A/N: Thank you for the reviews. And please dont kill me in the end. Thanks.


It being two days and Jules and I had spent it in her house, either talking, or having sex. The only time we would stop any of that is to eat and take a shower. We had being in our own world for three days and today is the day that we have to go back to reality. As much as I am dreading this day, I wonder what going to happen to our relationship. We decide that we are going to give it one more tried. Deep down we know is wrong, but I am willing to take anything she gives me. I am glad that we settle things. And yes I still feel responsible for that day, but at least it out there and she sleeping better. She hasn't had a nightmare on this past three days and it makes me sleep better.

"Good morning sleepyhead."

"Good morning." She said and pulls her head under the pillow.

"We need to go to work." I said and take the pillow away from her.

"I don't want to." She said and pouts.

"I know me either, but it is time to get back to reality." I said and sigh. She sat down and watches me.

"You change your mind?"

"No, never, but I am afraid." I said honestly.

"I know me too. But remember this time we make it work."

"Ok." I said and kiss her. Then we went to the bathroom and we got ready for work. Actually she got ready and I went home to get ready.

When I got to work, everyone was there already. I said my hellos to everyone and acted like nothing happen between Jules and me. We had a call and Jules and I were partner. We did our job and make sure that we kept it professional. At the end of the day, we all decide to celebrate at the goose for the great day at work.

"Alright beers on me."

"Why boss?" Spike asked.

"Because you guys earn it. Today you guys work admirably and you guys show dedication and professionalism." Greg said.

"Oh thank you." We all said and toast to it. Then we continue talking and drinking. It was fun and relaxing. And the entire time I kept an eye on Jules. She was more happy and rested.

"So Jules I see you are rested, did you finally get laid?" Spike asked and I try my best not to tense.

"Spike I am starting to believe you the one that don't get lay that is why you so interested in my sex life." Jules said and we all started laughing. I give it to her, she good. She knows how to shift the conversation away from her. After a few minutes of bothering Spike and making jokes about him, I got up and went to order more beer. When I was at the bar, a woman approaches me.

"Hey I am Melissa, and you are?" She said and extended her hand to me.

"I am Sam, nice to meet you." I said and extend my hand. From the corner of my eyes I could see the team staring at me. I need to keep it cool, because I don't want the team to think I am hiding something. Mainly name Jules. But I am also afraid what Jules might be thinking right now.

"So Sam are you taken?" She asked and for some reason I like her straight forward question.

"No I am not, just here with my coworkers." I said and pointed to our table. She wave hi, and they did the same, including Jules.

"Good, here is my number. I would really like to get to know you." She said and leans toward me and gave me a kiss on the cheek.

"Thanks." I said and put it on my pocket. Then I grab the beers and went back to the table.

"Whoa Samtastic, good job, the blond is hot." Spike said and they all agree.

"She is right." I said and kept the smile to my face. Deep down I feel bad, but that is the risk we have to take because we keeping our relationship a secret.

"Did she give you her number?" Lewis asked.

"Of course."

"Are you going to call her?" Wordy asked.

"We all know he is, she hot." Ed said.

"Don't let Sophie hear you said that." Jules said and we all laugh.

"So are you?" Lewis asked.

"What you think? The girl is really hot, and I am single, of course I am going to call her." I said and try my best not to wince at my own words.

"Good for you. You deserved some decent lay." Jules joke and we couldn't stop laughing.

"You know it great you two are getting along better." Spike said out of nowhere and Jules and I tense.

"What do you mean?" I asked.

"Well, since we find out that you guys were dating and hiding from the team, after you guys were force to break up, you guys were acting weird around each other."

"Um Spike, you had too much beer." Wordy said and by now everyone is sober up except for Spike.

"No let me finish, at first I was worried that everything was going to change because you guys couldn't keep your hands of each other and the team were going to separate. But I see you guys manage to work together even after you guys broke up. I did felt bad, but secrets are no good for anyone. So I am glad you guys could make the rest us breathe easier."

"Spike I think is time to go home." Wordy said and Spike groaned. They got up and the rest of us just sat there watching them.

"Hey Spike, we apologize if we ever made you feel like that. We apologize to all of you. It wasn't our intention and it would never happen again. You would never have to worry about Jules or me letting you guys down. We would always watch you guys back."

"Sam is right, I guess we never thought about the pressure we put on you guys. It would never happen again, it was stupid." Jules said and I could tell she is shaking. She trying her best to hide it, but I caught it in her hand before she lowered it under the table.

"Hey guys, that happened already, don't listen to Spike he just drunk." Ed said.

"Yeah, we are leaving now. He won't even remember that in the morning." Wordy said and left with Spike.

"They both right, I mean Wordy and Ed, that is the past, so you two don't worry about this anymore. Have a goodnight." Greg said and with that he got up, and followed Wordy and Ed.

We sat there for another half an hour without talking. We were both in our own thoughts and for the life of me I couldn't look at her. I know what was coming already and deep down I know it was the right thing to do. And as much as I love her, and she loves me, we are to scare to take the risk of losing our job or letting the team down. So we rather suffer and sacrifice our love so we won't hurt the people we care for.

"It is over, right?"

"Yes." She whisper

"I am sorry."

"Me too."

"Just promise me that you won't let what Spike said eat you alive. What happened is in the past. We already move on. This past weekend was unfinished business. No reason to dwell on it."

"But Sam he was hurt."

"No Jules he was drunk. And he was the only one that was willing to tell us how he felt to our face, that our mistakes have consequences."

"Our mistake, we were a mistake." She whispers again and I could tell she is trying her best to keep it together.

"No. But it would have to be so we could move on." I said and sigh.

"I know. Goodnight Sam." She said and got up. She walks toward me, stop next to me and pass her small hand through my face. Then bend down and kiss me lightly on the lips.

"Goodnight Jules." I said and watch her walk away. And for the second time in my life, the woman that I love left me, because not matter how much we try, there are something's bigger than our love for each other.

It being 8 weeks since Jules and I broke up in the goose. At first it was hard to get back to the same way that we use to be. But then after two days, it was like everything was forgotten. Spike did apologize and he felt bad about what he said, but we reassure him that this was not his fault and we didn't get mad at him. She has being much better and she being resting more. No nightmares since the weekend we had together and I haven't had one either. But today I woke up, reckless. I can't explain it, but I have a feeling that something bad is going to happen. I got dress and went to work. After the morning briefing we got a call about a sniper killing random people. When we got there, we all went our separate ways. Again I was partner with Jules, but for some reason I can't stop thinking that this is really familiar.

"Sam Jules check the clock towel rooftop." Greg said and for one second we both froze. Then we both look at each other in the eyes and I could see the same feeling I was having passed through her eyes.

"On it boss." We both said.

"Dejavu guys." Spike said and Jules and I tense. Yes he could say that again. We back to the same place that ruined our life all those months ago. We were standing right in front of the door before I stop Jules and turn to her.

"I promise I would do it right this time." I said and with that we went in. We look at around and nothing. But then I felt it. It like I sense it and all I did was run toward her.

"Jules." I said before I heard the shot.

"Officer down, we need EMS. Officer down."

"I did it right this time." I said and ping her down so she wouldn't get hurt.

"Stay with me Sam." I heard Jules said before everything when dark.


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