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It had been weeks since Gohan found his little brother's body, he(Gohan) remembered how the background of the house perfectly portrayed the state he had found his little brother in.

Broken and Alone.

The stench that infiltrated his nose made him recoil in disgust. Almost as if all the battles fought in his young life, hadn't prepared him for this. He wasn't a stranger to death, he had died, his father had died countless times, everyone around him had died. But the sight before him, made his stomach churn, it made him want to expel everything currently held within vowels of his stomach.

It was a horrible feeling. Not even Cell had induced such a sickening feeling.

It had been years since he last thought about his little brother, but recently something kept nagging at him, pulling at his blood. It didn´t let him sleep, and so

in his disoriented and Confused state he looked for an answer.

Quickly he flew to his old house hoping that maybe it would trigger some form of memory. Anything that would give him a clue on the nagging feeling however, the feeling increased the closer he got to his old home. He knew, since his blood seemed to beat faster and his palms felt overly sweaty.

Blood never forgets. It was fickle yes, but it never forgot. And yet the closer he got to his mothers home, the more it tore at his determination. Because something told him his baby brother, the same person he had brought to this world was in trouble. Such a revelation destroyed all self worth he contained as an brother.

Desperately he searched for his brother, he searched through this house that contained so many memories for him. And as he looked around he noticed the broken and depressing shape his old home had taken. It was obvious that his beautiful memories didn´t exist anymore it was obvious the moment he noticed the whimpering body near the door.

Fait was cruel. And he handn´t noticed just how...until he heard his brothers silent plea

"Mommy" the young boy whimpered

"Goten!" he screamed. Trying to awake the boy from whatever nightmare he was currently having

But nothing stirred the younger Son…the former Goten that he knew was now gone, and what replaced him was this empty shell. An empty shell that clung to his T-shirt desperately

"Sorry" he kept whispering

Gohan didn't understand why the young boy kept apologizing. It wasn't right. If anything he(Gohan) should of been the one pleading for forgiveness, he should of been in this situation, not Goten.

Not a child.

And so he hugged the younger figure as gently as he could, trying to warm the now limp figure in his arms. Slowly he rose above the ground leaving behind the very same place that had brought him(Gohan) the happiest memories.


And the months quickly passed.

Goten had found himself smiling again. Everyday he would wake up curled up in his brothers bed, Gohan didn't mind. Sometimes the older saiyan would wake up before his baby brother and just stared because it had revived memories of happier days. Because staring at the child before him hurt to much. The very same person he had brought into the world was currently wounded and hurt, the very same person he had promised to protect...he had failed

This time he would be his savior.

Unbeknown to Gohan, the young child would stay in his own room and cry. A part of him still expecting his mothers return.

"I hate that I let you down, and I feel so bad about it, I guess Karma comes back around cuz I'm the one that's hurting now" he whispered placing his legs near his chest, resting his head on his knees.

His life? was broken. Consumed in a world filled with guilt and self loathing because when his mother smiled, he knew that smile was never for him. Those beautiful gestures he desperately sough after were for his father, the person he looked like.

Making him the very reason his mother cried at night.

Maybe if he had died, his mother would have been happier he would think. Since it seemed that everything was fine way before he was born, because before him there was a loving mother, a loving father and a happy child.

It was his fault.

The depression and the guilt had drowned him, the wounds given to him offered him an escape. Redemption he called it.

Until one day Gohan noticed the depression building up

"I love you so much, little brother"

….With those words…..

Goten stopped moving choking on whatever words he was trying to form...

I was given the answer to the one question I had my entire life.

It gave me the reason for my existence. And for the first time, I took charge of my own life and I came out into the world. Because even thought my feelings of love had been shattered, they didn´t disappear.


GOHANNNN!" Yelled Goten

Gohan quickly came running, he had been currently grading papers…

Gohan, after leaving home under the pretext that he loved Videl, obtained his P.H.D in Physics and Math, and taught at his old local High School. He never loved Videl the way she loved him….he wasn't ready to love just yet. And the pressure's of his mother weren't really helping. And so he used Videl. Well not use her, he clearly explained to her that he wasn't ready to settle down. Because he was a saiyan, and being a saiyan meant that he wouldn't age like humans did. So there was no rush.

And so he waited…waited for the day he would truly fall in love.

