"You don't even know the way!" Sirius yelled after me as I ran.
"It's a passage way! It shouldn't be too hard!" yelled over my shoulder. When I turned around I hit something hard. "Fucking wall," I groaned.
Sirius laughed when he saw me, "Nice going."
"Oh shut up. Give me a hand will you?" I held up my hand and he grabbed it. He pulled me to my feet and then picked me up bridal style.
"What are you doing?" I asked him. I was rather enjoying it.
"Just making sure you are okay." He started walking.
"Could you carry me everywhere? Walking is so over rated." I leaned my head against his chest and felt relaxed. I didn't realize how tired I was. I was having flashbacks in dream form all night and I didn't get very much sleep.
"Anything for you, milady," I giggled at being called milady. I have felt like a lot of things, but a princess was not one of them.
"Take me, young prince, where ever it is you wish go." I let myself sink into his arms and let the warmth consume me. This was nice, this was more than nice… this was perfect.
Wait a minute! What am I doing? Don't give in to it!
Too late, I was already falling asleep in his arms.
…
I heard someone calling me and opened my eyes. "Huh?" I tried to wake up, but was failing epically.
"Katie, come on we are almost at Hogsmeade." Sirius was shaking me slightly and had a stupid smile on his face as if he was enjoying this immensely.
"Wipe that grin off your face, it's weird." I said.
"Do you not like it?" He smirked.
Of course I like it! You are incredibly sexy when you do it! That is probably not the best response.
"Would you just put me down? Or do you want everyone to see us you." I raised my eyebrows at him.
He set me down gently to let me wake up.
"Shall we?" he gestured to the latch above us.
"We shall," I smirked and climbed up the stairs.
I loved Honeydukes, it was one of my favorite shops in all of Hogsmeade. It was colorful and bright. It was like the old fashion candy store, my parents and I used to go to in America. I loved the liquorish wands and fizzing whizzbees. I was literally like a kid in a candy store.
"Do you want something, love?" Sirius asked, noticing my excited espression.
"No, I have to cut down. You have no idea how much I ate during the summer. I missed England." I said looking around the shop. "Let's go before I spend my entire inheritance on candy." I joked and we walked out the door.
"You really ate that much over the summer?" he asked jokingly.
"My missing England, along with walking everywhere and freaking out about my current situation equaled a lot of candy."
"Well it didn't do a thing to your figure," his eyes were roaming my body.
"Will you stop being your man-whore self for one second. Actually make that five." He smirked, but didn't say anything.
We walked in silence for a while, window shopping and observing other shoppers. People were always so busy these days. No one ever took the time to just stop and take in the world. That's when it hit me—I stopped to lay on my back in the middle of the street, staring up at the sky.
I watched as the clouds moved and tried to make shapes out of them. I saw a bunny wearing a tutu and Barney (a muggle TV show character) holding cotton candy and breathing fire. "Umm Katie?" Sirius asked me.
"Hmm?" I kept starring at a cloud that I couldn't tell if it was a truck or a really misshapen carrot.
"What are you doing?" I finally looked at him. I laughed when I saw his face; he was hopelessly confused and was probably thinking I was completely mental. Which is true of course.
"I am taking the time to take in the world. Care to join me?" I propped myself up on my elbows.
He looked skeptical, but shrugged and laid down next to me, "Why not?"
Again there was silence as I continued to spot clouds that looked like real things. I figured Sirius was doing the same thing or thinking girls or Quidditch when he asked, "Do you like Lucius?"
"What?" I was taken aback. Why would he ask that?
"Do you like Lucius Malfoy?" he repeated. He didn't look at me. It was like he was scared to hear me answer.
"I don't know, maybe." He visibly flinched at my answer. "I can't just forget all of the things he has done to us and what he is." Sirius seemed to relax a bit, but he still wouldn't look at me. "I am not going to lie to you and tell you that I positively hate him because I don't. I hate what he stands for and I would never join You-Know-Who. I am just really confused; I am not getting out of the engagement anytime soon. Please don't get mad at me." I looked at him and held my breath.
He didn't say anything for a long time and I was still holding my breath. If he didn't say anything soon I was going to pass out, "I'm not mad at you." He said plainly. I could finally breathe!
I smiled, now that fresh air filled my lungs. Then I realized that Sirius reply was not very convincing, "You suck at lying." I told him. He got up without a word and walked into an alley.
"Wait!" I called after him. I got up rather ungracefully and ran after him (also rather ungraceful). "Will you wait?" I asked, not very pleased he made me get up from my spot and follow him.
He turned around and looked at me; I could see his stormy, grey eyes even in the dark alley. They were usually so happy and carefree, but now they were sad and it seemed as if he had aged twenty years. He looked like he did when he had a fight with his mother. It was enough to make me want to give him a hug and apologize for anything I had ever done. "Please don't look at me like that," I told him.
