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I awoke today to find myself alone in a room and as I prop myself on my elbows a feeling of uneasiness creeps up my spine. I stare at the wall trying to figure out why I had felt like this and the silence of the mansion wasn't helping. I wanted to scream because it felt as if the void I had filled once upon a time was starting to re-open. That feeling of hopelessness. A feeling no one was able to draw you away from... Of course the scream never came because tears had replaced such a shrill.
I couldn't breathe, I think I was choking.
Despite the emptiness of my stomach, I felt like puking.
The churning of my body felt like those sleepless nights. Nights in where the loneliness starts eating at you, an emptiness you cant escape, a feeling so pungent that it makes you feel like you have no one else in the world
*baby kick*
"...ow" I whimpered but I didn't acknowledge the kick instead my vision blurred and my heart rate increased.
I wondered why...At first I didn't think much about it. But as the month passed by and then two I noticed a loss of time as it slowly slipped through my hands. And recently it had only gotten progressively worse. Dark circles are now clearly formed and more defined under my eyes, occurrences I desperately try to hide under whatever make-up I can find. I've also noted a fluctuation in energy. Such abnormalities occur when my energy is dangerous low. When such things happen I find myself turning into a super saiyan. Something I was never able to achieve until now.
And yet I don't understand it's significance.
Gohan always spoke about how much of a struggle it was for our people to achieve such a feat and yet when I transform, pain overwhelms me... almost as if lava was coursing through my blood burning me from the inside out. But most of the pain comes from my eyes because once my black eyes become emerald my vision fails me... blinded by my so called ascendancy.
The only times that I feel like my energy isn't being drained is when Trunks is holding me or any form of contact is made. However those days are rare since he only tends to gets busier. He's been training harder than ever with Vegeta. And the said prince couldn't be happier, those are his mornings. In the afternoon his mind gets equally trained by Bulma, who trains him in the arts of running a corporation . But at night when he finally has time to himself he works to get rid of a certain saiyan by perfecting the time machine. No one understands the sudden change but when I look at him working so hard I'd like to think that our child did this. That something deep inside him had changed just like it had in me
... Silly wishful thinking...
I was tiered of basking around this room, his room. Trunks. My mind had finally cleared and his scent was all around me. A scent that only made me remember his touches that burned me, his musky scent mixed in with the hints of alcohol, his sulkin voice that keeps calling my name and how could I forget his intense stare. I thought our distance was something I was used to, but this creature still bewitches me everyday, even now.
*Baby Kick*
"...owww..." I whimper once again. I placed my palm in the place where I had felt the kick and gently rubbed circles, I hummed, something that the baby seemed enjoyed
(Who you are)
At stare at my reflection in the mirror
Why am I doing this to myself
Losing my mind on a tiny error
I nearly left the real me on the shelf
Don't lose who you are
On the blur of the stars
Seeing is deceiving, dreaming is believing
Its okay not to be okay
Sometimes its hard to follow your heart
But tears don't mean youre losing everyone is bruising
Just be true to who you are
I laughed. I couldn't believe how spoiled my baby was already since it's kicks had diminished. That's why I laughed. Since just a lullaby calmed it down. And I smiled because it made me wonder the meaning of people meeting...
I never regreted being saved by Gohan or being born. Because all that badness in my life made me appreciate the beautiful moments. All my tears, my sorrows, my broken dreams had lead me to something so important...Because honestly baby, the minute I knew that I was pregnant with you something inside my heart had clicked...like a missing puzzle piece found.
Like something I had discovered, something I didn't know I'd lost.
I made my way to the kitchen and on the kitchen counter I found a note addressed to me by Bulma,
Dear Goten,
Me and your brother Gohan went to a convention will be back tomorrow.
P.S-Vegeta and Brolly are going to train in the hyperbolic time chamber I believe Mirai went too. We will eventually be back...
Sincerely Bulma
Well that only meant one thing...I had house to myself. I didn't celebrate long because once again I found myself tiered and drained of energy. Slowly I made my way back to my room, to atleast study since it only consisted of brain power. Once at the top of the stairs, my world collapse.
"Tru-nks" I whimpered
He didn't wake, his lifeless body collapsed on the floor didn't stop me from running to him. And gently I laid his head on my lap.
It took about four years to realize I loved Trunks. A day to get pregnant and two-months to realize how truly important our friendship was. I hate you, your stupid kindness has tricked my heart into believing that you like me.
Who was I kidding, I have loved you since the first moment I meet you. I was scared to admit it, because my mother said that I wasn't worth your love
And yet through your strength and kindness, your coldness and selfishmess you allowed me to grow as a person. Experience something so pure that it brought tears of joy to my eyes
I don't think I've ever loved anyone like this before. But seeing you like this I realized that I couldn't depend on you because you were as vulnerable as me fighting your own demons just like me... I never realized it because to me you were immortal, because I...I always felt that there was someplace special you could take me
...someplace where my heart would always be, like a sunny spot in spring...
But what hope is there for me, a demon born into a den of sin?
"Chibi don't cry..." he breathed
Trunks (Point of view)
I was peacefully sleeping, I don't remember falling into a bed, but man it was sure comfortable. Well I guess it doesn't help that I havent slept in about a week and yes I will blame Mirai, that fucking bastard! Not only is he good looking, handsome, smart...the fucker is also stronger than me. My pride as a saiyan was crushed and so my training started and doubled,always fighting and alternating between Brolly and my father.
