A/N: Thank you everyone for the reviews, following and all the good stuff. I have one more chapter and this story is done. It has being a pleasure to write this one so i hope you guys enjoy it as much as i have. Please reviews and let me know what you guys think. And dont forget the story is not beta, but i try my best. Thanks. By the way no Sacrifice tonight, but hopefully by next week. The reason being, i have a new beta for the story.
It being a week since I heard the shot and my nightmares started. And I have try everything to get myself to sleep at night, but the moment I close my eyes I see everything that happen on the roof top. I am not even waking up in sweat or shaking anymore. My eyes and my mind just won't see anything else but that. At work I do my job and the guys are concern because I look tired, but I assure them that I am fine. Even though they don't believe me much, they let me be and try to help out, but not Sam. With each day he becomes more reckless and cold toward me. And if you look closer he is not sleeping either. That fact that no one has notice it, means that he is doing a great job of hiding whatever is bothering him. I am still puzzle of why the hell he acting liked that toward me, but I am too tired to find out. These dreams are getting worst. They so bad I am actually thinking about seeing Dr. Luria to help me understand it. But I am afraid that they would suspend me for a while until they feel I could do my job. Plus they might think that I came back too early after I got shot and I am suffering from some kind of post trauma shock since the incident. Which I think is true, but what is bothering me more about those dreams, is that I am scare of Sam in the dream. It like he was the one that was trying to hurt me. I know is not true and when I see him I try my best not to remember those dreams in front of him, but with each day, it gets hard to tell the difference from what real and what is not.
"Jules, earth to Jules are you sure, you alright?" Ed asked.
"I am alright, just tired."
"Jules, why don't you go home and get some sleep." Wordy said.
"I will as soon as the shift is over. I would sleep for the next three days." I said and I couldn't wait to be off for all those days even if I didn't get any rest.
"Jules what is bothering you?" Greg asked.
"Honestly boss, I don't even know anymore." I said and sighs, "Look I being having some weird dreams and they don't let me sleep." I said maybe being honest would help me. Plus I trust my team.
"You just need to get lay." Spike said and everyone laugh, except for Sam.
"Try that, and still didn't work." I said to try and lighten the mood. I change my mind about letting them know about my dreams. At least this way they focus on something else.
"Oh wait. You got laid?" Spike asked punching Ed in the arm, like he just discovered something interesting.
"Wait with whom?" Ed asked and all I could do was laugh because it worked the conversation switch to something else and not about my nightmare. My only regret is that Sam haven't even move since I said that. And I could tell that he trying to concentrate on his breathing, and staying calm. The last thing I wanted was to hurt him. He is an amazing guy and he has always being there for me. But I keep hurting and pushing him away. And I know that he is hurting and being cold because of me. I don't know yet why, but everything started at the same time my nightmare started.
"That is for me to know." I said and wink at them.
"Oh, Jules that is not fair." Spike whine.
"Spike give it up, I am not going to tell you." I said and rose up. Shift was over and I couldn't wait to go home.
When I got home, I decide to order take out and get a bottle of wine to drink with my dinner again. After dinner, I took a shower and went to bed. I close my eyes and everything came back.
"I think we got it." I said and Sam move forward. "Police, drop your weapon hands in the air or we will shoot."
"Show me your hand, show me your hand, and show me your hand." Sam shouts and then took the cover off. "It is a discoid."
"Where is he?" I said.
"Fall back, fall back now, and take cover." Ed is screaming in my ears and all I could do is look around to see if I see him. And then my eyes fall on Sam and he is just standing there with the smirk on his face. Did he want me to get shot? That is why he didn't run fast enough to cover me with the shield. Or run fast enough when I drop after the shot. And when he finally reaches me he had the nerve to tell me to stay with him. How could I stay with him, when he didn't stay with me? He left me unprotect. He said he protects his friends and he left me unguarded and now I am shot and might die. Why? I thought he care for me, that he at least likes me enough to be more than sex. Why Sam? Why hurt me like that? And then all of sudden he standing there, looking at me and telling me that he never care about me. That I was just a distraction and women can't do this job, that why I got shot. NO. SAM.
I bolt upright again. God when are these nightmares are going to stop. I know Sam would never hurt me. And I know it was impossible for him to protect me. But why I feel the need to blame him and feel scare toward him. Why all of this happening now and what the hell should I do. I sigh and look at my alarm clock and it was 3 in the morning. I got up and went to the bathroom to watch my face. I was getting back in bed when I hear a knock on the door.
At first I thought I was going crazy, but then I heard it again. I made my way downstairs and I hesitance for one second to open the door. When I gather the courage to open the door, he was standing there. His face was pale and the bags under his eyes were so dark, you could hardly see those beautiful baby blues. But what caught my attention was the tears streak on his face and his red blood eyes. He being crying and it wasn't some nonsense thing. He was sobbing, the one that breaks your heart to see.
"Sam."
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