Summary: A bunch of one shots for the couple Gray and Lucy since they don't have much love as a couple. There are a variety of genres but some might be sad or tragic so there's a fair warning that some of these one shots could be one sided.
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Pairing: Gray and Lucy
Disclaimer: I do not own Fairy Tail all rights reserved to Hiro Mashima
I still love you
'Maybe it was for the best after all.
Time should heal wounds, but why does it seem that even with the years that had gone by I still feel broken?
And all it takes is just one look from you, you look at me, and then you look away. I never knew that being ignored by the person that used to care so much about you could sting so much.
I wish I did things differently. I wish I could have told you how much I really loved you. How much I cared and why I left.
No, you know why I left but it tears me apart that you did nothing about it, you didn't fight for us leaving me with broken pieces of my heart to pick up.
Why did it end like this? Why did I fall in love with you?
There's still so many questions I want to ask you, why did you like me, what was it about me that you fell in love, what did I do for you to not look at me anymore?
I never realized how much you loved me, the way you looked at me.
Now I don't see that spark anymore. I secretly wish you would look at me like that one more time.
Did I do anything wrong? I wanted you to be happy, I wanted you to love me as much as I loved you. I loved you. I was in love with you. Now I'm just in love with the memory. That's a sign that it's truly over. And it bothers me that I secretly hope that it won't be over. That one day you will come back and fall in love with me again and do it right. The right way. I'm just a fool to believe in that dream because I know in the end I will never receive the love I really wanted from you.
I gave you everything.
Everything.
And it wasn't enough. It was never enough and you stopped trying. I continued to work hard; to make it work but gradually you could care less.
What happened?
What did I do for you to not say 'I love you' anymore? What happened to that smile you had whenever I told you my feelings?
What happened to the hugs, the kisses, the loving look and warmth you always gave me. It just stopped.
It made me anxious; it made me paranoid how you gradually treated other girls better than me. It scared me because you used to act like that with me too.
Even after we both parted ways, I didn't think you would take a part of me. You took it, and now I want it back. I beg you please give it back.
My heart.
I want it back
I feel it beating
It's in the palm of your hand
I tried looking for other people, and I must admit there were a few that I was attracted to, but once I tried getting close to them I realized I could never be in love with them. It was only mere attraction no special feelings involved.
And that makes me afraid, I'm afraid that in life I will only love one person.
That person so happens to be you.
I love you I'm still in love with you, even after so many years I still love you Gray. I love you I love you. Please. Tell me what happened please tell me. Why did you stop loving me?
Did I not give you enough?
Did you find someone better? I cried for months, alone, at night until I went to sleep.
It bothered me that you easily forgot, how can you forget everything? From our friendship, our rivalry, the teasing, the laughs, to the confession, to the dates, to our first hugs, to our first kiss. I still remember. That's the problem with remembering, you remember all the good and the bad but you can never forget.
I want to forget you.
But I can't.
I want to move on
But I always go back to missing you
And I see you sometimes, out of nowhere, and you look happy.
It pains me to know that you're moving on but I can't.
I miss your hand in mine, I miss how you can look at me and my heart beats madly, I miss how you kiss me, how your lips felt against mine, I miss how you used to twirl me around and how we danced, I miss how your arms wrapped around me, I miss how you held me so close, I felt safe, I felt loved, I felt happy.
Slowly all those little things disappeared.
How easily you made me blush, how easy it was all back then. I want us. You. This.
The way you looked at me before you kissed my lips.
The way your eyes crinkled when you smiled at something silly that I did. How you held me whenever I felt alone, sad, scared.
Again it stopped, and I had to hug myself. You. Or me. Or just the both of us. Something happened and the relationship fell apart.
You even admitted that it wasn't working out. You only cared about the physical stuff later in our relationship and not what I wanted.
I hate it.
I hate how you made me felt so empty, so dependent on you. And no matter how I try I can't change it, I can't change the past, I can't change you, I can't change.
I can't change the fact that I still love you.
I love you.
I'm in love with you.
I can't stop crying
I can't stop repeating this
I love you
I miss you
I need you
But you'll never feel the same. I'm just a long gone memory long forgotten.
But that's the sad part about me. I can never forget. Never forget the promises, the fun memories, and the bad memories, none of it.
I guess I was not worth it.
I wish I can tell you all of this. But even if I did it wouldn't change anything as I said earlier.
I just hope one day you'll find some one you truly love and won't neglect her. As I hope that one-day I can find someone to make me forget you.
But it's been four years and no such luck. Maybe my fifth year will be the year, or maybe it's hard concrete proof that no one can ever replace you. Ever.'
He read it over and over again, his dark suit contrasting with his pale skin. His dark eyes were blank; he placed a hand over his mouth to muffle any sound that will come out.
Any scream
Any cry
It will not be heard. It helps that the sound of thunder was rolling as a storm was brewing.
Gray looked down casted as his hands trembled still gripping the note until his knuckles turned white. The note, the note that held all genuine feelings of the girl he used to be with, the girl he was in love with.
Now she's gone. He will never get to see her smile, the twinkle in her brown eyes when she laugh, her blushing face, her blonde locks, he will never see her.
The girl he lost.
"I wish I knew" he whispered, "I wish I knew all of this. All of it. I wish I could tell you that it was not your fault, it was mine, and I'm the one who messed up not you. I just want to go back and tell you that I love you" he brought his hand to cover his eyes, trying to stop the tears from falling.
But they didn't.
It's been a year since the Heartfilia girl went missing, he can still remember the headlines that day, and he was sitting in a café reading the newspaper. Though he hasn't spoken to her in years he still cared about her she just never knew.
His heart stopped that day. He was never the same again. He did everything in his power to find her but it wasn't enough, some are even assuming the worse but he won't believe it.
Her father called him the other day; the poor old lad knew how close they were. He asked him if he could be so kind to come over and clean out some of her things. It breaks his heart just looking at them so Gray kindly agreed.
Then he found this. It was just sticking out in her pile of things. A lost diary entry he assumed. At first he thought maybe it was a lost draft of a story she has written long ago so he took the tendency to read it.
He didn't expect it to break his heart.
It's one thing that girl you still cared about was now gone, nowhere to be found, but it's another thing to find out she is still in love with you and you can never tell her you feel the same way.
Gray had to live with that, that for a long time he can't tell her what happened, his side of the story, the answer she wanted to know. And most importantly:
That he still loved her. NO that he is still in love with her.
"I'm sorry" was all that he could muster to say.
I am sorry for what happened last week guys. I couldn't upload any stories for all that has been happening at home (especially a horrible cold that made me lay in bed for two weeks)
This story is not my best but I had the sudden urge to write it. To make it up to you guys who are following IT's complicated I'll update two chapters for missing my update. And perhaps Fluffed up Memories as well. But for now have this chapter as a compensation.
Oh and to the reviewer who said the last chapter reminded them of a magna, I checked it out and you're right it's completely the same even the dialect o_o though some of it was different it quite freaked me out but thank you for telling me! I read all the chapters and I'm sad it hasn't been updated:(
BTW I still held up my promise about updating and tweaking the chapters for IC, the first five are done i just need the next 7 or so lol . But i recommend to re-read them! There's added scenes (so more GRAY HAHA well no not really but more from his perspective)
Please don't be mad!
x PIka-Chan
