A/N: I am crying, literally. I aimed for this one to reach at least one thousand words, and it did! This is my longest one-shot in this series so far with 1,225 words! Isn't that awesome?
I was basically writing this so I can rant about why I can't stand JerZa :/ I was in the mood to do that since I was angry at Erza... a lot. This was supposed to be submitted last night but I was forced to sleep so... yeah...
P.S. Before I start ranting, I need a small help. I just love Gray and Cana's friendship and so I thought maybe I should write a GrayNa fanfic(GrayxCana... I am not sure of their ship name completely, is that it?). Whatcha think? Should I? Please review or pm, I really need help :/ Oh and! Would you mind checking out my other story? Please? Its a LyVia fanfic with slight GrayZa coming up in future chapters, because I just can't do a story without GrayxErza even a little bit... I think. Right now, I can't :P
You can skip this part since its my Oh-Erza-you're-so-dumb-go-to-Gray-and-not-Jellal ranting xD Right, so, sometime ago I thought maybe I should try a different kind of couple's fanfic. Like GruVia or JerZa. But I realized that even though I don't want these couples, I can do a GruVia fanfic but not JerZa. And why's that? I realized that too. Its because Erza, now acting very annoying, just keeps on going to Jellal. I liked him at first, because he was evil and he looked good at it. I just don't like the fact that Jellal suddenly went from evil to good, because he does a good job at being the bad guy, but not at the good guy thing. And also, I hate the fact that in fairy tail couples wikia . com, JerZa is semi-canon and GrayZa is considered fanon -.- What the heck? They're always gonna be canon in my head. What I seriously don't understand is why people like Jellal and Erza together. Also, I find those people extremely annoying who switch couples. What is wrong with you?! Stick to one! Don't just go from GrayZa to JerZa because Erza is going after Jellal and not Gray! Come on, do you seriously believe so less in your ship? If so, then why ship them in the first place? By now, I understand that Mashima is probably not going to make GrayZa canon. But screw it! He made me like the couple so much at first, I just cannot have them not be together, so they're always canon for me. He just shouldn't have put the absolutely beautiful and amazingly cute GrayZa scenes which he did. Those were what caused me to love the couple. And also, the channel(Animax of India) I used to view Fairy Tail from made an actual advertisement of NaLu and GrayZa. Ahem, hello? I am not sure if that advertisement was made in other countries, but it was in mine. And the channel went all NaLu and GrayZa forever, so they and my stupid sister(who now thinks Gray doesn't need a girl, and Erza doesn't need Jellal, and they don't need any love crap just good magic) made me ship this couple. I seriously am not giving up on them, even if JerZa or GruVia goes canon. Because I believe in my ship, and I always will. No matter what. Yes, even if Mashima doesn't want it, I am not un-shipping them or anything. Unlike some people who do -.- (or did)
Right, so if you read that, now you can read the actual one-shot. I wrote this while listening to Undisclosed Desire by Muse xD Yeah, I listen to songs while writing stuff most of the time... But here it is! I now present to you, 'Questions Lead To Realization'.
P.S. Love you Cana and Mirajane! Be GrayZa for life :P In my stories, at least.
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Disclaimer : Fairy Tail is not owned by me.
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Gray.
That was all that was on her mind at that time, and she had no idea why.
He was one of her best friends, maybe that's why? But no, the kind of thoughts which flowed through her mind right now definitely told her that that was not the reason. To be more clear, the jealousy.
She had no idea why she was feeling jealous in the first place. She was with Jellal, and Juvia was his girlfriend. There should be no reason for her to be jealous. After all, this party was in favor of Gray and Juvia's third anniversary, which took place just a week after Erza and Jellal's third anniversary. For some reason, she felt a bit relieved inside to know that it wasn't a wedding anniversary, but quickly put it aside. Why these sudden feelings?
Maybe it was because of Mirajane's recent words to her. Erza Scarlet was perfectly happy with her boyfriend, Jellal Fernandez. But then, that night at the bar, when she was sharing her happiness with Mirajane after their anniversary party, she just had to go and confuse her feelings about Gray. She couldn't sleep that entire night, because all she could think about was Gray. She tried to reassure herself that she didn't like him in that way. But then again, did she?
Are you sure about you and Jellal, Erza?
I always thought Gray and you would make a cute couple.
Why, haven't you noticed how he always looked at you?
