I know right another update...Well here it is. Hope you enjoy it, of-course for this chapter I included an interesting twist that probably no one ever saw coming. I mean it is DBZ so I'm quite giddy with this idea. Thanks you for taking the time in reading this and I hope you enjoy it. If you don't, you know the drill lmfao...
Italics= Thoughts
Bold=Song
It's very peaceful here.
Never in my life had I ever felt this way, a way that soothes me and cradles me, something so gentle it almost makes me want to cry. Almost. I remembered what had happened between me and Trunks. Am I happy? Yes, quite joyous actually. But what had happened almost felt cold. Just an action between two people...nothing more, nothing less. Which leads to me being here in this odd dream. In this dream he´s laying next to me, Trunk, my childhood friend. A friend that I had fallen in love with. Was it love, I wonder. Or was it something that I had fabricated? What was I trying to grasp? I knew what I was looking for...yes I knew quite well, but sometimes it feels as if I used him in order to grasp a meaning to my life. Was I really that broken?
I awoke.
And my dream was over but I felt like I had managed to sneak into another dream. Because before me laid Adonis.
Oh shit
I was frozen to place. And all those thoughts that I had before were instantly washed away. I laid on-top of him, but my weight seemed like no problem at all. Thinking back on my predicament... was I only in-love with him due to his kindness. Had I somehow twisted his friendship into something convenient?
I think I was trying to fix the broken me, by mending the pieces through someone else.
Everything, every single factor of my life wouldn`t leave me alone. These wounds just didn´t want to heal. A pain that surpassed the reality of my life. So much that couldn´t be erased. And yet I was here remembering the times when I screamed and you fought every fear I had, grasping my hand
When I cried you wiped all of my tears away.
Your voice erased all of the sanity in me.
And I found myself being Captivated.
Yes, I don´t think that I wanted to be anywhere but here. My love it was real. Maybe I was crazy but I didn`t care because thinking on it...these feelings were magical.
The butterflies in my stomach.
The rapid beating of my heart.
The dryness of my lips.
THe heating of my cheeks.
My dear friend why had we changed? Would everything be different if I had stayed?
I look out my window and realize that the sun would shine through at any moment. Meaning that my departure was fast approaching. Once again I found myself crying, because he wouldn´t remember and I would never tell. Our cold kisses would always linger, the ones filled with passion would always burn. I love you, I´m sorry that it was you, my heart had chose.
Turn down the lights
Turn down the bed, Turn down these voices inside my head
Lay down with me and tell me no lies just hold me closely
Don't patronize
Don't patronize me
Cause I can't make you love me. If you don't…
You can't make your heart feel something that it won't and here in the dark, In this final hour I will lay down my heart. And I will feel the power that you wont, No you won't, Cause I can't make you love me when you don't…
I'll close my eyes because then I won't see the love you don't feel when your holding me.
Morning will come and I'll do what's right
Just give me till then
To give up this fight and I will give up this fight
'Cause I can't make you love me. You can't make your heart feel something it won't and here in the dark, in these final hours, and I will lay down my heart….
Cause I can't make you love me
I can't
I can't
I can't
I can't
I tried my best
But you put my heart through the test
I can't make you love me
I tried
I wrap the blanket around me, trying to leave your scent on me…
I turned my back on you, just like you had and it hurt. This simple act hurt so much I collapsed on the floor. I held the blanket tighter than before, who would of thought a broken heart would hurt this much.
And it made me think once again...if this was truly love then when exactly did I fall so hard. And I wondered why we couldn't just remain friends? Why did my heart keep longing for something you weren't offering. But this...this action I knew was bad. Relationships between men are not accepted. And if you were to ever find out...So I would never ever speak of this moment. Never.
"I finally understood what true love meant...love meant that you care for another person's happiness more than your own, no matter how painful the choices you face might be."
And I close my eyes one last time for when I opened them again I would give up on this love I had for you, and I would continue on with my life. Hopefully when the time comes I would give my heart again for someone else to take and have my love be returned, like I wanted with you
….. I would open my eyes and continue my life, since there was so much for me to accomplish, so many places for me to see….and I honestly, as time would pass, I would forget you, since my heart fell in love with something you weren't offering.
Yes Trunks I would forget because this planet, is something my father had given his life for, I don't know how long this storm would last but I didn't care because as soon as I opened my eyes I would act like Goten your childhood friend
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I was born a Saiyan an alien that continued to live no matter what challenge came next. What didn't kill us only made us stronger, made us a-little bit quicker, made our skin a little bit thicker
I should of known this love would only lead to a heart-break.
