It's almost midnight, and you're standing alone and cold in the corridor of your home.
It's almost midnight in the corridor of your own home and yet you've never felt so estranged or lost…
You have been avoiding your sister for almost two weeks now, you can't look at her without feeling disoriented or blushing anymore. It's probably for the best though, because you don't know how to feel or act around her anymore, so the best course of action should be to take your time until you figure out what this is or how things should be from now on.
But is this really true? Are you truly that unaware of what's going on and of what you felt that day? Or are you just lying to yourself preferring to pretend that you don't know what it is? But you do know don't you?
No! I'm just confused right now, all I need is some time away from her until everything gets back to normal…
An image comes back to your mind, you recall opening the window to your room trying to take some air, you feel the sun and the wind on your skin and it feels nice. Then you notice the sound of two people talking, coming from below. You take a look down and you see her standing on the veranda, facing her pink haired midget of a friend.
She looks so elegant and beautiful, standing all proud and tall with her hair moving slightly due to the light breeze. And you feel surprised that you're noticing all of this, not that you never knew that she was a good looking person, gorgeous even. Everyone knows that, all you need to notice it is to have eyes. But it feels different this time around, you feel like you can't stop staring at her, you simply can't get enough of this sight. Your heart is warming up and you feel like running down the stairs towards her and throwing yourself in her arms, feeling her smell, her warmth and her skin on yours. Who even cares about the midget standing right next to her? Who even cares about anything really?
She suddenly seems aware of somebody's gaze upon her, and you're cut out of your thoughts as she lifts her head and stares directly back in your direction. Your eyes meet for the briefest second but you could actually see a quick look of surprise cross her face, before it vanished away and some kind of sad expression took its place. You turn your face away as fast as possible and get back into your room. Back stuck to the wall, you let yourself slide down to the floor little by little as your heart pounces hard and your face starts to take a normal color instead of the crimson red that just took over it.
What was that look in her eyes? You wonder to yourself it seemed like sadness mixed with a bit of tenderness. Could it be…guilt?
Your heart is suddenly aching at the realization. She is suffering isn't she? Why does she have to feel guilty? She shouldn't, she really shouldn't. Now you feel like running to her once again. Except that you want to be the one to take her in your arms this time, you want to comfort her and tell her that she has no reason to feel guilty, none at all!
But you can't, you just can't…
You just went back home for the week end after school when you were surprised to find her in your room waiting for you. She rarely comes back home these days, too busy being a school president of your academy and a full time job dictator. But that's none of your business as long as she tries not to dictate you what you should or should not do.
"Do you still not want to come live at the academy? It's much easier than going all the way back here or staying at that friend of yours's house." She asks her face a mask, devoid of any emotion.
"No. I'm fine with the Mankanshokus, they have been more of a family to me than some actual real family."
You immediately regret saying that, seeing how her face finally shows emotion. But you didn't mean that, you didn't mean her. You try to correct your mistake but she speaks first. "Come with me."
"What!? Where?"
"Somewhere where we can speak privately"
"But we're already talking privately, is my room…"
"No."
You finally give up and decide to follow her wherever she intends to take you. Once you're downstairs you find her giant of a bodyguard or boyfriend or whatever he is waiting in a car. You hope he's not her boyfriend though, for some reason the thought makes you uneasy. But why should you care? She can do whatever she wants with whoever she wants, that shouldn't be any of your concern.
She motions you to get in the back seat before following suite. She doesn't sit next to him on the front seat but she joins you on the back one. I guess that means he's not her boyfriend then, you think to yourself, but why am I still thinking about that? tsss..
The giant starts the engine and begins to drive around. After about ten minutes of complete silence you finally break it. "So where are we going?"
"Nowhere"
"What? What do you mean nowhere?"
"I simply decided to have this conversation with you in the car so that you wouldn't make any rush or impulsive reactions that you would end up regretting afterwards"
Wait, isn't this about what happened the other day? You start to panic a little. Are we really going to have this conversation in front of the giant guy?
"You sure that whatever you want to talk to me about you can say it in front of him? Hey no offense dude…"
"Not to worry I trust Gamagori entirely and everything I am about to tell you he already knows about for years."
