So I didn't tell them about Lucius and me, during dinner or afterward in the common room. I was just too afraid. I had only told Lily and Arianna so I still had to tell Alice and Marlene. This was going to be a long night.

"These rooms are way bigger than last years," Marlene exclaimed. Her eyes were big. It was much bigger and nicer. There was even a fire place. The only thing that was missing was Lily. It wasn't the same without her.

She promised she would come to see our dorm after she got settled. That was when I was going to tell them about my predicament.

I picked out my bed and started unpacking.

"So what was that whole thing with Lucius about?" Alice asked. Did she have to bring it up?

"Well um… I have been meaning to talk to you about that. I well… I'm…," I took a deep breath, "I'm engaged to him."

I heard something hit the floor and then someone running to me. Arms again wrapped around me and tears flowed down my cheeks. It was total déjà vu.

Shortly after Lily walked in and ran to me. Tears started to drip down her face and it was an all-out crying fest. We didn't stop for two hours.

"I think… I… have cried… all I can," I said between sobs, "for now," we all started to laugh. It wasn't even funny, but it made us laugh anyway.

"We should probably get to bed, it's past three," Lily decided she was going to stay in here and sleep with me.

"Yeah, I will see you guys in the morning," Arianna yawned as she got into bed.

"Thank you guys for understanding. You are the best friends anyone could have," we all smiled and started to sob.

"Ok, let's get to bed before we fall apart again," We laughed and fell asleep right away.

We all woke up in the morning with red eyes and cheeks. We all looked like hot-messes.

"Uh, remind me not to stay up 'til three in the morning crying ever again." I mumbled as a rolled out of bed.

"Nothing a little magic won't fix," Lily pulled out her wand and I immediately felt better.

"You are a goddess! Thank you!" that was pretty much the gist of what was said in thanks to Lily. We soon took showers and headed down to breakfast.

We walked arm and arm and tried to avoid eye contact with any Slytherin. We plopped down next to the Marauders and dug in. I wasn't very hungry, so I didn't eat much. Unfortunately James noticed.

"Oi, you've barely touched you food. Are you feeling ok?" James looked concerned, which was not normal for him.

"Yeah, I just," paused for a second to come up with an excuse, but someone cut me off.

"You're engaged!" I whipped around to see who just ruined one of my biggest secrets. It was none other than Sirius Black.

Oh shit.

"What?" James looked terrified and shocked and then mad.

"Um…"

"Yes, she is. She already feels terrible so leave it alone," Lily and the girls were already at my defense.

"I am not just going to leave it alone. You are engaged to Lucius fucking Mafloy!" Sirius yelled. Everyone in the Great Hall started at us.

"You think I'm happy about this?" my voice was a whisper. I could barely keep myself from crying.

"Well I don't know, you didn't tell me about it!" he was mad, he had a right to be. In my defense I tried to tell him about it.

"I was going to tell you guys tonight and eventually everyone, but you saved me the trouble," He seemed to realize that everyone was staring at us and he backed off a little bit.

"Why didn't you tell me?" I could barely hear James' voice.

"I tried… I just… I was afraid." I looked at him, "I was afraid once I told you it would be true. I know it's stupid and it doesn't make sense, but that's the truth."

I thought he was going to walk out of the Hall and never talk to me again, but instead he scooped me up in his arms, "Don't worry, Katie. We will get through this," tears built up in my eyes. Déjà vu all over again.

Can you have déjà vu twice?

Sirius didn't say much the rest of the day. I think he felt bad for saying what he did and I think he was still mad at me for not telling him about the engagement.

I would eventually talk to him, but I didn't feel like it right now. Right now I wanted to be comforted. I know it was selfish, but I was by myself the whole summer. I needed a shoulder to cry on. Thank Merlin for my friends.

First days were always the same. The teachers took up the whole class period with a speech about how this year was going to be harder than last. Sufficed to say, it was extremely boring.

I loved Defense against the Dark Arts (DADA), was ok in Transfiguration, excelled in Muggle Studies (I lived with them), and bombed in Potions.

I always thought I got it, but when it came to actually making the potions, it never turned out right. Lily of course was amazing at it and was in the Slug Club (a club for kiss-ups and goody-goodies) Not that Lily is any of those things. Well she kind of is sometimes, but she is also super smart.

I was an above average dueler, much to boys' dismay. What can I say, it comes naturally to me.

Transfiguration was like an English class for you muggles. It wasn't too hard, but it wasn't easy. I absolutely loved Professor McGonagall. She is my favorite person ever! She loves me too, though she doesn't like to show favoritism. Ok, I annoy her, but whenever I do something idiotic, she smiles briefly. (Which is more than most people got).

Muggle studies was pretty easy. I liked my teacher enough. Having it with Slytherins wasn't awesome, but it was fun to watch them get in trouble for their rude remarks.

