A/N: Yeah I realize I haven't written this story in a long while but I think that I should finish what I've started.
Disclaimer: I own nothing.
2:41 pm
Day 9
So, I did talk to Julie yesterday. It turns out that she had a lot to say about my situation. I was kind of surprised that she had a lot to say but then again, she takes AP Psych. I should have expected it.
She said that my anger at the situation with Kevin was one of the stages in the grieving process and that I seemed to be stuck in it. Julie also said that me snapping at everyone is a result of that anger and that I need a better outlet. She recommended writing in this diary a lot more. I guess I could follow that advice.
What followed was the advice that I also need to start talking to people about how I feel. In my opinion it's easier said than done. I've never had the best time talking to anyone that isn't Julie or my Grandpa Max. Everyone else just shuts me down, saying that I'm being ridiculous. That includes Gwen and my parents. That included Kevin.
So, I guess I'll be talking to Julie more often. Maybe that will help me with my anger. And writing in this diary more will help me too. But...it won't solve my Kevin problem.
I honestly don't want to kill him. He's my friend, my brother. But I don't really see any other way to fix this. I know Gwen's trying really hard and that she's furious with me for being so stubborn about this whole situation but she doesn't really understand what position this is putting me in.
She doesn't understand that I miss Kevin too, that I don't want to kill him. But I have no other choice.
Ben T.
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~Ellie~