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A/N:
Olivia walked out of the church. She felt better. Her nose was red from crying and her eyes were dry and puffy. She didn't think that she would get as emotional as she did. It shocked her. She didn't think that going in there that she would feel as relieved as she did. There were just some things she had to get off her chest. She now knew why Elliot said she would feel better if she would just let it all out.
She grabbed her phone and turned it on. She had 10 missed calls, and 12 new text messages. They were all from Elliot. She looked at the time. It was 8:13. She had been at the church for 4 hours.
He is probably worried sick. Should I call him and let him know that I'm ok? She found his number in her phone under Huggy Bear. She just had to do was press talk and she decided that she would just wait until she go home that was the best thing to do. He didn't need to hear her cry over the phone. She rushed to her car. She had to get home and tell Elliot about the wonderful news.
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Olivia walked through the door to her apartment. Elliot stood up and turned around.
He was on the phone. "She's here I'll call you later. Thanks again man." He hung up the phone. "Where the hell have you been? I have been trying to get a hold of you all day."
"I went to the doctor. And then I had to make a stop before I came home. If I thought it was going to take as long as it did I would have called. I shut my phone off when I left the doctors." she walked over to him grabbed his hand and sat him down on the couch.
"Where were you?" Elliot asked concerned.
"I went to church."
"What?" Elliot said stunned.
"I went to confess my sins."
"Why what did you do?"
She looked him in the eyes. "I'm having a baby out of wedlock." she said with a smile on her face.
"What?" That was all that he could say.
"Elliot we are going to have a baby!" Olivia exclaimed.
"Oh my god." He wrapped Olivia in a hug. "I love you. Baby oh my god. You could not have made me a happier person."
"I love you too baby. I'm so excited."
Elliot placed both hands on Olivia's cheeks and pulled close into a kiss. It was long, slow, and filled with more passion than any kiss they have ever experienced.
Olivia moved her hands from her lap to around Elliot's neck.
He moved his from hands from her cheeks to her waist. She climbed on top of him and he leaned back on the couch. She broke the kiss and led a trail of suckles to his neck. He leaned his head back so she could have better access. She moved from his neck and began to suck on his earlobe.
He ran his hands from her waist to her ass. And began rubbing in circular motions.
Then she stopped. She looked at him. "Elliot, we can't do this right now."
"What do you mean?" He asked raising his head to look at her.
"Well I just don't want to take any chances."
"Honey the baby will be fine. Think about it. If you found out that means that you are at least four weeks along. And we have been having sex every day for eight weeks. So therefore we have been going at it for the entire time that you have been pregnant baby."
"Elliot I'm at a higher risk. I don't want to take any chances."
"Liv, baby, I promise you nothing will happen. We don't have to do anything I just want to put your mind at ease. Sex will not harm the baby. I have 5 children. Kathy was pregnant with Eli when she was over 40 and we had sex almost the entire time she was pregnant."
"With all the problems that I had conceiving I don't want to risk it. I love you, and I love having sex with you. But I just don't want to risk anything. I might change my mind later on in the pregnancy but right now I would just feel better if we waited."
"That's fine baby." Elliot said. "I would not want you to feel uncomfortable. Do you want to go out? We can celebrate."
"That would be nice."
"Where do you want to go?"
"It doesn't matter baby. Anywhere would be nice. I just feel like I need to be around other people. I don't know how I'm going to be alone with you and not take advantage of you."
Elliot leaned up and kissed her passionately.
"I love you Elliot."
"I love you too."
Olivia kissed him again. This time she pushed him back against the couch again. "Elliot," she said through a kiss. "I want you."
"I want you too."
There was a knock on the door. Olivia looked up. She was breathing heavily. "I'll get it." she said climbing off of Elliot.
"I have to go to the bathroom," he said as she walked to the door.
She opened it and she couldn't believe what she saw. It was Kathleen. She looked like she was just attacked. She was crying, her clothes were a mess, and there was dirt all over her.
"Kathleen honey what's wrong. What happened?"
"Can I come in please." she said with her head down.
"Of course." Olivia said moving to the side to allow Kathleen to walk in.
Kathleen walked over to the couch and sat down.
Olivia shut the door and followed, sitting on the couch beside her.
"What happened?"
Kathleen just sobbed.
Olivia placed her hand on Kathleen's back to try and sooth her. But as soon as she made contact Kathleen cringed.
There was nothing but silence and sobs. After about five minutes Elliot returned.
