A/N; Here's the next chapter! Read and enjoy! ^^
Day 4
6;35 pm
I'm communicating with other people again, but that's not helping my inner turmoil and here's what the turmoil is; I'm starting to lose any and all hope for curing Kevin. I absolutely hate thinking that we might not be able to save him, but as the days roll by there's still no sign of him. I figure if he wanted to come back he would've already, so why hasn't he come back yet? I'm starting to get very angry at him and also I'm getting angry at myself for being angry at him. It's a very complicated situation, and I don't know how to fix.
It's almost like the last time his DNA was changed, minus the part about being crazy and him leaving us. Gwen's trying to find a cure for him in her spell books and the others are trying to help her. Well the others minus me, right now I'm trying to focus on finding him. Once I find him, then I'll worry about fixing him. And if I can't… I don't want to think about what I have to do stop him.
'Kill' is not a word I want to use to describe this situation, neither is 'murder' or any other word of that nature. But if it starts to looks like that's what I have to do, if Kevin becomes a danger to himself and to others, I'm afraid that that's what I'll have to do.
I feel like I'm doing this more for myself than I am for other people, though helping people is my main intention. I'm afraid that he'll come after me again like he did when we were kids. This is more on the inside, because on the outside I don't show anything as much as I would like. I'm afraid that I'll wake up and he'll be standing over me, getting ready to kill me. I am so afraid, but I try not to show it.
I try to put on a brave face for my team, but that's not me speaking to them and giving words of confidence. How can I convince them that everything will be alright and Kevin will come back to us, when I don't even know myself? I don't know. I just don't know.
Write more later.
Ben T.
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