Once he was home again, Kurt ran from the car and into his house before giving Blaine a chance to try to talk to him again. He just needed to be alone to think, to breathe. He immediately went up the stairs to his room, letting the door slam loudly behind him as he threw himself on his bed to cry. He instantly regretted slamming the door and letting whoever was home know he was upset. He thought it was his dad coming up the stairs, but the knock on his door was too hesitant.
"Kurt?" Finn carefully opened the door poking his head into the room.
Kurt was surprised that Finn even came up to see him, if he wanted to talk he usually waited for Kurt to initiate and come to him.
"Finn, whatever it is can it please wait? I'm sorry about how I acted last night but I just want to be alone right now." Kurt answered trying not to sound like the mess he probably looked.
"I know you're not okay right now. Do you need a doctor?" Finn innocently and nervously asked, allowing himself to get closer to where Kurt was.
"No, I don't need a doctor. I just – it's complicated and I know you don't want to hear about it." Kurt explained shaking his head.
"You listen to my drama with Rachel and Quinn all the time. Did The Warblers do something? Did Blaine do something? Cause if they hurt you in any way I swear I will not hesitate to-" Finn started letting himself get riled up ready to fight.
"It's not what you're thinking Finn." Kurt cut him off with a small voice. He felt silly now for getting this upset about the situation. "I never thought they pitied me. I thought they were my friends, but I guess I was wrong."
"What do you mean pitied you?" Finn asked, taking a seat in Kurt's desk chair.
"Blaine took me to Dalton today, as a surprise, and they dedicated a song to me." Kurt started to explain.
"Isn't that a good thing?" Finn questioned innocently.
"They only did it because they felt bad about what happened last night and tried to make up for The New Directions." Kurt clarified. It was true. They were in the middle of Kurt and Finns argument about The New Directions last night.
"I don't think it was pity." Finn finally added after a moment of thinking.
"Don't try to make me feel better." Kurt whined throwing his head onto his pillow dramatically.
"No, they were honestly excited to be hanging with you yesterday. And after you went upstairs they ripped Puck and me practically to shreds for what we said." Finn stated trying to prove to Kurt that he was telling the truth.
"Puck said stuff about me? - No never mind it's better I don't know is was said behind my back right now." Kurt muttered.
"I was jealous and maybe Puck was too. Ever since you've switched schools you've been too busy for me. I was hoping when you got home from the hospital we would have time together but you're always hanging out with Blaine. Burt says it's cause you two have a lot in common and he seems to like your new friends better than your old friends." Finn awkwardly rambled, not sure how to explain why he was so upset yesterday.
Kurt turned his head towards where Finn was sitting. He was shocked Finn was even admitting this. He thought Finn only hung with him before because his Dad asked him to. He only ever really hung out with Kurt at home, never at school.
"You were a real jerk to me last night" Kurt stated without any anger, just as a matter of fact.
"I know, but I am sorry" Finn answered shamefully.
"I know you are and I forgive you … " Kurt started, biting his lip nervously before finally asking, "Is it true?"
"Is what true?" Finn asked, honestly confused.
"That they didn't visit me because they think I'm a traitor?" Kurt continued, knowing there was not really a good enough reason to back down now.
"Its kind of split. They all understood why you switched schools, well most of them did. But when you joined their glee club she thought you were doing it to get information or something for us, and when she found out that you actually joined and were competing she blew everything out of proportion as usual and then people took sides. She somehow managed to convince Puck that Blaine seduced you into competing against us." Finn explained, avoiding telling exactly who took what side, but maybe he didn't know for sure.
Kurt rolled his eyes, it sounded like something Rachel would do.
"But I don't think anyone purposely didn't visit you. Everyone probably just assumed someone else went for everyone." Finn rushed to clarify.
"No, I understand. I guess I kind of am a traitor. I helped start The New Directions." Kurt sighed beginning to feel tired from all his emotions.
"Dude, I don't think you're a traitor. You like singing so you should be in their glee club." Finn shrugged like it was no big deal.
"It's not like I get any chances to preform. They won't even give me a solo." Kurt complained.
"Really? Those guys yesterday said you have one of the best voices they've heard in their choir yet. One of them bragged that with more of their training you have an actual chance to succeed in show business."
Kurt let out a small chuckle wiping away a stray tear. That sounded like something Wes would say. He loved bragging about their training and formalities. He took a deep breath before getting out of bed. "Thanks Finn," Kurt smiled feeling calmer after talking everything out, "Since I never actually got my movie night or day out how about we go catch a movie before Carol and Dad get home?"
"Just as long it's not like a French film or something" Finn yelled as he raced down the hall to put some shoes on before meeting Kurt downstairs.
