerfully, taking off his favorite leather jacket and draping it over an armchair. He looked so happy, and though that should have made Kendall happy too it only made him lose his appetite.

He set the bowl down on the coffee table, sliding it to the opposite end. "Did you have a good time?"

Logan couldn't have smiled any harder." The best! I took her to that new Asian fusion place and then we went dancing. I think I really like her." He sat down on the arm of the chair, looking to Kendall expectantly, almost as if he were waiting for his friend s approval.

If that's what he wanted, Kendall couldn't give it. He turned away, swallowing hard. "I'm happy for you, buddy." he said simply.

Logan watched him, well aware of the fact that Kendall was avoiding facing him. "Like hell you are."

"I am! What do you want me to do, throw you two an engagement party?" Kendall snapped, turning back to him.

Logan was taken by surprise. Kendall was generally a pretty happy guy, and he certainly didn't snap at his friends as much as Kendall had been snapping at him lately. He shook his head. "You are just being weird lately." He said quietly, rising to his feet and starting for the stairs.

Kendall sighed and took his bowl to the sink, dumping the nearly full bowl into the garbage disposal and going back upstairs. He groaned inwardly when he saw Logan lingering there on the landing.

"Kindle-"

"It's KENDALL." He said through clenched teeth. "How long do we have to be friends before you learn to say 'Kendall' properly?" He ignored the ache in his chest that he felt, caused by being so mean to his best friend. The truth was every time he heard that soft voice call him Kindle those butterflies in his stomach came back.

"SORRY." Logan shot back, but he didn't sound sorry at all. "You're an asshole." He muttered, disappearing into his bedroom and letting the door slam behind him.

Kendall was right behind him, storming off into his own room, though he didn't slam the door out of respect for James and Carlos. He hated how he was acting. He knew he was driving a wedge between himself and Logan, but he didn't know any other way. He hated himself for the feelings he was having for his best friend and thought that maybe if he could just distance himself for a while he could make it go away.

Logan was slumped over the computer desk in the living room, his laptop open. He scrolled unceremoniously through the comments he and Kendall had received on their video, smiling at the positive ones and scowling at some of the not-so-nice ones.

He heard the sound of bare feet padding down the stairs and looked up, glancing away when he saw Kendall coming down the stairs. There was a brief pause, and then Kendall was there beside his chair. "What are you doing?" he asked casually, as if nothing had happened the night before.

Logan pointed to the screen. Just reading the comments from Edge of Desire . He dared to glance up at his friend. People seem to really like it for the most part. And we sound kinda good together. He grinned crookedly and to his relief Kendall returned the grin.

"We do, don't we? Maybe we should be in a band together," Kendall teased.

Logan laughed and closed the YouTube tab, standing and brushing a hand through Kendall s messy hair. "That's a good look for you man. I like it."

Kendall could feel the heat creeping up to his cheeks. He inhaled slowly and quickly took a step back, away from Logan. "So, um you wanna catch a movie or something tonight?"

Logan shook his head regretfully. "No can do. I'm seeing Tiffani tonight."

At the mention of her name, Logan's expression changed back to that lovesick look he seemed to have lately at just the mention of her name. It was all Kendall could do not to roll his eyes.

"Alright, but let's do something soon okay?"

"You got it," Logan promised, turning back to the computer screen. A snort left his lips, and Kendall came closer to see what he was looking at. "I Google us sometimes when I'm bored. And look at this, check this out." He turned the screen toward Kendall, laughing. "People actually write about us you know, together. Apparently we're called Kogan . How sick is that?" he shook his head in disbelief, still laughing. "James and Carlos are called Jarlos . Do these people not have anything better to do? Seriously." He read silently to himself, lips moving. All the while Kendall's stomach churned uncomfortably.

"Dude, dude. Look at this." Logan motioned to the screen. "When I stand next to you and Carlos stands near James? They call that boyfriend formation."

"Boyfriend formation." Kendall repeated, though it came out as more of a mumble. That people wrote this stuff was new to him, that there were actual names for them was even more surprising. But what bothered him was the way Logan was reacting to it as if the idea was disgusting. "Come on Logan, who cares? Get rid of that stuff." He waved a hand toward the screen and walked away.

Logan seemed almost mesmerized by what he was reading. He must have come to a particularly smutty part because his eyes nearly popped out of his head. Quickly he stood, closing the laptop and shuddering. "I have to go disinfect my eyeballs." He groaned, heading upstairs.

Kendall sighed and sank onto the couch. What had he expected, really? For Logan to be intrigued by the idea of the two of them together? Turned on, even? Logan was clearly into women. And even if he wasn't, would he really be into someone like Kendall? He caught a glimpse of himself in the mirror hanging over the mantel. He was decent enough looking, he supposed. People often complimented his green eyes, and his smile, complete with dimples. He had a strong, defined jawline and his sandy blonde hair looked nice enough when it was clean and brushed. His nose was something he could live without but he didn't think he was hideous. Maybe Logan did though.

Carlos interrupted his thoughts, coming in from the kitchen with a big bowl of ice cream in hand. "Oh hey Kendall. I m glad you're here actually."

Kendall raised an eyebrow. "You are?"

"Yeah." Carlos sank down onto the couch next to him, eating a spoonful of the ice cream. "I wanted to talk to you.: He glanced around, making sure no one else was within earshot. "Are you... you know, is everything okay?" His forehead was wrinkled with concern and it really touched Kendall to know his friend cared so much.

"I'm fine," he assured him, pausing briefly. "Am I really being that weird that you need to ask that?"

"You're being extremely weird," Carlos admitted, leaning back into the couch. "Do you...do you have a thing for Tiffani?" He asked, cocking his head to the side. "I won't tell anyone, you know that."

Kendall laughed in relief that Carlos hadn't guessed what was really going on with him. "What? No way. I told you, for some reason I just don't like her."

Carlos stared at Kendall for so long that it made the blonde uncomfortable. He shifted in his seat.

"You like Logan." Carlos said slowly.

"Carlos." Kendall looked away. "That's ridiculous."

"Maybe. But it s the truth and don't try to tell me it's not." Carlos voice was gentle and unaccusing. Kendall knew he wouldn't judge him or treat him any differently. But he wasn't sure he was ready to make such a huge admission. So he didn't answer. He didn't need to. Carlos rested a hand on his shoulder, leaning in to speak quietly to him. "Your secret is safe with me, bro." He patted him lightly and got up, leaving Kendall alone with his thoughts.