Helpless

I stared at the door waiting for her to walk in, but to my disappointment, she never did.

I pushed myself off the bed, my body was getting stronger, meaning in a few days, i may be lucky and get outta here.

I checked the clock, it was 3:30. I sighed and walked over towards the door. Her voice, her presents seemed so familiar yet so far away. I reached my hand out and touched the hardened wood. It was still warm.

I closed my eyes, I felt so helpless, like a child lost in the woods frightened.

Most of all, I wanna remember her.

All these emotions came at me at once,

frustration, anger, hurt, disappointment, and hopelessness.

I didn't know what to do, How am i sapost to remember the past. When i barely knew myself.

This was pointless, all this thinking was only stressing me out. I growled, everything was so confusing.

Both of my hands went on my head. I started pacing back n forth, i let out a course and through the tray that the nurse brought in. The cup that had water in it, shattered from the force.

DAMN IT, C-MON, THINK BASTARD, THINK...REMEMBER, TRY TO REMEMBER

Someone was outside the door, I could smell them, But it wasnt the person who he hoped to see. Instead it was the doctor. When the door opened and he walked in, paper and pin at his disposal, I just wanted to scream, more questioning, just what i didn't need.

The doctor glanced at him, then noticed shattered glass on the floor, then he seen the tray just a cupple feet a way.

" I'm not even gonna ask how your day is, by the looks of it, that's all i need to know" His voice was gruff.

" Gonna ask me more questions doc?" I glared at him. " Cause if that's the case, ill just tell you now, i don't remember a damn thing. So id like it if you'd leave me alone"

He bit back his words, as if he had something he wanted to say, then breathed out a breath.
" Well, everything besides your momorie loss, seems fine, your blood pressure was a little high tho, id like you to keep in eye on that."

He scribbled more notes, and looked back up at me.

" In all cases, your free to go but..."

He didn't have time to finish, cause i flew out the door slamming it shut behind me.

The doctor shook his head. " Just like talking to a wall."

She looked at her reflection in the mirror, She couldn't face inuyasha today, not after what happened yesterday,

His probably more confused then ever.

She never gotten to finish telling him about Songo and the other's.

She looked away from the mirror. And pulled out a picture that was in her pocket.

It was taken in his time, they were all gathered around, all but Inuyasha smiled.

A thought hit her. Maybe if she took pictures to show him, it well trigger something in his memorie.

When she went to open the door, there was a 6 foot 2 inch male blocking her view.

She stepped back, once she finally got a better look of him she was shocked. " Inuyasha?"

I stepped inside. Arm's crossed. And looked down at her. She looked back up at me. " Why didn't you show up today?" I asked.

She shrugged her shoulder. " I was busy"

dought it

I noticed that her eyes were red and puffy, like she's been crying, but trying to hide the evidence. Sorry to say, she didn't do a very good job.

" You didn't come because of what happened the last time." I stated. " You didn't have to be embaressed, i asked the question, and you answered it."

She pulled up her hand bag strap, and cleared her throat." Yeah well... It was no big deal. I understood the circumstances before and i know them now, now, if you'll excuse me, i have to get back"

I didn't move an inch, sucks to be her.

" So, your just gonna pretend that i ment nothing to you, cause of some silly promise i made to some girl i don't even remember, her name is bad enough" I said with a snort.

"Sooner or later, you're gonna get your memories back, and when that happens, you'll remember her, and forget all about me, or use me just to find the jewel shards. Just like in the past."

The was she said it, made me cringe. The more i learned about myself, the more i wish i never asked. The me i us to be, sounded selfish, and less understanding of others, And cruel. If i was so in love with this...this... KIKYO, person, why couldn't i see her face, the name brought a bitter taste to my mouth. Wouldnt a person so in love, at lest remember the face of their lover?. All ive ever seen was the face of the woman who stood a cupple feet away.

"What if i never remember? would that change how you fell?" I questioned, maybe life would be better, if i just didn't remember.

" The way i felt for you in the past and they way i fell about you now, is the same."

" Then why not give the new me a chance, at lest, to make up for all the hurt i caused you in the past" Did i look like a fool, i didn't beg or anything right? God i hope not.

Her eyes twinkled. Then both of her cheeks turned red.

I couldn't help but smile.

" If that's what you want, then ill give it a go" she whispered.

" Sounds good to me, " I grabbed her hand. " Kagome"