"I am not looking at you in any particular way." He said, quickly breaking eye contact with me. It wasn't sarcastic, or cocky, it sounded more like he was a shy child and someone just asked him his name.
"Sirius," I walked closer to him. He didn't back up which was a good sign, but he still wouldn't make eye contact with me. I was very aware that we were only a few inches apart. I put my hand on his face and lifted his chin gently so that he was forced to look me in the eyes.
"Katie, please don't." It was as if it caused him pain to look at me.
"Why, Sirius? Why is it so hard to look at me, to talk to me and to be around me?" I asked. He pushed my hand away and started to pace around the alley.
He ran a hand through his hair nervously and turned to face me, "It hurts too much." I stood there, unable to move from my spot. It hurts too much? I make him hurt? Is this even real? All of these thoughts were racing around my head.
"I don't mean to." With all of the responses consuming my thoughts that was what I came up with. Sirius actually smiled at my poor attempt of response, "Ha, I got you to smile." I said trying to make it less awkward, but it only made him immediately frown.
"Just forget I said anything." He started to walk back to the street, but I grabbed his arm.
"I can't just forget, Sirius. If you have a problem with me I need to know. I can't stand not being friends with you. Not being able to laugh with you and talk with you has been hell. I miss you Sirius, I miss the way we used to be. I don't care about Lucius or my family or anyone else for that matter. I care about us." I said the last part as sternly as I could.
"You don't get it do you?" Sirius asked me, still looking at his feet.
"I want to get it. I want to know what you are feeling. You just have to tell me." He didn't say anything for a moment, but then he finally looked at me.
"It kills me to see you with Lucius. It kills me to see every guy in school drooling over you and I can't do anything about it. I want to strangle anyone who even thinks about you in any sort of non-platonic way. I hate that I am the one who causes you pain or confusion. I want to be the one that says everything is going to be okay. When Remus was holding you and you kissed him, I wanted to take you from his arms and punch him straight in the face. I never get mad at Remus, especially not for that. You make me crazy, but in a strange way I like it."
I wanted to say something, but nothing could describe how I felt. No words could be said to express how confused, excited, thankful, scared, angry, and happy I felt. That didn't even scratch the surface on everything I was feeling. I had wanted to hear this for seven years and now that he did, it seemed so surreal.
Before I knew it, I felt the soft lips of Sirius Black against mine. Whatever I had felt with Thomas, Lucius, or any other random Greek guy was nothing compared to this. I wrapped my arms about his neck and ran my hands through his hair. I felt his hands on my hips and then on my thighs. He pushed my against the wall, there wasn't a part of our bodies that weren't touching.
I let out a soft moan as he moved from my mouth to my neck and back up again. He started to unbutton my shirt and that's when I pulled away, "Stop," I didn't mean to say it like that, but I was not going to have sex with Sirius for the first time in an alley in Hogsmeade.
"I'm sorry, I shouldn't have." Sirius was breathless, as was I. He backed away slightly. His hair was ruffled and his lips were tinted pink. Oh my god, was I turning into one of those girls? No, I had the control to say no.
"It's okay. I just don't want to ruin this, whatever it is." I brushed a stray peace of hair behind my ear and looked towards that street.
"We should probably get back; they will be looking for us." Sirius suggested. As much as I wanted to stay with him and never go back to Lucius, I had to.
"You're probably right." We started to head back to Hogwarts not speaking a word. I knew we were both thinking the same thing, "What are we going to do?"
"I don't know. I wish I knew." Sirius replied, taking my hand in his.
"I don't think we should say anything, not just yet. We need to figure this out, and our friends will not help. Arianna will most likely kill me if she finds out and I would like to prolong that for as long as I can." Sirius shuddered at the thought of the wrath Arianna.
"I know what you mean, but I don't want to hide it." He squeezed my hand gently and pulled my closer to him.
"You think I want to hide that I am dating the sexiest man to ever set foot in Hogwarts?" I mocked.
He raised an eyebrow, "You think I'm sexy?"
"I'm not blind," I scoffed.
He picked me up by the hips and twirled me around, "I'm not blind either." With that he pulled me into another kiss. It was filled with more love and passion than before. It was less urgent and lust filled, dare I say it was love filled. As I opened my mouth once more I felt his tongue asking for permission and without another thought I had my tongue in his. We were in the Middle of the street and I could tell people were staring, "Hey kids! Shouldn't you be in class or something?" a man yelled and I looked up. "Shouldn't you be in a retirement home?" Sirius yelled back.
I hit him on the arm and we ran into Honeydukes laughing our heads off. "You should really learn some manners." I said playfully as we walked down the passage way to Hogwarts.
"I was just showing my affection; besides that guy obviously hasn't gotten any in ages." He opened that latch and we climbed out.
"As true as that may be, it's still not nice." I playfully scolded him.
"Who said I was nice, love?" he said as we climbed out of the hole in the floor, before pulling me into a kiss.