Cana told me that the day you arrived at the guild, he got a fortune that his day would be lucky.
Ask yourself again, do you truly love Jellal?
What is your relationship with Gray? Is it really only friendship?
Pretty funny, huh, how Gray and Juvia started dating exactly a week after you and Jellal did.
Are you really that blind, Erza? Or do you purposely choose to ignore what you see?
Haven't you understood it yet? He doesn't even like Juvia! It's all just out of pity… and hurt.
Why? You're asking me why? Just ask yourself, why do people get hurt when the person they love doesn't love them back?
Do you still doubt it, Erza? It should be clear to you by now that he's in love with you and not her!
What does Gray mean to you?
She shut her eyes closed, not wanting to think about it any further. She had stormed out of the guild right after Mirajane asked her that question, and she couldn't find the answer ever since. Why, oh why, must Mirajane confuse her feelings like that? Why can't she just leave her alone?
Erza Scarlet was sitting in the same riverbank where she had first opened up to Gray Fullbuster. Gray Fullbuster; one of her best friends. But now that she thought about it, was it really only that? Or did they both share some other feelings towards each other as well which she couldn't see till now?
But… why now? She thought to herself, why, after everything else, must I realize this now when we're both so happy and not with each other?
But was he happy?
That one question kept bothering her the most; what about him? Was Gray actually happy with Juvia? Or was Mirajane correct, and this was all straight out of pity?
She had noticed him all evening, and he did seem happy. But she could see right through his act. It wasn't happiness at all; it was all just a front he put up to make his girlfriend happy.
Geez, she thought to herself once again, that's a lot of 'Happy' in one paragraph. I should stop obsessing over Mirajane's words; none of them are true anyways.
Or are they?
She shook her head, wanting to get rid of all this confusion that kept on coming back. But somehow, she just couldn't help but wonder if what the white haired mage had said was all true or not.
"Erza?" That was the last person whose voice she wanted to hear right now, but it seemed like fate wasn't exactly in her favor. So she managed to let out a sigh and turn to him.
"I'm sorry, Gray," she said while getting up and dusting off her skirt, "I meant to come back, you know. It's just that… I needed some time to sort out some things."
"What kind of things?" he enquired even further.
"Well… things about…" she let out yet another sigh. How should she start this? She couldn't be blunt and just tell him she didn't want him and Juvia together, it would rise even more questions. Plus, she wasn't even completely sure of his feelings.
"Did Mirajane tell you anything?" His sudden question caused her to look up, not knowing what to say. Why did he bring up Mirajane? Does it mean…
"I knew it," he muttered to himself, but it was loud enough for her to catch it. "Look… Erza… Mirajane is… ugh, okay. I don't know what she told you, but if it's anything about us then I guarantee you that there's nothing to be worried about."
"Us?"
"Well… yes. We're both happy in our relationships, so there is going to be nothing between us, I can assure you that."
"Are you happy Gray?"
He looked surprised of her sudden question, but answered nonetheless. "Of course, why do you ask?"
"Because I know."
"Know what?"
"That you're not happy at all." At this point his eyes widened, and Erza almost wondered if she had made a fool out of herself. How did she know that?
But instead of asking that, Gray asked her a different question. "And what do you plan to do about that?"
She hadn't thought it through this far. What did she plan to do? Break off him and Juvia? Then what? Break it off between her and Jellal so they can be together? No, that was too absurd. Maybe find him a new girl? But what would be the use? Her jealousy was not with Juvia, but with any girl who could be with Gray. So it would repeat the same process if she used the second option, and she didn't want that.
"I… I don't know…" that was what she managed to say. She didn't know what she wanted, but she did know what she felt.
Gray let out a sigh before speaking, "Then why are we talking about this?"
She didn't know. Now that she asked herself, why were they talking about this? So that she could figure things out?
"Maybe because…" she began, "I feel the same way as you."
To that, Gray let out a small smile, which Erza returned as well before they walked back to the party together.
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"You knew this would happen?" Cana asked Mirajane while gulping down her beer.
"I wanted it to," Mirajane replied with a small smile. "It's been about a month since they broke it off with Juvia and Jellal. Maybe they're just giving it time before they get together."
"Let's hope," Cana said, smiling as well. She was glad that her friend had a chance of finally getting the girl he liked. It was the reason she told Mirajane about the fortune. "You asked her a lot of questions, and questions lead to realization after all."
