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Hi! I was wondering if anybody wanted something to happen to Prim. I'm sticking to Mockingjay, but if someone wanted something like Prim babysitting Vick and Posy, or anything else like that, tell me in the reviews. If you like Harry Potter, I'm going to be posting a story where Teddy and Harry's kids go back in time and meet Sirius, Remus, Dumbledore, and Snape. I'll post it soon, tonight or in a couple of days, depending on if I finish it. Please go check it out! Anyway, enjoy and review!
It's horrible! The rescue team came back with Peeta, Johanna and Annie. Annie's fine. She's with Finnick right now. I don't think Finnick's been that happy in a long time. Johanna isn't doing to well. The doctors think that she was tortured with electric shocks after they poured water on her (to make it more painful). And Peeta… well, Peeta has been hijacked. He now thinks that Katniss is a mutt or something that wants to kill him. The doctors think that the Capitol gave him some tracker jacker venom, then brought up memories of Katniss. The fear from the venom makes him think Katniss caused the pain and fear. When Katniss went to see him (before anyone knew about the hijacking), he tried to strangle her. Luckily Boggs was there and stopped knocked him out before any permant damage was done. They're going to try and change him back, but they can't guarantee that he'll get better. I would never tell Katniss this, but I don't think they'll be able to do that. He might get a bit better, but he'll never be the same as he was before.
Gale wasn't hurt too badly. It came as a huge relief to Rory. He was terrified that Gale would be severely injured, or that he would die. I was trying to make Rory feel better while Gale was gone. The first thing he said to me when I saw him after Gale got back was "You were right, Gale's fine! Well, he's injured. But not seriously!" That's Rory. Trying to make things funny.
Are you wondering if I said anything to Rory? I think you are. Well, sorry to disappoint you but I didn't. I was busy in the hospital. I've only talked to Rory twice since Gale got back. Both times, I was in a rush. I've been helping take care of Johanna and Katniss. Oh, I forgot to mention that. Katniss is in the hospital until she's better. Anyway, I'm planning on talking to Rory soon. Once I get a bit of free time, I'll go see him. I'll tell you how it goes. And no, I can't go see him now. It's incredibly late at night. I couldn't sleep, so I decided to write in you.
If I know Katniss, she'll be really reckless. She'll want to go and do something dangerous, like going to the Capitol. Fortunately, nobody would be stupid enough to let her do that. I know that sounds harsh, but if you knew Katniss like I did, you would be saying the same thing.
I'm trying to be strong. Katniss would talk to me even less if she knew I wasn't strong. I miss District Twelve. A lot. It wasn't much, but it was home. I miss going out every morning and getting milk from Lady. I miss being above ground. But most of all, I miss my father. I haven't seen him in so long. I wish he was here. He always knew how to make me feel better. He knew how to make everyone feel better. He would tell me not to worry and that the war will be over before I knew it. But he's not here. He can't tell me those things. Katniss used to tell me those things after he died (though she wasn't very convincing). Not anymore. She rarely talks to me. And when she does, it never makes me feel better. And my mother? She's always working at the hospital. She stopped trying to comfort me after she saw that she only made me feel worse, which I didn't think was possible. But I have Buttercup and Rory. A cat and my best friend.
I wish I could go back to when my dad was alive. Except, I still want to be friends with Rory.
I don't know how Katniss does it. How she hides her emotions and doesn't let anyone know she's upset. She rarely breaks down. Even then, she makes sure that not many people know about it (or it happens when few to zero people are there). Maybe if I did that, she would talk to me more often . I try not to blame her for it. But it's hard. I know this is a lot worse for her, but it effects me too. I wish really wish you could give me advice on what to do. Maybe I can ask Rory. Gale will tell him some stuff, but he wouldn't tell him all of it. He would understand. At least, I hope he will.
I'm tired. I should get to bed. But I don't know if I'll be able to sleep. I get nightmares so often. It's gotten much worse than what it was before we came to Thirteen. They happen more often now. I think it's worse for everyone. The war has gotten more violent and everybody is worried. My mother's asleep and I think Katniss is too. Buttercup is half asleep on my lap. I considered sneaking out to see Rory, but he would be asleep. And, since I'm so tired, I would probably get caught.
I don't think I'll write in you until I talk to Rory. Unless something big happens. Otherwise, I'll be repeating myself myself. Oops, I just wrote "myself" twice. That just proves how tired I am. I think I'll try and sleep now. Notice I wrote try. However tired I am, once I lie down, I'll probably feel wide awake. Good night.
Primrose Everdeen