"Gote-" came his reply, but before he pronounced the N in his name, Goten had tackled him to the floor.

"Big Brother, I'm bored. Let's play…better yet let's train!"

Gohan grumbled but non-the-less he nodded, he couldn't say no to those big puppy dog eyes. Plus, he(Gohan), had spoiled the shit out of his little brother the minute he had brought him home. There were still some challenges he was facing. Even as the months passed by, he still couldn't remember why he had forgotten Goten, or how he had remembered. It must have been his Saiyan blood. That's what he believed, blood never forgets. And he was glad.

It wasn't easy living with Goten:

1. Brothers got into fights….but whenever he yelled, Goten would look at him with wide eyes and then, proceed to lower his head in defeat

2. Another thing that Gohan found difficult was hand contact with Goten, of-course Goten is just a child, so when he wanted to hold the boys hand, when crossing the street, Goten would quickly hide his hands, and look at his as if he were a monster.

3. Communication was another big thing. Goten never told him how he felt, no matter how scared he was…his suspicion lead him to believe that the young boy didn't want to bother him…father like son

4. Goten never talked about Chichi his mother.

But now his brother smiled, danced, but he was a tad dumb. Not dumb more like naive…very NAÏVE. It scared him. But for some reason something bothered him, Goten's stubbornness when it came to his studies. Goten had begged him to teach him, and whenever he did, the young child paid attention almost as if his life had desperately depended on it. He wondered why?

"GOHHAANNNNN!" Goten yelled again

"Fine….Fine…." He replied, but he was scared, the boy had recovered fast, but his body had not, especially since he felt like Goten was hiding something important from him. For example, brothers changed in front of each other, but Goten for some reason always ran, and dressed in the dark or in the bathroom.

Plus lately, the younger boy's body seemed, a tad curvier. At first his theory was that it was the lack of proteins, his body lacked. But then nothing changed, his muscles didn't come back, and the boy apparently was really good at suppressing his Ki.

"GOOOHHHHAAnNNN!"

"Alright!"

They took there fighting stances. And Gohan quickly attacked….Goten didn't move. Something wasn't right, just like before his body failed to summon it's strength, it wouldn't listen to him. Before his body would rush with adrenaline and his heart would quicken in excitement. But now, his body shivered and fear, soon engulfed him.

Run away

His body screamed. He had feared this conclusion, but never wanted to admit it. The reason why his body was carved, no…he was just rusty, that was all….

"KA-ME-HA-ME"

Goten looked up as we heard those very words, he couldn't stop Gohan from charging. His voice wouldn't listen to him, and everything had dried, almost as if he hadn't drank-ed water in days. This was the end, after everything he had been through… this was finally the end. Finally someone had loved him, accepted him for the way he looked, and took the time to explain what he had done wrong….finally he was standing on his own and for what….just to be stopped by his inability to use his saiyan powers…

"GOHHHAAAANNNN!" he cried

Quickly the wave was stopped

"what's wrong squirt?"

Goten quickly opened his eyes but stayed a distance away…..he felt dirty, he wasn't a saiyan anymore. Life was punishing him…that was what he believed

"I'm(hic)…..I can't feel it anymore Gohan, it's not here. The warm feeling, it's gone all of it….for years, it's gone…" he cried

How is it possible for a saiyan to lose his powers? Gohan quickly panicked and carried Goten to Capsule Corporation. Maybe the Prince would be able to help him figure it out.

Goten just looked at the city before him understanding his fathers love for this planet.

Just like his father he wanted to protect it. He never knew his father, and Chichi had always told him that he didn't need that man, but the way Gohan spoke about him, did the opposite. He wanted his father, he wanted to meet the man Gohan spoke so fondly about.

The air passed through his body and it eased his pain…..and it numbed his back, for once he was happy, truly happy.

However he never allowed this happiness to last...

I don't remember when her religion had become so dark and twisted, all I knew was that I was all alone….

Suddenly I was thrown high into the air, I laughed…..I didn't fear falling because I trusted Gohan with all my life. The only thing I feared was waking up, and realizing that I had never moved from the kitchen floor, that no one had rescued me.

"Gotcha squirt"

And yet this man easily managed to defeat my demons. Because these hands proved that I wasn´t a monster, that maybe it wasn´t my fault...that I was loved.

