Chapter Two
I open my eyes and notice it's still dark out. I was only asleep for a couple hours.
Willow's spell definitely worked and I'm really happy about that but I wish I could've said something to B before everything ended. I wanted her to know that I understand why she would doubt me and that I don't care. Now that she knows I have no intention of ever being with anyone but her maybe she'll learn to trust me completely.
It's at least fifteen minutes before I feel my body start to relax again. Whatever Willow did to make the spell work had my body buzzing everywhere but it's starting to calm down and I think maybe I'll be able to get some sleep. My muscles are starting to relax again.
I start to think over what I'm gonna say to B in the morning when I see her. There's always a chance she still won't talk to me, and maybe not Willow now either, but she's not that stubborn. After all this time, I know how to read her and she believed what we just saw. There was zero cheating, only me trying my best to get back to the hotel before she stopped waiting up for me.
The door to my room opens and closes but I don't turn to see who it is. I know it's B. No one else would ever think of coming into my room without knocking. They would have a serious problem if they did and that would be me knocking their asses out before they got within two feet into the room.
She slowly slides under the blankets when she reaches the bed and that's when I turn to her. Our eyes meet and I can't hold back anymore. I reach for her and take her into my arms, feeling her cry a little as she buries her face in the crook of my neck.
I hear her mumble something but I can't make it out. "It's okay, B."
"No, it's not," she says after a minute. "You were telling me the truth and I didn't believe you. I didn't trust you enough. How can you want to be with me after that?"
I let out a slow breath. "You know how I used to run from relationships and that I'd never tried to stay with just one person, that I didn't want to. It's not hard to believe that I got drunk and couldn't stick with it."
It hurts to say something like that 'cause I believe I've changed and I want everyone else to think that, too. It seems like all the bad I did in Sunnydale was a lifetime ago and not just a matter of years. I've done a lot to make up for all that but people still remember. There are still times when I feel others waiting for me to switch sides.
"I'm sorry," B says quietly.
The feel of her in my arms again is incredible, something I missed more than anything else. I wish she wasn't crying though. I press my lips against the top of her head and rub her back a little. We need to talk more but I want her to stop crying first.
It takes a few minutes but she calms down and we simply lie there. I listen to her steady breathing and realize that was how I got to sleep before we broke up. Sleep was always something I struggled with until I started hooking up with B. After that, I don't know what happened. I just felt safe enough to relax when she was next to me.
"Buffy," I say as I move her away so I can look into her amazing eyes, "we need to trust each other. I want you so much right now it hurts but I don't want to have to always think twice about something 'cause I don't know if you trust me enough."
She nods. "I know, baby. I get so scared that you'll realize you don't want me and then the girls told me what happened and showed me that picture. All I could think was it finally happened and it hurt so much. Then you came back and acted like nothing happened . . . my brain exploded. I couldn't think rationally."
"You're the only one I want." I shift us a little so we're more on our sides and facing each other. "You're the first thing on my mind when I go to sleep and you're the first thought in my head when I wake up. I can't get you outta my head and I don't want to. I love you, Buffy."
B smiles and then her lips on are mine. We kiss softly, nothing deep or passionate. I know I want us back together and my mind is already thinking of B naked and underneath me . . . or on me . . . or pressed against a wall . . . maybe in the shower, too.
I haven't gotten any action in the two weeks since we broke up and before that there wasn't many nights where we didn't have some naked fun. Now that she's in my bed again my mind is only thinking of one thing.
When we break apart, her smile is still there. "I love you, too, Faith. I want to spend the rest of my life with you."
There are some strong implications in what she just said and I'm not completely sure she meant to say what she did. Sure, I want to spend the rest of my life with her but I've never actually said it yet. I kind of wanted to wait for a more romantic setting. You know, not when she just found out that she was wrong and I'm as faithful as can be.
I kiss her softly, keeping an arm around her. "I feel the same, baby."