"Who was at the..." He started. Then he saw Kathleen sitting on the couch crying. "Kathleen oh my god what happened?" Elliot asked running over to her and kneeling in front of her.
Kathleen took a deep breath. She collected her thoughts and began to speak, "I just need to talk to Olivia. Please dad."
Elliot stood up, looked at Olivia. She looked at him with knowing eyes.
They both had a feeling they knew what had happened. Neither wanted to admit it but they both knew that they had to be there and help her through whatever it is that happened.
"That's fine honey I'll go into the other room." he said as he walked away.
When Elliot was gone, Olivia looked back at Kathleen. "Kathleen, honey I need to know what happened," Olivia said as un-detective as she could. She wanted to sound concerned, not like she was working. Although, she had a hunch this would become her case.
Kathleen began to sob once again. She then looked up at Olivia. Her makeup was running down her face, her eyes were puffy and red. "I was raped."
Olivia's heart immediately sank. Her eyes filled with tears instantly. "Kathleen we have to get you to the hospital." Olivia said, trying not to sound too shaken up. She didn't want Kathleen to freak out. She had to stay strong. She had to keep her composure.
"Olivia please, don't tell my dad." Kathleen said. "I don't want him to see me like this. I don't want him to know what happened."
"Honey for right now all I'm going to tell him is that I'm taking you to the hospital." Olivia went to stand up but Kathleen grabbed her arm.
"Please Olivia." she begged. "Please I will do whatever has to be done I just don't want him to know. He can't know please Olivia please." she began to sob once again.
What do I do? Olivia thought to herself. If I don't tell Elliot he will be hurt and angry. If I do tell him she will never trust me again. Well I could always tell him once we get to the hospital. That is most important; I have to get her to the hospital.
"Ok I won't tell your dad. But I have to tell him something."
"Can't you just tell him that you are going to take me to get something to eat so we can talk or something?"
"I'll figure it out, honey but right now my concern is just getting you to the hospital."
"Ok."
And with those words Olivia walked into the bedroom where Elliot was sitting on the bed.
"We are going to go out for coffee and talk. Maybe grab a bite to eat. Do you want me to bring anything back for you?" Olivia felt so guilty lying to him. But what choice did she have? If she told him the truth he would rush out there and then Kathleen would never trust Olivia again and she wouldn't go to the hospital.
"No I'm good. Did she tell you anything?" Elliot asked looking concerned and depressed all at once.
"We will talk when I get home. Right now I have to go. I'll bring you something back. I don't know what time I'll be home but I'll text you and let you know if it's going to be too late."
"Ok." Elliot responded.
Olivia leaned down and gave Elliot a quick kiss.
"I love you." He said.
"I love you too." She answered and walked out of the bedroom.
XXX
Most of the car ride was silent.
Once they got into the parking lot of the hospital Olivia found the nearest parking place and pulled in. They just sat there in silence.
"Is this really happening?" Kathleen asked breaking the silence.
"Kathleen, luckily I know a lot of people who can keep this as quiet as possible. But I really wish you would tell your father."
"I can't." Kathleen cried out.
"Kathleen he loves you. This is going to crush him. But do you know what is going to crush him even more? The fact that you didn't go to him with it, he needs you to tell him."
"I can't."
"Why?"
"Because he will kill him." She said through her tears.
Olivia furrowed her brow. "Kathleen do you know who did this to you?"
"No but I know that my dad will find him. And I know that when he does he will kill him. And then he will go to jail. I just don't want him to do anything stupid."
"Why don't we get in here and get this over with?" Olivia said placing her hand on Kathleen's.
"Olivia is there anyway one of your friends could do this? I would just feel more comfortable if there was someone in there I could trust. Anyone you trust I trust."
"I'll make a call." Olivia said pulling out her phone. She dialed the number and placed the phone to her ear. "Hey Melinda I need a favor."
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Melinda placed the last bit of evidence she collected for the rape kit together.
"Ok we are all done here. Kathleen I need to speak to Melinda for a moment ok?"
Kathleen relaxed in the bed. She shook her head to answer Olivia's question.
Olivia and Melinda walk over to the side to talk alone.
"When is Elliot going to get here?" Melinda said taking off her gloves and disposable apron and throwing them in the trash bin.
Olivia sighed heavily, "he's not." she said
"I can't believe it. Is he in jail?"
"No. Kathleen doesn't want him to know."
"Olivia you have to tell him."
