From the agonies we are feeling at how the characters aren't receiving the fuels they deserve to truly shine through that whole WORLD KILLER scenario….I had a thought upon a song. (Takes place in Season 3)
A song, some may know.
A song that really just brought this to life for me.
*To the Greatest Showman* that was oh so beautiful….I borrowed this…
The gaze along the city seemed informal than usual and it brought a slight cold tremble through the already trembling woman. Her green eyes shook with sorrow, with anger, with loss, with pain, with oh so much. Her hands gripping her veranda balcony tightened around the metal as her entire body coursed with emotion and with the tears she bit the inside of her cheek hard drawing blood to keep at bay and with it came that metallic taste. It was for the best….
"Wasn't it?" Lena shivered bowing her head shutting those eyes so full of far too much as the tears slowly trailed down her face.
"You know I want you…
It's not a secret I try to hide…"
"This….wretched….cursed….secret…" The blonde slowly slipped the emblem from her body and the suit that held so much yet brought too much. The battles had been minimal but it was enough to drag her down with tattered thoughts once more. It took everything in Kara to trudge to the shower leaving the pile a path behind her hanging her head in both shame and rage. It had only been a week…
"I know you want me,
So don't keep saying our hands are tied…"
As the water struck her shuttering body eyes of cerulean blue finally etched open only to hold all the pain and fears when the words had stumbled from her mouth…
"I can't take it Alex…." Kara sobbed on the couch of her sister's place a fumbling wreck clenching to the tissue box shrinking by her grip and pressure. "She hates me….."
"Hey, she doesn't hate YOU."
"She hates Supergirl….she hates everything to do with the symbol I bare Alex!" Kara cried as she tossed the crumpled box across the room as it hit the wall with hard thud from Super reflexes.
"She doesn't hate Supergirl."
"She doesn't TRUST her!" Kara countered turning her watery wide eyes to her sister. "She has all right not to! Her BEST friend is a lying coward and unleashed wrath on her versus offering help! Then RAN off with her ex boyfriend to…"
"To save Sam! To RID us ALL of Reign!" Alex hollered back. "Lena doesn't want to lose anyone else Kara! She may be angry yes but she had something that could kill you!" Neither had noticed that when they had closed the door it hadn't shut all the way.
"What?" Both Danvers sisters turned around quickly and felt their bodies tense and eyes widen jaws slipping open.
"You claim it's not in the cards
But fate is pulling you miles away
And out of reach from me…."
"Lena…" Kara scrambled from the couch at super speed but it wasn't enough as the woman backed up and ran from her. " Lena wait!" The blonde knew if she rushed and grabbed her it could make it worse so she switched to human speed then as tears raked down her face, unknowing they were pouring down the Luthor's.
"You LIED to me! You KEPT it fro…..from me!" She spat out and struggled not to collapse as she got to the elevator feeling her legs threatening to buckle. Then arms were around her body trying to hold her up and she was fighting those arms the warmth that scent. She felt her vision spotting from the exhaustion of trials to heal Sam, of the anger she had pent up, of the person she had gone to see to find some…..light with. Now…..it was all gone upon the realization. Lena thought back to last year. The words Kara had spoke to her..
"You don't have to be afraid. I'm right here. And I'm not going anywhere."
"Promise?"
"I will ALWAYS be your friend and I will ALWAYS protect you. I promise.."
"But you're here in my heart…"
The agony in how the woman whom she'd grown so extremely close to yet held so much back with had scrambled away almost in fear rather than betrayal….it had broken the superhero and Kara didn't FEEL so very Super anymore. Putting her head under the water she pressed her face into the tiles of the shower letting the water she couldn't even feel from how numb she had become, as she just let her body sag against the wall slowly slipping down only for her to slightly turn to curl up and shatter into a thousand pieces as tears slid down her cheeks reigniting the pain so very real in her.
It had just came out and the screams in her soundproof vault of her lab lined with lead hadn't given enough to ease the pain rattling through the angered Luthor. She'd rushed home grabbed a bag, loaded it up including the gun and knife in her dresser drawer snatching her bulletproof vest and ran for her garage to throw the bag into the passenger side leaving a text for her usual driver to take the next two days off speeding through the streets uncaring if she ran reds as the agonizing betrayal had left her in shambles. She went straight for her lab ignoring the laughter and mocking of Reign still trapped by her box, going to the room she'd used to test out new weapons NO one had known about, not even the DEO. Tossing the bag she had brought in there and securing the door closed with lock by her hand print she just unleashed all her fury her pain her loss into gut wrenching screams….and wondered oddly if even in a sound proof vault, if Reign could hear her.
"So who can stop me if I decide,
That you're my destiny…."
Lex had been right and suddenly that thought occurred to the woman whom had ran out of tears out of anger and slid to the corner of the room spent of everything and feeling oh so empty and numb. He had said it….
"A Super and a Luthor could NEVER work!" How true, Lena felt, those words were then.
"What if we rewrite the stars?"
The soft silk touch of her fingers sliding into her open hand brought a warmth her Kryptonian body could never muster and with the hand in hers their digits intertwined bringing both their hearts thundering together.
"Say you were made to be mine.
Nothing could keep us apart,
You were the one I was meant to find…."
Then the smoothest of lips were over her own and a hand firm against her lower back held her even closer. Her eyes of cerulean filled with stars and reflected the ones in the orbs of green. Then both sets of eyes closed and a kiss so tender became an explosive set of feelings and passion needing to be expressed…
"It's up to you, and it's up to me,
No one can say what we get to be…
So why don't we rewrite the stars?
Maybe the world could be ours…
Tonight.."
