AN: Hey guys, thanks for waiting for this one, it's a bit longer as promised!
I will start having a chapter ready once a week, maybe twice a week depending on life and all its events.

Chapter Six

Beca POV

Jesse stood awkwardly in the doorway for a moment or two, whilst I looked in the direction that Chloe had left from.
After a few moments Jesse cleared his throat and broke the silence.

"Is she okay?" He stepped further into the room and closer towards me.

"I don't know..." I really had no idea at all, I was so confused. What just happened? What was she wanting to say? She was so close; I could still smell her perfume.

Jesse's voice picked up and broke me away from my internal struggle.

"I got you these," his hands held out the flowers that he was holding, they were daisies, my favorites. I couldn't help the quick smile that came across my lips. I held my hands out and took them from him, placing them on my bedside table.

"They're beautiful, thank you." I looked up and smiled.

Jesse stepped closer again and wrapped his big arms around me, pulling me in towards his chest. He was always so warm, I couldn't help but push myself further into his embrace, inhaling his familiar scent. For a moment I felt safe and like nothing could touch me. Jesse only pulled me in tighter... But now that I think about it, it didn't feel right, it didn't feel perfect and I was left thinking what it would feel like to hold Chloe this way...

"Oh, I also got you these," Jesse pulled away and held out a deck of chocolate. What can I say? The man knows me well. I smiled up at him and before I knew it I was balling my eyes out, right there in front of him.

"Beca?" Jesse stepped towards me, quickly throwing the chocolate on the bed, and holding a tentative hand towards me.
I only cried harder.

"Beca what's going on?" Jesse quickly stood in and wrapped his arms around me once more.

"I- I c-can- can't d- do this-s an- anymore..." The words barely left my mouth. Jesse only pulled me closer towards him and kissed the top of my head lovingly, the action made me feel better and at the same time much, much worse.

"... I know Beca..." I was shocked. What did he mean 'he knew'? I looked up at him puzzled, the tears still streaming down my face.

"Wh- What?"

"I know. I know what this is about baby. This is about Chloe. I've seen the way you always look at her, you're pulled to her like a magnet, you hang off of every word she says. It's not hard to see.
You used to look at me that way..."

Jesse hung his head down and let out a deep breath.
I was too stunned to even respond.

Jesse looked up at me and gave me a half smile. Though it never reached his eyes. He reached up and gently placed his big hand on the side of my face, his thumb tracing small, soothing circles on my cheek.

"You love her don't you?" His voice was nothing but gentle, and although he knew the answer, I know he wanted to hear me say it out loud.
I was still so shocked about how this was all turning out, this was nothing like how I expected it to be.

It was all true though, I could keep denying it and continue to be in continuous agony, or I could admit it... I don't know if that was going to be less painful. But if there was one thing that my relationship with Jesse taught me, it was that I always needed to be honest with myself...

I took a deep breath and gave a slight nod, he only looked at me more intently. He wanted to hear the words.

"Ye- yes, yes Jesse, I- I love Chloe."

Jesse looked away for half a second, and breathed deeply, I knew he was trying not to cry.

A minute passed, I didn't want to say anything, I know he needed to gather his thoughts.
Jesse looked back towards me, I could see his mind was made up about something, but I couldn't tell what.

"Beca," Jesse looked at me and grabbed both of my hands.
"Beca, I'm breaking up with you..."
What? I was confused, Jesse could see I was as well. I was just about to voice my confusion when he put a hand up to stop me.

"I want you to know Beca, this isn't my choice, this isn't what I wanted. I'm not going to lie and say that I am not completely devastated. That I am not both jealous and angry at Chloe, she stole your heart away from me...
The thing that makes me hurt the most though is that I can see just how perfect she is for you... She is your perfect movie ending... And I- I'm not..." Jesse's eyes started to go red, he was holding back the tears.

I squeezed his warm hands, they were starting to get clammy from all the emotion, I didn't mind.

"Jesse, I'm so sorry, I don't even know what to say... I- I'm scared, I'm really, really scared. I- I never intended for this to happen, I don't know what I would be without you.. I- I"

"Beca," Jesse's calm voice interrupted my own.
"Beca it's okay, being scared is the best bit. And I'm not just going to sit here and let you pass up on a love like this, I'm not going to be the reason that you don't do anything about it or hold back."
Jesse couldn't hold back the tears anymore.

"It's over between us Beca, you need to do what makes you happy, and if I can't be the one who does that for you, then I'm not going to stand in the way of someone who does."

I didn't have any words at all, I never noticed just how truly incredible Jesse was until this very moment. I leant in and hugged him as hard as I could, pushing my head against his chest. Listening to his heartbeat for the last time, inhaling his warm, clean smell for the last time. He only pulled me closer and gently stroked my hair, I could feel him smell and kiss the top of my head.

"I- I- Jesse I-" I just wanted to say something, I don't even know what, I just wanted to say something. The tears poured down my face as I looked up into his big, kind brown eyes.

