A/N: Thank you for the reviews. Also this story is not beta and i don't own flashpoint Anyway the story is short and yes i would have Sam POV and we do find out why Jules is feeling this way. Thanks.
After crying my eyes off, I manage to get up from the bed and take a shower. I decide to go into work early and try to work out to get all the anger out of my system. When I arrive at headquarters, I was alone and I started looking around and appreciating how much I love this job. How hard I work to be here, even if one day I don't make it back after a call. I know it is a risk, but this job is home, and I won't change it for anything. I feel like I make a difference, with smart, strong people that would do anything to make sure that job is done right, and what a better way to work then being in team one. I shake my head from my sentimental thoughts and turn around to go to my locker. When I turn around I froze. He was behind me staring at me. He stared was so intense I couldn't find my breath. I calm myself down and make sure he didn't notice before I greet him.
"Good morning Sam." I said and smile at him.
"Good morning Jules, are you alright?" He asked and I could see the concern in his eyes.
"I am fined." I said but the dream flash through my eyes and for a second I got scare. My body even tense and I shiver from the intensity. I look up to him and he was wide eye. I notice how his beautiful baby blues went from concern to shock, to angry. He stared at me for one more second before his face went blank.
"Good." He said and his voice was cold.
"Sam, are you alright?" I asked this time, because for some reason I was getting the vibe that he was hiding something. That he was in pain.
"Me, I am great, I just came to work out early. I see you later." He said and walks off while I stood there staring at him.
While I work out on the bike, Sam was in the other side of the room working out too. And for the life of me I couldn't stop staring at him. I know something is bothering him. But I am not sure if it is me, or he came like that. I notice when he wasn't watching how his eyes soften and how sad they look when he look at me, but as soon as he realize I was looking they went blank. After a while the team joins us and I concentrate it in anything else, but Sam and the nightmare from last night.
We got a call and everyone did they job. I was partner with Sam, but in the field we are used to working professionally. But as soon as we got back to the barn, he went cold again. I try my best to make small talk, but he seems to keep me at arm lengths. I decide to let it be and just go home and deal with my own problem.
When I arrived home, I decide to order some take out, and watch some television. After eating and catching on some shows, I went and got in the bath again with a glass of wine. I love the little routine. It really relaxes me before I go to bed. I got ready for bed and few minutes later I was out cold again.
Again I bolt upright, sweating and gasping. I was trembling, and I couldn't seem to remember where I was. And for so damn reason I was scare. I pull my legs to my chest and took small breath to calm down. They were getting worst and I couldn't seem to wake up.
"Damn what it happening to me? Why I am so damn scared? Who the hell I am scare off? Oh I know Sam, I am scare of Sam." I said to myself and then I gasp. Oh I can't believe I said that. I could never be scare of Sam; I love the man more than my life. He is the only guy that I see myself with, but I know the rules, so I rather live with his friendship than ruined it with a fling. And that is why I broke up with him, because I couldn't deal with all this emotions. Yes I am scare of Sam, not because he would hurt me, but because he loves me so much. And even though he never told me, the way he shows me and looks at me, tell me that he was in it for real. That it wasn't just sex. No I need to try and go back to sleep and forget about everything, including Sam.
When I woke up again, I was still reckless, these dreams are getting more intense and they seem so real. Since the shot yesterday, that all I keep hearing and thinking and it driving me insane. But the worst part is the role that Sam played in my dreams. I am actually scared of him and for some reason I can't trust him and deep down I know is not true and that I am not scare of him. But I feel off and like my unconscious it is trying to tell me something, I just don't know what. I decide to take a hot shower and get ready for work. When I got there the team was already there.
"Good morning guys." I said.
"Good morning Jules, bad night?" Greg asked.
"Yes." I said and from the corner of my eyes, I notice Sam tense. It was subtle, but I know his body and I could notice it anywhere. And why is he tensing.
"Sam got coffee." Spike said.
"I have Jules, she already have one." Lewis said.
"No, I want mine this one is done already." I said and reach for mine, and then throw my other cup out.
"That bad, you must as had some night." Ed said while the guys laugh.
"You could say that." I mutter and follow them to the locker rooms.
After we got ready we went to the briefing room, for our morning routine. I try to make small talk with Sam, but again he was giving me the cold shoulder. But it was weird because as cold as he was with me, he was vibrating such heat. That it would knock anyone that would get in his way. It was like he was trying to keep himself together and not to lose it. And for the life of me I couldn't understand why.
It was a slow day and by lunch I was sleepy and irritated with Sam and myself. I decide I was going to confront him after shift and find out why he so damn cold with me. I didn't do anything to him and if he having personal problem he doesn't have to take it out on me. I am not taking out my frustration about my nightmares on him.
At the end of shift I change in the record of time and waited for Sam outside. I was glad that he was trying to do the same and he came out before the team came out.
"Hey Sam." I said and he turns around surprise.
"Hey, I have to go." He said and tries to rush to his bike.
"Wait, I want to talk to you." I said and got on his way. He sighs and stiffens and then looks at me with this blank look on his face.
"What?" He asked.
"Look, I am just wondering if you are mad at me. Lately I notice that you giving me the cold shoulder and I don't understand if I did anything to you, so you could treat me like that." I said and stared at him, waiting to see what he tells me. I didn't want to miss anything.
"I am not mad at you Jules. I am being the same with you that I am with everyone else. You just tired, and seeing things." He said and tries to move again. I put my hand on his chest and he tense and his eyes were wide open with pain. It is like he is hurting just by my touch, so I remove my hand quick and just look at him.
"Sam you are lying, what wrong?"
"Jules." He snaps and sighs. "Look Jules, I have nothing against you, I am sorry if you felt that I treated you like that. I won't do it again. Go home and get some rest, drink some tea before bed, you are not sleeping well." He said and I shiver, drink some tea before I go to bed. He only tells me that when I have nightmare. Does he know I am having nightmares, and why the hell I got scare right now? I decide to change the subject back to him. I know he is hiding something.
"Sam are you sure you alright?"
"Jules I am fine. Trust me I would never lie to you and the last thing I wanted to do was hurt you." He said and got on his bike and left.
I stood there staring at him. "Hurt me" who said anything about hurting me. Does he know about the dreams? Did he notice that I got scare for just one second right in front him. Oh please don't, the last thing I wanted was to hurt him. I know these nightmares are not true. Sam would not hurt me or anyone on purpose. He the most loyal guy I ever know. I need to get it together. I need to find out why I am dreaming all these things about him and why Sam is acting like that towards me.
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