I breathed deep still internalizing. I continued to think about how Dylan would confront me about my actions. But I will opt to ignore him still until he finally decides to walk away. But I would've stopped him before I lose him, and finally tell him about what I feel.

I smiled. Finally finding Shancai's feelings. But, I'm also bewildered by the imoact it has on me. I glanced at Dylan as if seeing him in a new light. I saw his eyes contorted in concentration, really doing his best to bring out Ah Si. I was fascinated by the lines of his nose, his mouth, his jaw and the way he drummed his fingers on the rail.

He suddenly glanced back at me. I looked away as if I got caught doing a bad thing. Uh oh. Is it normal to check out your buddy?

We resumed filming after the break. I was slightly puzzled but I already got the hang of Shancai's emotions. We were at the part when they will hug each other.

Dylan pulled me and hugged me so tight for the scene. And again, my heart thudded so fast. F~ck. This is bad. I schooled my features, trying hard to act as Shancai. But deep inside me is a raging internal battle. I, Shen Yue seemed to have walked pass the barricade of Friendship lane. I am so freaking dead.

We were finally able to finish filming for the day. The crew wrapped up and I silently left the set while Dylan was still discussing something with Ms. Angie. I ran back towards my hotel room then messaged my manager.

Hi jie. I'll be sleeping in, please don't wake me for dinner. I'm not really feeling well.

Okay Yue. Rest well, drink the flu medicine that I stocked on your bag. I'll just notify the kitchen stafg to bring you some soup later.

Thanks jie.

I washed up then went straight to bed. You are an idiot Yue. Why? Why do you have to like him? Your buddy of all people. I turned to my side then saw his hoodie. I brought it closer to me then hugged it to my chest, imagining him beside me. I smelled it loving his scent, calming my frayed nerves.

So this was the reason I kept the hoodie with me. I should've been careful. I wasn't suppose to give meaning to any of his actions. But our characters' situation awhile ago made me realize it all. The truth was thrown straight to my face. I LIKE DYLAN WANG. It felt reeling to admit it, but I know this isn't right. So I pushed back the feelings inside my heart.

I have to distance myself a bit from him. For now. Just until I figure this all out. But I know it's an impossible thing to do, since we're an on-screen couple. I placed a pillow on my mouth as I screamed my frustration out. Hoping that by tomorrow I'll just treat it like a part of my dream. But whetever wishes I made seemed to be blocked by my reality.

I heard a quiet knock after a few minutes. I tiptoed towards my door. If it was Dylan, I had to make it appear like I was sleeping.

I carefully checked the peephole, sure enough it was him. I leaned on the wall waiting for him to go away.

"Yue? Are you awake? I heard you weren't feeling well. I brought you some medicines." He said and knocked again.

I had to answer the door one way or another. I know him, he won't be going away unless he sees me. He'll surely end up calling me nonstop. I turned the lights off instead then placed the lock chain of the door to minimize the opening.

I messed up my hair then opened the door.

"Dy, Sorry I wasn't feeling well. I have a headache so I went up ahead of you." I tried to sound weak.

I saw him trying to take a peak at me on the small opening. He squinted but failed to see me.

"Why are the lights off?"

"It's hurting my head even more." I said.

"Oh. Well I have some cold and pain meds here. Drink this okay?" He said.

I was on the verge of crying, him doing this makes me like him more. I can't do this right now.

"Okay." I said and sniffed.

"Are you crying?"

"No I think I caught a cold." I lied to him.

"Tsk. That's why I told you to pop some cold meds last night. Why wouldn't you listen? Can you open the door wider? I need to make sure you're alright." He said.

"I'm okay Dy. I don't want you to catch my cold. Just leave it in the door knob, I'll pick it up." I requested.

He sighed and I heard the rustle of plastic. I stucked out my hand out to grab it when I felt his hand on mine, he gave it a squeeze, then rubbed it in between his hands. My heart leaped at his touch. It's really way different now. This never happened before.

"Feel better Yue. Those are my cold meds, its quite strong but it'll really help. There's also some soup, have some first before drinking the medicine." He added.

"Thank you Dy. Goodnight." I told him, pulling my hand from his and grabbing the plastic.

"I'll just take back the hoodie once you get better. You can wear it if you like." He told me.

"Okay." I replied.

"Goodnight Yue." He said. I closed the door. He sighed and I heard the sound of his footsteps as he walked away.

I felt bad for lying to him, especially when he did so much. He really knows how to take care of the people around him. He fools around but he cares just as much.

I checked the contents of the plastic. There were cold meds just like he said, some soup, my favorite cookies and a tumbler." Tears fell from my eyes knowing the tumbler has warm water in it.

He keeps tabs of the things that I like, even the mundane ones. Oh Dylan, why does he have to be this way? If only he was a bit clueless, if only he was a bit more annoying. I wouldn't have develop any feelings. But the greatest is if only he wasn't my friend, but if he wasn't my friend then I wouldn't have met him in the first place. And if I haven't met him, then I wouldn't have known the beautiful person that he is. It's a neverending cycle that ends with me falling for him.

I sighed then decided to eat the soup and the cookies that he brought me. There was a note pasted on top of the cold meds.

Drink me. You'll feel better in the morning.

I smiled at the note.

I had to wrap my head around this new revelation of my feelings for him. Tomorrow, I will try my best to revert back on buddy lane. To be the Yue that is Dylan's buddy. For tonight, I will like him with all of my heart.

That night I wore his hoodie to sleep. I kept telling myself that I'm his friend. It's okay that I like him, because infatuation fades away with time. But friendship lasts forever.

I woke up once again to the ringing of my phone. And once more, the caller is Dylan. I think he had personally assigned himself as my designated alarm clock. I rubbed the sleepiness off my face and answered.

"Hello?"

"Wakey wakey Yue! How are you feeling?"

I looked at the clock, 8am. At least his voice was subdued this time.

"I actually feel better. Just sleepy. Thanks Dy!" I didn't drink the medicine but I researched about its effects. Just so I can pretend in front of him. All the lies are piling up now.

"Told you it's quite strong. Are you better enough to go down for breakfast? Or do you want me to bring you some food instead?" He asked.

"No need Dy. I'll go down there. I just need to freshen up." I answered.

"Copy that. Take it easy okay?" He said.

"Yep. Bye."

"Byebye."

When the elevators opened, Dylan was there waiting for me at the lobby. I went out and he immediately leaned towards me, checking if I was really okay. I stomped at his foot.

"Ow! You really are fine now judging by the strength of your kick." He groaned in pain.

"I told you I am fine, Dy."

"Well I wasn't able to see you last night. I just wanted to make sure." He explained. He grabbed my arm and led me to the same table we had yesterday.

We were almost finished eating when I remembered his hoodie.

"Hey Dy, I had your hoodie washed. I actually wore it last night. I might have transferred my virus. So just to be sure, I asked the housekeeping to wash it for me."

I lied to him again. It's the only thing I have of him right now. And since I'm still figuring out what to do with this feelings, I wanted to keep it asbclose to me as possible. No matter how selfish that choice may be.

"That's okay. I told you, you can use it for the mean time. But that's really important to me so please take care of it." He muttered. I nodded and smiled at him guiltily. Sorry Dylan.

"Hey do you know what scene were supposed to film later?" He asked.

"I think it's the one from Daoming si's birthday scene. Probably the one in the rooftop since it'll be filmed late at night." I answered.

Time for me to test my promise to stay in buddy lane. Jiayou Yue!