"I will but I had to get her here before she changed her mind. I felt so guilty lying to him. But I had no choice. If I was to tell him she would never trust me again. But if I don't then he will be furious with me. I'm stuck between a rock and a hard place and I have no idea how to get out. I know that telling him is the right thing to do. I know that I have to do that. But I really just wanted her to get here so that she could get the rape kit done. We can take care of the rest later."
"Well Elliot's not going to be able to work the case so I mean it will have to come from you or her."
"Were there fluids?" Olivia asked referring to the samples Melinda took for the kit.
Melinda gave a heavy sigh, "Olivia I can't tell you that you are not supposed to be working this case."
"Melinda as of right this second me and you are the only two who know anything now you can tell me was there any fluids?"
"Yes." Melinda said quietly.
"I have to call Cragen. They have to let me have this case. I'll partner with Fin or Munch if I have to." Olivia pulls out her cell phone she sees that she has 3 missed calls from Elliot.
Is this when I tell him? Should I call and tell him that his daughter is in the hospital? Should I take her statement? I just need to call Don and see what he thinks I should do.
She dialed Don's number.
"Cragen."
"Captain I have a serious problem and I need you here."
"Where are you Olivia?"
"I'm at Mercy General. Please Don this is a favor I need you down here and I need you here as soon as possible and as quite as possible. Please."
"I'm on my way."
Olivia hung up the phone and walked back over to her soon to be step daughter.
"How are you feeling?"
"As good as I can I guess. Did she find everything she needs to find out who this guy is?" Kathleen asked looking hopeful.
"Yes," Olivia replied with a sympathetic smile. "Have you thought about what I told you?"
"About telling my dad?"
"Yes."
"I just know that he will kill whoever did this. And I know that he will go to jail and I know that he won't think twice about it and that scares me. I don't want to be the reason that Eli doesn't get to have a father in his life. He's only five Liv. He needs dad. I need you right now. I need someone I can trust."
Olivia's eyes well up.
"Kathleen I have to tell you something." Olivia sat in the chair beside her bed. She leaned further in facing Kathleen. "Kathleen I have to tell your father. If you don't I will. It's not that I don't love you or that I am trying to lie or anything like that. I am telling you this because I want you to make the decision. If you want to tell him but you are too scared then I can be there with you. I can even tell him and make him calm down first I don't know but honey he has to know. Someone has to tell him and I don't want to have to do it but if you won't I will."
"I can't believe you are saying that Olivia. I have done everything that you said I have to do. I did the damn rape kit which felt more violating than the actual rape. I just don't want to have my dad look at me different. I just want him to see me as me not a victim."
"But Kathleen you are going to need all the support you can and I am going to be there with you 100% of the time but I just think that your father should know. I love you like I would if you were my own child and I hope and pray that you make the right choice and the right choice is to tell him what happened. He will love you the same and we won't treat you like a victim. But honey whether you want to be or not you are. I love you and I know that you don't want to hear that but the reality is that you have to. You are going to have to tell a dozen people what happened. And they are going to have to hear it over and over and the ADA will have to hear it and it's going to hurt each time. But honey I'm going to be there for you each time you tell anyone, if you want me to be."
"Olivia I want you there. I want you with me through all of this. That is why I came to you. I want you to help me. I know that you can because it's your job. I know that I could come to you even if it wasn't your job but it is. I love you too but I'm still unsure about telling my dad. Olivia you have to understand my hesitation."
"I do understand because I didn't tell him either."
"What do you mean?"
"Kathleen 5 years ago I was sexually assaulted. A man thought that he was going to rape me. Luckily enough it didn't get that far someone came and stopped it but it was enough to cause damage."
"How did it happen?"
"I was undercover at a prison and the guard thought he could take advantage of me. And he did. He over powered me. He had me handcuffed to a door when another undercover detective came to the rescue. It scarred me for months. I started having flash backs and at one point I held a gun to a man's head because I had a flash back. I had to get help. And I did. I went to therapy and I talked to someone. But the point of it all is that I didn't tell your dad. I didn't tell him because I was protecting him. I didn't want him to feel like it was his fault. I didn't want him to go to jail for protecting me. So I didn't tell him and looking back I wish I did. I needed him. I needed a shoulder to cry on. And I didn't have one."
"I will tell him. But only if you're there too, I don't want do it alone."
"Then I'm right there. No questions asked."
There was a moment of silence.
"Kathleen, I have to ask. I know that you don't want to recall what happened but I have to know. You need to tell me." Olivia added.
