Twilight=Not Mine
I was staring at the same wall for the past week now. The tears have been delayed at least until tonight. I miss Edward so much. I have learnt to accept the pain when I hear his name. It is like a gun to my heart but it's like I pulled the trigger. Life I guess, full of pain and disappointment. I scraped my caucus off my bed and took the sheets to the washer. I also took off my raunchy clothes there and put them in the washer. I secured a towel across my body and then made my way to clean myself off. Time to get myself back out into the world and live again. At least attempt to live again.
The water felt great like it washing away some of the hurt, or grunge. Grunge is probably the right answer. I got out and dried myself off. Time to get ready for the day. I lied, time to put on sweats and go shopping. Shocking I know people, but it is time for change. I promised Charlie I would try in life, now I am going to start finally. I got in my truck and started to drive to Port Angeles. I began to think as always.
I missed Charlie. He died last year, he was one of my rocks. After he died he continued to take care of me. I inherited everything, even all of grandma swans money. I was literally set for life. That fact does not make up for that Charlie is gone. Sigh. I pulled up to the mall parking lot. I did the whole feel better slash new person montage, that which got me a hell of a lot of stuff. Last stop of the day, hairdresser. I just had her put some gold streaks through my hair, which look amazing. I got home and passed out onto my bed. Looks like tomorrow, my first day back since the Cullens left is all set. Let hell continue.
Sorry this was so boring and short guys. I promise the next chapter will be much more interesting. Stay faithful in this if you wish. Feedback is appreciated.
With love and where is this story going?.
Bella Boo
