A/N- Okay I want to apologize for dropping off the face of the earth for 10 days. So after finals ended I kinda had a lazy streak where I didn't do anything except watch reruns. Got my parents pretty angry. Anyway after I got off that phase I got really sick so I spent much of the beginning of my break sleeping. But now that I'm all better, I can go back to my late night writing and updating. Merry Christmas Everyone!
Disclaimer: I do not own any part of Vampire Academy, it all belongs to Richelle Mead.
Chapter 5: Stirring Emotions
Rose POV
When I woke up I had to drag myself out of my bed. I pulled a sweater over my T-shirt and a pair of warm sweat pants. No point in getting all dressed up. Dimitri had seen me in my worst and we were just working out anyways. I left my hair down at first. It looked so nice fanned out on my shoulders. This was the way Dimitri liked it. I caught myself thinking back to our trip. His hands. I rolled my eyes and leaned my head back. "Dear god." I stood up and started to the gym. "So much sexual frustration." I muttered as I walked out bumping into none other than Dimitri's chest. Shit.
"You're late." He scolded gently. "I was just coming to get you."
"Maybe your earlier." I said, stabbing his chest with my finger smirking. "I'm sorry." I smiled lightly, knowing that he would forgive where we were running today. " Where are we running today?" Dimitri smiled. I guess he was in a good mood today. "Well I was going to have us run to watch the sun set again, but someone was late. I guess you'll have to run in the gym," he said in playful tone. I pouted.
"The day I dress in warm stuff, is the day we stay in." I shook my head at him. My hand almost drifting to his, I had to pull my hand back and hold it so it wouldn't happen again. Once we stepped outside Dimitri started jogging in the opposite direction of the gym, "Come on Rose, since you're dressed for it, and we have just enough time, let's go see the sun set." he called from the distance. I smiled. I liked playful Dimitri. It was cute. I smirked at how easy it was to get my way with him. I started jogging with him. The air was misty today. It made me smile at how the dew shined on the blades of grass. The sun was almost all the way down. I looked over at Dimitri. He looked happy. When we were deep in the forest we stopped looking towards the sky. I rested and leaned on Dimitri's shoulder. Then he turned around and kissed me.
It took me a bit to get out of my shock, but I kissed him back, our lips hovered for a long moment. I finally spoke. "You're getting me use to this kind of training Dimitri." I whispered to him as our foreheads pressed together. If only every moment could be like this. "Oh Roza." I heard him murmur as Dimitri hugged me tightly to his chest. He kissed my forehead lightly. I smiled a little and stepped back from him. I didn't want to. I wanted to stay warm and snuggled in his arms forever. "I love you." I told him before I turned away and looked at the small cabin. It seemed different in the dark. I walked over and touched the lilies that were still forming for the early spring. "A lot." I whispered.
I didn't notice Dimitri behind me until he put his arms around me again. "I love you too." he said. I smiled. We just stood there in field, as the sky got darker and darker. We weren't even watching the sunset anymore, we were just enjoying each other's company. Of course, Dimitri had to break the silence and do the right thing. "Come on Rose. We have to get to your training." he said. I sighed. I looked up at him again. My mouth playfully pressed under his chin as he held me tight for another moment. I kissed his neck with light butterfly kisses. "Let's go." I muttered against his skin, before stepping out of his arms for good.
We ran back to the gym where it was still dark. Normally there would be another instructor here and some novices that were unlucky enough to be dragged into helping set up for class that early in the morning. "Stretch first. Then you'll do some weights." Dimitri commanded. He was back to my mentor Dimitri. No more playful lover. I pulled my sweater off and threw it to the side. As I stretched I spoke, not necessarily to Dimitri, but more stating facts to myself. "So… I guess this is what we'll be doing Friday."
"I don't know yet Rose." Dimitri spoke quietly. Well, it wasn't an outright yes. Maybe, just maybe, Dimitri would be romantic and have something planned for Valentine's Day. But I doubted it, Dimitri seemed like he would be oblivious to trivial holidays such as Valentine's Day. I laid back on the weight bench and started with it. What was I thinking. This was Dimitri, Mr. Perfect. Nothing, was going to happen on Valentines Day between us. I would have to deal with this, But I still hurt over it and it stung.
"Don't worry Rose, I'll think of something fun for us to do." I heard Dimitri call as I headed over to the weights. I rolled my eyes. "Our ideas of fun are very different Dimitri." I told him as I lifted the weight back up on the bar. He was trying so hard to please me, I guess I should let up a bit. But I wanted more. I've been wanting more ever since that trip. I just couldn't get it out of my mind. After I finished my weights I started stretching again. Dimitri was setting up dummies across the room, I guess he couldn't trust himself to spar with me again. At this point I pretended that Dimitri only had me doing this so he could check me out. Even though I was in a loose shirt and pants, I knew I had a good body. My frame pulled the fabric of the clothes and made my curves stand out.