"Well this is quite the scandal," I familiar voice said. Sirius and I immediately break apart looking at the person who just found out my biggest secret. That lasted long.
"Regulus," Sirius snarled. He stepped in front of me to protect me from anything. I couldn't help but smile about how sweet he was.
"My brother and my friend's fiancé snogging in the middle of the hallway; I think Lucius would love to hear about this," Regulus said with a smug look on his face.
"Wait!" I shrieked, stepping beside Sirius. "Please, you can't tell Lucius. He will be pissed."
He smiled widely, "Exactly, then he will torture my brother and who knows what he'll do with you, whore." I had never been called a whore in my life and I didn't exactly like it.
"You speak to her like that again and you will regret it." Sirius pulled out his wand and I could see the rage in his stormy, gorgeous, grey eyes.
"Are you going really to fight me, brother?" Regulus mocked, but I could tell he was scared. Sirius is older than him by two years and a better dueler.
"I am not your brother." Sirius says in a deep, serious voice. I can tell that it hit Regulus hard. It even hurt me a bit. I never had siblings, but telling Lily that we weren't friends anymore would be impossible.
"Then I have nothing holding me back then," Regulus said. His voice a bit shaky, like he was biting back a sob.
"Reg, please." I put my hand on Sirius' arms signaling him to put away his wand. Reluctantly he puts it away and Regulus sighs slightly. "We used to be friends. Remember that one time when we were at the Malfoy's for a tea party with your mother and my grandmother? We were playing hide and seek, Lucius was it and he had already found you and he made you look with him. I was hiding behind a dresser and you saw me but you didn't tell him and I won the chocolate frog." It made me smile thinking about it. I even saw a faint trace of smile leap across Regulus' lips as well.
"Then you shared the chocolate frog with me and taught me about baseball." I remember him being so confused when he learned that there was no magic involved or brooms.
"Reg, if there is anything good left in your heart then you won't tell him." I stepped toward him once more.
"Fine, but I am not doing it for him." He glared at Sirius and Sirius glared right back.
"Thank you, thank you, thank you!" I was so overcome with relief and happiness I gave him a hug. "See you around, Reg." I whispered in his ear before I let go of him and walked back to Sirius. He put and arm around me and I knew he was telling Regulus never to touch me again.
Without another word, we parted and walked to the Great Hall for dinner. Before walking in we put a good distance between us and tried to detach myself from my feelings for Sirius. "Where have you been?" Lily shrieked as she saw us coming in. "You missed four classes! What were you thinking?"
I looked at Sirius and smiled slightly, "I needed to thank him for saving my ass back in Potions."
She raised her eyebrows, "What exactly did you do to thank him?" she asked suspiciously.
"I locked him in a broom closet with a Hufflepuff." I tried to evade any suspicion of us being together in any way that was not platonic.
"It went swimmingly," Sirius said to help make it sound truthful.
"You two know each other too well." Lily shook her head and took a bite of her chicken leg. Sirius and I smiled at each other and helped ourselves to food.
Dinner was rather uneventful until someone decided to pay me a visit. I felt a warm hand on my cheek and looked up to see a smirking Lucius, "You and I have some unfinished business to attend to." He said seductively.
"Piss off, Malfoy," Sirius snarled. So that's why he has been especially rude to Lucius and the Snakes, he was jealous.
Instead of glaring at him and telling him off, he just smiled like he had just won, "I think that is for my fiancé to decide, isn't it?" Lucius turned back to me, "Come on, I know this perfect little room in the Astronomy Tower that no one ever goes in." he took my hand and pulled me up.
"Like she would sleep with you," James said, ready to punch his lights out.
"Oh, I think she would." He pulled me closer and kissed my neck. It sent chills down my spine, his hot breath tickled just a bit. Sirius practically leapt across the table and tackled Lucius. He got on top of him and started punching every inch of his face.
McGonagall and some other teachers yelled at him to stop, but he didn't listen. Lucius cried out in pain, but was able to flip him over and start punching Sirius. Now I knew they were fighting over me. As much as I loved this, if I didn't stop it soon they were going to kill each other. "Lucius, get off of him!" I screamed and punched him in the back, which was not very affective.
I finally had the sense to take out my wand, "Petrificus totalus," Lucius froze and landed next to Sirius. "Are you okay?" I asked as I kneeled down by Sirius making sure he wasn't severely injured. He had a bloody nose and a bruise already forming on his right cheek bone.
"You still won't let me fight him?" he said weakly with a smirk.
"I didn't want you to mess up his face." I smirked back. We both laughed at the sound of McGonagall yelling at us. "Looks like I will be joining you in detention." I helped him up and took him to the hospital wing.
Whoa! Sirius and Katie, who knew? Oh wait, I did. Can they tell their friends? Will someone find out? Will Katie find a friend in someone she never thought possible? You will have to wait and see.
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