They knock…

Vegeta opens the door, and notices Goten looking at him with teary eyes,

"Unka Vegi!" he leaped, Vegeta of course caught him. But was quite surprise to see the young child once again. After Goku had died he took it upon himself to protect the kid. Train him in the saiyan ways. But the young child's ki disappeared long ago.

"Hey Brat!" he spoke

But even at this close proximity he still couldn't sense the Ki, non-of it…it was completely gone. Why?

But before anything was answered Bulma walked towards the door and noticed Gohan,

"Oh hello Gohan, haven't seen you in ages. How is work?"

Gohan gave the stereotypical Son family trait, and rubbed the back of his head and smiled

"Work is harder when you're a single parent. Especially when you're a teacher, in the Math and Physics department…haha"

Bulma missed this family, she hadn't seen them in ages and it had become quite lonely without them. Every since Chichi left. Chichi…her friend, she worried about her, no one had heard of them, her or Goten. She missed the young bundle of energy….

She noticed the child curled up in a ball.

"Who's the child?" But before she got an answer the said child took a peak…he blinked…she blinked

"Auntiiiii Bulma!"

The young child cried, how long had it been since he had last thought about his family. He had been so engulfed with his mother's well being that he had forgotten them all….he remembered waking up many nights reaching out, but he wasn't there anymore

It was lonely

….and then everything changed and his mother had become his everything, she was the reason he woke up in the morning, the reason he took her beatings, the reason he wanted her back….

But now he laid and these arms, which reminded him of the day his mother forced him away…from him…..and had asked him to never forget. It was funny how the future played it's cruel joke because he had turned around and done just that

….he had missed this all of this…..the way his heart fluttered right now. However it would soon end. Because his mother still haunted him. He hadn't moved on just yet and everything she had ever yelled, beat and kicked into him was still engraved, was still carved, was still…void

"You think he would accept you back?" she would yell

"Your pathetic, he's a prince, your worthless…no one will ever love you!"

"You're a dummy don't nobody want you, don't nobody need you, he's not going to accept you with wide arms, he will hate you just like I do right now"

And his heart did stop fluttering.

"Goten?"

And he couldn't help but flinch. Because he knew who it was.

It was him. Not a him…Trunks

But nothing happened. And the grown-ups watched the kids. Suspense lingering in the air, no one would admit it, but Trunks had drastically changed in the past years

"Chibi?"

….Nothing happened again, Goten wouldn't look up, but tears were clearly seeping from his eyes. It had been to long…to long indeed. And now it this feeling it felt almost foreign,

But it all changed, when Trunks made the first move

…..My heart dropped and all the voiced in my head disappeared, because Trunks was hugging me…a sinner

Just when I felt like giving up on us….you turn around and gave me one last touch that made everything feel better, and it made my eyes get wetter….


Another update wooo…..Thanks to all the support I've been getting. I really enjoy writing this story. Sorry if it's taking longer than planned. I know I promised MPREG but we will get there, so please keep reading? This chapter is quite lighter, but Goten has yet to heal, and it will be apparent in later chapters. Finally there reunited, but what does the future hold….I'm seriously debating whether or not this was a good choice, in letting them so early on. But Trunks isn't the one that Goten knew a long time ago.

Special THANKS TO:

INUOKAMILOVE16-Hahaha thanks, I'm glad you like this so much, that you commented twice, I'm so happy. I now understand when other writers says that reviews make them happy. And they seriously do, know that you have officially made my day lol….Yeah Chichi is a bit unstable….and crazy, poor Goten. Thanks once again for your review.

MONITA-Aww thanks I didn't mean for it to be so dark, but it just seemed to happen. Here's the next update. It's a bit less dark but the elements are still there. Since Goten still hasn't healed. I mean he's still hiding his back, which contains everything he's been through. Let's see what happens next . Thanks for your review

Rate and Review-(Might post another chapter soon)

I've included some songs which don't belong to me. In the precious CHAPTER it was TURNING TABELS by ADELE

The last sentence was

CALIFORNIA KING BED by Rihanna


ONCE AGAIN THANKS TO THOSE WHO HAVE ADDED AS A FAV AND HAVE TAKEN THE TIME IN READING THIS.

(4-15-2012)