DISCLAIMER! I don't own the Hunger Games. All right go to Suzanne Collins, Lionsgate, etc.
This is the last entry written by Prim. Only the epilouge left (which will be Katniss writing). Hope you like the chapter!
Allons-y!
I HAVE AMAZING NEWS! I GET TO GO TO THE CAPITOL!
Yup! They said I could go with them because they had a shortage of doctors and nurses. I can't believe it! I'll be able to make a big difference… a HUGE difference…maybe. I leave tomorrow morning. I'm so excited! I still can't believe that they're letting me go- I'm only thirteen. But I don't care. This means more people will be helped.
My mother… is worried. She doesn't want me to go. She's already worried about Katniss. When I go, she won't have any family with her. I feel bad about leaving her.
Katniss already left. Gale and Finnick are on her squad. She was happy to go. I can understand why now. Except for the killing part; I'll never understand why anyone would kill another person if they had a choice.
It was hard to say good bye. But I'll see her in the Capitol, so it'll be better soon. I'm going to surprise her. I hope she'll be happy for me.
There's something odd, though. President Coin sent Peeta to Katniss' squad in the Capitol. He was getting better, but he definitely wasn't ready to be around Katniss in the middle of a battle. I don't know why he was sent. I know that they lost a member of their squad, but somebody else could have replaced them. Someone who's more stable. Hopefully everything will work out. If we win the war, we can use the Capitol's labs to try and help Peeta get back to normal.
I'll be back soon. Somebody's at the door.
Rory kissed me!
I opened the door and he was there. I wasn't surprised, he said that he would come tonight to say good bye since I would be leaving early in the morning and he didn't think that he would be able to sneak out then. Anyway, we sat out in the hall for a bit and talked. It was nice. We just talked about random things. It was almost curfew when it happened. He said for me to be careful when I was in the Capitol. I was in the middle of promising to do that when he kissed me. I was in shock. I couldn't believe it.
Did I know that he liked me like that? Yes. Was I expecting it? Nope! It was quick, but I knew that it wasn't something random. That it was something he wanted to do for a while.
I tried to talk after that, but I was still in shock. He gave me a hug and said that he'd miss me then started to leave. Before he got too far, I called his name. As he turned around I smiled and said that I would miss him too. He smiled back, then left.
Did I react horribly? I probably did, but… maybe not? Oh, I don't know. I really hope he doesn't think it was forced. I was just so shocked that it happened. And, to tell you the truth, I don't know how to do these things. I'm only thirteen. I think that's how someone else would react, but I was just going on instinct.
I'll miss Rory a lot. And my mother. And Buttercup. I'll miss everything a lot. Even Thirteen. I still want to go, but I just realized how much I would miss everything.
How does Katniss do it?
I can't take you with me to the Capitol. I wish I could, it would help distract me from everything to write in you. But the soldiers said no.
Maybe I could sneak you? No, I'm a bad liar… usually.
It's really late. I should be asleep right now (considering how early I have to get up tomorrow). But I can't. I'm too worried about tomorrow. I want to help people, but I don' really want to go out into battle… not that I'm fighting, but others will.
I'm terrified. Incredibly terrified. This is one of the scariest things that I've ever done. But I have to do it. They're already short people, if I don't go, it will only make it worse. And if I don't go now, they won't ask me to go again. Why would they try and get a thirteen year old girl to go to the Capitol? The only reason I can think that they picked me is because my mother's so good at healing people. They know that I have some of her talent. That still doesn't make sense though, there are others who are older and more qualified than me.
This is good bye, I guess. At least until I get back. I've enjoyed writing in you. When I write in you next, I'll be happier.
Until then,
Primrose Everdeen
