It was the perfect plan. So where did he go wrong?
Blaine was currently lying in his bed staring at the ceiling replaying everything over in his mind, trying to find where he screwed it all up. Everything was great. They had fun with the warblers, despite the little argument Kurt had with his brother Finn. But even with that the night was great, Kurt even cuddled with him when they watched 'Moulin Rouge'. The next day he ended up having to change his plans of where to confess his feelings to Kurt because The Warblers wanted to preform a song for him, that they didn't get to do when he was in the hospital. Kurt was touched and told everyone he really enjoyed it and thanked them for their performance. This was all great.
It was after when things went wrong. Blaine pulled Kurt aside into a quiet room and sat him down to tell Kurt about his new feelings towards him. He thought Kurt liked him, well according to everyone else Kurt was in love with him. However, Kurt got upset and asked Blaine to take him home.
And now Kurt won't even speak to him, well he won't answer his calls or respond to his text messages. It's been almost a week and he has literally heard nothing from Kurt, no matter what way he tried to get in contact with him.
"Hey Blaine" Wes said as he softly knocked on the doorframe to Blaine's bedroom. "I hope it's okay I came up. Your mom let me in."
"Sorry, I'm not really in the mood to discuss set lists." Blaine sighed sadly, forcing himself to sit up from moping into his pillow.
"I'm not here for that. I came to see if you are okay?" he asked cautiously. He took a seat next to Blaine on the bed as he studied Blaine. Blaine wasn't positive what he was studying Blaine for but it was the same look Wes had when his girlfriend was upset about her dog passing away.
"No, I'm not okay." Blaine huffed, annoyed that Wes was even here to see if he was okay. It was partly his fault that this has even happened. If they didn't encourage Blaine to confess his feelings he and Kurt would still be friends.
"Blaine, it's not the end of the world-" Wes started, trying to calm him down.
"This is exactly what I feared would happen, and if you and the other guys hadn't pushed me to tell him about my new feelings we would still be talking." Blaine snapped, taking out his emotions on someone else other than himself.
"Blaine, we're sorry about that. We have said it a million times. Kurt was so head over heels for you we all thought it was going to happen and you would both finally be happy." Wes explained matching Blaine's tone.
"I was happy," Blaine snapped, let out in a sigh, calming himself down before continuing. "I was happy and then everything got really complicated."
"You didn't do anything wrong, Blaine, except well …maybe your timing was a little off." Wes added.
Blaine flopped back onto the bed with a groan, covering his face with his hands. "What am I going to do?" asking himself more than Wes.
"I really can't tell you much because I don't know a lot, but Nick and Jeff went to see Kurt the other day and according to them you two really need to talk things through." Wes explained.
"I tried to talk to him but he's ignoring me. I tried calling, texting, I even messaged him on Facebook. And I've gotten nothing in return." Blaine complained.
"You know how Kurt is. He needs his time and space with stuff like this." Wes tried to reason. "I know you probably don't want my opinion, but if you really truly like Kurt and honestly believe there is a future for you two I wouldn't give up, but if you think this is just a crush you'll be over soon just go back to being friends."
"How do you know all this?" Blaine asked in an accusing tone.
"My mom's a psychiatrist and my dad is a marriage counselor," Wes answered with a shrug. "Anyway let's get out of here and do something to get your mind off stuff, I can't have you moping at practice anymore, it's starting to effect our performances."
Blaine let out a small laugh, "only if you promise not to talk about choreography or song choices."
"If you paid better attention in the meetings I wouldn't have to go over them with you" Wes lectured rolling his eyes mockingly.
On the way out Blaine called out to his mom he was leaving for a while. As he pulled the door open he came face to face with Kurt who looked like he was mid knock. "Kurt!" He exclaimed surprised.
"I uh …I" Kurt stuttered a little shocked and wide eyed.
"I'll catch you later Blaine" Wes said awkwardly as he slipped past Kurt.
Blaine awkwardly stared a Kurt a while his mind only catching up the real world when Kurt cleared his throat, asking if he could come inside.
"Right – yes, of course." Blaine answered stepping aside to let Kurt in.
"I'm sorry for not answering you before I just-" Kurt started following Blaine into his living room.
"…just needed a little time?" Blaine finished as he sat down on the living room sofa.
"Yeah and I was going to call you back, but I thought it would be better to talk in person." Kurt said shyly, as he fidgeted in his seat next to Blaine.
Blaine waited for Kurt to continue, but he seemed to loose his nerve so he picked things back up. "I really wanted to apologize for upsetting you."
