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Here's the next chapter. And I must admit that it was terribly difficult to write. I don't know why but it was. But I am glad that I have updated before finals start. After this chapter there will be a 8 year leap...meaning the MPREG will finally commence...I don't know how I feel about this chapter but I hope that you, the reader, will inform me...maybe you like it, hate it, or I just need to write it over again...let me know. Oh and I might not update until finals are over sorry. But once that is over with updates will be made regularly...or I will try lol
Anything underlined will be the author...
Special Thanks To:
CSSNDRFOX: Wooo Here Read More….I have updated
LINKINPARKGxVYAOIFAN: Thank you. I sure will(Keep Writing) I truly love this couple and it's sad, cuz people hardly write about it. And this is how this story was born. And I'm glad you like it so far
NICENIPPS: I'm sorry it made you tear up. When you love and your love isn't return, it's really hard to move on, and I'm trying to convey that. But his life is better and it will only get better…I hope…The objective in life is never quitting and that's what Goten will do because he was born a fighter
INUOKAMILOVE16: They will get along, but Trunks isn't the same and neither is Goten. But they will be the BFF's…but as you know Trunks beauty attracts people. Just like Goten's personality draws in Trunks…So let's see what happens right? lol
MONITA: Hahaha we shall see. Although it's not a big problem, like I've made it seem. It's more like…he had become so dependent on his saiyan powers that being human is completely new to him, since we have our own limits(which are a-lot) unlike saiyans….lol
ZOMBIE ZOEY- Sorry the update took longer than intended but it is finally up. It makes me happy knowing that I can invoke such emotions in my readers. Hope you continue to read this story. And I hope I don't disappoint
Goten walked around Capsule Corporation, it was dark and no one else was awake, the only sound that resonated through the halls came from the trinkets that surrounded the mansion(Like clocks). After a long day, Bulma had suggested them staying over…that was two days ago. However for Gohan, Vegeta and Trunks it was a perfect opportunity to train, of-course Gohan had to be coaxed into fighting but once he did, it was the saiyan in him that fought, sweated and strived to be the best. Almost as if the blood had been an old addiction that the young raven had long forgotten. An animal that waited for the right moment, to strike.
And as for the youngest Son?…Well nothing really.
Watching them fight I understood the power of what our race truly was. We were powerful, a race that was almost extinct. This was what was left of our proud race.
I sat outside Capsule Corp watching all of them fight. A part of me was trying to resurface that same addiction, that we saiyans, could never put down. Hence, why we fought for so long, because once we released our primitive side nothing could/would prevent our high, except the punches of an enemy who was stronger and faster.
Something that challenged our limits. And as I watched the fight progress, I couldn't help but realize how much I missed that feeling, that adrenaline rush, my saiyan heritage was now gone and I had to become small and insignificant to realize how especial our race was. Before becoming a human, I was able to stand on my own and fight my own battles, get beaten to a pulp without ever fearing the consequences, but now, all I did was fear those very same consequences that could cost me my life at any moment.
I think the other part of me was still hoping for the magical return of my powers, that's why I tried so hard to keep up. Because if I had admitted that my powers were truly gone then something in me would break.
Dejectedly I laid on the grass. Curling myself into a little ball. I closed my eyes realizing that for the first time in my life I wasn't looking at the world through a glass window, no I, was outside. I didn't move as I enjoyed the wind simply pass my body, I took off my shoes curling my toes against the dirt and I inhaled, letting the clean air fill my lungs. It was hard seeing the world filled with so much color, so much happiness.
I was trapped inside a room for so long that in it's darkness I bathed. Everyday I wished and prayed to be like those happy children running by, hoping that one day that would be me.
That dream eventually became twisted and cold. My racing thoughts remembered a childhood game that would help me defend against mother. In my older ages I remembered my desperate attempts to cling to my mothers love,
My Name is Son Goten, I wanted to be something in my life, all I wanted in life was to be loved. But instead I go beat,
"Goten school is not going to help a stupid whore like you...get yourself a job! Your worthless fuck!"
I was her Scorpio child, her lying trickster.
"I wanted him to love me, that was my fucking man, my man. And he wanted you, that's why I hate you. He was suppose to love me, you made him go away. It's your fault. You fucking whore, who was going to love me. Who was going to make me feel good? Tell me you fucking slut!"
And so she went on, an endless outpouring of contempt and complaint, spiced with threats. I found my self falling into some dark abyss, falling as I searched for signs of God
I couldn't handle her cruel words. Or her hands as they wrapped around my tiny neck.
Yes, words and threats that slowly started drowning me, falling, falling into a dark placed that coerced me into letting go of my heart. That's when, in desperation, I opened my eyes. As I looked around I noticed that the cruelty of my house didn't await. I instead had found myself surrounded by beautiful colors...