"I've missed you," she whispers and I feel her hands start to move over my body. "It's been so lonely in our room. I feel like I have so much to make up for."
Now this is interesting. I didn't expect us to get any sort of horizontal tonight or even that B would be in my bed at the moment. The fact that B has her hands on me and suddenly under my shirt is very unexpected. My mind is blank as to how to handle it.
"B . . ."
"I wanna get you naked, Faith," B says as she lifts up my shirt. She sighs as I place my hands on her, too. "I know we still have a lot to talk about but unless that talk is gonna end with us breaking up for good, something neither of us want, there's no harm in reminding ourselves why we belong together."
I grin at that 'cause she's right. We can wait to have sex until we talk it out but we both want to be together. We know how that talk will end. I can't see any harm in getting naked. In fact, I can only see the two of us having a hell of a lot of fun.
We kiss again but this time it's deeper and more passionate. I wrap my arms around her and roll so I'm on my back and she's on top of me. She breaks away to smile before beginning to kiss down my neck. I sigh out quietly at the action, something I know she likes to hear. B once told me hearing me sigh out or moan was a huge turn on for her.
"B, I love what you're doing but let's lose the clothes."
She's sitting up on her knees in a matter of seconds and pulls me up with her. We pull each other's tops off and start kissing again, fast and almost sloppily. B seems to wanna go fast and I have no problem with that right now. It has been two weeks since I've had any sex.
I kick my shorts off and she does the same with her pajama bottoms before we're on each other again. I try to kiss her anywhere my lips will reach but she's trying hard to be the one in control and I guess that's okay. Just the feel of her skin against mine has got me insanely wet. Only B has been able to do that to me. She's the only one with that power.
B kisses down to my breasts, almost immediately taking a nipple into her mouth and sucking. I arch into her at that and grip her shoulders are as she basically sets up camp on my breasts. She moves from one to another and even back again, keeping the moans coming out of me.
After that she moves down, kissing my stomach while she pulls down my panties. I want her to take hers off, too, 'cause then I'll be able to feel all of her against me. There is no greater feeling in the world.
When she continues to kiss down my body I have to pull her back up to her. I figured she might look a little worried but when we're face to face she looks more annoyed than anything.
"What's wrong, baby? I wanna taste you."
"Later, babe," I whisper as I leave a lingering kiss on her lips, "but right now I want to feel you all over me."
She smiles at that and soon her panties are gone and she positions herself so we're pressed together in all the important places. I can't stop the moans from coming out of me as she starts up a rhythm and my body moves with hers instantly.
B is the only person I've ever let have this sort of control over me. Normally, I'm the one on top and directing the action. She's the only one who convinced me that it was okay to lie back and let her take over for awhile.
We kiss sloppily as we move faster against each other and she whispers to me. "I missed you so much, Faith. I love you."
I grip her back tightly and I already feel that I'm so close. "I love you, too. I'm gonna come all over you, baby."
She lets out a low moan that's probably as close as she'll ever get to a growl and thrusts harder against me. We only last another couple minutes before we're coming hard against each other, both of us crying out into the room.
As we slow to a stop B collapses against me and we both try to catch our breath. I keep my arms wrapped tightly around her, making sure she doesn't even think of moving. She's the only one I've ever wanted on top of me like this and I can't believe how much I missed this. I want nothing more than for us to fall asleep like this.
Once we've calmed down I feel her place light kisses on my shoulder then up my neck until she's looking down on me. I take a hand and move the hair out of her face before letting it rest on her cheek. She closes her eyes and smiles at the action before turning her head and kissing my palm.
"Next time I do something stupid, just remind me of this, okay?" she says quietly before kissing me again.
"Hmm, deal." We kiss softly for a minute before breaking away. "I'll just remind you that this is all I want."
She rests against me and closes her eyes. "Good plan."
The morning comes too quick and I wish I could sleep a few more hours but it's Christmas morning and there's a lot to do. There's a big breakfast planned and then there's presents. For B's sake hopefully several of them.