"No, I was wrong to react that way. I just … this is hard for me to say, but I have liked you for a long time," Kurt started to explain looking at his hands rather than at Blaine, "on valentines day I thought you were going to sing to me, and then you … you"
"Kurt-" Blaine whispered his heart catching in his throat a little from the guilt of causing Kurt any sort of pain. He had no idea Kurt thought that. He should have picked up on that.
"No please if I don't get this all out I don't think I can continue." Kurt begged, looking at Blaine with pleading eyes.
Blaine nodded in response, silently promising not to interrupt.
"I tried to get over you when you started to date Jeremiah, it really hurt but I tried to push past it to be more supportive, to be a better friend. I kept telling myself that you would never see me the way - the way I saw you." Kurt paused to take a deep breath, "And I guess I never got over you, which is probably why I reacted that way when you said those things. I know it's only because of the surgery and my heart and eventually you would go back to just wanting to be friends, but if I let it happen and it turned out you didn't really like me the way you thought you did I would lose you and I can't lose my best friend that way."
Blaine must have had stupid expression on his face because he could not believe Kurt still had feelings for him. It stung that Kurt thought Blaine only liked him because he felt bad for Kurt. Kurt was the best person he knows, he was everything.
"That's … that's all." Kurt finished awkwardly still not looking at Blaine.
"Kurt I- I" Blaine stuttered still not believing Kurt actually like him.
"Did you mean what you said? That you like me?" Kurt interrupted, standing up and finally looking at Blaine.
Blaine sat up straight at Kurt's abruptness. "Yeah," he breathed nodding dumbly.
"And do you still feel that way about me?" Kurt asked not taking his eyes off of Blaine.
"Yeah, I do." Blaine confessed, silently begging Kurt to believe him.
"Okay, pick me up tomorrow at five." Kurt responded turning towards the door.
"Wait!" Blaine jumped up gently grabbing Kurt's hand to stop him from leaving. As soon as he touched Kurt's fingers he felt goose bumps and a small tingle go up his arm. "What am I picking you up at five for?" He asked confused.
Kurt let out a small laugh, his smile so genuine that Blaine couldn't help but smile back. "For our date … to you know … uh see where things go?" He shrugged.
Blaine only nodded dumbly not able to form words at this moment. Kurt just asked him on a date or said yes to a date. He isn't positive who was asking and who was accepting, all he knew was Kurt wanted to go on a date with him.
"Is that a yes?" Kurt asked, nervously biting his lip.
"Yes! Five!" Blaine rushed out, his mind still trying to catch up.
"Five." Kurt giggled.
Blaine stared him for a couple more seconds before Kurt giggled again.
"Finn is waiting outside so I need to-" Kurt started singling that Blaine needed to let go of his hand.
"Oh –right - sorry." Blaine laughed nervously, letting go of Kurt's hand before running ahead of him to open the door. "Five" He said instead of goodbye.
"Yes, tomorrow at five." Kurt confirmed with a bright smile before walking to his car. He awkwardly waved goodbye before he got in.
Blaine waved back slowly closing the door and leaning back on it letting out a breathy sigh. He stayed there for a moment imagining himself as Kurt's boyfriend, then straightening up and rushing back to his room to plan everything out. It needed to be perfect.
Blaine ended up being slightly early to pick up Kurt. It wasn't on purpose he was just so excited that he couldn't really wait much longer, and he wanted to allow time in case there was unexpected traffic. Kurt wouldn't mind he was early; Kurt was always prompt if not a little early for things, never liking to show up late to things. Blaine took one last calming breath and a quick check in the car mirror before heading to the door. He knocked with false confidence, wondering if he should have stopped for flowers, regretting that he didn't think of flowers before. Blaine unintentionally took a step back when Burt answered the door with a knowing smirk.
"Blaine, it's good to see you again. Please come in," he greeting opening the door wider for Blaine to enter the house.
Blaine nodded with a smile, making sure to wipe his feet on the mat before entering the house quickly debating on calling him Burt or Mr. Hummel or Mr. Burt. Blaine feels like he threw him off with the name thing on purpose, to skip him up or something.
"I'm sorry I'm a little early. Traffic was lighter than I expected." Blaine explained nervously as he stepped inside.
"Kurt's almost ready … well I thought he was ready two outfits ago but when I said he looked fine he just mumbled something and went back to his room to start over." Burt said with a smirk.
"Dad!" Kurt exclaimed from the stairs, obviously embarrassed by what his dad said.
"What?" Burt asked not so innocently. Kurt simply rolled his eyes in response.
"I saw you pull up and I tried to beat my Dad to the door so he couldn't torture you, sorry I wasn't in time to save you." Kurt joked, smiling brightly.
