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Molly

I was in the darkness again. It covered me, consumed me. I would feel it. Taste it. Everywhere I looked there it was. Then a small speck of light. I ran towards it touching it with my fingers, pulling it apart until it expanded and filled my darkness with light.

There he stood. Gone was his wings, his tail. There was only his eyes green and stoic. In his hand he held a sword. I stepped towards him, he made no movement.

I lunged then falling onto him my hands going out to find his throat, my fingers clinching as we fell.

" Will you kill me girl?" He asked his tone empty, his eyes void. I squeezed harder until my fingers popped and ached. He closed his eyes then accepting it.

" Molly!" Joel called.

" Why?" I shouted my fingers still at his throat. " What made you think…what made either of you think I wanted to forget anything that happened to me? What gave you the right to pry around in my head?"

He opened both eyes then, still spread out under me he met my gaze. I lowered my head until our faces were inches away. " Answer me." I shouted. He continued to stare.

I loosened my grip until my fingers were a mere caress on his neck. I ground my teeth into my bottom lip, and swallowed back tears. My vision spun and blurred until everyone around me were nothing but mere splotches and bits of color.

I could see my memories too, just as faded and blurred and specked as my vision. Battles were played out before me, faces animated in my view. I could taste blood, feel the wind on my skin as I moved faster than any human could possibly move.

I don't want to lose this. I thought as I leaned forward clawing my hands against the fabric of Ulquiorra's shirt. I didn't want to lose this, yet I would if I didn't do something. " I don't want to lose this," I cried pressing my forehead against his collarbone. " I don't want to be broken."


Ulquiorra

" I don't want to be broken," Molly cried as her fingers clawed at his shirt and her tears fell down upon his chest. The droplets of water were cold against his flesh.

" Stop it !" Joel exclaimed reaching out to move her hands away. He moved a moment too late, she lunged at him then grabbing him by the neck and pushing him down.

" Molly are you alright…" Joel started but she tightened her grip around his neck. Her eyes were blink as if she did not see him, her fingers clawed. " Molly…" he choked reaching up to touch her face.

Ulquiorra gathered his strength then and stood. His body was unusually shaky and his spiritual pressure felt low and useless. He'd felt this feeling before, when he'd first met the girl. Weak, almost human. What ever she did to him was having an effect on her body now.

" You…" She said through labored breaths. " This is all your fau-" She cut herself off then as she lost consciousness and fell forward onto Joel's chest.


Molly

It's a strange thing waking up and thinking your entire life was just a dream only to realize that everything was real and nothing was as fake as you wanted it to be.

I felt like that, when I awoke up again.

New. Better. Improved. Like my eyes were opened for the first time in years. Like I was a baby who'd taken their first steps. I finally felt like myself, if only a little. And with that feeling came the memory of what I'd done.

" Molly!" Joel said lifting me up again. We were at his apartment now, I was in my bed. I balled my fist and lunged this time he saw it coming and blocked the blow. I grabbed at his arms and climbed until I straddled him hitting as hard as I could in his chest and stomach even his groin. " Stop it Molly!" He yelled pushing me back over. I attempted another go at him. He moved off the bed away from me and my scratching fingers.

I braced my hands against my head and held them here. " That monster the one I see in my dreams," I said. " All black and covered in despair. That was Ulquiorra wasn't it?"

Joel said nothing.

" I was so afraid…" I said. " I was dying, he…you guys saved me."

More silence on Joel's part. I turned to face him, his face was void of any emotion.

" Where's Ulquiorra and Rin and Grimmjow?" I asked.

" Molly…you have no idea what happened." Joel said sitting up so we were face to face. " Your body…"

" I've never felt better." I said. " Wait what happened?"

" You…and Ulquiorra…"

" What happened?" I insisted.

" You attacked him," Joel said. " You tried to kill him, then me."

I shook my head. There was no way I would try to kill Joel or Ulquiorra. Yet here Joel was saying that I did. Not that I could take anything Joel said to heart, he had been lying to me this entire time.

" What do you remember?"

I held my head. " I remember Grimmjow and Rin, the warehouse then you bursting in. Seeing my other self, agreeing to get my memories back…" I paused. " Then Ulquiorra…"

" Anything else?"

I shook my head. " No that's all. But I still don't have my full memory back. There are still faces with no names, names with no faces. And I'm still angry at the both of you."

" Molly…" Joel began but stopped when he realized it was a hopeless cause.

" Where is he?" I said.

" Grimmjow took him back to Huedo Muedo. Listen Molly what you did wasn't good. If the Soul Society finds out you have your memories back and that Grimmjow and Rin were the ones who helped you after the truce…"

" Then don't tell them," I said. " If they ask tell him you repressed them again, I'll play stupid. Anything, anything not to go back to being the way I was."