I showered put on my pants and a long-sleeved shirt, and gently picking up the young girl that needed me right now,
"Ba-ba" she squealed
Suddenly out of nowhere I heard a yell
"Brat were home" I looked confused it had only been what, five days…..?
I ran downstairs glad that I showered since saiyans had a great sense of smell…and knowing Vegeta he would of told Bulma who would of told Gohan who would of eventually told Trunks….Phew bullet has been averted
"Uncle Vegeta" I tackled him, don't worry Bra helped
Vegeta grunted but from the corner of my eyes I noticed a small very small smirk. I was happy, truly I was there was so much to live for I didn't want to die with misery in my heart and there's were so many things I wanted to be thankful for, so many…so I wasn't about to complain about the things that I didn't have because at the end of the day there are always people who have it worst off
I smiled
Quickly I turned to Bulma
"Antie guess what?" I jumped up and down
Bulma smiled at me, her eyes gentle piercing mine and I wondered if I had ever seen my mother give me those eyes…..But honestly I didn't want to think about it and so I quickly shook my head
"What?" she cooed
I looked at baby Bra and she looked at me knowing exactly it was that I was asking her to do. She looked at both her mother and father
"Baba" she squealed and next thing I know, someone pushed me onto the floor. I looked up and noticed that it had been Bulma, where she got that strength from not even I know, but I must admit they were truly happy
"Woman, go bring that machine that records moments" he yelled
"Ummm Aunty Bulma…Unka Veggie, I think Ima go home, I miss Gohan" I pouted and they both hugged (More like Bulma forced Vegeta) me and let me go home…..but before I left Vegeta grabbed me
"Brat, I sense energy coming from you….you must be working hard" he told me in the most pissed off face ever while ruffled my hair…..with eyes that said, tell-anyone-I-did this-and-I-will-personaly-take-you-outside-and-kill-you-in-front-of-the-human-population-and-not-be-creative-at-all…
"Bye" was all I said
Quickly I left and honestly I couldn't wait to get home,
10 minutes later
"GOHANNNN" I yelled from the flying cloud
Thankfully Gohan was outside picking logs to make a fire, he looked up and smiled
"Welcome home little brother" he responded
"GOHHHHANNN CATCH ME" I yelled
"GOTEN DO NOT JUMP, I REPEAT DO NOT JUMP!" Gohan yelled
"WHAT GOHAN YOU WANT ME TO JUMP" and I did
Gohan quickly threw the logs he was carrying and caught the young demi-saiyan
"Goten (he sighed) what would of happened if I didn't catch you"
Goten looked at his brother "But you did"
Gohan sighed once again, "why are YOU so happy"
Goten smirked "Oh nothing just lost my virginity is all" I teased
Gohan smirked "yeah right, now go inside and wash up, dinner is almost done"
"YAY!" I yelled
And as I sat down to eat Gohan sensed something
"Goten don't go into the woods"
I looked outside the window, "Why?"
"I think there's another saiyan on this planet, I found a pod that looks like the one Uncle Raddiz came in"
Goten tiltled his head "WE HAVE AN UNCLE"
Gohan looked at Gotten "Oh, I haven't told you have I…..Well let's see there's Grampa Bardock, Uncle Turtles, and Uncle Raddiz that's our family but they all died when Frieza deatroyed Planet Vegeta" before he could continue Goten interrupted him
"That's so cool, I want to meet them, can I Gohan, can I"
Gohan sighed "What part of dead did you not understand"
Goten pouted "Dragonballz duh!" Gohan however didn't even register those last words
"Well I'm going to sleep, and remember don't go outside, whoever came from that pod, saiyan or not might still be around, I have to teach tomorrow morning goodnight"
Goten smirked….finding a loophole to the conversation, no promises were made.
And an hour later once Gohan was dead asleep Goten decided to leave.
Walking around through the woods he started humming to himself, "Cuz I can't make you love me when you don't….and in these final hours I will lay down my heart and I will feel the power that you won't…." Life officially sucked. And yet despite the life he had lived or was living there was something beautiful about his life. These feelings hurt demolished whatever courage he had built as a child and yet they offered him some condolence because in some weird way it was better to experience these emotions then not have them at all. He thought this because he was once like a bird. A bird who was locked in a cage with no form of freedom in a darkness that slowly drives you mad.