"Don't say anything Beca. I just want you to be happy.
Look... I need to get out of here... I- I will probably need some time before we can continue a friendship... I hope you understand."
I nodded quickly. Jesse leant in and gave me one last soft kiss, it was a kiss to say goodbye. It was intense, and gentle, and loving all in one blow.

Jesse stood up and headed towards the stairs, before looking back at me and saying,
"Don't let her get away Beca."
With that, he turned and headed down the stairs.

I stepped backwards until the backs of my knees hit my bed and I sat down. Staring at the spot where Jesse had left.

I don't know how long it was that I was sitting there, before I felt the bed dip next to me and a soft warm arm wrap around me.

"What's up short stuff?" Amy's voice was kind. I sighed and leant into her side embrace.

"Jesse and I are over... And to be honest the main thing I feel is relief." I looked up at her and saw that she was listening intently to what I had to say.

"I mean, it's not that I don't care... Of course I miss him, I don't want to ruin any chance of a friendship that we might have... it's just- I mean- I, well, I'm..." C'mon Beca, just spit it out. Yeah sure Fat Amy is always joking around about everything, but if there is one person, other than Chloe, who I can trust with anything - it's her.

I sighed and looked down before quickly looking up at her again.

"I'm... I'm in love with Chloe."

Fat Amy looked at me as if I had said nothing more than the weather forecast for tomorrow.

"Did you hear what I said, Amy?" Fat Amy only began to smile. She awkwardly leant over me and picked up the chocolate bar sitting on the other side of me. There was a whole lot of boob and arm pit in my face. I huffed and tried to get out of her way.

"Well Beca, lez-be-honest here," Fat Amy didn't take her eyes off of the block of chocolate as she began to unwrap it, offering me the first piece. I kindly accepted.

"It's pretty obvious that you are in love with her." Fat Amy saw the shocked look on my face. Before continuing,

"Oh don't worry! I don't think anyone else knows... I just have a knack for this stuff, I'm kind of like a beautiful, blonde, Australian cupid." She smiled at me whilst shoving chocolate in her face.

"Well, that and I've caught you staring at her butt like a hundred times." I almost choked on the chocolate in my mouth. Amy banged her hand on my back to help me out.
"So what are you going to do about it?"

I looked at her dumbfounded for while, whilst she looked questioningly back towards me.

"I don't really know? To be honest I'm terrified of her rejection. I mean let's get real, Chloe is straight-" Amy coughed quite loudly and aggressively. The action startled me.

"Please," Amy composed her,
"Please continue." Amy just looked at me strangely, I couldn't understand why. I paused for a moment before continuing.

"So chances are she will let me down as gently as she can and then our friendship will never be the same again. For one, because she will know how insanely in love with her I am and that will most likely creep her out. And two, because the thought of being near her and seeing her in love with someone else, knowing she will never feel the same will completely destroy me..."

I threw my head into my hands, this was totally hopeless. I've lost Jesse and now I felt like I've lost Chloe before I've even found her.
Fat Amy put her hand on my back and gently rubbed up and down.

"May I suggest something?" Fat Amy's voice interrupted the silence that had fell over the room.

"Go ahead, it's not like I have a crazy amount of options here."

"Well, perhaps, you should start by being completely honest with her... Like telling her about that internship you sneak off to..."

"What?" I threw my head up out of my hands and looked up at her.
"Is there anything at all about me that you don't know? How did you find out?" I wasn't angry, more so extremely shocked... I was so careful at hiding it.

"Well you know how we have that little deal going, where every month I take twenty dollars from your purse and you pretend not to notice? Well, I saw your I.D. badge..."

I was completely gob-smacked!

"Okay... Well the money I want to come back too, but you went through my purse? Amy!" She looked so sheepish and it was impossible to stay mad at her... I can't believe it.

"I'm sorry Beca... It's just I really think you should tell her, I can already see the damage it's doing to you guys - she knows that you're hiding something from her... Why haven't you told her though? I mean this is a great and amazing thing. This is your dream. I thought that Chloe would be the first person you tell."

"Amy, you know how invested Chloe is with the Bellas, I don't want to stress her out, I don't want to hurt her."

Amy looked at me, slightly disappointed.

"Beca, you should tell her, the only thing that's going to hurt her is if you keep hiding this from her." Amy leant in and gave me a big hug before standing up and heading towards the stairs.
"Look I know you've got a lot of stuff running through your mind, just please consider what I said... Now if you don't mind, I've gotta go and see someone about some stuff and things..." She gave me her token mischievous smile and headed down the stairs.

I fell back onto my bed, my head was a complete mess. How can so much happen in one day?! GAH!

I knew Fat Amy was right, I had to at least tell Chloe about the internship. The thing is I knew I had to but I just don't know if I could. Why did I have to be such a coward?

I dozed into a restless sleep, thoughts of Jesse's broken face and Chloe's disappointed, blue eyes staring at me and yelling at me running through my mind.

AN: Sorry sorry sorry for the lack of BeChloe action in this one! I promise there will be a lot in the next chapter! After all, it's time to check out Das Sound Machine!