A place that never looked at me like a monster.
Just feel that summer breeze - the way it's calling me,
I don't remember when but suddenly I had found myself running. I couldn't pin-point where it was exactly where I running to but this was what I had yearned for. I had been breathing short shallow breaths for several minutes now, while my heart beat a wild tattoo. My consciousness fluttered like a candle flame in a high wind then without warning I heard the echo's of my laughter.
I could go running And racing, And dancing, And chasing, And leaping, And bounding, Hair flying, Heart pounding, And splashing, And reeling, And finally feeling
Just smell the grass! The dirt! Just like I dreamed they'd be!
For like the first time ever, I'm completely free!
'Now's when my life begins!
The dirt that clung to his clothes, the strips of grass that made his skin itch, the warmth radiating on his skin allowed him to feel his humanity, giving him a chance to live out a dream he once had. He was no monster.
Ba-Bump his heart thumped. He smiled and once again he couldn't contain his laughter anymore. In the darkness he had lived in never allowed him to see the passage of time. During that time he couldn't remember anything that wasn't a beating, he couldn't remember anything that wasn't an insult. In that darkness he had no one but his conscious to talk to, it was his only friend and honestly he never slept. But that was once upon a time, because now everything he saw was in color, everything was beautiful
Ah, this is what it must meant right? The word beautiful….he thought
Gohan said this word on a daily basis.
Finally he understood the word, finally he understood it's meaning because it truly depicted
….moments like these…
Damn his humanity, he had only ran a short distance but that short distance had exhausted him beyond belief.
And so he sat, next to a giant tree. Exhausted from his mini adventure the young raven closed his eyes tiered from the exhaustion he had caused his body. So he just sat there enjoying the scenery. The wind passed his body and his hair swished in the air his body relaxed and his mind was clear.
"GOOOTEENN!" screamed Gohan, yup….an overprotective brother
"Heeeey GOOHAN!" he yelled back
Gohan tackled him to the floor
"I was worried"
Goten smiled, "Your squeezing the life out of me" he gigled
"Ready to go back?"
The young son just nodded his head and as Gohan picked him up, his eyes started to get drowsy, and the realization of his exhaustion hit him ten-fold. Today had been wonderful but being human definitely didn't have it's perks. His human limitations sucked, and now played a critical role in his life. Something he hated
"Hey Trunks, is it okay if I lay Goten in your bed?"
That was all I heard as my body was laid in what felt like a cloud. I started humming a quirk of mine. It soothed me in my loneliness.
"You said you would never leave me, I believe you….I believe" I whispered.
A song she used to lull me to sleep. When she loved me.
"I won't" was someone's response. Despite my eyes being closed, I felt Trunks next to me, no, more precisely I knew it was him. That same bond we had years ago, was now slowly returning.
Silence had filled the room. And through the silence I heard the rain.
It was just a drizzle and it soothed me to sleep. I don't remember when it was that it had last rained, but in my mind I had found it interesting that it would rain today.
On her birthday.
I quickly opened my eyes, thunder had struck. A typical fear, but my fear had a cause. It happened when I was 6 years old…..More specifically it was the day she first stabbed my hand, that day she pulled me by the hair and dragged me outside. That day she tied me to a tree, a punishment for lying to her….
"Go-chan, what happened to your hand?"
I looked at her and then at my hand. I smiled at her,
"I accidentally hurt myself mom, you know how clumsy I can be"
It was raining that day too.
"I wanted him to love me, that was my fucking man, my man. And he wanted you, that's why I hate you. He was suppose to love me, you made him go away. It's your fault. You fucking whore, who was going to love me. Who was going to make me feel good? Tell me you fucking slut!"
I remember banging on the front door for hours, I remembered how much my blood oozed down my body, as it was washed away by the rain. And I remember how close that lighting was to me that day.
Goten quickly opened his eyes, and as he did another flash trembled outside Trunk's window. He staggered back, and it seemed like he had awoken Trunks who was starring at him, confused. Nothing was insight except for the memories that once had been abandoned, the many pleas that went onto deaf ears.
"Chibi?" your voice was all I heard
The young raven quickly huddled over to a corner trying to put as much distance between himself and the lightning
"I'm sorry" he chanted
However unlike last time, someone was embracing him
"I'm here Chibi…I'm here"
"Come on, I'll show you….it isn't that bad. It's only thunder" and so the young heir carried the young Son, bridal style. Goten wasn't sure where they were heading but at this point every fiber in him, held tightly, and his finger tips brushed against the other being.
Trunks was here, someone he wasn't used to just yet. But terribly missed. The Ki he couldn't sense anymore, he still felt. A protection which soothed him.
His arms tightened around me as we walked the empty halls of Capsule Corporation. When my body shivered from the cold, his arms would hold me tighter. I think my heart was beating faster…why?