Kathleen began to cry. "I was walking home from a little corner market a couple blocks from my apartment. I normally stick to the normal route. But I was in a hurry. Jason was waiting for me to get back well I didn't want him to worry because I took a little longer at the store than I would normally. I cut down an alley. I knew better. I should have just stuck to the normal route. I never should have gone down that alley. But I was so excited to get home that I just wanted to get there. When I was about half way through the alley this guy came out from behind the dumpster. At first he just asked me if I had a cell phone he could use. He said he was mugged and needed to call home and the cops." Kathleen was sobbing.
Olivia just listened. She didn't want to interject thinking that Kathleen might stop.
"I just kept walking knowing better. It's not that he was a stranger it was more that we were alone in a dark alley and there was no one around. The moment I was in front of him he grabbed me and pushed me to the ground. I tried to fight him off but he over powered me. He held me down and he raped me." She was sobbing uncontrollably.
Olivia stood up and wrapped her in a hug.
"I shouldn't have gone down that alley. I should have just stuck to the way I always go." Kathleen cried into Olivia's shoulder.
"It's ok. You are safe now. I'm right here. I'm not going to let anything happen. Shhhhh" Olivia tried to comfort her. She stroked her hair and began to rock her. "Shhhh its ok Kathleen."
There was a knock on the door.
Olivia steps back, "come in," she says.
Don Cragen walked through the door.
"Don, this is Kathleen Stabler." Olivia introduces. "Elliot's daughter."
"What happened?" Don asked noticing that she was still sobbing uncontrollably.
"Kathleen I'm going to go talk to Don. I'll be right over here." Olivia said pointing across the room.
Olivia and Cragen walked to where Kathleen couldn't hear them.
"Look I need this case Don."
"Olivia what happened?" He asked with his voice full of concern.
Tears began to fall down Olivia's face. "She was raped."
Don's eyes widened and his mouth fell open. "Liv, you can't work this case you are engaged to her father. You are too close. I will personally work it. Me and Munch will drop all that we have going on and I will make sure that this gets worked 24/7. I will not rest until it is solved. Now we have to tell Elliot, Olivia. He has to know he is her father."
"I know Don but she has to be the one to tell him. She said she would as long as I am there with her. And I think that she will. I just don't want to wait any longer. And I think that we have to go there as soon as we are done here or I'm not going to have the nerve to do it. I just can't bare to see him hurt. Now you know that you are going to have to put a tail on Elliot. Because if he knows what is going on, he will kill him. And it's bad enough that this is happening let alone another tragedy striking with the father of my unborn child going to jail." Olivia slipped. She didn't want to tell him this way. She wanted to be a joyous moment not one of necessity.
Don's mouth hung open. "So you are pregnant?"
"Don I didn't want to have to tell you like this it just kinda came out. Yes I am. But that is not what is important. What is important is the fact that my step-daughter is lying in there in a hospital bed, and her rapist is running free. I have to get the nerve to tell Elliot. He's not going to be happy that he can't work the case and you know that he will anyway whether you know it or not. He will try all he can do kill this guy."
"I will call him if you want and tell him that he needs to get down here."
"No I think it would be best if I called him. I just don't know how to tell him. It's always hard to tell the parents but it is always harder when you know the parent."
"What about Kathy?" Don asked.
"Honestly and selfishly I never thought about her. I will talk to Kathleen and let her decide what we should do when it comes to Kathy. The only reason I convinced her to tell Elliot is because she told me and that would make more problems at home with me knowing and not telling him. I could cause us to fight and as I told her if she didn't tell him that was something I couldn't keep from him. I would have to tell him. It would be my duty as his partner and as his fiancé to tell him. But when it comes to Kathy that is all on her. I will be there to support her. And if she wants me to I will be there when she tells her but she has to decide." Olivia didn't like the idea of keeping something like this from Kathy any more than she did Elliot, but there are just certain things that she wouldn't be able to keep from Elliot. She felt bad that Kathleen trusted her with this and not her own mother. But she always told all of the children, multiple times, that they could always come to her with something that they didn't want to go to their parents about. Why should that stop just because they are over the age of 18?
Just then Olivia's phone rang. She looked at the caller id. It was Elliot. "I have to answer it."
She slid her finger across the screen and held it to her ear. "Hello."
"Hey where are you?"
"Umm El I am going to need you to not over react when I tell you this." She said into the phone as calmly as she could.
"Liv what's wrong is everything ok?"
She took a deep breath. "I am going to need you to come down here to Mercy General. There is something you need to know."
"Is the baby ok? Are you ok?"
"I am fine and the baby is fine but I need you down here. Please just…. Please El we will talk about it when you get here."
"Is it Kathleen?"
