Disclaimer: I do NOT own Naruto and sadly never will. *cries in corner*

Title: Fire in the Wind

Pairings: Sasuke/Naruto (SasuNaru)

Rating: T / Pg-13 (might change later on)

Genre: Drama/Angst/Romance/Humor

Summary: From abusive relationships, to self-inflictions, to starvation, to aggregation. This world can steal, kill, and destroy, but when I look into his cerulean eyes, everything is perfect and calm. I hate him..but at the same time, I'd follow him to the ends of the world. No matter how I hate myself, I can't hate him./ SasuNaru /. Yaoi ./ Mental illness fanfic/ triggering

Timeline: Actual universe. Also known as 21st century.

Warnings: Will eventually be yaoi! (Sorry mom.)

sorry for OOCness. I won't try to have it that way, but since it is AU it will have to be slightly OOC. Also, I will place warnings on the chapters that have yaoi, so don't worry. Lastly, sorry for typos! I'm going to try and find a beta reader. If interested, please PM me.

Status: Continuing

Fire in the Wind

By Sasurealian

Chapter One

It was quiet….too quiet. Was this where you went when you died?

My eyes slowly opened, but my vision was rocky. I tried to sit up, but it was in vein. My body was extremely weak. I noticed I was in a very plain room. I was also on a bed with white sheets that smelled like bleach.

Where was I? There weren't any windows or nothing. However I saw an open door not too far from me and with my best efforts I pulled myself up and tried to make it to the door.

I fell flat onto my face albeit with great effort. Someone must had heard the loud 'SMACK' against the floor because a lady wearing white scrubs came in and helped me up.

"Uchiha Sasuke…..you're awake. You must not move from bed yet since you have lost a severe amount of blood."

"So I'm not dead?"

"Of course not."

Fuck….

With an arousing headache I fell back into the mattress and groaned inwardly.

"Whatever then. Where the fuck am I?"

"W-well….you're in a umm…."

I quirked an eyebrow.

"Ya'know, just the mental institution that Saint Peter's hospital has. It connects to the hospital and that's where you were treated after you were found basically dead by your father."

I began to wonder how my dad managed to open my bedroom door. Sheesh, why couldn't I have just died? It would have been a lot easier.

"Well, that's enough of this bull shit, I'm out." With all my effort, I pulled myself up- once again-and headed for the door, but the nurse-lady-thing stopped me, "No! You mustn't leave!"

I rolled my eyes and gave her my does-it-look-like-I-give-a-shit expression. It was the look that was constantly plastered on my face.

"Don't you understand how serious this is?" She stood in front of the door with her arms spread like an eagle. Was this dumb bitch really trying to block my exit?

"Hn, I don't care, I'm fine."

"You tried to kill yourself! Do you know that?"

I almost contemplated that thought, but got too annoyed so instead I nursed my temples, "lady, I don't care. Just let me leave. Otherwise I'll force my way out."

"Your father admitted you here; you can't leave without his consent."

I suddenly got angry, "What do you mean 'can't leave'?"

"Well, you're under the age of 18, so your father can keep you in here as long as he would like."

I was pretty sure I was on fire I was so pissed. If you could imagine with me for just a moment: I was stuck in some loony bin, with other loony people because my drunken-ass abusive father thinks I have mental issues? Are you kidding me? This is all a joke, right?

"I don't care, just let me out."

"Excuse me for saying this, but I can't release you and if you try and leave, I'll sedate you."

…the hell. Really? I wanted to test her. There was no way I was staying here. This was a huge mistake, I was supposed to die. I was supposed to be off this damned planet and disappear.

I pushed passed her and out the door. The lady in bleached scrubs tried to grab my arm, but I yanked away and then did something risky.

I ran.

I went down the halls not sure of where I was. I turned around a corner and almost slipped, but with the help of my hands, I regained my balance and kept up my pace.

I took a curve too sharp and thought I would slip and be caught, but suddenly there was a figure in front of me and..

'BAM'

I collided with its body and fell on top of it.

I was so dizzy. My head hurt significantly, but ignoring the pain I opened my eyes and tried to focus and what I saw shocked me.

I saw cerulean eyes and blonde hair. It was a boy who looked my age. He was tiny framed, but sort of intriguing. My knee lay between his legs and my hands were casing his shoulders. His eyes were wide with shock as I was gasping for air. Subconsciously I noticed I was incredibly weak.

"What the hell bastard!" Were the nice words that came out of his mouth. I was pushed off of him and fell onto my side. That was when the nurse caught me and in her hands was a needle. There wasn't much I could shout as she injected me. I flinched and looked back onto the blonde boy who was rubbing his shoulder. He gazed onto me and said something I couldn't hear. It came out as an insult and I wanted to retort, but my vision was fading. What did she inject me w-…..

Darkness….it felt like eternal darkness.


I woke up like before and this time I was surrounded by several nurses and perhaps doctors. I could hear a constant beeping sound and tried to figure out where it was coming from. My hearing was alert, but my eyes sight was poor. Where was I? It was a repeat of earlier.

"Sasuke, we sedated you. As long as you cooperate we won't have to do that to you."