"Come on Rose. Let's practice staking." Dimitri said right as I finished my last stretch. So he was watching, I smiled. I walked on over to him and he threw me the stake. "What are we going to do?" I blinked a few times. That phrase made a memory slip into my mind. Back to the hotel when I tried to talk dirty to Dimitri, 'What are you going to do to me.' I knew it was only in my mind, but I could feel a blush forming. Dimitri didn't respond and just showed me how to properly stake the dummy. I've seen it all before but watching Dimitri now he looked so graceful and perfect in his technique. I was so engrossed in watching him that I didn't realize that he had told me to try.
I did as he told me. I snapped out of my inappropriate thoughts, my mind now in training mode. I moved to face the dummies. The only problem I was having as pulling my stake out from between the fake ribs the dummies had. Dimitri came up behind me and helped me pull the stake out of the dummy easily. His aftershave was intoxicating. I looked up at him, and felt my hands give a tremble under his grasp. "Hmm." I cooed and focused back on our task. " I'm pretty sure that really living things are more flexible that these." I noted to him. It made me think back to Mason's death. Cutting off the heads of the two were rather difficult, but it let me learn how a body can be bent and broken into.
"You need to pull it out in the same path you pushed it in." Dimitri murmured the second time he helped me. I looked back up at him again, my vision blurring. I hadn't even noticed my eyes watering. I let go of the stake all together and just watched him. He was so skilled at this. Perfect even. "You make it look easy." I whimpered in a low voice. Then I placed my hand on his arm, leaning against his forearm. "You're good at it." I pictured for a moment that we were a normal couple, and I was just noting to Dimitri he was good at playing music or drawing. But that wasn't us. We were good at killing. "I've just had a lot of practice rose. You'll be better that me soon enough." he said quietly, giving me one of his half smiles.
"I'm sure there will always be things that you're better than me in." I noticed my voice getting husky. The innuendo was all in my voice, I couldn't stop myself. I didn't want to make this hard on him, or on me. I drifted my eyes back to the stake, trying to get back to the lesson. But we were so close, the air between us superheated. I grabbed ahold of him and pulled him on behind the bleachers, kissing him. Our lips never came apart from each other as we moved deeper and deeper into the dark. Dimitri had been so quiet today. His actions were so physical and it was what I needed. The wall behind the bleachers was where my frame was pressed by Dimitri's entire form. Our hips rubbing against each other, my hands going into his long hair giving it light tugs. I muttered his name lightly and then met his lips again. I knew any moment he would pull away. But I didn't want him too. I wanted him as close as he could be.
Dimitri pulled himself off of my lips and started trailing down my neck. I bucked against him and he just pressed me tighter. I tried to muffle my moans, but I was losing the little control I had left. "Mmm" I cooed against his ear, his lips pressing against my skin made chills roll over my skin. "Dimitri..." I kissed the top of his head and brushed my fingers through his hair. "I want you so badly." I breathed heavy, trying to rub my hips against his. "I want it, so bad." I didn't notice my words until it was too late. It seemed to snap Dimitri out of his faze. He pulled back pressing his forehead to mine, "Roza we can't. Not yet." he whispered. I nodded slowly in understanding.
We stood there quietly, calming our bodies. I yearned to be with him so much right now. But I knew he was right, and I knew his actions were right. My body was yet again trembling with excitement and fear of the topic. My eyes were locked with his. I knew it couldn't be here behind the dirty bleachers. But given a bed at this moment and he would already be inside me. Moments later, Dimitri started pulling me out from behind the bleachers. "Come on Rose, you're going to be late for your therapy session. I'll clean up on my own." he said, dragging me out rather roughly.
I let him lead me, and narrowed my eyes at the back of his head. He didn't have to be so abrupt about it. "We should talk about...that. Shouldn't we?" My voice came out in a whisper. I had a feeling Dimitri would say that we couldn't do things like that anymore. At least not until graduation which was months away. I didn't know if I could wait that long. "About what?" Dimitri said obliviously. It was clear that he was brushing me off like it never happened. He turned around to see my pissed off face. "We can talk later Roza, if you don't leave now you will be late. The counseling office is on the other side of campus." he said. Always the reasonable one Dimitri, he was also great at getting around uncomfortable topics.