Blaine was frozen in his spot. Kurt was stunning in his simple gray button down jacket with a scarf neatly folded in, the pants weren't the tightest he has seen Kurt wear, which is probably a good thing, but the long white strips elongated his legs and his knee length boots only helped with showing off the length of his legs. The outfit was simple for Kurt, minus the hippo broach pinned to the left side of his jacket.
"You look amazing," Blaine said breathlessly.
"Thank you" Kurt responded with a blush.
"Okay you two have a good time. Stay safe and be home by 11:30." Burt lectured before rushing them out the door, reminding them to have a good time.
Blaine quickly rushed ahead to open the car door for Kurt. He took another calming breath before entering the driver side of the car. He fumbled slightly with his seat belt because of his nerves but Kurt gently touched his hands offering him a reassuring smile and he was able to finally calm himself down.
"So where are we going?" Kurt asked as he pulled out of the development.
"The community theater is putting on a production of Into the Woods. I know it's no Broadway but-" Blaine answered, rambling slightly at the end.
"It's perfect." Kurt responded with a smile. "If it's anything like their production of RENT I am sure it will be wonderful, and if not we will still have plenty of things to discuss afterwards."
They were quiet as Blaine concentrated on the small amount of traffic on the roads. He remembered taking Kurt to see RENT. That should have been their first date. No time would have been wasted that way, but the timing wasn't right then. At that time Kurt needed a friend, a confident. Or maybe Blaine needed that. It just took him a while to learn you can be both at the same time; friend, boyfriend, confident, it could all work as one relationship.
"I don't think I have thanked you yet" Kurt spoke softly breaking Blaine of his thoughts.
"For what?" He asked confused what Kurt was referring to.
"For always being there for me. Not even just now with my recovery, but also with helping me with Karofsky. I really don't know where I would be without you, and I know it's not something you like hearing but I was so lonely before I met you," Kurt answered honestly.
"I was lonely too Kurt. I kind of lost myself at Dalton. I fell into their mold, trying to hide from something," Blaine confessed, "but then I found you or you found me and helped me find myself. … That sounded so dumb," Blaine laughed at himself shaking his head, not taking his eyes away from the road.
"No … I get it." Kurt reassured reaching over and giving Blaine's forearm a reassuring squeeze.
"So I was thinking before the show we could grab a bite to eat. I know you're supposed to be on a diet but David told me about this diner a block away from the theater that has authentic New York style cheesecake?" Blaine half asked half stated as he parked the car in a lot next to the theater.
"I'm sure if you shared it with me, one slice of cheesecake wouldn't kill me." Kurt responded, almost bouncing in his seat with excitement.
They walked closely together, close enough to be touching, but not holding hands. He knew he couldn't push the PDA because even though it was a theater it was still Ohio and people still weren't all tolerant of it. Blaine was grateful no one seemed to even glance their way or bat an eyelash at them, but he still had to be careful.
The diner seemed to be semi crowded, but not so much that they had to wait for a seat. Kurt ordered a small side salad, with oil and vinegar on the side. Blaine ordered the Italian wedding soup, even though Kurt told him not to order healthy because of him. Blaine reassured him that the soup was delicious and it was the one thing his mom could not make. Blaine also made sure to order a special slice of cheesecake for Kurt as their dessert.
They caught up on mundane things about Dalton and The Warblers, stuff like what Wes was planning for regionals and what David dumb things David said to his girlfriend. Blaine embarrassingly mentioned how much he has been distracted thinking about Kurt lately, which caused both of them to blush brightly.
Kurt caught Blaine up on what he found out about Finn and The New Directions.
"I can't believe he was jealous of me." Blaine lightly laughed.
"I can't believe he liked spending time with me after the lamp incident I kind of just thought he only did it cause my dad asked or something" Kurt attempted to joke.
"Who wouldn't enjoy hanging out with you? You're the best person I know." Blaine exclaimed with a tone of seriousness.
Kurt blushed and shrugged picked a little at the cheesecake but not taking a bite. "I'm not exactly popular at Mckinely …" Kurt responded with a sad smile.
Blaine felt heavy that Kurt still thought of himself that way, he was amazing and he should know that. "Yeah well it's obviously something in the water because everyone at Dalton thinks you're amazing," He said with finality, leaving no room for argument as he scooped off a bite of cheesecake and attempting to feed it to Kurt, who rolled his eyes but took it.
When the check came Blaine immediately took it not allowing Kurt to even glance for it.
"Kurt, it's date so I'm paying." Blaine argued as pulled out his wallet, calculating the proper tip.