" Its not that simple Molly. This area is under intense watch, for any lingering unwanted spiritual pressure. Not only did you unlock your own memories Molly, you stole some of Ulquiorra's spiritual pressure."

I stole…

" He was trying to take my memories," I said. " I had no idea that would happen."

" Well it did," Joel snapped.

" What's the big deal?" I asked. " It couldn't have been that much, I still feel the same."

" It is a big deal Molly," Joel said. " What if you go back to being the way you were, bonded to that Hollow. It happened before it can sure as hell happen again."

" Is that all your worried about?" I asked my voice boarder line yelling. " All your worried about is me being closer to Ulquiorra and-"

He grabbed my arms and shook me. He was angry, so angry he shook and ground his teeth. " The Soul Society," Joel barked. " If they find out they will never leave you alone Molly. Don't you understand, your ruining the balance of things. It can not be like it was before Molly, this time when they take you it will be for good."

I shook my head causing wisps of unbrushed hair to slap my cheeks and brow. " What do you mean take me?"

Joel let me go and stood. He was shaking his head. " Since erasing your memories won't work anymore, capturing or killing you is another option."

Capture or Kill...

" And what about Ulquiorra and Grimmjow and…"

" Them to," Joel said cutting me off. " Their both hollows Molly. You may not know it but their was a war between the Soul Society and the Arrancars. The deaths and destruction numerous. Their aren't many Arrancars left." Joel hesitated took a moment to look at me then turned back around. " Ulquiorra and Grimmjow are two of the strongest and ruthless ones to date."

" They aren't all that bad…" I whispered.

" Grimmjow captured you twice." Joel said pointedly.

" He said he wanted to kill me, but couldn't. That he didn't know what was stopping him." I said. " And Ulquiorra…he never once hurt me. Well not intentionally anyway." I glanced up at Joel through my brows, he was staring at me like I was a new type of fish. Strange and deformed and not all conventional. I continued. " Their both looking for something…the meaning of something…I want to help them."

" Their not puppies," Joel said. " You can't just bring them home and feed and train them."

" That's not what I'm trying to say." I said defensibly.

" They can't love," he said. " Molly they are hollows, devoid of love and any positive emotion."

" How do you know that?" I challenged standing to face him.

" Molly I love you but-" he cut himself off with a deep sigh. " If you make yourself an enemy of the Soul Society, all the love and protection I can give will not save you from them. From yourself. I will not watch you die."

I grabbed his arm gently, it was warm and malleable and muscled. He turned to face me, his brown eyes warily and pleading. My made my face as unmovable and determined as possible. I had to show I was serious, that I was unyielding in my decision. When he saw this, his face grew taut as well, the muscles tightened and he glared down at me with cold fury, and determination. He'd made up his mind as well.

We were two unmovable objects standing in each others way. I opened my mouth to speak, my words were interrupted by Joel's mouth on mine.

That steady feeling of warmth hit me again, and for a moment I wanted to forget about everything else. About my memories being taken, or wanting to save Ulquiorra, and help Grimmjow. I wanted nothing more than to melt in-between Joel's arms and be that child on the swing set again, laughing and shouting as he pushed me as high in the air as his tiny arms would allow.

We stayed like that for a minute, his hands entangled in my hair his lips moving against mine, his tongue sweeping mouth before my senses returned to me, as well as my determination. I was breathless as I replied, " I will save him," I said.

His hands still entangled in my hair Joel leaned forward and kissed my forehead gently. Then pulling my face upwards he met my eyes. I knew what he was going to say before he said it. But that didn't mean I wanted to hear it. " It sounds to me like you've made your choice Molly."

I grabbed his hands then desperately. I was that selfish child again on the playground, begging Joel to keep on pushing the swing even when he complained that his arms hurt and he wanted to go home.

" Please…" I gasped. Tears were stinging my eyes then, and burning the back of my throat. " Please don't…I need you here to help me. I haven't made my choice…I…"

He smiled at me weakly. " You have to learn Molly." He said pulling my hands away hesitantly then placing them weakly at my side.

" Please…" I whined. Tears had found their way out of my eyes to course down my cheeks. I knew I was being selfish asking Joel to stay with me while I blatantly opposed him trying to protect and love me at every turn. But I needed him. I hadn't made my choice, not completely. I just wanted to help Ulquiorra. As I would Joel if it were him instead. I opened my mouth to explain all of this, but no words would come out, only thick wet coughs.

He turned and walked to the door, turning to give me one last longing look. " Even I can be hurt."

Then he walked away leaving me in my dark room alone. No longer able to bear the weight of my own decisions I slid down my wall and began to sob.


Oh no Molly's all alone now. Who's going to save her? Darn you Joel and your feelings!

Where is Ulquiorra when all this is happening?

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