"Please Elliot. Just get down here. I don't want to do this over the phone."
"I'm on my way. I love you."
"I love you too." She hung up the phone and placed it in her pocket.
She looked up at Don. "Why is that man so stubborn?"
"How is Kathleen holding up?" Don asked, his voice full of concern.
Olivia looked back at her soon-to-be step daughter. "She seems to be doing better, but I know that as soon as Elliot gets here she is going to break down again. I do think we should get over there though." Olivia said.
Olivia and Don walked over to Kathleen who was still sitting in the hospital bed.
Kathleen looked up.
"Kathleen, Don is going to be working your case. He is our captain, and he will make sure that everything is taken care of. Now I know that this is going to be hard. Trust me I really do. But you have to tell him what happened." Olivia said as calmly as she could. She was going to cry. She could feel it. "Now your father is on his way too. And I couldn't lie to him. He wanted to know why we weren't answering our phones so I told him that he needed to get down here. I didn't tell him why. You are going to do that. But either way you have to tell him and Don."
"Why would you tell my dad to come down here? The whole reason that I didn't want to tell him is because I didn't want him to see me like this. I don't want him in here. I never should have come in the first place. I should have just went home. Me and Jason would have figured it out. I think I should go." Kathleen uncovered her body, got off the bed, and began to gather her clothes.
"Kathleen I had no choice. I had to do this. I had to tell him we were here." Olivia said trying to get her to stop. "Kathleen please." She begged.
Kathleen continued to search for her things.
"Kathleen STOP." Olivia shouted. "Please just please wait. Please just let us do our job. Let us find the guy that did this to you. We need to find him."
"Why Olivia? So he can't hurt me? Well it's too late for that now isn't it." Kathleen said angrily.
Olivia looked taken back, "Kathleen I know you were hurt but that was not fair. I had no way to stop that and I would hope that you know that if I did have that power that I would have. Kathleen I have known you almost your whole life. I love you as if you were my own child. I would never want anything to happen to you."
Kathleen looked at Olivia. Tears were running down both of their cheeks.
"I'm sorry Olivia. I just…. I just don't know what to do. I never thought this would happen to me. I am completely lost I feel like everyone is out to get me."
Olivia embraced Kathleen in a tight hug.
"We are all here to help you Kathleen. We all want this sick son of a bitch locked away. And I know that you didn't want your father to see you like this but like I said before, he needs to know. He needs to know that you are ok. He is going to be there and support you. I know he will. And you know he will." She pulled away to look Kathleen in the eyes. "Do you want me to call Jason?"
"No I will talk to him when I get home."
"Do you want me to come with you?"
"Please."
Just then Elliot ran in the room. He ran over to Kathleen and Olivia and wrapped them in the tightest hug he could.
"Why didn't you tell me?" he asked through his tears. "I would have come with you. I would have been here."
"Daddy…. I didn't want you to see me like this." Kathleen sobbed still wrapped tightly in her father's arms.
"Kathleen this is not your fault. You have nothing to be ashamed of. Honey you don't need to do this alone. I promise you we will get this guy. We will get him. This will not be an unsolved case I will do everything to make sure he pays for what he has done to my little girl. I love you baby."
Kathleen continued to sob.
"Shhhhh…. Its ok baby daddy is here."
"I don't want to interrupt but Munch is on his way and we are going to need her statement." Don said from the corner.
"Captain I have to work this case." Elliot said.
"Elliot you know I can't do that. You and Olivia are too close to the case. But I promise you both that there will be no room for any slack I will make sure that this is handled."
"Captain please."
"Elliot my hands are tied. I would if I could but they would have my badge if I let you. There is no way around it. She is your daughter. I can't."
Elliot released Olivia and Kathleen. He walked over to Don. "Don, off the record let me work this case."
"Elliot anything you find out would be dismissed in court you know that. Then it would all be for nothing."
"Don I have to catch this guy. That is my little girl. That is my baby. I have to…. I have to…. Please."
Don looked at Elliot for a second. "Elliot, I can't. Because if I were to let you work it. Then when we did find the guy he would have better chance of walking. I can't do it Elliot. I just can't. If you want this case to be closed then you have to let me and Munch handle it. We will do more than we have the power to in order to make sure that this is taken care of. You have to trust me."
"I do but that is my baby…. I have to protect her. If I don't no one will."
"I will." Don said looking Elliot in the eyes.
A/N: Sorry it took so long to get this up but I had to get a new computer before I could put it up….. The other one was useless…. Well I hope you liked it…. Please review…