I stretch out on the bed and look around. Last night was the first night I was officially moved back into our room and the "celebration" lasted most of the night. I was thrilled to finally get out of that drafty guest room even though I was the one holding everything up.
In my mind, we needed to be sure about getting back together 'cause this time it's for good. She really is the only one for me but I wanted to make sure she was past thinking that I might leave her. Until she said that to me after the spell I had no idea she had ever thought something like that. She always seemed more confident in our relationship than that.
I mean, if I, the hater of staying with someone for more than a night, can actually say that we were in a relationship without running she shouldn't have a problem, right?
So we took a few days to kind of get used to each other again. We didn't tell anyone we were gonna get back together or anything but I'm sure everyone knew something was up 'cause we started talking to each other again and B didn't run from any room I was in. We were more civil and there were a couple times someone caught one of us leave the other's room. That started some rumors.
At least no one knows Willow helped me out with B, not yet anyway. I'm sure once we've actually told people they'll want to know how it happened but neither of us have thought of a good reason yet. I'm betting Willow will be the one to break and admit she did some helping.
B's not in bed with me but I hear the shower turn off so I know she'll be joining me again in a minute. I wonder how she managed to get up without waking me. She could normally never get out of my arms without waking me.
"Good morning," I hear her say. When I turn to look at her I see she's only in a towel. "You slept longer than I thought you would."
"Guess I was really, really comfortable," I respond, grinning. "How'd you sneak out without waking me up?"
"I have my ways."
She walks over to the bed and I sit up to meet her, the blankets falling away from me and exposing my naked body, causing me to shiver as the cool air hits me. B eyes me up and down and moves to sit on my side of the bed. We lean in at the same time and share a light good morning kiss. It feels like the couple of weeks where we were broken up didn't even happen.
"Next time I'll get you up so you can join me."
My grin gets wider. "That sounds like something that should happen daily."
"I'm okay with that," she says and leans in to kiss me again. "I love you."
"Love you, too." I pull at her until she's on my lap and tickle her lightly, causing her to giggle. "Too bad we can't stay in here all day."
"Have to do the family thing this morning. It is Christmas."
I hold her close to me and her body relaxes against mine. I wonder that the odds are of her joining me in the shower even though she already took one. I can be very convincing. "But I already got what I wanted," I say as I place a couple kisses on her neck.
"I don't know about that," she mumbles and I bet she's got her eyes closed. She loves those little kisses on her neck. "I had Xander pick out your present. Some sort of game, I think?"
"Yeah?" I love any game where I can kill things and Xander and Kennedy are the only two who I would trust to get something decent. They're the two in the house I normally play with. "As much as I'll love whatever you got me I don't think it can complete with what we did last night."
"I'll remind you that you said that the next time you're having a competition with Xander and tell me you'll be upstairs in thirty minutes but it's more like two hours." She kisses me with a little smirk on her face. "Last night was pretty amazing."
I rest my forehead against hers and let out a slow breath. "You can tell me later if it was better than what I got you."
B lights up at that. She really does loves presents. "Is it something you have up here? Can I open it now?"
It's tempting to have her open it here 'cause I bet I can get a little morning action out of it but I can wait. The earrings cost me a fortune but I know she'll love them. I had to rush out and get them a week ago 'cause I sure as hell wasn't gonna get her diamonds if we weren't together. When she opens it in front of everyone, that'll tell everyone we're back together without us having to say a word.
"I think you can wait," I say then kiss the cute little pout she has. "I can give you something else now though."
I pull away the towel slowly and move my hands over the exposed skin. She's so beautiful I have to remember to breathe when I look at her and I think this is the best Christmas morning ever, especially now that her hands are on me, too.
"I think you need another shower, B," whisper in her ear and smile as she shivers.
"Maybe I do."
That's I need to pick her up and start walking to the bathroom with her giggling in my arms.
Merry Christmas to me!
The End
