I've looked on the internet and then I've looked on my mum photographs and I've found nothing! I feel like I'm going no where. Although, I felt something with mum she seemed really sad and when I went up to her she said that she knew what I was doing and she didn't think that it would be good to keep searching. I don't know what she means though I need to find him, I feel constently that there is a part of my life which is missing. She doesn't understand she is taking a part of my life but she doesn't car I don't think she ever has which means I have got to find him. Ask him why? Dad needs me and I need him I just know that so now I'll have to go behind mum's back and find him but cover my tracks or she will not be happy and we'll get into a big fight and I'll end up sleeping at one of my friends houses I hate it because then I think that mum won't except me again. She told me that next time will be the last. I can't lose the only thing that is real but she really isn't. I just need that one piece of my life that is missing and I need to find out how come I'm not normal like everyone else.