"Fine, but I technically asked you so I get to pay for the next date." Kurt insisted.
Blaine paused looking up, not sure if he heard Kurt correctly. "There's going to be another date?" He asked breathlessly.
"I was hoping there would be" Kurt shrugged suddenly looking self-conscious as he began to fidget in his seat.
"I would love that," Blaine beamed reaching across the table to give Kurt's hand a squeeze. They stayed like that until the waitress came back and cleared her throat silently asking them to pay the check. Blaine blushed and decided to leave a little more then twenty percent as the tip to make up for it.
They walked back to the theater arm in arm; Blaine silently hoped it wouldn't be as obvious as hand in hand. Again no one seemed to give them much attention. When they got to the theater Blaine picked up the tickets at the box office before finally taking Kurt's hand in his and walking them both to their seats. He held Kurt's hand the entire time they were at the theater and it felt so amazing Blaine wondered why he hadn't noticed it before. During the show he took the risk to sit shoulder to shoulder, glancing at Kurt to silently ask if it was okay. In response Kurt leaned further in pulling Blaine's arm around him. With Kurt there he was able to forgot about everyone around them. At intermission they awkwardly pulled away, both still new at this and feeling somewhat exposed when the house lights came up, but as soon as the show restarted they drifted back to the way they were before.
When the show was over they walked back to the car, this time not holding hands or even standing close, there were too many people around and Blaine still wanted to be safe. Blaine's hand and arm suddenly felt empty without Kurt and his instantly wished it would have been safe enough for them to walk like this at night. When they got to the car he made sure to open the car door again for Kurt.
"Please forgive me but I have to ask," Kurt apologized before continuing, "was it like this with Jeremiah?"
Blaine's expression must have been comical because Kurt instantly had to suppress his laugh. "Don't compare yourself to him, because it isn't even a competition. Jeremiah wanted to be nothing more than friend's with benefits. I blew the whole thing way out of proportion." Blaine confessed with a serious tone. "He would never go anywhere this public and he wasn't much of a cuddlier either. You were right that he didn't want to be seen in public with me, or that he even told anyone about us. I was stupid for believing it was something different and more serious."
"Blaine I'm sorry that he did that to you, but you're not stupid for being a romantic. I would have done the same thing … I kind of did with you" He mumbled the last part, embarrassed.
"I'm terrible at romance, as you have witnessed." Blaine laughed.
"I think you did pretty well tonight," Kurt complimented overcoming his embarrassment.
"Thank you, and you didn't blow it out of proportion. Some of the other guys thought the same thing you did. I wasn't fair to you and what's worse I didn't even notice how I was leading you on. It was wrong for me to do that to you Kurt" Blaine apologized; hoping Kurt didn't read his guilt the wrong way.
Kurt was quiet for a moment, at first Blaine thought it was in a bad way, but when he glanced over Kurt was giving him an adoring look.
"Maybe part of you always liked me and the rest of you just needed to catch up."
"That sounds about right." Blaine answered as he parked the car in front of Kurt's house. "Can I walk you to the door?"
"I would like that" Kurt replied with a soft smile.
For the last time tonight Blaine ran around the car to open the passenger door. He held his hand as they walked up to the porch. He didn't want the night to end.
"I had a great time tonight, thank you for the date." Kurt spoke softly.
"Thank you for letting me take you on a date" Blaine responded his voice filled with fondness and honesty. He looked at Kurt a moment longer, long enough to make him blush and look away. "Kurt…" he started, hoping he had enough courage to follow through.
"Yeah?" Kurt breathed looking back at Blaine.
"Can I? I mean I would really like to" Blaine stuttered until Kurt cut him off with a kiss. Without any more hesitation Blaine began to kiss Kurt back, placing a hand on his soft cheek. He pulled away, reluctantly … breathlessly. Kissing Kurt was a feeling he could not describe.
"Wow" Kurt whispered.
"Yeah," Blaine responded just as quietly and breathless.
"I should go inside" Kurt finally said after another moment.
"Call me tomorrow?" Blaine requested.
"I will" Kurt promised lingering in front of the door another moment before finally heading inside.
As Blaine walked to the car he heard the front door open and Kurt call his name. He turned around and suddenly had an armful of Kurt.
"Just one more kiss and then I really have to go inside," Kurt beamed. Blaine laughed but gladly fulfilled his request.
"Tomorrow?" he breathed as they pulled away from each other again.
"Tomorrow and as long as you'll have me" Kurt answered brightly.
Blaine would have Kurt with him for all eternity if Kurt allowed, but he kept that to himself deciding to take their new relationship on step at a time.