What!? For years? So this wasn't about that after all…
And for the next hour or so she tells you everything about your father and his car accident that wasn't really an accident at all, the real purpose of Honnouji academy, her plan, your mother's plan…and it's just too much, it's too much to take at once. Suddenly you're feeling drowned in a sea of emotions, you're feeling enraged and sad and shocked and guilty that Satsuki had to endure all of that alone through all of these years….And you just have no idea how to deal with all of these emotions.
You ask Gamagori to stop the car because you need to be alone right now and you need some time in order to be able to process all of this. Satsuki asks you if you're going to be alright and you say that you would. "Promise me that you won't do anything crazy" she says, and you promise. You would've promised her anything at that moment she could've asked you for anything and you would've done it. It felt like nothing in the world could redeem for the pain and all of the struggles she had to go through.
Once you're out of the car she calls for you one more time. "Are you going to be home tonight?" She asks.
"I don't know…"
"Be careful."
And with that she leaves. You stay in your place for a while watching the car move away little by little until it completely disappears. After that you roam around in the streets for hours not having any particular destination in mind. In fact you're not even aware of your surroundings, being too deep into your thoughts. You think back about the father that you never really had a chance to know because Ragyo took that chance away from you, you think about the illusion that you've been living your entire life, you think about your sister and her plans and whether you have a chance at making it succeed. But it doesn't matter because you will make it work no matter what. You have to make things right. Your mind drifts away for the briefest second to that afternoon in the bath with her and what it meant, before you put the thought aside. It doesn't matter, all that matters is that you know that you love her more than anything in the world and that the two of you should be in this together, why does she have to bare it all alone? You suddenly feel an aching longing for her. You want to tell her all of these things, you want to be by her side no matter what, you want to share your love with her.
That's when you decide to stop running, go back home and face her with everything you've got.
You haven't realized you have been wondering the streets of the city alone for that long. You have noticed that the sun went down leaving room to the moon sure, but it's only when you finally got home and found everyone sound asleep, the manor as silent as a grave that you realized.
It's almost midnight, and you're standing alone and cold in the corridor of your home.
It's almost midnight in the corridor of your own home and yet you've never felt so estranged or lost…
This place is supposed to be home to you but you realize that it's only full of secrets and you never knew anything about it or its people. A mother and servants that you grew up with and that you thought of as family at some point, but not anymore. They all knew about things that you ignored your entire life and who knows what more secrets do they still behold? They all seem so distant now.
Except for one person, she's the only family you have left, and you have resolved yourself to stick by her side no matter what and tell her everything you feel.
Then why are you standing frozen in front of the door to her room? What are you afraid of? She must certainly be asleep I shouldn't wake her up. What a ridiculous excuse! Man up Ryuko what happened to all of that resolve you just had a couple of hours ago?
You finally open the door slowly and enter the room closing it behind. Even though it's night dark you can see her silhouette covered with the blankets thanks to the moonlight's rays. You take a few steps before stopping next to her bed thinking of what to say. But before you can figure out anything she turns around and faces you. "Ryuko?" Contrary to you she always was a light sleeper, but weather she was already awake or you woke her up you don't know. You're suddenly feeling a little panicked and you have no idea what to say. She sits up in her bad and asks "Ryuko what's wrong?" And you can see worry and tenderness in her eyes, you can hear it in her voice. And it warms up your heart and fills you with passion. Suddenly all of your worries are gone, the only thing left on your mind is being with her and by her side. You may still be unable to formulate it into words but you know what you want, you always knew it. And if you can't say it then you will show it, you've always been better with actions than words anyway.
Without saying a word, you raise your hands and start unbuttoning your shirt then take it off, your bra follows, and then your shoes, and then everything else until you're left completely naked under her gaze. She watches you shocked at first but then takes a calmer expression tainted with a hint of lust.
"Take me."
"Ruyko…"
"It's what I want, I want to be yours."