Neither knew that both had dreamed of the other, yet….what would it matter? It's all Lena thought as she lifted her head in that soundproof room to a beeping of an intruder on the premises. Swallowing down the pity party she'd wallowed in and collapsed to she stood shakily and stumbled to the door to the side typing in on the screen only to notice a cape in the camera's gaze. Green eyes tried to harden but instead softened some. Lena wasn't a fool but she wasn't going to cave. She missed her dearly, but it was far too late. So she reached in her pocket and pulled out her phone, thinking of what to text but she knew EXACTLY what would be perfect and well versed to express it all.
The Luthor thought back to a few months ago, before the World Killers. Her best friend had been bugging her about seeing more musicals and Lena had rolled her eyes at the blonde whom was devouring yet another potsticker mumbling about how happy they make her. Then she had done a little search and got a huge smirk that her friend had stopped munching to stare at her.
"What?"
"I have something….I'm willing to give a try…"
Now...it was fitting and even though all they had ever been was friends, Lena had known that perhaps once...she had wished for more. That had died when she found out Mon-El was back. Then she found hope finding that he was married, and even her friend Sam had egged her on to flirt with the blonde. Lena's response had been the time she sent a whole office full of expensive flowers to the woman. Sam had teased her. But now?
The Luthor steadied her shaking hand, and steeled her green gaze that practically burned with what had to be done. So she fired off a text:
"'You think it's easy?
You think I don't want to run to you?
But there are mountains,
And there are doors that we can't walk through..
I know you're wondering why
Because we're able to be
Just you and me, within these walls..
But when WE go outside,
You're going to wake up and see that it was hopeless after all!'"
Even in the suit that now she hated more than what she had done, more than what pain she had caused everyone close to her she stood to speak what she needed to before it was too late. Kara hadn't expected her phone to buzz and instantly pulled it out of the secret pocket gazing at what was sent staring at the screen as tears trickled down the sides of her face. Those broken cerulean blues glanced up with the pain of a thousand planets and heard a buzz from the speaker. Kara knew what was coming.
"No one can rewrite the stars…" Lena pressed on the speaker button holding it down as tears leaked down her face too. "How can you say…."
"Stop Lena…" Kara pleaded, trembles in her voice.
"Everything keeps us apart…..I'm not the one you were meant to find.."
"Please…..stop!" The blonde sobbed nowhere nears the powerful Kryptonian wearing a suit of nobility before such a screwed up technical eye.
"It's not up to you..it's not up….to...me…." Lena heard the pained sobs of her friend of the woman that despite the secret, had RISKED everything for her time and time again. Then her heart slammed her with realization….
The first meet…
The rescue and first gaze at the hero
The second rescue.
The first interview and meal…..
The thank yous…
The…..
The chaotic moment for them both when the chemicals threatened to toxify everything. It was then the Luthor's eyes widened with that thought…
"I can't hold both!" Supergirl screamed as her gaze fell on the rattled barely injured Luthor.
"Save the chemicals, not me!"
"NO, I'm not gonna drop you!" The struggle the blonde had endured as she screamed that to the woman whose life was on the line.
"Let me go!" Lena had pleaded feeling that for once, just once she could do ONE thing right and not be seen by the last name that cursed her, willing to sacrifice her own existence...for everything and everyone.
"NO!..." Kara had shouted at her with all the defiance she could muster even under her tiring grip on both pieces of the structure. And then their gazes had been split apart as the blonde superhero had turned to view what just might save the woman that SHE would give all of herself...to save. "CLIMB LENA….CLIMB!" The conviction in the demand the plea the hope brought a new fire to the woman whom understood what was spoken of her.
"All I want is to fly with you,
All I want is to fall with you…
So just give me all of you…..
It feels impossible
It's not impossible,
Is it impossible?
Say that it's possible!..."
"KARA!" Lena howled as she slammed her palm on the reader and unlocked the door to stumble out from pure exhaustion from shock from pain from everything still bubbling up in the heart the blonde angel had melted the ice away from. She made her way with everything left in her toward the elevator away from the mockery of the Kryptonian devil trapping her friend's body as she slammed the button and knew she didn't have much time hitting the garage button as the doors closed.
Her once so powerful body was upon her knees glancing up at the night sky with tears still pouring from her eyes and it was then Kara knew what had to be done. Summoning her heat vision she felt her body starting to float up as her sobs and cries became wails and screams as she shot her power into the abyss of the sky unleashing her furies her pain her torment uncaring at what it was causing as she heard her sister screaming DON'T in her ear and knew most likely Alex was tracking her and the DEO was on its way. She felt her body raising a little more and more off the ground uncaring at whom saw at what would happen as her agonizing screams filled the air unaware that the Luthor was running outside screaming at her to stop.
"KARA!" Lena tried again then once more and heard the sound of a bike approaching watching as the agent started to dash over as quickly as she could. "KARA! KARA PLEASE! KARA DON'T!"
"KARA! SUPERGIRL!" Alex shouted with all of the vocals she could but both watched in terror as the blonde lifted up a little too far and the screams that had poured from her body left her drained and the last of the heat vision slipped away sending darkness around the broken woman's body whose head dropped back as she fell from the night sky. Both women were screaming and the agent hoped, prayed, and chanted Kryptonian prayers running toward where her sister's body was colliding and used her suit to leap up arms outstretched only to barely catch the empty Super. Lena collapsed to where Alex was carefully lowering her to the ground as both gasped as something slipped from the woman's fingers and it wasn't until the black crystal dropped from Kara's grip did they realize what the woman they were cradling had chosen.
"How can we rewrite the stars….
Say that the world can be ours…
You know that I want you,
It's not a secret I try to hide….
But I can't have you,
We're bound to break and...our hands….are tied…..."