Hello, to whoever who's reading this! If you have been reading, thank you very much and I'm sorry for the wait! I had too much homework and I only started writing today, because I just finished homework. Anyway, I spent the whole afternoon and night writing this so I hope you will like it! Hence, do enjoy and feel free to drop me comments on how to improve! Thank you for reading and have a lovely 2012 year ahead! Okay, so now I sound like some overly enthusiastic emcee. But whatever. Once again, Inuyasha is not mine and you know what I want to say so I shan't say it. Toodles!
-Months later-
"You're gone now, Hikari," Rin cried miserably. She knew it was immature of her to cry since she was practically an adult, but the pain over losing her dog to death overpowered any mature instincts that she had.
Yet another death.
She was afraid of death. Not that she was afraid for her life which could never be returned if she died again, but the lives of people or animals that she cared about. Ever since her family lost their lives to bandits, she had never wanted to see anyone she loved die in front of her. She hated the fact that she couldn't save them. Thinking of Hikari, she cried silently.
A few months ago, she passed by a dog on her way home. The pitiful thing was mauled by unknown vicious beings. It would have been adorable if not for its bitten-off ears and scratched body. It was now ugly, but she loved it. She carefully took it home and bathed it in Kaede ba-chan's medicine. No matter how hard it was, she knew she had to nurse it back to health. She named it Hikari and adopted it because it reminded her of Sesshomaru-sama. It had shiny white fur which sometimes looked like Sesshomaru-sama's long-flowing hair. To top it off, with its missing foreleg, Hikari looked even more like a miniature Sesshomaru-sama. Her love for her protector latched onto the small dog as well.
Although Hikari got better considerably, Kaede ba-chan told her that Hikari would not live for long. She refused to believe it. Hikari would live to a ripe old age with her. Nevertheless, Kaede ba-chan was indeed right and Hikari passed away. Her Hikari, her spark of light was now dead.
She cried hard. Her locked up pain for her beloved puppy was finally released. And with that, all her other pains locked away as memories came out of her tears as well.
The pain when Sesshomaru-sama left her at the village.
The pain when words were hinted that Sesshomaru-sama would never come back for her.
The pain of being despised by fellow children who said she didn't know how to be human.
Her agony came pouring out as tears. She longed for Sesshomaru-sama. He was the lock to her pain. When he was near her, her pain would magically dissipate in air and she would feel safe once more. But Sesshomaru-sama wasn't there for her now.
Was he never going to come back and take her away? Was he building his empire with Jaken-sama and had forgotten all about her? She was confused. In the mixture of feelings, she didn't know what was wrong and what was right anymore. She sat beside the grave of Hikari and touched the gravestone. Her tears splashed on the grave and she opened her lips.
"Thank you for being in my little life, Hikari. You've kept me smiling even when Sesshomaru-sama is not with me. I'm really sad that I can no longer hear you bark playfully," She could not speak any further. Her lips trembled as new tears began rolling down. Just then, a hand lifted her chin. She looked up and saw the most perfect person, her Sesshomaru-sama.
He wiped away her tears silently while she sat in shock. It was him. It was really him. The hand that had held numerous deadly swords and poisoned many lives was now gently caressing her face. She looked at him tearfully. His face was the usual expression, but this time, there was something else.
It was what she saw on Inuyasha-san's face when he fetched Kagome-san from miko training. Her Sesshomaru-sama had a hint of his half-brother's expression. She was puzzled, but also elated. Even though Hikari was gone, but the appearance of Sesshomaru-sama made her temporarily forget all that.
He let his hand drop from her face and stood up. Drawing Tenseiga, he forced open the grave by sheer will and lifted Hikari in the air. She widened her eyes in shock. What was her Sesshomaru-sama doing?
The truth was revealed when he slashed at Hikari. He dropped the dead puppy at her lap and looked down at her. She looked up at him and then looked down. Within a few seconds, the puppy opened its eyes, like it had never died and was just sleeping. She gasped. Did Sesshomaru-sama revive Hikari for her sake? She looked up again.
"Don't cry anymore. It's ugly," He looked at her carefully. She smiled and wiped her tears , she placed Hikari on her shoulder and stood up.
What she did was unexpected of her.
She rushed to him and held him tight. It didn't matter if he would push her away. All she wanted was to express her gratitude, and words could not be sufficient. So she hugged him instead. She felt no resistance from him, but he didn't hug her back either. But that was all right.
The puppy barked and jumped down. He began sniffing and circling Sesshomaru. After it decided it liked him, it nuzzled its nose on his hakama pants. She finally let go and giggled at Hikari's affection for her Sesshomaru-sama. Sesshomaru-sama, on the other hand, looked at Hikari with distaste and picked the puppy up. He placed it in her hand and walked out of the forest. She followed dutifully. Now that Hikari was resurrected and her Sesshomaru-sama was also back to visit her, she felt really happy.