This seems to have the wanted effect on her, as her eyes get cloudier with lust, she takes a big breath and then suddenly wraps her arms around your waist and brings you down to the bed with her. As soon as her back reaches it you start kissing each other relentlessly. And you never realized how much you needed this until it started happening. Feeling her arms around you, your skin touching hers, your lips on hers, and her tongue in your mouth. It all feels way too good, so good you're afraid it might get addictive. And you want to feel more of her, all of her...But she suddenly puts an end to your kissing session as she lifts herself from the bed taking her night gown off, leaving her in nothing but her panties, and speaks, her voice a bit hoarse but authoritarian "Turn around"
"What?"
"Turn around, lay on your stomach" a bit confused but aroused by her husky tone of voice, you comply. She doesn't move or do anything for a few seconds until you feel her breath on the back of your neck, and you shiver with anticipation. She places soft kisses there, before leaving a trace with her tongue and lips down from your neck and shoulders to your back.
You feel yourself tremble a little and your heat getting more pressing as you feel her breath reaching the between of your tights. For a brief second you feel some embarrassment thinking that at that moment she must've noticed how soaked you were down there. But there isn't much room for thought with everything that she's doing to you. She places her hands on your buttocks and spreads them a little, so you follow suit opening your legs for her and lifting yourself a little using your forearms as a support. Your breathing gets more raging and you burry your face in the pillows as she lets her tongue slip from between her lips to your lower ones, she starts with a few licks then proceeds to sucking and nibbling on your insides.
You let a sharp moan and almost jump as you feel her tongue go deep inside of you, but she holds you down firmly with her hands still on your buttocks. And you feel a little surprised as you finally notice how forceful she's been with you in her ministrations.
Suddenly you're shaking violently and you're dripping with pleasure but she's taking it all in, cleaning every drop with her tongue. What an erotic sight it must be, you think to yourself and you try to turn around to look at her, your breathing finally taking a steady rhythm but she never left you a chance to do so. And you're surprised as she suddenly moves away from between your legs and pushes all her weight on you, pinning you to the mattress. She's now lying on top of you completely, her breasts pressed aginst your back. "Satsuki…?" You try to turn around again and question her but not only does she not answer, she also stops you from trying to look at her by holding your face with her hand and pushing her knee as far as possible between your legs at the same time. You let out a surprised moan but don't try to question her anymore. After a few seconds of stillness she finally removes her knee, putting a small kiss on your shoulder, and suddenly and without any warning she slips two fingers inside of you with the free hand that's not holding your face. You moan loudly both in surprise and pleasure and you start to think that she really is being quiet aggressive this time, you were not imagining it earlier, but….your thoughts start to get blurrier and blurrier with everything that's going on behind you, such as her biting and licking on your shoulder or her fingers going in and out inside of you. Your rebel nature wants to protest, to fight back this demeanor, it's not like you to be completely dominated in this manner. But there is also such a pleasant sensation to it. To be completely owned by her in this way, and you can't resist the thought of being hers entirely…so you give in to it.
As your pleasure slowly rises towards its peak you finally hear her speak again, she places her lips on your ear and whispers to you "You have no idea how much I missed you or thought about you these past few weeks."
"Satsuki, I…" But you're unable to formulate any coherent thought as you feel your release so nearby for the second time this night. She seems aware of this fact as she whispers again. "Now come…come for me love" and it has the effect of a magical charm as you're immediately overwhelmed by a wave of pleasure and you clench your hands tightly into the sheets, only one word leaving your lips "Nee-san!" She finally releases your face so you immediately turn around and take her lips into yours.
Now that the two of you have calmed down, kissing and caressing while laying down on the bed, she seems to have come back to her usual self as she kisses you very softly, caressing the side of your face and even kissing your nose and forehead, before finally speaking "I'm sorry…I just suddenly felt this need to…"
"Don't be." You say as you silence her with another kiss. "And yes I accept."
"What? Accept what?"
"To be part of your plan, and do whatever it takes to reach your goals, our goals."
"I see…" She says with a smile "I'm grateful"
After a few seconds of silence, she speaks again "So is this really how things are going to be between us from now on?"
"I guess so…Normal was never meant for us after all" you add with a laugh.
She laughs a little before seeming to drift away in her thoughts to a far away land. She then places a kiss on the top of your head "I guess not."