"OWIE that's what I get"….his pain forgotten quickly noticing the shit that had stopped his fall -he slammed into it- and it had turned out exactly how Gohan had stated, no one was there.
"KAKKAROT!" a person had suddenly yelled
And Goten turned around looking for the voice
"What's a KAKKAROT is that a carrot? You know I hate carrots" he pouted
The man walked, and Goten couldn't help but notice how much of a shrimp he looked in front of this massive saiyan with a tail
sigh
He missed his tail….
Maybe I won't die, I mean in the movies before a person dies his life just happens to flashed before -the characters- eyes. So I'm thinking I`m good he thought
The man quickly grabbed him by the neck
"Stop hidding your KI KAKKAROT" he spited with such anger that Goten couldn't help but flinch
Dammit I should of listened to Gohan…..but noooo, dammit no time to blame Gohan I need to escape. Come on Kami help me.
"My name is GOTEN!" he yelled and suddenly a flash of energy erupted from his body which in-turn caused a sharp pain to shoot through his stomach.
"Fuck that hurts" he cried…those stomach pains he had before returned again but this one had to take the cake…..
"My name is Brolly and I personally came back to kill you"
Goten was gasping for air at this point, …..he looked up and the man was about to kick him in the stomach, something within him instinctively arose, telling him to move, protect his stomach at all cost….but he didn't because another painful wave had hit his stomach
"I'll let you go, if you beg for your life" he smirked
He glared at the massive saiyan.
"No, begging never got me anywhere, I'm not going to start now"
At this point in life I think I knew I was going to die, I knew Gohan, Vegeta and Trunks were coming this way, if only I had 5 more minutes
But for the first time in my life I had cursed fate
I didn´t want to know this moment. I wish I didn't
The reason I never ran from mother and the reason I ran from Trunks those were my selfish reason's to preserve whatever sanity it was that I had left…
I didn´t want to die
I was a coward. I WANTED TO LIVE! Their were so many things that I hadn't accomplished, I was only 15 when was my life going to begin. It hadn't and now I was going to die
Suddenly I look up and when I looked
I saw a man, a man
Who had been hurt by life more than anyone else , and more than anyone else he had come to hate life. I felt pity for this man. Because this man in his never ending search for the saiyan Kakkarot lived a pitiful life. Searching for my father had become his only reason for living. He held onto it so strongly that it gave him a reason to live.
But the difference between me and him was that at the end of the day I was the one that was protected, I had people who were like family, and Gohan who was family, those people were always there no matter how badly I was hurt or how badly I had lost my way. I was able to come this far because I had them. People who allowed me to become this strong
"Why do you fight? Why don't you stay with me and Gohan and be part of my family?" I asked
Anger and hatred spilled from Brolly's body and as soon as I blinked he had turned into the Legendary Super Saiyann
"I guess I'll have to fight you, my fist will bring life back into those pitful eyes…." I wanted to fight for him, I wanted to change his life like the people I loved did for me…
I charged at him in full human speed ready to punch the shit out of him…..but in my mind I keep screaming
Please give me power, I need more power please I know I have it
….I'm not asking for it for free!….I yell
…..love meant that you care for another person's happiness more than your own, no matter how painful the choices you face might be."
Yeah no Lemon in this chapter, and it will be included with Trunks in the next chapter, since he will be thinking back on this...It will be added. Hope enjoyed it
Things included that don't belong to me:
Some of Goten's thoughts were taken from Tengo Tenge
The quote about love belongs to Nicholas Sparks
The songs is originally by Tank and it's called Can't make you love me, but Adele does a cover of this and both are simply amazing
Also I'm thinking of making Brolly part of the Son family and him and Gohan possibly having a relationship...what do you think?
Also...Should I also include the rest of the family...Bardock, Raddiz, Turtles?
SPECIAL THANKS!
OMG I HAVE MADE IT TO 30 REVIEWS...THANK YOU SO MUCH
ZOEYCRUISE
NICENIPPS- Yes it was a dream hahah~Sorry. Well Pan isn't eviil per-se...you'll just have to see BWAHAH
ONCE AGAIN I WANT TO THANK THOSE WHO TAKE THE TIME IN READING THIS, it feels like I'm doing something right
~Might also write another fiction where Goten is turned into a chibi but under certain circumstances turns back into an adult. Planet Vegeta is wished back and Trunks is a complete pervert who molest's the unsuspecting victim which is Goten...Should I do it?
~Review?
Edited (6-28-2012)