On the way to the movie Finn eyed Kurt curiously when he didn't sing along to the radio, but he didn't question it, which Kurt was extremely thankful for. Even though the doctors had told him he could preform relatively normal activities that Kurt had done before he was nervous about overworking his heart. What if needing to fill his lungs with more air caused him to be back in the hospital? Kurt would eventually be over this fear. Maybe after the scar was less noticeable he would be able to work himself up to singing and dancing again. Besides he was still struggling to list his arms above his head.
When they came home after the movie, Kurt was thankful that neither Carol nor his Dad asked questions about what happened with Blaine. They asked if he would be coming over tomorrow, but when Kurt said "probably not" the subject was dropped. They eyed his suspiciously at dinner, noticing something was off, but no one said anything about it. Instead they talked about mundane things, like what was coming up when the weekend was over tomorrow. Kurt tried to pay attention, especially since his Dad and Carole were partially talking about Kurt's doctors appoints for the week. He just couldn't get his mind off of Blaine. It was the fantasy he wanted to come true at Valentines Day, but never happened. It's what he always wanted Blaine to say to him, but now it just stung. Blaine will soon be over his new found feelings towards Kurt once he was fully recovered from his surgery.
Kurt spent the rest of the night trying to keep his mind off things and to actually get a night worth of sleep. Ever since the surgery his sleeping pattern has been off and it wouldn't help things if he couldn't stop thinking about Blaine and how hurt he looked.
Monday morning came fast despite Kurt not being able to sleep most of the night. After his two doctors appointments Kurt found himself fighting to stay awake in front of the television, since when did he become his Dad? His head just started to nod forward when the doorbell rang. He carefully got up from his spot after turning the television off, telling his Dad who was in the dining room doing paper work for the garage he would get the door.
"Nick? Jeff?" Kurt gasped, surprised to see them here. He thought it was maybe someone from the garage or possibly Blaine.
"Can we come in?" Jeff asked.
"Yeah – of course." Kurt said stepping aside and opening the door wider for them to come in. "Would you like something to eat or drink? I think I have some pretzels left from movie night."
"That would be great" Nick answered with a smile, before getting nudged by Jeff "I mean, no thank you."
"We're here on business Kurt, not pleasure." Jeff explained.
"Well then I guess we should have a seat" Kurt replied gesturing towards the sofa in the living room. They sat down and awkwardly looked at each other for a couple seconds before Kurt finally asked, "So what's this about?"
"Blaine is miserable and though he didn't tell us what happened we kind of figured it out." Nick mumbled.
"You guys are all way too invested in my relationship with Blaine," Kurt remarked with a slight snarkiness.
"Yeah we know," Jeff added rolling his eyes. "But when we knew Blaine was going for it we were so excited, both of you were finally going to be happy."
"We just want to know what happened?" Nick inquired.
"Did Blaine send you?" Kurt demanded, feeling the angry rise inside him.
"Blaine had no idea we're here" Nick answered seriously, "We're here because we are your friends Kurt and we were worried about you."
"Well I'm fine" Kurt sneered, "so if that's all there is-"
"Just tell us what happened, we want to help." Jeff added sincerely.
Kurt let out a huff in response getting ready to stand up and show them out.
"Please, Kurt?" Nick further requested.
Kurt was quiet for a moment, letting the fight drain from him. They were trying to be his friends, he should probably try to incase Blaine no longer wants to be his friend and he would be left friendless.
"Blaine only likes me right now because of my major surgery, once I'm better the feeling will be gone and then there is no way we could be friends again." Kurt answered ashamed and embarrassed.
"I don't believe that" Nick answered.
"Blaine has always liked you Kurt. He just didn't know that. It sounds ridiculous but it's true." Jeff explained trying to get Kurt's full attention, "Don't shake your head, it is true. Blaine is never that friendly with his friends. You don't see him cuddling with Wes or paying for David's coffee."
Kurt still didn't answer, but he wasn't ignoring them he was just trying to see what they were explaining.
"The heart thing was just kind of the push he needed, and thank goodness because I hated that Jeremiah guy, he was a prick." Nick added
"Nick!" Jeff scolded
"Everyone else hated him too, I just have to guts to say it out loud." Nick shrugged not even sorry.
"I appreciate what you guys are trying to do, I just … Blaine made it very clear at valentines day he didn't like me and then all of a sudden now he likes me? I can't risk getting my heart broken again. It's for the better." Kurt sadly explained. He wanted it to happen just as much as them but it wasn't right.
"At least think about hearing Blaine out and talking to him about this?" Jeff requested.
"I'll turn my phone back on and if he doesn't initiate contact again, I'll be the one to reach out." Kurt suggested.
"Great!" Nick exclaimed with a smile, "now about those pretzels … "