Luckily I had almost all of my classes with my friends. In every class I had at least one friend. One year I only had two classes with my friends and all of them with Slytherins. It was my own personal hell.

"Ms. Brown, would you mind showing us how to conjure a proper Patronus charm?" the new DADA professor was standing right in front of me. He had obviously paid attention to my former grades.

"Sure," I got out of me seat, trying not to make eye contact with any Slytherins, though I felt their glares burning into my back.

I tuned around to face the class and my Professor, took out my wand and recited the spell, "Expecto Patronum," immediately a sliver wolf popped out, from the end of my wand. It stalked around me and then the room.

"Excellent Ms. Brown!" Professor Reynolds beamed. I blushed and found my seat, "As most of you know, this spell is normally not taught here at Hogwarts, but I feel it is essential for you to learn." He paused for a moment as id thinking of something. "Does anyone know what it takes to perform a proper Patronus?"

Lily's hand bolted straight up almost whacking Alice in the face, "Yes Ms. Evens,"

"A memory, a happy memory,"

"Yes, you have to let the memory consume you. Katie, would you mind telling the class what your memory was?"

"Um, well it was about my parents," I felt James squeeze my hand, "It was Christmas morning and we were sitting around the tree while we all opened up presents from Santa," I smiled to myself thinking about it, "They died, before I came to Hogwarts."

Mr. Reynolds, smile faded a bit, but was smart enough to not give me any sympathy, "The memory needs to be happy yes, but it needs to be powerful. It must consume you. Now, your homework is to practice the spell and find your memory. We will be practicing them next class," the rest of his voice was drowned out by the sound of the bell and everyone packing up.

"Thank Merlin it's the last class of the day!" Marlene said as we walked out of the classroom, "Today has been so boring!"

"The first day always is," I stated.

"Well your Patronus was awesome. Were you practicing this summer?" Of course Lily would ask.

"Yeah, my grandparents had me practice almost every day. They said it was important." I shrugged. They sounded a lot like Mr. Reynolds did. It probably didn't mean anything.

As we continued to the common room, we were surrounded by Slytherins and at the head was Lucius, "Katie, do you mind if we talk for a moment?" it was more of a command rather than a question.

I wanted to say yes, I would mind so leave me alone you annoying git, but I had a feeling that wouldn't go over well, "No, I wouldn't mind, let me just go put my stuff in my room," I started to walk forward.

"Fine, but don't keep me waiting," his voice seemed very annoyed.

"Wouldn't dream of it," I brushed past him and held my head high.

"You don't have to go,"

"Yeah, or we could go with you,"

"James would go with you," They kept trying to make it better, but it wouldn't help.

"No, I have to go, alone. He would just send you right back in anyway. No, I need to learn to face him by myself. If he tries anything, I will just hex him and run," I tried to seem brave and I would have to people who didn't know me so well.

"I don't trust him, especially not alone with you. He is a Death Eater. Merlin knows what he is capable of," Lily elbowed Arianna in the stomach, "Ouch! What, it's true."

"It's ok Lily, I will be fine. See you guys soon," I got to the door way and turned around, "If I'm not back by dinner, come and find me." Then I headed to meet my fiancé.

My hands were shaking, but I kept my composure. I stepped out of the portrait hole to see Lucius leaning on the wall waiting for me, "Took you long enough," he smirked.

"You know girls, we take forever to get ready," I cursed him under my breath, "So what did you want to talk about?"

I was going to wait and see if he was going to apologize about breaking his promise, "I wanted to talk to you about our deal, I kept my end, now it's time for you to keep yours."

"Excuse me! You didn't keep your end of the deal; you were supposed to wait until I told my friends before you went and told the whole school!" I was already yelling, I wasn't going to even try containing my anger.

Lucius kept his cool, "I only told my friends and it must have leaked out to the school. I had nothing to do with it," he seemed quite pleased with himself.

"Bullshit, you may not have told the school, but it was your fault they said anything!"

He wasn't as calm as he once was, "Technically speaking, I kept my end of the deal, so you will do what I want!"

"I will not be your Slytherin bimbo! Unlike some of the Slytherin girls I have feelings and a mind, so I don't give in very easily," venom was seething through every word.

He looked a bit taken back, "What is it about me that you hate so much?"

"Let me see… Maybe it's your arrogance, the way you treat women, what you believe in, or maybe it's the fact that you expect me to become your mindless toy!"

For a spilt second his angry emotion turned to sadness, but as someone walked around the corner he pulled me closer, looked into my eyes and kissed me.

Katie and Lucius just kissed! Who would have thought? Will she hate it and hex him, or will she be totally confused and maybe, just maybe like it? How will her friends take it? If you thought her life was already complicated, just you wait! (muuuuaaahhhaaaaaa evil laugh)

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