" Okay..." I muttered the word out best I could before picking up my things. I hurried out best I could. I felt shameful and cheap. And Dimitri of all people had made me feel like this. I know what I asked for was wrong. I know it wasn't the time nor place. But I also knew what emotions washed over me while he had me pinned. I didn't stop walking till I was in front of the building which my session was held in. I frowned and started to pull my sweater on. In my hurry I had forgotten it and walked across campus with just a sports bra. Good thing everyone was in class, or else Dimitri would have thrown a fit if he heard about it. Things travelled fast around the Academy.
I walked in and sat down. Some how I was still late, even in my rushing out of the gym. Man I really must have taken a long walk with my thoughts. Like always I wasn't in the mood to throw my feelings around. And after seeing Dimitri brush off my virginity as if it was nothing, I didn't want to be bothered. I narrowed my eyes at the Counselor. "So rose. How are you feeling today?" she asked. I grumbled. I took a deep breath and then looked up at the woman. "Sexually frustrated." I told her than rubbed between my eyes. I was starting to get a headache. Great. I didn't want to deal with this right now. "Why Rose? Is the person you can't have messing with you?" Damn I forgot I told her about that. This woman was always asking questions. She never gave me a straight answer. I thought counselors were supposed to be helpful not annoying.
"In a sense. Yes he is." I told her. Might as well talk about this to somebody right. Even if I had to be extremely vague. I laid back in the chair and looked at the fan above me. " And he's stopping. And that's fine I want and need him to stop but..." I frowned thinking back to Dimitri's comment. 'Talk about what?' "But talking about it isn't wrong is it?" I looked back at the woman.
"Do you think it's wrong?" she asked. Is she doing this again? Answering my question with a question. I sighed. "Do you ever just talk like you're a normal person?" I looked at her while narrowing my eyes. "Do you think I don't talk like a normal person?" she asked. I was done. My head hurt, my heart ached. I just wanted to be alone. " No. You don't." I glared at her then crossed my arms. I didn't want to say anymore. "Well what would you like to talk about Rose?" I stood up and picked up my bag. " Nothing." I turned and headed to the door. "Rose you can't go yet. Our session hasn't finished." she called. I walked out slamming the door. Counseling was such a waste of time. I think that I would rather spend the day with Adrian or Christian then spend the day with her. I had better things to do than waste my time in there. Chores for one.
I went to my room and gathered my clothes. I picked up the red nighty. I had wore it off and on since our trip. Every time I touched it my mind drifted back to that night. Dimitri's hands on my body, his lips, oh his wonderful lips. I was getting wet just thinking about it. Reliving the memory in my head, I started walking to the laundry room. I was in a daze. I didn't really want to talk to anyone. I didn't realize until after I had started loading some of my clothes that I was all hot and bothered. I really didn't want to see anyone now. Especially not Dimitri, I didn't want him to taunt me while I was in this state. I also wanted to keep my promise. No more teasing, but I don't know if looking at my hot and bothered would count or not.
Luck was not on my side. As soon as I settled my things in and started opening a magazine I heard someone enter the room. I had thought it was a dorm matron or someone like that. It was Dimitri, I looked up and took in his surprise. "Rose, what are you doing here?"
Dimitri POV
I woke up this morning in a happy mood. I was excited to see Rose. I stood in the gym for 10 minutes waiting for her. I wanted to take her to see the sunset, something sort of romantic that I could do for her without being suspicious. When she didn't show I figured that she probably slept in. I headed to her dorm to wake her up, not really paying much attention to my surroundings, bad guardian protocol on my part, but I just wanted to see my Roza. I was almost at her door when something bumped into me. I looked down and saw it was Rose. "You're late." I said. "I was just coming to get you."
"Maybe your earlier." she teased poking my abs. "I'm sorry." she said afterwards. " Where are we running today?" I smiled at her, glad that she was in a pretty good mood too. Her moods have been on and off since Mr. Ashford's death, and I was happy to see her, well happy, especially after our trip. "Well I was going to have us run to watch the sun set again, but someone was late. I guess you'll have to run in the gym," I said jokingly. There was plenty of time for us to run outside. To my surprise, Rose didn't argue. She just nodded and walked along side me. "The day I dress in warm stuff, is the day we stay in." I heard her mutter. I softly laughed to myself. Oh Roza.
We stepped outside into the cold. "Come on Rose, since you're dressed for it, and we have just enough time, let's go see the sun set." I started jogging into the woods, looking back at Rose to follow. It took her a couple seconds, but soon she caught up with me. We ran in silence, just enjoying each other's company as always. When we got farther into the woods we stopped to watch the sun set. It was like the other day with the sun rise. Rose leaned against my shoulder as we watched the sky get darker and darker. When we couldn't see the sun anymore, and we should have headed back, I felt a strong urge to kiss Rose. I knew I shouldn't have done it but I did anyways.