It was a man this time and he had this black mask covering his face with spiked silver hair. I stared at him without a care in the world. So that would explain it. I basically became a slave to this hospital. Maybe I died and went to hell. I probably deserved this.

"You can call me doctor Hatake. I'll be your doctor while you're here. We decided since you can't be trusted that you're going to have a roommate." The man with the mask smiled with his eyes, "He is a very sweet boy, but hopefully you'll learn a lot from him. We already got most your information from your father and he told me he'll bring some of your clothes up here later on. Until then I need you to remain calm and understand that we're only trying to help you."

"Help me die?"

"Sasuke..of course not-"

"Fuck off." I stood up from the bed I was on and pulled out my IV. This was enough already.

"Sasuke." Hands fell onto my shoulder and jerked me, "Stop."

I froze. His voice reminded me of my brothers. The brother I hadn't seen in years. The brother who left me to die. I hissed under my breath.

"You must stay. For your safety, please stay. You don't understand what might happen to your future if you leave."

I was livid, "Future? What 'future'?" I used my fingers to emphasize quotations, "You don't even know me. You act like you're trying to help, but how can you?"

"It doesn't matter what anyone else thinks, because your actions landed you here and if you don't want to be incarcerated I suggest you damn well listen!"

I brushed his touch away and glared at the man, "I honestly couldn't care any less than I do right now, but if I can't leave then I guess I'll just deal."

There was a deafening silence as the both of us stared each other down.

"I'll show you your room."

I followed him down hallways while inwardly seething at the fact I was wearing a hospital gown. Luckily I had boxers underneath, but it was still weird.

"Where are my clothes?"

"I told you earlier that your father is bringing them." The doctor said as he stopped at an elevator. With a key, he opened it and we stepped inside, "You'll be on the 3rd floor with other patients that cannot be left alone. Your roommate is particularly odd though.

I almost wanted to ask why, but I remembered that I had no cares left to give.

We twisted around a few more corners and then stopped at a room with the door opened. On the inside I noticed it was completely white. There were two hospital beds cattycorner from each other and then a bathroom with only a shower and toilet. The sink was on the outside and I could only guess why.

"I'll lay down the basic rules for you. There are cameras in your room and the nurse's lounge out in the lobby can see all that you do, so if you try anything foolish they'll alert me and that will land you with stricter rules. I doubt you want that. It can make staying here undesirable.

I scoffed at him and rolled my eyes. Yea 'cause right about now I have a desire to be here.

"You must be awake by 7 AM, but we have nurses come in each morning to take your blood pressure and they'll wake you up. You will then have 10 minutes to shower and if you want any of your bathroom things you must pick them up at the nurse's desk. We keep everything locked away for your protection."

The more he talked the more I got a headache. Why were there so many rules?

"You will have all meals together as a group. Which means everyone on the third floor eats together. Same goes for therapy. Every three days you'll have personal therapy." He smiled down at me with his eyes again and I remained silent, "lastly, you'll take medicine every morning and every night. They'll help with depression, anxiety, and any other issues you might be having. Your assigned nurse will be able to choose which are best for you."

His hand came down and rustled my hair, "You'll be alright, Sasuke. Just don't do anything stupid and you'll be out of here in no time."

He turned on his heels and began to leave, "Oh…one last thing. You can enjoy your free time in the lobby and can make phone calls anytime by asking the nurse. Until now why not try and make some friends? I'm sure your roommate is floating around here somewhere. He's kind of hard to miss."

Then he was gone. Finally. I was relieved it was temporarily quiet.

I walked into my so-called room and sat on the bed which was neatly folded. My roommate must have been messy because his sheets were thrown everywhere. He had clothes on the floor along with a DS gaming system. I also noticed some sort of stuffed animal on his bed. What was this kid's issue?

I fell into my pillow and shut my eyes. What was I going to do now? I guess there was no chance in leaving this place, but that didn't mean that my mission was destroyed. I could still rid myself of this world.

Maybe it wasn't my desire to die at first, but now that I have tasted freedom, it's too much to give up. The silence of death was so beautiful. There wasn't a care or worry on your mind. You don't feel trapped anymore, just free.

I was starting to drift asleep into a deep slumber, where peace would capture me and I would forget all about this nightmare. Who needed this damned place? I could sleep away my time here. Maybe starve myself until I finally died.

"Oh hell no!"

I heard a voice from behind me and groaned. Once I rolled over I was met with endless blue orbs and blonde angelic hair.

Fuck my life…..the boy from earlier.

A finger was thrown at my face, "There is no way you're going to be my roommate!"

I smirked and tilted my head to the side, "Hn, sorry sunshine, but I'm not the only one that gets to suffer."

….

And that was how I got my first black eye while at this place. But if it was any consolation, he had a swollen jaw and bruised lip.

I could tell that this was going to be the seeds that grew hatred, but there was no way I was going to let them win.

After all, if there is a will, there is a way and I had the will to die and nothing was going to stop me. Not even the boy with ocean eyes. No matter how intriguing he was.


A/N: Hello everyone ^^ Thanks for the reviews =D They were lovely. Here is chapter 1! I plan to update pretty quickly. The chapters will progressively get longer.

Review and let me know what you think. ^^

Aiya~