Another flash, I flinched trying to break his grasp…
"It's okay" he would coo
"Did you know that back in the day, lightning and thunder were thought to be the wrath of Zeus?"
I looked at him and nodded my head….of-course I didn't know. There were so many things unknown to me, but he kept walking never breaking eye contact with me, fear clearly danced across my face, because I saw my reflection through his eyes.
"Today is her birthday" I spoke
Trunks didn't say anything but nodded his head, telling me to continue.
"Mother's birthday" I was shocked with myself because I said your name without crying. I have friends now and I stay home now without feeling alone. I even laugh a bit louder without you. And I see different shades now, almost never afraid. But when I think I'll be okay. I am always wrong, because my heart doesn't want to understand.
He squeeze's me
"Mother, doesn't love me anymore. And so she abandoned me, to die until Gohan….found me. I remember waking up at night. My hands used to reach up and search for you, Trunks. But I had mother then. But then they would reach up and search for her. And every time they would, nothing would catch them. Quietly breaking whatever shields I spent so long building. And my heart..it doesn't want to understand , it shakes and every time it breaks whatever piece I try to find. Thought I died to know she loved me...I´m all alone"
Nothing was said
"Then hold onto mine. I promise that I will never let go"
I didn't get a chance to respond, because the rain was falling gently onto my skin. Never did he once put me down, but a part of me didn't mind. The fear was still there but being with him here… I felt another part of me being at piece. And once again for the first time, I found myself feeling the rain on my skin…feeling as every drop touched a different part of my body and it soothed it, bringing forth memories, old memories in where it was just me and the rain. But for the first time I was outside feeling it drip all over my body and not just my hand…. Suddenly I wasn't scared anymore
Trunks still held me, I think it was the human in me that scared him. Just like it scared Gohan.
We were soaked to the bone, but I wasn't cold because your body heat kept me warm, my back was to your chest and your hands encircled my stomach, and for some strange reason my head just looked for that little area by your neck that made this all seem like heaven. I hummed a melody and you let me, let me heal or conquer whatever fear I had left as the rain danced around us
I let it fall, my heart
And as it fell, you rose to claim it,
It was dark and I was over, until you kissed my lips and you saved me
My hands they were strong, but my knees were far to weak
To stand in your, arms without falling to your feet
But there's a side to you that I never knew, never knew,
All the things you'd say, they were never true, never true
And the games you'd play you would always win, always win
But I set fire to the rain,
Watch it pour as I touch your face
Well, it burned while I cried,
Cause I heard it screaming out your name, your name
When I lay with you I could stay there and close my eyes
Feel you here forever:
You and me together, nothing is better
But there's a side to you that I never knew, never knew,
All the things you'd say, they were never true, never true
And the games you'd play you would always win, always win
But I set fire to the rain,
Watch it pour as I touch your face
Well, it burned while I cried,
Cause I heard it screaming out your name, your name
I set fire to the rain
And I threw us into the flames
Well, I felt something die
Cause I knew that, that was the last time, last time
Sometimes I wake up by the door
That heart you caught must be waiting for you
Even now that we're already over
I can't help myself from looking for you
He wanted to move on. But he couldn't because a part of him was still screaming, searching for the love he had obtained from his mother a long time ago. Because despite all of the bad memories, it made him appreciate the good ones. But he wanted it all to burn, he wanted to start a new….But he was afraid, a part of him still clinging to those memories.
But I think I figured it out. It was because I was just a child, my hand tightly grasping to my mothers, like a bird without wings, who was forced to take flight. And now I was still that injured bird hoping that his mother would take pity on him…..
Well, I felt something die
Cause I knew that, that was the last time, last time
I wish I could take the pain away, your pain….mother, please forgive me but I'm tiered. Because this love has dried up, leading me to doubt myself. Please forgive me. I need to get away, because it's killing me. I simply lack desire, so please, please
Forgive me mother...
"Trunks?" Goten whispered
"Hmm?" was his response
"I'm not scared anymore…."
Trunks looked down at the figure looking at him, and for the first time a small smile was placed there….
"About time….dork, who knew you were such a baby" he laughed
Goten pouted
"I'm not a baby Trunks. You're just mean" and stuck out his tongue
Trunks the little devil, picked me up and threw me up, high into the air. Testing to see if I was still scared. But I wasn't because I knew I had him. We would grow up, and change, I knew that, but for now he was my best friend. And as I fell I extended my arms ready for him to catch me, and when he did, my arms encircled around his neck, both laughing like there was no tomorrow …..
AHH that's right. That's what "beautiful" means. Moments like this
Songs included:
Set fire to the rain by Adele
A couple of line were taken from Leona Lewis
A line from Tupac
And Tangled...
Mister B Gone(book)
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Edited(4-18-2012)