Our lips met lightly at first but quickly it turned into a long passionate kiss. It always did between Rose and I. We hovered over each other for a moment before Rose spoke. "You're getting me use to this kind of training Dimitri." she whispered. I smiled. "Oh Roza." I said into her hair. Taking a deep breath of her scent. It was all Rose, the honeysuckle of her shampoo and the natural perspiration of Rose. I was getting used to this too. If I had my way I would kiss her every time I saw her. We just leaned into each other keeping each other warm. It was almost completely dark now.
"I love you." Rose said looking back up at me. I kissed her forehead before she pulled out of my arms. Something had caught her eye. She started walking towards the flowers by the cabin. Leaning down to look at one, I followed Roza as she walked closer towards the cabin. I couldn't have her going in now. "I love you too." I say pulling her into my arms. We stood there a little longer, not wanting to leave each other's embrace. "Come on Rose. We have to get to your training."
Rose looked up at me not bothering to move. She put her lips to my neck and started kissed me lightly. I held back my groan. Rose… "Let's go." she said after she was done, she pulled out of my arms looking smug. I shook off my earlier emotions. Rose and I started running back to the gym. It was dark now and some of the other students were getting up. They had class, we went straight into the gym where I had set up some weights and practice dummies. "Stretch first." I say to her. "Then you'll do some weights."
"So… I guess this is what we'll be doing Friday." Rose said. "I don't know yet Roza." I lied. I was thinking maybe I'll give her a late morning and then she could meet me at the cabin. Or maybe I could have her do a quick run and when she's in the shower I could leave the dress in her room and leave her a note. Yes, that's what I was going to do.
Rose frowned at my words. I didn't want to make her sad, I just couldn't tell her what was going to happen yet. I walked over to where she was doing weights. "Don't worry Rose, I'll think of something fun for us to do." She smirked, "Our ideas of fun, are very different Dimitri." she said lifting her weights. I watched her work out, staring at her lean body and her hips. I shook myself out of my daze as Rose finished up her weights and did some more stretches. We were almost done with our morning, but we still had a little time yet. I knew Rose wanted to spar, but I didn't want to risk what happened last time. I grabbed a stake and some dummies and set them up across the room.
When I saw that she finished her stretches, I called out to her. "Come on Rose. Let's practice staking." I threw the stake to her, she caught it with ease. "What are we going to do?" she asked. I took my own stake out and showed her the motions. When I finished, I nodded at her to try staking on her own. She seemed lost in her own world, then just as I was going to nudge her, she snapped out of it. Rose took her stake and stabbed the dummy in all the right technique. It was pulling the stake out where she was getting stuck. She had no problem stabbing the dummies she just had a little trouble getting back on her feet. I walked up behind her and wrapped my arms around her, helping her pull out the stake. She felt so good in my arms. Rose started tearing up a bit. I decided to try to keep going with the lesson, maybe it would help. "Here Roza," I say guiding her hand while she leaned against me, "you need to pull it out in the same path you pushed it in".
"You make it look easy." she said quietly, almost whimpering. "You're good at it."
"I've just had a lot of practice rose. You'll be better that me soon enough." I said quietly as we leaned into each other. Our faces seemed to be getting closer, even though Rose was still in my arms, with her back facing to me. Suddenly she turned around and we kissed. I couldn't stop myself. I saw that she was in a bad mood all yesterday and I just wanted to cheer her up. The kiss grew heated as I backed her up into a wall. I was glad that there were no novices running around or we'd be in some trouble.
We moved so that we were hidden under the bleachers. I felt like a teenager again, making out in hiding so the teachers wouldn't see. I pushed Rose against the wall and pulled my lips from hers, instead making my way down her neck. She moaned, digging her hands into my hair. "Dimitri..." she groaned, trying to reach down to kiss me. "I want you so badly." She bucked against me rubbing her hips against mine. I pinned her down against the wall even harder, so she could barely move. "I want it, so bad." she moaned.
Rose's words snapped me out of my phase. I jerked my lips off of her neck and just stared at her. "Roza we can't. Not yet." I said breathlessly. I most certainly wasn't going to take her in the gym on her first time. It had to be romantic. Rose and I stood there for a little while longer calming ourselves, just staring at each other. When I was ready and calm, I took Rose's hand, and started pulling her out. "Come on Rose, you're going to be late for your therapy session. I'll clean up on my own." It felt like I was dragging her out, Rose hung behind like dead weight.