"Ano ne, Sesshomaru-sama, Rin is once again thankful to you," She said shyly. He looked up to the sky and closed his golden eyes.
"I was just passing by," That was forever his favourite sentence. She smiled again.
He stopped in front of her home and without a word, left. It was sad to see him go, but it was enough. Now that she knew that Sesshomaru-sama was on the lookout for her, she was relieved of one of her questions. If he wasn't on the lookout for her, how would he know of her little crying jag? And then, how would he have appeared in the midst of her despair? It was either that or that he simply knew. Either way, she was all right with it.
Dawn broke. She started with her daily chores. While washing clothes, she overheard girls from her village discuss about one young man named Sentaro Hamasaki.
"Oh dear, Sentaro-kun is definitely the most good-looking male in this village! He's the best choice for a husband!" One girl squealed.
"Yes, I couldn't agree more!" Another gushed. She shook her head and frowned. Those girls were foolish. What did they see in Hamasaki-kun? She, in fact, did not like him much. Instead of charming, she found him annoying. Whenever they met, he would always make snide comments and taunt her. Yes, he was handsome, but that mouth of his was intolerable. Not only did he insult her, he had also insulted her Sesshomaru-sama, which was uncalled for. Sesshomaru-sama was in every way better than him. He was kind, beautiful and caring. Hamasaki-kun was the direct opposite. In terms of beauty, she found Sesshomaru-sama more beautiful than Hamasaki-kun. And since Hamasaki-kun insulted Sesshomaru-sama, she could not forgive him. No one was allowed to insult Sesshomaru-maru. No one! Feeling annoyed, she turned to the girls and started.
"Why do you like Hamasaki-kun? I, myself for one, feel that he's a mean person. That boy insulted my Sesshomaru-sama!" She gritted her teeth together. However, the girls ignored her and began speaking in hushed tones.
"What does she know? Her Sesshomaru-sama, indeed. He's nothing but a evil demon. Although Kaede-sama allows him to come, it should come as evident that demons and humans should never mix. These scary and inhumane creatures ought to be exterminated. I don't know what's wrong with Kaede-sama. She actually allowed this girl to live here. This girl, who has been living with demons since young, calling him "Sesshomaru-sama"! What a joke! Killing perfection? The name alone speaks for the demon's nature. "Sesshomaru-sama" is an unnatural being. He should be killed!"
She couldn't take it anymore. She threw down her washing and stood up.
"This girl's name is Rin! For your information, Sesshomaru-sama is not evil! Demons and human can actually live together! Why are we discriminating all demons because of what some demons did? Many demons are kind! They are even nicer than humans, who kill for their selfish cravings! Sesshomaru-sama does not kill without reason! He's the kindest person I've ever met! He saved me from the dead twice and he resurrected Hikari! You call that evil?" She was upset that people were ignorant.
In a huff, she left with her unwashed clothing, planning to wash somewhere else. To her surprise, Kagome-san was washing downstream. She ran to her and washed with her in silence. A few moments later, Kagome broke in.
"Ne, Rin-chan, you seem angry today. What happened?" Kagome smiled gently.
"It was those two girls there. They claimed demons are evil. Demons are not scary! Why would they insult him, the person who done so much for me? Who cares if he's a demon? Is being a demon a bad thing? Demons are able to protect themselves! Humans are weaker! Nevertheless, they still spoil his name and irritate me! Most of all, demons can live with humans! That has happened before, so why can't it happen now? I am so unhappy with this!" She muttered furiously, rubbing the clothes together with ferocious strength.
"Rin, I'm proud of you. You think differently. Of course, that might have to do with you following Sesshomaru when you were young," Kagome-san pondered aloud. "Rin-chan, have you fallen in love with a demon, though? No one would react to this so strongly without having any underlying reasons," Now Kagome-san looked concerned.
She went stone-cold. The only demons she came across and liked were Sesshomaru-sama and Jaken-sama. Obviously she knew she did not fall in love with Jaken-sama, since he often disapproved of her with them. Jaken-sama was like a grandfather to her.
But Sesshomaru-sama? Was she in love with Sesshomaru-sama? She caught Kagome-san looking at her curiously and she continued washing without answering. But she was deep in thought all the while.
She knew she loved Sesshomaru-sama, but was she in love with Sesshomaru-sama? That she didn't know and was also confused over it. What was love? What exactly did "in love" mean? Did it mean Inuyasha-san and Kagome-san? Or did it mean something else?
It was all too confusing for her little head.
Note: Yes, I know, I suck at making character realise that they love the guy. And I think I made Rin a little aggressive. I'd like to think of her as a nice girl unless you insult Sesshomaru. Then she'll be like, hey, why are you so mean? So I wanted her to be angry in a tame way. Not some mother tiger that I unfortunately kinda depicted her as. So, I am extremely sorry for my lack of vocabulary and in-depth whatever. But thank you for reading. :)