But in the mist of all my anger I noticed that a droplet of water had hit my face, it stirred me from whatever slumber I was in. And what I saw broke my heart...
"Chibi don't cry..." I cooed
...It hurts me to see you cry like that, Chibi. And despite me ignoring you I figured it out. The reason for your so called sickness. Since something dark always seemed to cloud your eyes when you looked at me. And due to that, a hatred grew...honestly did you think I was stupid. Everytime when you thought that no one was looking, I'd see you thinking about something all alone for hours the muscles in your back tense...like you were holding something very heavy
Slowly I noticed myself looking at you more. Why? I wasn't gay, but sometimes it feels like you might be the exception.
Whenever I walked with you Chibi. Everyone-girls and boys-looked at you because you were so small and cute.
Everyone looked at you, but you only looked at me. Something that warmed my heart since I was a small child
I was protected in some weird way. By a man who held all the sadness inside him, shouldered all the blame on himself and never relied on anyone. I always wanted to be the blanket that enveloped him so he wouldn't have to suffer anymore.
"Trunks-kun?" he whimpered
And for some reason something within me snapped
"You have to give it up...this child, it's killing you" but instead he cried, his eyes widened with horror
And without me realizing it, he had left me alone with my thoughts. I was an asshole I knew that, but I wanted to make him cry...and like before, I was going to leave you here. Because I didn't want to hurt you...because at my core I wanted to fuck you, see you beneath me squirming begging me to stop.
Hahahah I'm so fucking sick lusting over my best friend.
...I can't love you the way you want me too...
Fuck, I couldn't understand where this sudden anger was coming from
Gotens P.O.V
I felt my heart stop as he spoke those words. Words that I never wanted to hear specially from him, never him. I was stupid, who did I think I was wishing for something between us. I callapsed my knees bucking beneath me...
...I thought that if I tried things would be fine. But I was wrong...
Stupid hormones.
Sometimes I'd wish I was in a different time, in where I was stronger. A time in where I could stand on my own without needing anyone. Because deep down I was afraid that once they crossed that door, they wouldn't return...just like my mother
Suddenly my back was pressed against someones chest I didn't want to acknowledge the person but his hands found there way into mine warming them from the cold. However my tears kept falling but I didn't have the heart to wipe them away, I had always thought I had ran out of these water droplets yet it seemed that I still had a couple of tears left to shed.
"I...didn't mean it like that. I'm worried about you chibi. This...this pregnancy it's killing you" he whispered in my ear. I wasn't ready to fall for his charm just yet, so I distracted myself by lifting my shirt exposing my bump to him for the first time. I grabed his hand moving it around my stomach looking for any signs of our babies existence.
"Did the baby just kick me?" he giggled
I smiled. A moment that I would engrave in my mind.
"Chibi?" He asked
I looked at him, our faces quite close to each other. My lips yearning for his and a horny-ness I desperately tried to ignore. I think I started panting since it seemed my body had a different idea
"Trunks" I moaned
Quickly the air seemed to get thicker as scents filled the air whichcaused my body to quiver in excitement. From the corner of my eyes I noticed his right hand traveling down to my thigh as his small menstruations toyed with my patience.
I hated how experienced he was.
"Mhmmm" I quietly moaned
However despite our activities our eyes never broke contact but whenI looked at his eyes I noticed how much he had wanted this, how much I wanted this. As he moved closer to me our hands met once again, his erection poking at my back. But my small movements gave it the attention it craved, I wanted him to feel good.
Suddenly I heard a growl and the next thing I knew
I was pinned to the ground. I tried to get away...key word, tried
"I love it when you play hard to get" he moaned.
Quickly I opened my mouth to protest but in that moment he had leaned forward bitting me on my lower lip. And yet I loved how his body grinded against mine, his erection teasing my opening, I desperately wanted him to press closer to me as my lips looked for his...and when they did I kissed him pouring everything into that small gesture. As my body screamedfor his body to make me his once more.
When suddenly it hit me...My eyes quickly snapped open as his tongue wiggled inside mine...I immediately pushed him off of me and ran, because no matter how much my body yearned for his I was just a fling...
"Chibi get down!" He yelled
"No!" I shouted as our earlier stunts replayed in my mind
"Chibi! face me like the girl that you've become" he joke
"You're a jerk..." I commented, did I forget to mention where I had ran too?
The lab. Currently stuck inside the time machine.
But before I even continued to move a weird "pop" sound, resonated a little to close to comfort. When I looked down I noticed that my baby bump had pressed a giant red button
"Chibi get off" I heard Trunks yell. However the top had closed and time began to purge. About ten minutes later I had arrived in a timeline that looked like mine, felt like mine. But the only difference was that before me stood a man that looked like my father.
Well hoped you enjoyed the new chapter. Sorry if it wasn't as great as other chapters, but I really wanted to post this one as soon as possible.
Sneak Peak- Why did leave his timeline...And how will Goten react to meeting his father for the first time?
At Collision- I would like to take your offer as Beta, if the offer still stands
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Quotes: Demon Flowers, Totally Captivated
Song: Jessi J- Who you are
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