"We should talk about...that. Shouldn't we?" I heard Rose whisper from behind. I spun around and pretended to act oblivious. "About what?" I asked, but then brushed it off. Rose's face scrunched up angrily. That wasn't the reaction I was hoping for. I wish she would just forget about it so we could move on with the day, but Rose wasn't going to let this go. "We can talk later Roza, if you don't leave now you will be late. The counseling office is on the other side of campus."
Rose grabbed her things, and shot of out the gym, muttering to herself. I let myself breathe after Rose left the room. I wanted to go after her. I wanted to take her and carry her back to my room like a caveman. The urge I was feeling just to take her was so strong. Her words were like a bucket of cold water. She wasn't ready when we were alone and she wasn't going to be ready in the open now. I hoped I wasn't too rough with her. She looked a little sad again once she left the room. I cleaned up all the dummies putting them back in the closet and put the weights back. I still had the rest of the day until Rose's afternoon session. Maybe I would do some light reading, or maybe some cleaning. Then I remembered that I still needed to set up the cabin. I would do that some time today. I decided to do some laundry first. I needed to clean my own room before creating the most romantic scene I could at the little vacation cabin.
I felt my phone vibrating in my pocket. Pulling it out I saw that Tasha was calling. I didn't really want to get it because I knew Rose wouldn't be happy about it. But Tasha never called, what if it was an urgent matter. I guess it wouldn't hurt to say hello. She knew I wasn't interested and we were still friends. "Belikov" I said into the phone.
"Hello." Tasha said, her voice cracking. "How's it going Tasha? Are you in trouble?" It was odd for Tasha to call. We usually didn't talk unless we saw each other face to face. She was one of those passing acquaintances. We went to school together, but we really didn't become friends until after the academy. Tasha was one of Ivan's good friends and that's how we all got close.
"What are you doing?" Tasha asked in a slurred voice. I found that strange, rarely, very rarely did Tasha allow herself to get drunk. I decided to ignore it for now. "I just finished training with Rose, Tasha." Rose's name coming out of my mouth reminded me to keep this conversation short. I had many other things to do and that included preparing the cabin for me and Rose on Friday.
"Do you remember that time, in my apartment?" Tasha asked. I heard a loud bang through the phone. I could understand that Tasha didn't have her wits about her right now. I tried to calm her down through the phone. "Tasha I think you should hang up and go to bed." I said. I really needed to leave this conversation. "I bet that's the last time you really had anyone isn't it Dimitri." I could hear her flop on her bed. That was out of line.
"Tasha I'm going to hang up now. You really need to go to bed." I didn't want her bringing those memories up. I wished that I could erase them from my mind. We were both stupid teenagers then. Now I only had eyes for my Roza. "Don't go." Tasha pleaded. "Talk dirty to me like you used to." she muttered in a whisper. I didn't know what to do. I didn't want to hurt Tasha's feelings but I couldn't betray Roza. Tasha was far too gone now to stay alone though. I knew that she didn't have a guardian that could help her right now. Maybe I could ask one of my friends to check on her as a favor. Yes that's what I'll do. "Tasha don't do anything rash okay. I'm going to ask a friend to go check on you. You don't sound like you're alright."
"I'm just a little drunk. Can you claim yourself?" Tasha said with a yawn. "Plus I'm kinda turned on. Talk dirty to me." she demanded again. I needed to leave this conversation right now. "Tasha I think you can take care of those issues yourself. I am going to go now, if you need any assistance let me know and I'll ask a friend to go over." I dismissed her, ready to hang up. "Fine. You're no fun." Tasha snapped.
Finally she hung up. I didn't know how to deal with Tasha anymore. Before I could tolerate her sexual innuendos, but now I was in a relationship it wasn't okay any more to call me like this. I continued to gather my clothing in my room. I really did need to do laundry. It's been almost 2 weeks. I almost grabbed the shirt on my chair to wash. It was the shirt I had on that one time with Roza. I never wanted to rid it of the smell of us. When I got to the laundry room I was surprised to see Roza there. I thought she would still be in her therapy session. "Rose, what are you doing here?"
A/N- I'm sorry this has taken forever to post. Honestly I wanted to have this up by midnight on Christmas Day but my parents wanted to watch The Interview (weirdest movie ever) and I'm the only one with a working laptop. So here it is, an hour late. I'm really going to try to update more often. I know I said that last time and I feel like an ass but timing over break has just been weird.
Ciao!
~Tiffany 3