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Journal of an Anorexic chapter 2
Day 3: Today I was assigned a dietician, he told me all about portion sizes and why it is important to eat right. Personally I don't understand why it should be important at all, it's not like I am going after seconds at meal time like some people I know (like my brother for example). Hell I never even knew that there is supposed to be certain portion sizes at meal time. As a teenager he said I am supposed to have more calories than a regular adult, like two thousand two hundred calories to three thousand two hundred calories a day, I hardly doubt I need more than that high amount. Any who, I will be seeing this dietician weekly just about. He will help me plan my daily meals while I am here, since I have ED I will need to start small, and then start eating more and more… Secretly I hope this works, but yet I am afraid that it won't… if that makes any sense. What if I go back to my old ways? It is frustrating because I want to get better but yet I don't want to gain weight. I saw Healer Muller today during lunch, he was at a table where the other healers where, he had a lot… I mean A LOT of food on his plate; I can't even imagine eating all of that food that he had on his plate. The weird part was, I felt like I was missing out, but yet I felt full and disgusted that I actually ate an apple for lunch.
I am making friends here… and enemies. The guys in the same ward I am in are pretty great, we all share the same thing; ED. Some are crankier than others. I know I can't say anything on being cranky because I know I can be; mum and dad have told me that plenty of times. I am surprised to see one guy there from school; Scorpius Malfoy. He also has anorexia, just like me. He has been at St. Bennings for a month now, and he is surprisingly pretty cool. He isn't as bad as James and Rose thinks he is. They believe he is just like his dad; Draco Malfoy. In my opinion, he is pretty cool. He is laid back and an all-around good guy without a mean bone in his body. I can't say anything bad about him really; there is nothing to say that is negative about him. So far we seem to be getting along ok.
Today I went down to the weight room of the center with Healer Muller and some of the other guys including Scoprius went as well. The weight room here is HUGE, and I mean huge, it can fit three classrooms from Hogwarts easily. I went running on one of the treadmills and after a while I got really tired. I hate those damn tired spells I get from a work out; luckily I reached seven miles when I finally stopped. Healer Muller seemed to have been studying me while I was running, he think he was impressed that I could run that far. I learned years ago to ignore the pain in my legs as I run; I also know how to push myself farther even when I am tired. It is far easier to say than it is to be done, believe me on that.
The bad apart about living with other guys around my age is the testosterone levels are high. We can all have a good time talking about what Quidditch teams we like and then BOOM, an argument erupts more quicker than a finger snaps all because one likes the Chudley Cannons and another likes the Holly Head Harpies. Why anyone likes the Chudley Cannons is beyond my mind, they haven't won a game in years! That is saying how bad they really are. Speaking of the guys, I found out that we were all given a journal. They all have different looking journals so no one can grab the wrong one by accident.
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Day 3 Part 2
One an end note of today, I can say that being an Anorexic has not been easy on me. Wanting to be fit and all was not really on my only reason. I mean, it takes a lot to do what I do. It has not been easy to ignore the pain in my legs as I run, and then play football in park straight after. Being called fat when I was younger was a reason, but… Healer Muller told me that anxiety is normal. I guess the anxiety of wanting to be noticed, wanting to be different, and having low self-esteem can be a good reason as to why I have Anorexia. I guess that explains the extra acne.
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Healer Muller notes continued…
Albus Potter was assigned a dietician today, and I will continue to council him for the duration of his stay. The dietician is Marvin Jamison, he is a great Dietician and he has helped many others before Albus. I am trying to get down to the root of his Anorexia; hopefully I can pull it out of him soon. I am not sure how much the Dietician got through to Albus, I don't believe he understands what Melvin Jamison is telling him yet.
I took Albus down to the weight room of St. Bennings and he ran seven miles this afternoon. About half way through the seven mile run I noticed that he was getting tired, but he kept on running. I wanted to intervene but he had stated that he did this all time. I will like to bring this need of exercise down a bit. He can benefit from a seven mile run, but there is no need in adding all the other things that he does. After his run, he seemed snappy and irritable. He got angry at me when I asked if he wanted anything to drink.